the first single off my new ep 'learning to lose'
featuring @oni_boy
produced by @wisssery & @pekarot_161
mixed and mastered by me
i hope you enjoy <3

lyrics:
i couldn’t capitalize
on what i’d seen in ur eyes
i’d match ur porcelain smile
all while i’m dead inside
stop looking, nothing’s there
those nights are gone, i swear
i always needed more time
then wasted yours and mine
i’m always on the bright side
i’ll always tell you i’m fine
stop looking, nothing’s there
those nights are gone, i swear.

[oni boy]
everything’s is gone and now it’s missing
i swear at first you went and only got distant 
those fake smiles hiding behind some dead eyes
the smell of rotting flesh and decaying insides
so where’s the insight
so where’s clairvoyance
soothsaying futures
prepared avoidance
where’s my allowance?
the things that i’m owed?
you took it all and left my heart broken and froze
so baby what can i get back?
the living undead crawled out of the ground for attack
i swear emotions resurrected, getting zombified 
we stay evicted and vacated from those distant nights

i couldn’t capitalize
on what i’d seen in ur eyes
i’d match ur porcelain smile
all while i’m dead inside
stop looking, nothing’s there
those nights are gone, i swear
i always needed more time
then wasted yours and mine
i’m always on the bright side
i’ll always tell you i’m fine
stop looking, nothing’s there
those nights are gone, i swear.

learning to lose

stop looking, nothing's there. (ft. oni boy) [wisssery x pekarot]

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Lyrics:

okay clearly i dont think that we'll be making it thru
you got these thoughts in your mind and you dont clarify
time could expire but i'll still stay by your side
it's evident to me that you dont see what i see

i just tried to bury the hatchet but you dug my grave
embed it in my neck wont see another day
i just wanna be okay but i dont think i can
it's so strange to me how quick you found another man

[bridge]

okay clearly i dont think that we'll be making it thru
you got these thoughts in your mind and you dont clarify
time could expire but i'll still stay by your side
it's evident to me that you dont see what i see

i just tried to bury the hatchet but you dug my grave
embed it in my neck wont see another day
i just wanna be okay but i dont think i can
it's so strange to me how quick you found another ma--

[skrwd]

I see all the shit you say
I heard about him
He seems great
Bet he lays with you all day and knows exactly what to say
Pay attention to the signs
Know his hands don’t fit like mine
Might be gone inside your mind but you’re still alive in mine
I regret how I moved
Sometimes i wanna redo
No matter how hard you try
There’s just no stopping the truth
Might have a girl in the room 
But I still wish she was you
So anytime that you want
You can come thru
I been workin OT
Posted up in OC
Shawty want Chanel 
She can get it, girl you know me
Even after all this time I feel you in the late night

[getbetter]

okay clearly i dont think that we'll be making it thru
you got these thoughts in your mind and you dont clarify
time could expire but i'll still stay by your side
it's evident to me that you dont see what i see

i just tried to bury the hatchet but you dug my grave
embed it in my neck wont see another day
i just wanna be okay but i dont think i can
it's so strange to me how quick you found another man

hold me close for just a single night
time goes by as the stars change overnight
and i dont wanna be on the receiving side
i already gave too much of my life

so dont hold me down
while i try to seek out shelter
cause this life that im living it aint the same as it was
and im tryna find some shelter from the storm i know is comin

bury it ft. skrwd (branwen)

prod. @byedias

i don't feel like me today
not much is feeling okay 
these pills hurt my brain 

leave my body under rain
u can ruin my name
just please end this pain(2x)

stab me again i don't care 
in my back or my face is the same yuh
the amount of scars's insane
try to count the times ive been betreayed yeah
yeah, life's never fair
but all i can do is get faded
different strains of dona juana 
got my eyes spinnin like a fucking beyblade

i'm really about to get hollow 
got my heart filled with sorrow 
i got no hope for tomorrow 

i guess i go where the river goes
in the river with the the reefer smoke
ill hit the hay until i go ghost    

i don't feel like me today
not much is feeling okay 
these pills hurt my brain 

leave my body under rain
u can ruin my name
just please end this pain(3x)

plug_luv pt.2 (dias x savior nate litothedon)

song of the summer meet rock bottom
with my main man @ejcarrmusic
ep in two weeks !!!
enjoy <3

lyrics:
blink your eyes and it’s here
the pit of all the years
immune from any ending
think fast your stories changing
so sort through the jumbled mess
of old times and stale regrets
as long as you get
what all this truly meant

take a breath
and walk those steps
as you fear the depths
of whatever comes next

how am i meant to say goodbye
open my mouth with just one try
to let go of a person
that means more than
i could ever describe
no choice here
disappear
into anything that’s left
anything that’s left in your mind

go ahead

sometimes its on your doorstep
sometimes u take the fall
i took it on the shoulder
i lost myself in it all
and it gets hard to recognize the person that i was
i said goodbye a hundred times and never understood

the reasons beneath us
you’ll never forget how it feels
a sequence of treason
could never bend us to my will
its hard to fight the future
past tense would hardly suit us
how did i say goodbye so many times
and finally let go for good?

how am i meant to say goodbye
open my mouth with just one try
to let go of a person
that means more than
i could ever describe
no choice here
disappear
into anything that’s left
anything that’s left in your mind
its hard to fight the future
past tense would hardly suit us
how did i say goodbye so many times
and finally let go for good
bye
bye
bye
bye

go ahead, say goodbye

go ahead, say goodbye w/ evan carr [immortal]

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www.carlbymusic.com
Featuring @lil-p_nut
Production, mixing, mastering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @jolst

LYRICS
I can’t help but
Let my insecurities
Get the best of me sometimes
These thoughts still linger in my mind

Maybe she’s out with friends trying to have fun
Maybe her phone is dead
And I’m worrying too much
Or has she finally had enough

Am I so undesirable
To actually believe that she would cheat
Maybe she just fell asleep on me
I’d hate to be a rain cloud
That follows you around
Or an anchor tied up firmly to your feet
Maybe you’re better off without me

(pnut)
What you talking 'bout baby 
I’ve been going crazy in my head  
I’m sorry if I’ve been ghosting
I’ve been holding back my threads with these useless pins
‘Cause I don’t want you to know me
Shit always goes sour when we’re more than friends 
I fight that I want you to hold me 
I’d prefer to stay back where it never ends

Listen on Spotify!

Maybe She Just Fell Asleep w/ pnut (Prod. Horosha & Jolst)

featuring @decksmusic

[chorus]
she says i’m stuck but i don’t say shit
she’s had enough of conversations
she wanna leave, but i ain’t waiting
and after everything my baby’s still complaining
i’ve had enough of all this drinking
i did too much, to have you leaving
so if you leave, i ain’t complaining
cause down by cemetery ave is where i’m staying oh no no no

[verse 1]
too much on my fucking conscience
i don’t wanna leave you baby but i feel too often
it’s all about you and never me like there’s no option
you would never listen to a thing ‘til i’m a carcass, aw shit
so i hope you’re sad in august
every time it passes you’re reminded of my coffin
i’m so sick and tired of this shit, like stop your talking
these useless words ain’t stopping my body from dropping oh no no no

[verse 2 - decks]
you told me i’m better off saving breath
so i just listened as i watched our death
to know my faults was such a waste
i got high off of the chase
and every word was full of deep regret
i never thought i’d see those stars align
we were thriving within borrowed time
its hard to see you in this light
lovers acting out of spite
and like a flame once burning now is dead

[chorus]
she says i’m stuck but i don’t say shit
she’s had enough of conversations
she wanna leave, but i ain’t waiting
and after everything my baby’s still complaining
i’ve had enough of all this drinking
i did too much, to have you leaving
so if you leave, i ain’t complaining
cause down by cemetery ave is where i’m staying oh no no no

cemetery ave. (feat. decks) [prod. irby]

www.carlbymusic.com
Production, mixing, mastering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @user-757072975

LYRICS
I so regret the time we spent
But somehow still miss you
You stole all of my innocence
But swore you never intended to
Now I’m left alone
Alone in my room
No choice but to cope with the ghost of you

So maybe one day I’ll escape from my hometown
Or find out the hard way
That there’s no easy way out
There’s only so much that I can tolerate
Before I start to break down
Been told there’s hell to pay in finding my own route

Drive through these back streets
Comb over loose leaves
I’m turning the page to find
What’s hiding underneath
Free from my sense of constant urgency
I’m finally at peace

Winnebago Street (Prod. Horosha & Lavender_Txwn)

www.carlbymusic.com
Production, mixing, mastering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @XLHC

LYRICS
Where would I be now
If not for you 
If I had I appreciated my youth
Or actually followed through 
In my wildest dreams
You and I are living separately
Across the country
Far enough away that you'll never know of me
In hindsight it would be best
For us to not have met
Those three words you said were only that

We were never meant to fall in love
And I so regret all that I gave you
At least I can say I stayed true
You were heaven sent
Fell from above 
You were exactly what I needed
Or so I thought 

Where would I be now
If not for you
If we had kept out of the city
Would I still be so late to bloom
Always felt out of place in your arms
Just one of many signs
Can’t seem to recognize the love I left behind

You were the one
Clearly I was wrong
And you were not
You knew it all along
That my heart was elsewhere
But you still played the part of someone who cared

Where Would I Be Now if Not for You (Prod. Horosha & Extra Large Holiday Card)

www.carlbymusic.com
Production, mixing, mastering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @pekarot_161

LYRICS
All the places that I used to go 
At sixteen have now been closed 
2010 just feels so far away
And the house that I grew up in
No longer belongs to me
But I still belong to these
Midwest streets on which I cut my teeth

Have you heard the news
The shopping mall’s been closed
Vacant signs and boarded windows
A sad sight to behold
Guess it’s a sign of the times
So this is what growing old feels like
Saying goodbye to everything we’ve come to know

I’m getting good at saying goodbye

This town I call my home
Is slowly being overgrown
Taken back by nature
We’re all in danger of being swallowed whole

Overgrown (Prod. Horosha & Pekarot)

www.carlbymusic.com
Production, mixing, mastering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @jolst

LYRICS
These days
Everything means nothing to me
I’m not phased
Can’t help but feel
I’m living in a movie
I’m so sick of simply getting by
I long to take control
To truly own my life

For years I have waited for the warmth of the sun to come
But it never does
And I fear attachment
‘Cause I know that this won't last
And if I hold on to my heart
Then no one can ever smash it
Into tiny bits just like you did
I guess that’s what I get for being selfless
I won't make that mistake again

Because I gave myself away
Trying to paint a picture
That would make you want to stay
I should have known better
‘Cause it’s right in front of me
Everything I needed yeah

Phased (Prod. Horosha & Jolst)

watch out you look a little run down
fourth quarter and we only need a touch down
uptown this is where we live loud
yelling out to to my love this is our house

feel a lot from the trees when the wind blows
Feeling judged from a flic wit my eyes closed
think of her when i look out the window
judgiest person that i know

but ill be there until ur final days
i dont feel emotion ill ride the wave
i dodge the commotion and chill up on stage
with all of my homies that making the plays

stuck in a gaze

nah nah i dont want games
but if you want beef ima put you in place (x3)

haha put up ur fist u dont want this ima hitchu in yo lip
bLa Bla bLaAa
talkin all that - it got you stitches

oh yea i forgot to mention all tge high phonys had told me whats missing
honesty, integrity and attention 
middle schoold days i was stuck in detention 
highschool i finally made it my misson
find me a person i know isnt ditchin
maybe im comfortable different 
other than losing my senses
that make me feel super distant 
everyone look at me like im a victim

yea but i dont wanan be the villian 
Yea but that day thats just how im feelin
but i cant help it what im feelin
and i cant loosen my belt when its the weekend

stabbed in my back honestly glad cuz i dont hang w rats
told me we cool and then he had to cap
keep pushin buttons and ill lay you flat
right on the grass
youll take a nap
ill take a snap when ur face look all black
and blue

black & blue (yunnygoldz)

Carlby is an alternative pop artist from the Midwest. Working alongside producer, @horoshavibes, his music is a blend of pop, emo rock and hip-hop.

Contact - carlbymusic.com/contact

Where Would I Be Now if Not for You (Prod. Horosha & Extra Large Holiday Card)

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