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casperrr playlist (sad)

Sept. 25th, 2Ø23

Daily Drops #70

songs i wanna fuck to

ily all, y'all are my everything
go show @emptychest all the love in the world
(casperrr)
i really wanna stay
but i think i will go
cuz im stupid high
but i'm feeling low
sitting by my window
looking at the leaves that the wind blows(2x)

(emptychest)
that the wind blows
it makes it always cold
and i will never know
never know, where the fuck to go
been reaping what i sow, i think its time to float
(i think about it like everyday)
away.
i think about it like everyday
stay in my brain while you stay in your lane
they say that it gets better but i dont think i believe them
smoking hella potent, think this shits gonna free me soon
that the wind blows
i really wanna stay
but i think ill go

i really wanna stay.
(casperrr + emptychest)
i really wanna stay
but i think i will go
cuz im stupid high
but i'm feeling low
sitting by my window
looking at the leaves that the wind blows(2x)

i really wanna stay w/emptychest (wissery)

follow my girlfriend @novagarden

TRECH:
in my suicide note i wrote
that if any motherfuckers want smoke
id choke 
i stay fucked up
i’m so hung up
on the fact i ain’t shit
but a fuck up
all my friends have overdosed
even though i ain’t there yet, bitch i’m close
in the meantime
i’ll stay locked in my room 
away from sunshine

take cover in a substance
i hate the taste
down it like its nothin’
how many hits can i lick before i tap out?
how many
drinks can i sip before i black out?
imma test my limit for the last time
please stay with me on the hotline
i’ll call u back when i feel alright
but tomorrow never comes
a life is finite

NOVA:
i can’t stop takin’ hella pills
but im not addicted 
i just do it for the thrill
acid tabs sitting on my tongue
but don’t worry ‘bout a thing
i just do it for fun
glassed eyes in the mirror
lookin’ at myself
thinkin’ ‘bout why the fuck i do this to my health
paranoia got me grabbin’ shrooms off my shelf
try to stop me
i cant let you bitch
so go to hell

TRECH:
i feel nothin’
to feel somethin’
but im a fucking slave to the chemicals
ive been 
straight huffin’
i wake up in panic attacks from my dreams so
take my mind away
my eyes fell down the drain
these tear drops act as rain
try to flush away rinse away my pain

shards of glass

SPOTIFY

shards of glass (feat. nova garden)

prod. me x @hiraethsry

And I will love you 'til I'm broken by the weight
Of everything I've ever wanted and how it all has your name
I am trying, I am shaking, I am crying, I am breaking
Every second, every minute, I'm so tired, why's it raining
Baby, kiss me just to kiss me, not to take me home tomorrow
I am drunk and I am bleeding in your apartment, in the shadow
Of what we were when we were young
And you don't remember my name
And I'm so sorry, and I'm so sorry

And when I'm leaving, I'll pretend like I don't give a damn
But it's been four years, I just wanna hold your hand
It's been four years, don't know who I fucking am
Oh, oh
And when you're begging me to stay, I'll never listen
I guess it takes four years to know the difference
You knew me better than anyone and you hated me
So how the fuck am I supposed to love myself

And I will love you 'til I'm broken by the weight
Of everything I've ever wanted and how it all has your name
I am trying, I am shaking, I am crying, I am breaking
Every second, every minute, I'm so tired, why's it raining

I am drunk and I am bleeding in your apartment, in the shadow
Of what we were when we were young
And you don't remember my name
And I'm so sorry, and I'm so sorry

YOUDONTREMEMBERMYNAME

+spotify soon+

i know i’m always overthinking, love 
but what can be done?
i was sedated when you broke my trust
you say it’s my condition and- 
but i don’t give a fuck
these constant comparisons turn me to dust
so tell me all about him
do you laugh hard when around him?
do these shackles that i’m bound in make you think that i’m not enough? 
im pathetic
but you wouldn’t get it
that's tough
it’s AvPD but i blame it on luck

can’t take drugs cause anxiety kills me
go smoke spliffs with your friends 
envy fills me
i am sorry for how i am ugly
in your shadow i sulk
i’m nobody
i self isolate for days 
now i cant get out of bed without crying
draining all my veins out is the way i talk to the reaper without dying

i know i’m always overthinking, love 
but what can be done?
i was sedated when you broke my trust
you say it’s my condition and- 
but i don’t give a fuck
these constant comparisons turn me to dust
so tell me all about him
do you laugh hard when around him?
do these shackles that i’m bound in make you think that i’m not enough? 
im pathetic
but you wouldn’t get it
that's tough
it’s AvPD but i blame it on luck

medical exam fetishist

everybody is saying dumb shit all the time
and my body is getting numb every night 
and the pills that i take oh they kill me inside 
but im addicted to em i can't even lie 
everybody is saying dumb shit all the time
and my body is getting numb every night 
and the pills that i take oh they kill me inside 
but im addicted to em i can't even-

walk straight 
be okay 
can't breathe
beat my cheast like an ape 
nobody cares about love nowadays
nobody wants to stay home feel safe
i've been locked in my room for days
can't leave cuz im sick n thats ok
but no1 called me to check on my pain
nobody called me to check on my brain 

breakdown, breakdown, breakdown again
i'm fucked up fucked up fucked up in the head 
i live like every1 else is dead 
i'm done, so done, fucking done with this mess

everybody is saying dumb shit all the time
and my body is getting numb every night 
and the pills that i take oh they kill me inside 
but im addicted to em i can't even-

so as long as im breathing
ill keep on walkin this path
with the souls who deceived me 
but gave me feet to feel the grass
always alone but still with company
spread only love but fight angrily
knowing who watches over me 
i'll always be safe, surely

evrybody's saying dumb shit (hero&emptychest)

prod. @byedias

cut my wrists bitch
watch me fucking bleed out
there's no fix for this shit
it's too late now 
taking all of this pills
till i blackout 
i don't miss what u made me feel
but i miss ur mouth 

bong rip
takes, my soul away
i don't even
know what day is today 
stupid high
can't hear what u trynna say 
depressed
so stressed
i'll never be okay

lo-ne-li-ness
crawls up my body 
this sadness 
would kill anybody 
specially 
when u have nobody 
fuck it
bitch i'm outtie

cut my wrists bitch
watch me fucking bleed out
there's no fix for this shit
it's too late now 
taking all of this pills
till i blackout 
i don't miss what u made me feel
but i miss ur mouth (2x)

plug_luv (dias)

(casperrr)
look at the place im in 
notice the pain i feel 
sometimes i wish u were here
so i could have u close 2 me 

look at the way i live
notice the way i bleed
i hide my scars under   sleeves
but i always have blades close 2 me

(self harming i'm addicted to pain
blood flowing down the drain 
u fucked up my whole brain 
cause i still want u to have my last name)~

(skele)
what does it feel like to wake up with closure
drinking alone i've been drunk since october
hoping for change told my mom i'd get sober
blood from my veins ill bleed till it's over
and im so scared that i cant fix the breaks u made
and it's not fair cause i'd be fine if u just stayed
sometimes i wish u were just so i could get sum fucking sleep
sometimes i wish u were baby you are everything i need

(casperrr)
look at the place im in 
notice the pain i feel 
sometimes i wish u were here
so i could have u close 2 me 

look at the way i live
notice the way i bleed
i hide my scars under   sleeves
but i always have blades close 2 me (2x)

look at the place i'm in w/skele (pekarot)

prod. @pekarot_161

[casperrr]
nobody will love you as i do did
seeing u with some1 else makes me sick 
i wish u the best, but i feel like shit
hope u succeed in life while i can't even live 

(chorus) [casperrr]
on the ground i'm laying~
oh my heart is aching
all my bones are breaking
i only succeed in failing
all the songs i've been making~
they show what pain is

[casperrr & autumn]
ooh~

[autumn]
and they say i'll never change
just put that on my grave
not tryna resist this, but it's on my name
just calm down
you're aware of the wrongs that you did
so just let them run out
just not right now
just twist what you want, up until you fall down
i'm losing my hair
trying not to be scared
it took so much time to get where i am here
my knees to the ground
as well as my pride
the ones that i've hurt aren't good at goodbyes

so i stay inside
cause this home knows i
accepted what i've done
just not to that extent
oh how i was stunned from 
all of it

(chorus) [casperrr & autumn]
on the ground i'm laying~
oh my heart is aching
all my bones are breaking
i only succeed in failing
all the songs i've been making~
they show what pain is

casperrr x autumndropsdead - succeed in failing (pekarot)

i must live in a snowstorm
cuz all my problems snowball
u said u don’t love me at all
i guess ill just lay down on the cold floor
closed blinds locked door
don’t call me ill just ignore 
dont meed ur help dont need ur love
dont need ur hand dont meed a whore

i c ur face shining baby its moonlit
wearing the same clothes i did last week
momma keeps telling me that i look sick
if only she knew whats goin on w me
cant sleep cant eat im so weak 
almost died last night goin highspeeds
paradox that shit makes me wanna live
outta box thinking people always called me weird (2x)

i must live in a snowstorm
cuz all my problems snowball
u said u don’t love me at all
i guess ill just lay down on the cold floor
closed blinds locked door
don’t call me ill just ignore 
dont meed ur help dont need ur love
dont need ur hand dont meed a whore

snowball (santana)

lyrics:

you separate me from the rest
in my crematorium
i feel the burning in my chest
im still awake

but why the fuck am i still trippin up on time?
i panic on a dime
cuz my existence is terminal
driving edge of knives into my skin
im fine
you wont believe my lies
yea
yea
i wish i wasn’t discernible

i tried to drown my brain in Everclear until the damage that appeared finally killed me
i used to push the limits i was given ‘til they broke, and that decision came back to haunt me
i signed my own death warrant, my application
you be the judge, and i’ll be deprivation
abused my lungs from toxic inhalation 
need peace of mind, don’t need your medication

clotting; my blood
evolving; i’m not 
resolving; no thoughts
yea
yea
i feel invisible

so why the fuck am i still trippin up on time?
i panic on a dime
cuz my existence is terminal
driving edge of knives into my skin
im fine
you wont believe my lies
yea
yea
i wish i wasn’t discernible

Molotov Cocktail

molotov cocktail

she told me to kill myself
and to throw all my songs away
how did we end up in this mess
we were fine just yesterday

miss the old look in your eyes
it made all my pain subside
nowadays u've scars on ur thighs
and u spend most of ur time high 

i know it hurts when u feel alone
but all you need is a little love 
i know it hurts when u feel alone
the feeling comes but it goes

i miss your hands grabbing mine 
when u felt like u're gonna cry
nowadays all u do is lie
and make me wanna die 

midwest emo love 
u push and i pull
im scarred and u cut
ur toxic and im the fool

i know it hurts when u feel alone
but all you need is a little love 
i know it hurts when u feel alone
the feeling comes but it goes

she told me to kill myself
and to throw all my songs away
how did we end up in this mess
we were fine just yesterday

miss the old look in your eyes
it made all my pain subside
nowadays u've scars on ur thighs
and u spend most of ur time high

midwest emo love (dead yami)

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Everything brings me down
It brings me down again
Everyday losing the sound
Im losing the sound in my head
So kill me now, or love me later baby oh
Just walk away, you don't need me around
You don't ever need me around

I'm holding on to what I got
Oh it's not a lot
Disassociation when I'm puffin on that pot
I'm giving up my hope again
Patience running thin
When did I become a MONSTER in this human skin

No I don't wanna fight anymore
I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me

I hear the whispers at night
In the dark, they're haunting me

I can't even lie anymore
I think my brains so fucking out of it

Now everything's changed
Feel the dark become part of me

I just wasn't feeling myself
But, I don't know who I am anymore
Who I am anymore
So, just walk away

No I don't feel like myself anymore
Like myself anymore
So, just walk away

To a place I know
Where the dead men go
Where the silence fills up their brain
Under dirt and mud
I can taste their blood
What have I became

I'm holding on to what I got
Oh it's not a lot
Disassociation when I'm puffin on that pot
I'm giving up my hope again
Patience running thin
When did I become a MONSTER in this human skin

MONSTER w/ Spaceman Zack & Weepings (p. JOLLY WRLD x Weepings x Ice King!?)

watch the leaves fall on my legs 
as i wait and let the time pass
seasons go my life's still a mess
why did i put my life in both ur hands?

fading away disappearing fast
all of ur love for me like a crash
why did this happen is this a test?
i hate u for making me hate myself

im cutting my wrists breaking my bones
stuck in my head, stuck in my home
laying awake all night long
lookin at u thru my phone
lonely everyday i do the same
sit on my chair and i rot away
while i keep dreamin bout u 
and the way u were dressed that day
im cutting my wrists breaking my bones
stuck in my head, stuck in my home
laying awake all night long
lookin at u thru my phone
lonely everyday i do the same
sit on my chair and i rot away
while i keep dreamin bout u 
and the way u were dressed that day

don't even bother callin my phone
i changed my number and im goin ghost
i hate the life and the way it goes
im well today but tomorrow nobody knows
different drinks, cigs and a bloody nose
that's the way the sad ones roll
losing track, of how many tracks, 
i pulled of doing song after song
song after song
tens in a row 
and im losing control
losing compusure 
destroying my soul
im just hopin that in peace i will go 
cuz~

im cutting my wrists breaking my bones
stuck in my head, stuck in my home
laying awake all night long
lookin at u thru my phone
lonely everyday i do the same
sit on my chair and i rot away
while i keep dreamin bout u 
and the way u were dressed that day

cutting my wrists, breaking my bones (young taylor)

and hey there 
can i sit here  
i noticed that you were all alone 
and reading jane eyre
and i can’t 
stay here 
i’ll die here 
and if it’s raining for the night
i’ll give you my coat at anytime, i 

like wait there
(wait there)
i’m scared 
(i’m scared)
that you think that i’m shady 
it’s not fair 
(it’s not fair) 
we’re an odd pair
i’ll stay here if you want me to i promise
if not we can rain check 

hey there

i think i recognise you; have you been here before? 

(oh, for real?) 

my bad, i guess not but- 
do you wanna go
we can smoke at mine
if you don’t smoke
i got some beers n we can pass time
i don’t give a fuck about what’s going on 
as long you’re here watching always sunny
til bout quarter past 5 

and hey there 
“hey u :)” 
im fucked up
turned blue 
yeah im too slumped
how bout u 
like oh god !!!!
you’re too cool 

dont walk out 
leave me 
im cut up 
bleeding 
so just stay
these sun rays 
they make me 
feel okay 

all of the things 
that i could now say to you
i don’t know whether to laugh or cry
do you even feel at least half of this?
or will you just sit with your friends and all laugh at this- 
FUCK

and hey there 
can i sit here  
i noticed that you were all alone 
and reading jane eyre
and i can’t 
stay here 
i’ll die here 
and if it’s raining for the night
i’ll give you my at coat anytime, i 

like wait there
(wait there)
i’m scared 
(i’m scared)
that you think that i’m shady 
it’s not fair 
(not fair) 
we’re an odd pair
but i’ll stay here
if you want me to i promise
if not we can rain check 

hey there

i think i recognise you; have you been here before?
oh, for real?

pale (pekarot x jolst)

prod me

sick & haven't been able to record much of anything for some time now, but i wanted to get something out both for myself, and possibly you;
been sitting on this one for a while
hope you enjoy.
take care

hey, i'll trade you for your sorrows
i've grown used to feeling that
and if we're talking 'bout tomorrows
i've grown used to losing them too

the voices i read with my ears, tend to bleed
choking up every piece of the letters i speak
wasn't always afraid of the pictures i paint
guess the brush needs a wash, mutilate, then repeat

hate when i reach out again
people speculate my head
you're not me, you're not my friend
frequently, wish i was..

thoughts reflected through my brain
too bad they can't do the same
shattered past and future pains
guide me home through rough terrain

i'm ugly with words
keep it blunt, little passive
hoping that i'll make it up with some actions
feel so trash, bounce back like elastic
i'm doing that for the sake of my casket
hurting myself in a hope i'll be gone
suck how the ones that we trust do you wrong
playing along
it's not even fair i can bare all the tears that i've once undergone

this life makes me sick; can't trade it
i've been pushing through the lame shit
stay averted; bad relations
let my room for hate stay vacant
pour it all on my own psyche
ain't no one 'round here feel like me
it's not a nice thing
never sight-see inside my mind
i'm mostly agonizing

i told them it'd be okay
it sure as hell don't feel that way
your limitations never stay
you're pulling pins to thought grenades

it's all the same
cast a wave and send me to a sunken grave
only then i'll know my place

woke up in a sweat so cold
in a room pale white, and a heart full of woe
passed out 'round noon, now i'm ten on my toes
from the sun's red hue, passed through what imposed
any chafe on my brain by the stains from the mulch
what kind of weight doesn't make you implode?
phasing a gate into heaven's abode
but that ain't a place i ain't think imma know

i haven't changed my sheets in like a week or two
(get outta bed)
summer's passed, and suddenly, our meanings too
(it's all that i have)

my eyes stayed tied into my mind
to undermine it's barbed wires

i'm trying to be what i need
choosing escape over delicacies
they weren't a choice i would seek
nothing was ever created for me

(4x)
i'm trying to be what i need

mulch

this is what space feels like

produced by i'm geist
guitar @hiraethsry
engineered @tnvr555

last single off my album pity out next week
thank you for listening :)

// geist
so let it all dissipate
there’s a lot on my plate
but you’re not on the list love

wipe the smile off my face
you just come and you take
like you want to let me down

but come on now, you left
so leave me alone
i smell the blood
spilled fresh, cut to a bone
and it’s all so tempting
the scent
pheromones
you stare at me
and whisper words like a ghost

"you look like a ghoul
the way that you walk
your eyes glisten red,
are you hungry my love?"

no i'm just a fool,
and i shouldn't talk
i'll sow my mouth and i'll give this all up
yeah i'll give this all up
cause i'm never enough

// yokai dreams
guess u havent had enough yet
havent filled ur gut yet
leave me to the crows
dead on the road
sight will make ur gut wrench
where her heart was supposed to be is just a silhouette
cigarettes and empty threats
tell me, are you finished yet?

stealing a look in the moonlight
ur alive now
and the moods right
im a night owl
til noon light
imma lie down
til the times right
my lover loves to make me believe
that she keep the peace on those good nights
second i'm sleepin
she's barin her teeth and
she could bite
but i don't mind

guess that i'm not used to falling in love
everyone i used to know has move on
and i know you will too
nothing has improved
said we're gonna change, just not any time soon
guess that i'm not used to feeling this way
everything i used to feel has decayed
got the heart of a ghoul
selfish and cruel
thought this was love but i was just a tool

spotify

ghoul w/ yokai dreams

deep end w/ byekento

lyrics:
bitch get out my way, im busy gettin all this paper
stack it up till next week, i guess ill see you later
Ruger tucked my draws so when i roam its in my favor
jack and coke is my go to when i go hard, its no brainer

said i could give a fuck what you gonna do
i still spit my rhymes while im in the booth
say i gotta do what i gotta do
if i cut you off then you fuckin loose
aint got time for snakes so im finna move
bitch stay away while im in my groove
everything i am shoutout to Juice, shoutout to Peep
shoutout to you

homie just do me a solid
count up my racks while im ballin
i still reach for the rope when im fallin
i still stay on the move cause im all in
i still freestyle this shit im cerebral
stuntin out here call me Evil Kenevil
i got my girl, man so fuck all these people
you could just call me Bruce Willis, im lethal

bitch get out my way, im busy gettin all this paper
stack it up till next week, i guess ill see you later
Ruger tucked my draws so when i roam its in my favor
jack and coke is my go to when i go hard, its no brainer

what you want me to stay?
what you want me to say?
i guess im gettin older, im gettin folded
but shit just goes this way
i aint aligned with all the fuck shit id rather sip champagne
dont kill my vibe, cause deep inside, im rotting in my brain

yall be like look like some clowns, uh
i just dont wanna be found, uh
stayin away when im down
hittin me up when im up off the ground

like "homie please send me some cash, swear im good for it"
like i give a fuck so i ignore it
i dignify that im dead inside, but i swear im fine and im here for it

bitch get out my way, im busy gettin all this paper
stack it up till next week, i guess ill see you later
Ruger tucked my draws so when i roam its in my favor
jack and coke is my go to when i go hard, its no brainer

bitch get out my way, im busy gettin all this paper
stack it up till next week, i guess ill see you later
Ruger tucked my draws so when i roam its in my favor
jack and coke is my go to when i go hard, its no brainer

See U Later

see u later

There For Me

watch me, get tore apart more everyday
baby, wish you'd really love me like u say
lately, i been feelin you fade away
slowly, but i know i'll lose you anyway
watch me, get tore apart more everyday
baby, wish you'd really love me like u say
lately, i been feelin you fade away
slowly, but i know i'll lose you anyway    

(all that u do 4 me, is it pitty or love?
the things you say 2 me, do they come from the heart?
have i been a waste of life right from the start
cause im feeling lost, i needa sit down n talk)

i only have u left i don't know what to do 
don't know how to act, defense or attack
i just can't lose you
don't know what to say are things okay 
are you also confused?~
need something to see, something to touch 
or ill lose myself soon

down a spiral of hate, back to the blades
touching my skin,
im losing my faith, in need of a change 
the bloods runnin thin
nothings feelin great, and when you say 
u love me idk whatchu mean 
ill go back to my room and the drugs i consume
and keep doing my thing 

watch me, get tore apart more everyday
baby, wish you'd really love me like u say
lately, i been feelin you fade away
slowly, but i know i'll lose you anyway  
watch me, get tore apart more everyday
baby, wish you'd really love me like u say
lately, i been feelin you fade away
slowly, but i know i'll lose you anyway

watch me. (michael harrison)

君の好きな歌を聞いて
一緒に撮った写真を見て
私はつい思っちゃう
君は元気にしているのか？
体はちゃんと大事にしているのか？
夜はまだちゃんと眠れないのか？
それと、一番大事なのは
自分の心を託される人は見つけたのか？
私は-

don't say u hate me, i know u do
nothing can change me neither can u
been hurt b4 still don't have a clue
how to get better n change my mood

won't ever change, i thinks it's genetic
engraved in my brain
used to the problems not used to pain
praying something makes it all go away
all go away
u left me alone dealing with MYself
u said u were gonna watch over my health
taking all the pills lined up on the shelf
like a buncha soldiers killin in stealth

chip me away, slowly
make me do it ur way, like it's holy
take our ring, break it
show me u never cared, bout me

don't say u hate me, i know u do
nothing can change me neither can u
been hurt b4 still don't have a clue
how to get better n change my mood
don't say u hate me, i know u do
nothing can change me neither can u
been hurt b4 still don't have a clue
how to get better n change my mood

don't say u hate me, i know u do (king theta)

at least i tried
but our love died
right in my arms, fell right thru
like it was a lie 
at least i tried
but our love died
right in my arms, fell right thru
like it was a lie 


grabbin a drink feeling hopeless again
on my face's fallin tears, bottle gripped in my hand
outside i look fine 
but inside im fighting a war all alone on the losing end 
losing end but i can't see the end
losing all i have, losing my head 
i fight them off but they keep coming back
like cancer cells, avoinding treatment

NUN TO DO BUT GET FADED
NOWADAYS IM WALKIN JADED
NO SOLUTION OCCURS IN MY MIND
TO MY PROBLEMS, ILL JUST DIG UP MY GRAVE THEN 
IM BECOMING WHAT I HATED
NO PROCCEDURES, STILL SEDATED
TAKING EVERYTHING I CAN TO EASE UP THE PAIN
AND I DON'T KNO IF ILL MAKE IT   

NUN TO DO BUT GET FADED
NOWADAYS IM WALKIN JADED
NO SOLUTION OCCURS IN MY MIND
TO MY PROBLEMS, ILL JUST DIG UP MY GRAVE THEN 
IM BECOMING WHAT I HATED
NO PROCCEDURES, STILL SEDATED
TAKING EVERYTHING I CAN TO EASE UP THE PAIN
AND I DON'T KNO IF ILL MAKE IT   

at least i tried
but our love died
right in my arms, fell right thru
like it was a lie

at least i tried (sorrow bringer)

so much pain in my heart
idk where to start 
i keep rollin up blunts
and smokin em all in the dark 
closed in the stu makin art 
about everything thatS a part
of my life and marked me 
to the point where i can't even talk

to anybody i know
bout anything that i go
thru everyday is a struggle
wakin up  wishin i don't
shit got me feeling so low 
going thru this all alone
i got nobody to relate to 
but a pillbox n a bong

everyday is the same/ but just a little bit different
today i was the guilty one again, cuz i didn't listen
yesterday it was still my fault, but surely 4 anotha reason
i think/ shit never changes, despite us changing the szn
i suddenly went cold, like we're in a blizzard
sick of bastards who fold, n runaway like they lizzards
acting like u r dr connors, imma beat u like peter
ain't no way u betraying me, im sick of being beaten

not my choice to be born
not my decision
if it really was up to me
i'd be in a grave not breathing
all the bones that u broke 
r the reason 
why ur so bad for me 
but keep me from kneeling

so much pain in my heart
idk where to start 
i keep rollin up blunts
and smokin em all in the dark 
closed in the stu makin art 
about everything thatS a part
of my life and marked me 
to the point where i can't even talk

to anybody i know
bout anything that i go
thru everyday is a struggle
wakin up  wishin i don't
shit got me feeling so low 
going thru this all alone
i got nobody to relate to 
but a pillbox n a bong

sm pain in mh (tiedforsilver)

msitreated, misplaced
scars on my face
smoking so much lately
my teeth got yellow stains

no feelings, erased
hate how people change
bloody knuckles hit the wall
but life's still the same 

over you in my head
in my heart u still there
my body's a mess
feel u eating at my flesh 


feeding off of me
ur drinking what i bleed
acting like you love me 
then use me like a leach

how ain't u ashamed of ur-self~
keep on acting like ur the-best
i think u should just let me-rest
stop trynna find where my body-at

deep down, covered in dirt
x marks the spot i got hurt
under a tree, where the sun won't burn
is where i wrote this song

mistreated, misplaced
scars on my face
smoking so much lately
my teeth got yellow stains

no feelings, erased
hate how people change
bloody knuckles hit the wall
but life's still the same (2x)

mistreated, misplaced (caves)

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nothing,nowhere. - call back (unreleased song)

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Skeletons (ft. Nate Traveller)

Missed Calls [prod. NVR/MND]

døves & fish narc - glass ep

produced by fish narc
engineered by døves
cover art by arthur cooke
featuring lil lotus & cold hart

gothboiclique

døves & fish narc - glass (feat. lil lotus)

prod/mix/master/cover @trechorboy
feat. @trechorboy + @nicoteenninyo

TRECHOR BOY:
she said she never really cared about me
wasting my time maybe
fuck all that shit
hypocrite 
doesn’t even come close to the way i think of you 
can’t you see 
there's something wrong with me
incapable of love
im never good enough 
but
(X2)

turns out i really wanted this shit 
i had the confidence to make moves with it so 
i went and got my bag 
all i had 
was you
fast forward four years on the timeline 
i woke up and realized all the online shit won’t help
and i still hate myself 
fuck

NICOTEEN NINYO:
is he as warm as me, holdin u on a cold night?
does he say i love you cuz it just feels right?
yeah im gone and ur okay but maybe u wont be in a couple of days
listen to the words u say
does he make u smile like me?
cuz

i only say i love you when we break up
i only say i need u when we cant make up
ill only ever call if im drunk enough
to say the things i never said
tryin to force this new girl down my throat
but it just makes ur taste in my mouth worse
i wish i could say i believe u
i wish i could fucking hate you

~i wish i could fucking hate you
i wish i could fucking hate you~

~i wish i could love just like you
i wish i could love like you do~
(X2)