this fr my fav song ive made so far bruh hope yall fw it <3
shoutouts @polearm (up next) for masterin it 
shoutouts @halberd-3000 i forgot what he did fr
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always alone in my bedroom 
missed phone calls 
i should prolly hittem back soon
half finished songs
i should prolly get to those too 
but i been losing all my motivation
idk what i love anymore
idk what i love anymore

always alone in my bedroom 
missed phone calls 
i should prolly hittem back soon
half finished songs
i should prolly get to those too 
but i been losing all my motivation
idk what i love anymore

cuz all of the things that i used to do 
feels like a chore i forgot about 
and all of the things that i used to do 
don't feel the same when it's not with you

but im keepin it moving
a song every week 
till i live in a movie
and no longer speak
about all of the demons 
that i cannot hide
that don't seem to be leaving
the back of my mind

any time soon, anytime soon 
any time soon, anytime soon 

so im keepin it moving
forget all the rest
focus on all 
of the things i do best
got nothing to prove
i put that to the test
i live in the moment
to kill all the stress
that i feel in my chest now 
i feel on my chest now
i feel on my chest now

now i'm always alone in my bedroom 
missed phone calls 
i should prolly hittem back soon
half finished songs
i should prolly get to those too 
but i been losing all my motivation
idk what i love anymore

cuz all of the things that i used to do 
feels like a chore i forgot about 
and all of the things that i used to do 
don't feel the same when it's not with you

oh well whatever happens happens 
(i'm only 18 i don't wanna die yet)

idk what i love

buy/listen

April

much love to @kaiyko <3
art by both of us (flower pic by love-abia on tumblr)

[demxntia & kaiyko]
you're the flower that I saw that day
I miss the way you comfort me 
I lost my sense of feeling love
the day you walked away from me

[kaiyko]

The other day, I swear that I saw your face, 
hidden in the crowd like a ghost that just fades away
I promise I wanted to see you next spring time
But by the time you come around I wont be the same girl I am 
now you start to disappear, can't help myself but drown in fear
I'm counting all our days spent together 
and I wish good times could last forever and
this is all the time we have, and I know our goodbye is shattered
but you'll be in my heart till the end of forever because...

[demxntia & kaiyko]

you're the flower that I saw that day
I miss the way you comfort me 
I lost my sense of feeling love
the day you walked away from me

[demxntia]

waking up alone I feel like part of me is missing 
flipping through the photos of the memories we shared 
and I swear that I remember all the days we spent together 
but I ruin all the things that I hold close to me 
now I'm regretting every thing we never did I can't face it
the thought of you alone breaks my heart and I hate it 
but I hope that the sound of my voice is enough 
to reach the one that I'll always love

[demxntia & kaiyko]

you're the flower that I saw that day
I miss the way you comfort me 
I lost my sense of feeling love
the day you walked away from me

When the sun sets I'll try to remember 
the things you that you promised when we were together
I'll dry all your tears if it means that you'll stay
I'll find you again and again till this pain fades away

the day you walked away

spotify, apple, etc.

the day you walked away w/ kaiyko

Silhouettes

thank you for 6K. glad to finally work with one of my best friends in the scene @ihateshinigami

i never asked 
for the cards 
i been dealt with
and i still
don't know
where my mind is
feel like
my happiness and i
have part ways
feel my eyes
growin heavy
on my pale face

and all i ever
wanna be is enough for you
but i never get close
no matter what i do, and
everybody is sayin
i should relax
but the stress is 
piling up as time elapse

and i swear it never gets better
i been sleepin less and less
this shit is lasting forever
but i try my fucking best
i got too much on my plate
i'm sorry i'm far away
i promise i don't mean to be
but this ain't easy to say

so don't go away from me
i just need a little bit more time
don't go away from sme
i just need a little bit more time

when it's said and done 
i hope that i'm enough
for the ones i love
but it's getting tough
so just bear with me
you're the one i need
i've been losing sight
got no room to breath


[shinigami]

w/ my eyes wide open
i see clearly now
stretch my hands
let fate fall into place

up and down i been falling
cold wind calling my name
i'm not the same as i once was

i'll take you away
to a world that is glistening
where everything's fine
have you even been listening?
i'm falling apart
you knew this from the start
lay your head in my arms
we'll never be apart

losing sight w/ shinigami

go follow @sinxi rn he makes god tier music.

lyrics:

ill use this time to remind me
never fall in love cause it hurts
too much now days all i think ab are
awful things ye ill put that cyanide
right in my veins ye ill change my
discord name wont talk to anybody
thought it was better than nothing
but guess that i was wrong
cause i thought that you had

the cutest voice in the whole world
emissions were on made yer eyes glow
but youll never join the world no more
uwu o well
miss your touch like a phantom
cannot catch my breath cause the scuffed lungs
but at least theyll match a broken heart
uwu o well
ooo~ oooo~ oooo~

cause i miss all those days
we would mute ourselves in game
and talk shit about
the people we both hated
Now a days only hate that i haves
for myself
You said lets think bout the future
i understand that but
cant help but think bout what
could have been
said it was better than nothing
just wanted to feel anything

whats the point if were
wasting our time
its what you said
left a hole in my stomach
get over it
cant help but think about those nights
you had

the cutest voice in the whole world
emissions were on made yer eyes glow
but youll never join the world no more
uwu o well
miss your touch like a phantom
cannot catch my breath cause the scuffed lungs
but at least theyll match a broken heart
uwu o well

ill use this time to remind me
never fall in love cause it hurts
too much now days all i think ab are
awful things ye ill put that cyanide
right in my veins ye ill change my
discord name wont talk to anybody
thought it was better than nothing
all that i wanted was something

cutest voice in the whole world
emissions were on made yer eyes glow
but youll never join the world no more
uwu o well
miss your touch like a phantom
cannot catch my breath cause the scuffed lungs
but at least theyll match a broken heart
uwu o well

uwu o well ~ [p. sinxi]

OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO HERE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pbnrnTJpvB0

shoutouts 2 @kaiyko as always!!

let me have a minute to get
my head on straight
i really haven’t been myself
for almost 28 days and i think
what a bummer could November really be?
i think there’s something that my eyes can’t see
cuz lately i’ve been getting so upset
with almost everything 

i don’t wanna be a villain
in this story of mine (neither do you)
i don’t wanna be a perfect person
that’s just a lie
but you keep taking all the words that
keep falling out my mouth
i don’t think you see what my
problem is even all about

oh, what a lie 
that we live
it’s alright to be 
alone sometimes
what a life 
that we’re given
it’s alright to to be 
alone sometimes

efforts wasted
and so am i tonight
feelings faded
like everything in my life
different faces
i’d rather stay inside
been gone for ages
so why’d you stay tonight?

i don’t wanna miss you
i don’t wanna need you
i don’t wanna feel like
i’m nothing without you
i don’t wanna miss you
i don’t wanna need you
i just can’t pretend
that i’m perfect without you

oh, what a lie 
that we live
it’s alright to be 
alone sometimes
what a life 
that we’re given
it’s alright to to be 
alone sometimes

and i don’t wanna
live a life where
i’m feeling sorry
so baby take all
my mistakes
and blame it all on me
cuz i’m not you and
you’re not me
so we can just 
call this a tragedy
but then i’d be
lying once again

SPOTIFY

it's alright w/ kaiyko [MUSIC VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION]

lyrics ~

sui~

feel so so far away
from consciousness
in this bed
try to
list off wanted things
but the storys cut short
the end
the trouble of thinking
has proved to be too much
theres no more dreams to crush

head filled up
with a heart half empty
senses come undone
do you believe in yourself?
that thought was always so foreign
who knows?

sting of honesty from the whiplash
sat back watching from a distance
out of body this experience is
nothing as expected

grasping for a breath of fresh air
but the smog is getting stale
cause the less there was to know
the happier i was

taken back
looking at
everything there
is to offer
not much to stand on
like whats the point
when nothings pure at all
sitting here waiting
for you to come make me
something i say im not

demi ~

out of body & out of my mind
i wish somebody would say ill b fine
wouldnt care if its a lie
ye i know i made it so far
im still weak n ive tired so hard
to fight off all the feelings that ive
carried in my heart

overthinking bout
my past mistakes
i wanna fade away
into a void of nothingness
war of habit
i wont give control
i still break down
from time 2 time
but i got no more
tears 2 cry

both~

taken back
looking at
everything there
is to offer
not much to stand on
like whats the point
when nothings pure at all
sitting here waiting
for you to come make me
something i say im not

suisai & demxntia ~ sting of honesty

NEW ALBUM OCTOBER 9TH 2020 🌐🖤
shoutoutz 2 @kaiyko

it feels like i'm stranded on my own
this is not the way it's supposed to go
taking me for granted i'll take you to hell
fuck all the help

even when i'm down
i try to bring you up
even when i'm empty
i try to show you love
even when i'm lost
i try to find a way for you
to smile when i'm not
with everything i've got

i gave it my all
trying my best for you
it wasn't enough
doing the best i can
i'm only a man
why can't you see that?
my world is burning down

why's this happening
i thought that i could change
but now i'm desperately
searching for a sign that leads
nowhere at all for me
and honestly
i wanted you to be the one
to break me free from this scarcity 
of loving myself for the person i am
today and not the way
you look at me so casually
when i'm about to break
when i'm about to go breaking down again
how do i send
all my love but all my love is
still reaching out to you
still reaching out to you

i gave it my all
trying my best for you
it wasn't enough
doing the best i can
i'm only a man
why can't you see that
my world is burning down

it feels like i'm stranded on my own
this is not the way it's supposed to go
taking me for granted i'll take you to hell
fuck all the help

tell you that honestly i wanted you
to be the one to break me free
break me free from this scarcity
i'm living with all your love
but all my love's locked in me
it's still reaching out to you
still reaching out to you

gave it my all w/ kaiyko

demxntia 🌐🖤

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