I listen literally every day, such a banger

everyone saying this is a banger has major depression on that note this is a bangrr

Featuring @sendflowrs
Produced by Carlby & @horoshavibes
Guitars by Lavender_Txwn (@user-757072975)

LYRICS
Don't know how much more I can take
You've got a way with words
You always get your way

And when you talk down to me
I don't talk back
Always playing defense
Now I'm on the attack

Said it before and I'll say it again
I don't like myself when I'm like this
I was down bad
Now Im feeling better
I'm not that same sad boy you remember

So we are never getting back together
I'm my own man now
I don't need to be tethered
I'ma show you how to keep your cool under pressure
I won't let you hold me down forever

(sendflowrs)
Hold me down forever
Trying to keep it cool while I'm under pressure
Yeah its now or never
Kiss me, or don't
I don't care
whatever

I been runnin' runnin' runnin' from my problems
I've been loving loving loving all this time you give me 
Smokin' way too much yeah just to solve 'em
And you pussies ain't a hundred yeah you barely fifty

Listen on Spotify!

I Don't Like Myself When I'm Like This w/ sendflowrs (Prod. w/ Lavender_Txwn)

spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/track/4fv8YRo7BYXrjDWAf5QSAy?si=ca7163aff2b04300

artists:
https://soundcloud.com/onlyfriendyeah
https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt

prod. joe tedesco

lyrics:
it's unbearable
just got back from the bar an i'm f*cking miserable
cold and sober in the dark

my mind keeps racing
i grieve in stages
and i can't change how
ur sleeping fine in someone else's bed
head on someone else's chest
i can't bear to know the rest
so let me rest
in pieces

i'm just tryna rest in peace so well
i don't rly need ur f*ckin help
so just stop callin me
i'm just tryna kick it in hell

sayin that u love me idk if u mean that
keep lookin at the photos i should prolly delete that
you never really loved me i dunno why you said that
must've been easy broke my heart over snapchat
it's almost funny how u act so fine
post a couple pictures of his bed online

my mind keep racing
i break in stages
you don't even care of the timing
take a couple shots as i scroll thru ur ig

my mind keeps racing
i grieve in stages
and i can't change how
ur sleeping fine in someone else's bed
head on someone else's chest
i can't bear to know the rest
so let me rest

my mind keeps racing
i grieve in stages
and i can't change how
ur sleeping fine in someone else's bed
head on someone else's chest
i can't bear to know the rest
so let me rest

onlyfriend - let me rest (ft. skele) [prod. joe tedesco]

featuring @swiiif & @prodimmortal
produced by @prodimmortal
engineered by @marcdoesmusic
link to all services: https://ffm.to/mvobadluck

LYRICS:

(Immortal don't be playin' with 'em)

Fucked this up and I lost your trust
Won't back up cause it's just my luck
Lost that love when I lost your trust
And I can't back up cause it's all bad luck
And I lost my head when I let you go
And I can't go back cause I lost control
Fucked this up and I lost your trust
Fall back down cause it's all bad luck

I don't wanna fuck around no more
Feel so uncontrollable
Fuck me up and I can't let go
See your face everywhere I go
I don't wanna lie no more
I don't wanna cry no more
Call me toxic, yeah I know
I don't wanna feel like this no more
I feel like this every night
Wish you'd die within my mind
Still pretend that I'll be fine
Still can't get you out my mind

Fucked this up and I lost your trust
Won't back up cause it's just my luck
Lost that love when I lost your trust
And I can't back up cause it's all bad luck
And I lost my head when I let you go
And I can't go back cause I lost control
Fucked this up and I lost your trust
Fall back down cause it's all bad luck

I gave her lust,
I self-destruct
Not good enough,
I fuck things up (whoa)
You’re always the last thing on my mind
And I can’t take these sleepless nights
Searching for something that I can’t find
Demons chasing me inside
Wish I knew from time to time
You thought of me back by your side (yuh)

Fucked this up and I lost your trust
Won't back up cause it's just my luck
Lost that love when I lost your trust
And I can't back up cause it's all bad luck
And I lost my head when I let you go
And I can't go back cause I lost control
Fucked this up and I lost your trust
Fall back down cause it's all bad luck
(whoa, whoa)

©2022 TMM Entertainment

bad luck (feat. swiiif & immortal)

@shikixo
@lilskeleskrrt
prod. me

lyrics:
i could afford the lack of goodbye
i could afford the cheap seat at the back of the plane
i could afford the cab fair into the city
i could bear the concerned looks
the weights sewn into my pockets
the blazing sun
i have weight enough to jump
to fall
to sink
and never be seen again 

and i called you for what i thought was the last time
and when you said you loved me god, i swear i almost cried
and i can hear you screaming, see your shadow in the halls
i’m terrified to sink, but i’d do anything to fall 

and i keep jumping off of bridges in my dreams
your shadow follows me everywhere, you rip me at the seams
and i’ve been writing letters that i hope you never read
but maybe one day you’ll come back and i can get some sleep
and i’ll keep jumping off of bridges til the water’s like your arms
too safe to come back to, but there’s comfort in the dark

and i called you to hear your voice, i love the sound
i wanna say i love you but, god i swear i don’t know how
and i fell down again i know exactly what you want
cuts right through my skin i know you love to see my blood

take some time out, i thought you were everything i’m not
love i’m sorry, you thought i was pretty but i’m not
and i, i’ve been holding your heart while you’ve been breaking apart mine
the whole time, i know it’s not what you want but i just wish that you were mine

and i called you for what i thought was the last time
and when you said you loved me, god, i swear i almost cried…

i keep jumping off of bridges w/ skele

produced by Furyl@EVOMUSIC

mh
mh
i gotta put in work
i dont know what i did
to make you even hurt
mh 
mh
i know im sorry
i was just tryna party
but i guess its overdue
its over
guess its overdue
i wish i knew you
is this the new you?
and yeah, im over you
thanks for asking boo
thanks for asking
thanks for asking
☆
i was always better under her control
i was tryna learn how to be alright
be alright..
☆
yeah..
this gon be the last time that you ever talk to me
i know how to see right thru all of the screens
i taught myself how to back up when i need to
i taught myself how to love again cause i need to
to be alright
☆
mh
mh
i gotta put in work
i dont know what i did
to make you even hurt
mh 
mh
i know im sorry
i was just tryna party
but i guess its overdue
its over
guess its overdue
i wish i knew you
is this the new you?
and yeah, im over you
thanks for asking boo
thanks for asking
thanks for asking
☆
thanks for asking, i guess
but i dont wanna digest
the food heals my stomach
but the music heals my soul
ill just keep it quiet 
cause i dont want them to know
be alright..
☆
this gon be the last time that you ever talk to me
i know how to see right thru all of the screens
i taught myself how to back up when i need to
i taught myself how to love again cause i need to
(i need to!)
(i need to..)
(i need to, yeah)
(i need to </3)
☆
mh
mh
i gotta put in work
i dont know what i did
to make you even hurt
mh 
mh
i know im sorry
i was just tryna party
but i guess its overdue
its over
guess its overdue
i wish i knew you
is this the new you?
and yeah, im over you
thanks for asking boo
thanks for asking
thanks for asking

i was always better under her control
i was tryna learn how to be alright
be alright..

how to love again

[emptychest]
cold green eyes
yeh
yeh
pop out
i said pop out
FTP when this shit goes to rot down
yeh
yeh
hot now 
im on now
aint nothin i aint seen but my god now
fell in love but im right back at home now
scared to call, wont survive if i dont now

cold green eyes
hypnotize her soul
whats outside..?
they let them know

[LOVENude]
ok like top me now
your in my fucking town
i do not want to talk to you baby i need u now 
youve been so lost inside my head i really get it now
i had to sought around i drive away to crash it out

and i take drugs baby
and i just like to numb the pain because im so crazy
and i do not just like to talk to you so crazy
you are just like a stranger 
get in danger
i just need to the pain im movin thru 

pain in my sanity it never goes away 
im lost lost ion like to talk im movin to another day
she been in my head she like a stranger not another day
illucidated ive been so damn crazy need a fucking place to stay

but im so upset
i cannot loose you
and i dont want to walk alone

so baby hold my hand
were almost there
i keep on talking to you your a stanger in advanced
we hop inside the ride and ride away so we can dance
i wanna find a place with u and
die slowy with you

but i dont know what to do
ive been gone i found the truth 
shes fucking with another guy oh man what a suprise

scared2call +LOVENude [p. lxst ghxul]

+spotify soon+

i know i’m always overthinking, love 
but what can be done?
i was sedated when you broke my trust
you say it’s my condition and- 
but i don’t give a fuck
these constant comparisons turn me to dust
so tell me all about him
do you laugh hard when around him?
do these shackles that i’m bound in make you think that i’m not enough? 
im pathetic
but you wouldn’t get it
that's tough
it’s AvPD but i blame it on luck

can’t take drugs cause anxiety kills me
go smoke spliffs with your friends 
envy fills me
i am sorry for how i am ugly
in your shadow i sulk
i’m nobody
i self isolate for days 
now i cant get out of bed without crying
draining all my veins out is the way i talk to the reaper without dying

i know i’m always overthinking, love 
but what can be done?
i was sedated when you broke my trust
you say it’s my condition and- 
but i don’t give a fuck
these constant comparisons turn me to dust
so tell me all about him
do you laugh hard when around him?
do these shackles that i’m bound in make you think that i’m not enough? 
im pathetic
but you wouldn’t get it
that's tough
it’s AvPD but i blame it on luck

medical exam fetishist

ty for listening w/ @saikyu <3 
prod@user-221968777 & guitar by @ryini
 
// lyrics i 
// saikyu 
i've been lost
i've been lost
i cant see a damn thing when I think 'bout you
run away, run away
i can’t be a damn thing when i'm without you
will you stay, will you stay on my mind?
'cause I cant take it if you do
go away, go away
i don't want you anymore
i want a steady view
give me something i can lie upon
give me something i can rely on
give me something i can call my own
give me something i can call my own

i keep chasing my time
and i know why, cause i’ve been lost inside
yeah lost inside
i keep facing my time
as i own my
decisions deep inside
at least I try

// geist 
i’ve been distant but you know i mean well
pretty eyes but they’re going through hell
took the time,
couldn’t sort my mind
if i leave this behind,
would you be fine

cause i swear that i’m trying
i just don’t know what to do now
it feels like i’m dying in the center of the room love
need you out of my head
and all the words you’ve said

// saikyu & geist
i keep chasing my time
and i know why, cause I've been lost inside
yeah lost inside
i keep facing my time
as i own my
decisions deep inside
at least I try

spotify

at least i try w/ saikyu [_DMaru 望む]

hope you enjoy, or something <3 :")
prod. @user-230494921 <3

𝘪 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘸, 
𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘪𝘳𝘤𝘶𝘮𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘰𝘯𝘦'𝘴 𝘣𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘩 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘳𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘷𝘢𝘯𝘵.
𝘪𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘪𝘧𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦, 
𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘦𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦.

(2x)
down on all fours, like a dog speakin' prayers
if i miss a call, it was on purpose, i swear
yellow-tainted teeth biting down into my hair
if i'm meaning what i preach
would my god even care?

she said i'm "hella right"
everything i say past three is hella right
and the night time 
welcomes me with open arms to tight bind
bright lights; everybody trusts it
i don't trust it at all
i'm terrified right now
wish i could give you a call :(

i overthink and scrap everything
i'm trapped behind these bars
that you could never see
a majority of the time
i'm disgusted by the industry
but if it's okay with you
then it's okay with me aswell

as the essence surrounds me 
and corrupts my soul
what a blinding gaze
i wish i could break it's hold
as i'm marching through a land
that is unknownst to me
i've only seen it inside of my dreams

(2x)
down on all fours, like a dog speakin' prayers
if i miss a call, it was on purpose, i swear
yellow-tainted teeth biting down into my hair
if i'm meaning what i preach
would my god even care?

purple fingers
makes these feelings linger
been staring into empty space
for way too long
caught up on what is "right"
and what is "wrong"

i thought about her
again, last night
again (3x)
last night

these thoughts give me dopa- 
dopamine
as long as i believe they're real

it always comes back to this...

would my god even care [prod. 4lexf]

liar

Featured Artist: https://soundcloud.com/itsyungvan

Prod/Mix/Master: Me

Lyrics:

She called me the other night
Says crying that shes fucking up her life
Says that she doesnt know what she wanna do
I said "girl, Im here for u"

Fast forward, 2 years, now we strangers
She found another one, he be lifting weights yea
Deleted number, thats what I am
I aint even mad, but she could explain

But still, I was never mad tho
I felt like I should but I didnt really care so
I lived my life, like she didnt exist
She may hit me up but I never miss

So yea, lets go even further
One night, phone rings but there is no name, oh
I dont even know if I wanna pick it up
3am, rejected, go back to bed

She broke my soul
She had it all
Left me with none
Feelings, now she dont even hit my phone
x4

You callled me drunk last night
told me that you’re thinking about leaving him
I guess he seems alright
but I don’t really see what you see in him
Left me for some no name who peaked in higschool 
playing home games
but now you text me acting so lame always talking bout the old days
Playing on my heart strings like a, ukalale 
only want me when you’re lonely cause you never text me daily
The only thing I fear is that you’ll leave me all allone again
Do you really mean it whhen you say you want to try again?
All my friends are telling me you’re bad for me but I don’t care
what’s the point of all the memories, if you’re not here

She broke my soul
She had it all
Left me with none
Feelings, now she dont even hit my phone
x2

Spotify/iTunes

She Don't Even Hit My Phone (feat. Yung Van)

Carlby is an alternative pop artist from the Midwest. Working alongside producer, @horoshavibes, his music is a blend of pop, emo rock and hip-hop.

Contact - carlbymusic.com/contact

I Don't Like Myself When I'm Like This w/ sendflowrs (Prod. w/ Lavender_Txwn)

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