eleven months and its all bad news

shoutout @fantasycamp for the incredible song
& @hellahaunted for one of my favorite beats ever

much love to whoever listens <3

eleven months (cover) [caves]

old track i've had for a while i dont think ima do anything with
prod @4evrgone
hope u enjoy

lyrics:
pull up to the function
and im goin on a bender
i’ve been overdosing on the thought
of you and me together
tell me how and where and why
i’ll buy you things that you like
im using to falling quick for people
who make me feel alright, alright

i been having longer nights
fighting with the light inside my room
hoping that this all pays off when 
i can finally dream of you
baby what i did to you is fucked up
praying that i havent run my luck up
im sorry that i been so fuckin stuck up
i just want another chance between
you and i now
thinkin where my future lies now

everything is passing in color
remember in grayscale
seeing you here but
caught up like a hangnail
used to the past
fading in like the paper
cover my walls and
remember my labor
labor of love
when i had nothing
baby girl u were my something <3

pull up to the function
and im goin on a bender
i’ve been overdosing on the thought
of you and me together
tell me how and where and why
i’ll buy you things that you like
im using to falling quick for people
who make me feel alright, alright

someone like u (4evr)

hope u like it

piano cover:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=27U0oAREUA4

navy blue - tssf cover

easily, in fact (nightcore) [autrioly]

its ur boy back at u with another cover
eventually gonna cover this entire sean ep
u can check it out here:
https://on.soundcloud.com/Xx323

love u sean
enjoy folks

we'll always have each other (medium sean cover)

prod. @jolst
leftover from this summer
put the finishing touches on it and thought it deserved to be out there
hope y'all enjoy this track has a soft spot in my heart
happy thanksgiving <33

lyrics (maybe):

its never my fault
thats what im hoping at least
i don’t think much
its hard to focus at peace
im a nuisance
i never ask for ur help
if we get thru this
i swear i’ll work on myself

life takes what u want from me
my head’s needing surgery
rewire all the ways i see
transgress all the boundaries
i’ve felt the cold shoulder before
i know better than letting u 
slip into misery
its as simple as counting threes
wish i knew u were next to me

im a burden to myself but i make do
nothing forms inside my head when i face u
stare at crystal eyes forever i dont blame u
for hating my ways, never subject to change
divvy up all the patterns i rinse and repeat
i cant do anything im forgetting to eat
whats a job to a man who incessantly cheap
with his words but his money cant last the whole week
im just tired

next2me [jolst]

old one i got around to finishing
rly love this one hope u do too
yr support forever means the world
new drops been goin up on the main go check those if u want
goodnight decks nation

lyrics:
say
grace
underneath ur breath
i still wonder if muttering that would be worth
the
taste
of whats holding u back
while im tethered to weights at the bottom of all these 
waves
they come crashing down
i just hope to god im making u proud
i guess that i just win some & lose some
never meant to abuse what we got but i

feel my life pass me by
something’s off, you’re not by my side
guess the roses i got were consolation
saw the hand i held in constellation
knew u best as earth precipitated
all my problems now are predating
the present, i wanna feel
like its never for the best, what i want is real
i’ve saved what is left, all behind my shield
i’ve made that left, now im right to deal alone

say grace [metlast x 5head]

from this past semester
dont rly feel attached to this anymore but its too good to scrap
prod. @deadyami <3
hope u enjoy

lyrics:
part of the problem’s always guessing where you went
i’m always back to that evening
i’ve tried to focus on the present since you left 
you know damn well it aint easy

so try as i may
im falling to pieces
when you’re not here

another step in the wrong direction
im losing grip on whats real 
if we’d just focus on communication
then i probably wouldn’t be here

so try as i may
im falling to pieces
when you’re not here
the sky’s far too grey
for me to get
over you this year

another case of what if
i know its face value but
theres still something there 
got my attention with a
post, not a mention and i
wish i didn’t care, i
will never get away
i’ll always be the same
i’m trapped in my room
i’m thinking of you again
i’ll never get away
i’ll always be the same
i’m trapped in my room
i’m thinking of you again

i’ll never get away
i’ll always be the same

so try as i may
im falling to pieces
when you’re not here
the sky’s far too grey
for me to get
over you this year
i’ll never get away
i’ll always be the same
i’m trapped in my room
i’m thinking of you again

telegraph, a motion picture [dead yami]

scrap from learning to lose
+ alternate art i did not end up using
prod. @wisssery
much love, enjoy <3

i wrote the lyrics in a notebook so i will not be putting them here my bad guys hope u can understand

middle ground [wisssery]

hey
old track from 2021/22
the goat @cherryrizla featuring
prod. @nevrfall
enjoy <3

lyrics:
i just cant wait until
i can come down 
and finally stop melting
i
i drive away from my
home in the hopes
that you’ll see me as something 

feeling a pain in my shoulder
stopping the car to pull over 
losing myself as im older
finding myself now its over

i sit alone in a sea of the blood of my past lives
all nine died
dont wanna find out if i cried
do it again by the sunrise
torture, im living this torture
and nothing will come of it
i just get high for the fun of it
i cannot feel i am numb again
nothin ever does it like you do

i
i just cant wait until
i can come down 
and finally stop melting
i
i drive away from my
home in the hopes
that you’ll see me as something 

feeling a pain in my shoulder
stopping the car to pull over 
losing my breath as i feel it
nothing is sweeter than closure

melting w/ cherryrizla (2022) [nevrfall]

unfinished
oct 22
scrap
night

lyrics:
remember when u said that it was the little things
that were differing
like the potholes we danced in, my street filled with rain, like a symphony
is that what you mean?
fallen branches littered every chance of us
i might cancel on you
the night we split is ringing in my head, im done
i can’t see this through

watch the last
two years of my life
slip away like a bad dream
u never quite had me at all
im just lookin onward
it pains me to think about
you while you sleep in his arms
remember the night
we sat under stars
soaked it all in
while we’re fallin apart
i hope this is all just a bad dream
i’d be happy

press pause, you can resume later [king theta]

taylor swift cover
very personal 2 me
hope u enjoy
<3

august (cover)

prod the goat @unaake

hope it aint obvious cuz its unbearable
i wear it on my fucking sleeve im fucking terrible
im breathing deep cuz i can feel u run the variables
i got a month before u leave this time's invaluable

im sick of holding back thoughts
everyone i know is sick its hard to care if im not
i keep hoping itll stick, bear the waters ill cross
what if its not worth the risk? heaven knows if im lost

this is who i am i'll fight the fire
(this is who i am, fight the fire)
wonder where all my desire's gone
(this is who i am, a fuckin liar ugh)
i try to stay inspired
(this is who i am, fight the fire)
maybe thats why i cant love for long
(this is who i am, a fuckin liar, oh)

who i am [bugboi]

yeowch

lyrics:
u cannot erase all you’ve done
mental is one
but the follow thru makes you flinch
sit as the world comes undone
with the glow of the sun
to the trees you are just a finch

you’re fighting a war thats been won
its a hundred to one
and you cant help but scratch the itch
you’re exhausting it hun
and i’m honestly done
in the end, it was worth the risk

i hadn’t seen it in a long time
frostbite, from the shoulder i had once cried
no time, i had spent it on a false crime
some sky, i could say if u were alright
brace for it
under ur breath
you’ve got the taste for it
pay for it
maybe i did
i couldn’t wait for ya
tell me, love, that you love me
cuz in the hole i dug it got ugly

hate bein sober now
im sure u know how that feels
but in a space out of order now
you wouldn’t finish your meal

u cannot erase all you’ve done
mental is one
but the follow thru makes you flinch
sit as the world comes undone
with the glow of the sun
to the trees you are just a finch

you’re fighting a war thats been won
its a hundred to one
and you cant help but scratch the itch
you’re exhausting it hun
and i’m honestly done
in the end, it was worth the risk

finch

finch [wisssery]

for the real ogs
veins & i give u our best wishes
<3

layered

layered - betweentheveinsandi (decks)

fun lil thang i did w @t33thkicker
hope ya enjoy <3

lyrics:
oh i cannot endorse it no, uh
wait three weeks just to hear from ya babe
no i wait, then i force it oh, no
its an uphill battle to see ur face
then i go, how unfortunate
know you think about torching it
1:03 screen glow from ur portrait, oh
i’ll be ok girl, don’t wait up
cuz my heart ain’t porcelain

ask me somethin
i don’t know what
i don’t think u try
it aint half a street
i don’t move ur feet
i can’t tell u why
this half a man
has seen half the shit
that’ll make u cry
i don’t fuck around
cuz the last i did
i got no reply

i don’t need u im past it
3:30 clock im dashin
eyes on the screen
tryna see what im listening to
i forgot where my cash is
i do not know u we tight knit
nobody got me no vice grip
i got way too many vices
despite this im fightin myselfff

in the back of the party i off myself like its ego death
i don’t speak a word i just shut my mouth and i pass that test
is it hard enough to make every sunrise feel like the end
cuz i feel so stiff when i spend those nights on that cardboard bed

so i cannot endorse it no, uh
wait three weeks just to hear from ya babe
no i wait, then i force it oh, no
its an uphill battle to see ur face
then i go, how unfortunate
know you think about torching it
1:03 screen glow from ur portrait, oh
i’ll be ok girl, don’t wait up
cuz my heart ain’t porcelain

porcelain [mags]

its not like u to go that distance
==============
@silversxo
@sagebrsh
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lyrics:
been a little crossed up
it isnt bad at all
i’m fine as long as nobody’s hurt
i think my pride is lost
but i’ll fall an eternity’s worth

don’t have to worry about it
you can’t come back around
i’m making sure i know that now
your precious serotonin
is not my problem now
i’ve got my own to worry bout

find time to bother
i’ll still be here i promise
its not like u to go that distance

if i told u that i miss u
i was lying
i’m moving on just fine
its a problem when u come back
i don’t buy it
u gotta try to earn me, love
u gotta try to earn me

sagebrsh:
I'm standing on the bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here
Guess that I was wrong

I'd be lying If I told u
That I won't wait
What's time
If we might be soulmates

my fault if I read too deep
I'm feeling manic

hold me,
would u plz console me
I can't bare to wake without you
So I'm getting no sleep my bed way too lonely
I need you to show me
How to relax, since you been gone I ain't been cozy oh please~

decks:
if i told u that i miss u
i was lying
i’m moving on just fine
its a problem when u come back
i don’t buy it
u gotta try to earn me, love
u gotta try to earn me
(x2)

disaster averted (ft. sagebrsh) [silver]

b side from resize frame (unreleased / scrapped[?] decks proj)
prod @fleshgolem
enjoi

lyrics:
baby i been sick for so damn long
gather my wits with something strong
and i know the risk i’m taking on
but if we don’t miss it, something’s wrong
so wrong

covered the bases i missed on the road
always forgot how to feel so at home
never invited to be one of those
now i been poppin and playing these shows (like)
i know the ins and the outs of your soul
bury me, baby, i won’t let it go
starving surroundings will leave me alone if
self preservation applies to be hostess

if its the end of me
just say its heavenly
i swear i meant it
feel what you’re saying
despite resenting these
apologetic pleas
i’m staring back at
you, feeling ancient

baby i been sick for so damn long
gather my wits with something strong
and i know the risk i’m taking on
but if we don’t miss it, something’s wrong
so wrong

incarnate freestyle [flesh]

lyrics:
sitting on the grass don't mind me
you in that dress quite likely
in the backyard, pool and the iced tea
cat's out the fucking bag are you happy
cat's out the fucking bag mind me asking
did you like me despite all the fighting
sitting comfortably beside you in the night see
all the things i never saw they're so frightening

i've been wasting all my cash hoping that i do not crash
every time i drive the car i feel the urge to go faster
i knew that this wouldn't last, i knew that this wouldn't last
so many questions to ask, something that i never asked her

take me back to the good old days, when we'd sit on the couch while the children played
not ours of course, man that's insane, but the ones that we loved still all the same
i wish i knew your name, i played your filthy game
now price i pay is same, as blowing out my brain

sitting on the grass don't mind me
you in that dress quite likely
in the backyard, pool and the iced tea
cat's out the fucking bag are you happy
cat's out the fucking bag mind me asking
did you like me despite all the fighting
sitting comfortably beside you in the night see
all the things i never saw they're so frightening

sitting comfortably, thoughts just come to me, stuck daydreaming bout how much fun it'd be, love is sweet, but it can sting like a honey bee, you love to see, i'd love to be, wish i could be me more; but everyday i'm getting better, getting warmer like the weather, see my heart break, hopes fall, float down light as a feather, strings of my heart strung thin like a tether

sun shines down, puts me in a better place
for some reason every now and then i see your face
i wish i had a chance with you but that was not that case
i'm sick of being lonely so i'll drown it out in bass

sitting on the grass don't mind me
you in that dress quite likely
in the backyard, pool and the iced tea
cat's out the fucking bag are you happy
cat's out the fucking bag mind me asking
did you like me despite all the fighting
sitting comfortably beside you in the night see
all the things i never saw they're so frightening

decks - sitting comfortably w/ evan carus

why did i do this to myself again (prod. adny)

silver lining w/ adny (nitecore)

Down On My Luck Demo

satan tells you that you belong in heaven POV

silver lining (acoustic)

hey but ur in the bathroom while it plays in the other room and ur crying but its ok dont be sad

https://soundcloud.com/medium_sean/take-me-to-the-weekend
go show sean some love
decided to cover one of my fav songs while i still have this burst of energy and motivation
goodnight <3

take me to the weekend (medium sean cover) [p. spyder x yago]

decks songs that aren’t on that account anymore (mostly because they aren’t that good)

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