nobody ever listen in the first place😔

I could cry my heart out on a track and you'd forget in like 4 days 💔 😪

tell me it gets better when I'm older 🤕🤒

I know you’ll leave one day, like everything I've ever loved you’ll slowly fade away ):

https://soundcloud.com/imnotenvy
https://soundcloud.com/iamvagrxnt

COMMUNITY. Vol 2

violet

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notenvy & vagrxnt - violet (nevrfall)

New song “Overdue” featuring Horosha
Apart of the “Sunsets and Heartbreaks” EP

-lyrics-
Cause I finally walked by our spot 
And my heart didn’t even drop
I guess I finally moved on 
Yeah I finally moved on 
I can send that message 
Say go to hell
Or I could ask if you’re doing well
I can finally do that 
Without saying coming back 
I can finally do that
I can finally do that
I can finally do that 

Cause this is overdue 
But I’m finally over you
Yeah this is overdue 
But I sent that message through 

So I’m not gonna hesitate this time
I can see through all your easy lies 
I tried and tried but it wasn’t love
Yeah I’ve finally had enough 

Cause this is overdue 
But I’m finally over you
Yeah this is overdue 
But I sent that message through 

(Horosha)
Where memories should be 
there’s a gaping wound 
But now I’m finding out 
That there’s still things 
I can learn about myself 
(The things you run from, will set you free) 
So I sent that message through 
And I don’t regret it
Even though moving on
Will  be so damn hard
I’ll fight through all the pain
To be my own damn person
Cuz after everything
I’m still worthy of love

Cause this is overdue 
But I’m finally over you
Yeah this is overdue 
But I sent that message through 

Cause as time passes I know I can’t change
All the memories will stay the same 
But I can do this one thing 
Sit there and let my phone ring 

Cause this is overdue 
But I’m finally over you
Yeah this is overdue 
But I sent that message through 
And it said fuck you
And everything you do 
You tore me apart 
When you had nothing to lose 
Now it’s just me 
And I finally see 
That everything happens for a reason
What’s meant to be  

Prod. Immortal
Mix by Yago & Horosha
Master by kanashi

Stream on Spotify!

OVERDUE (feat. Horosha) [prod. Immortal]

noizeyy has been a fun journey, but this is a new beginning i've been needing
thank you https://soundcloud.com/tearsonmygucci for the amazing feature <3

LYRICS

dxnny ¬

Can we slow it down cos baby i been exhausted
my intentions are good im just being honest
wasnt up for loving again until our eyes met
so give me time to adjust to this and process
dont want my fragile heart-becomin a target
but the last thing i want is to disregard this
spent the last few months, guarding my conscience 
but ima try give you all of me regardless

Regardless, regardlesss

ill let myself love you and hope it doesn’t turn toxic
see your actions turn bittersweet and turn caustic
tugging on my heartstrings- human fucking guitar pick
Finally put my soul in its place but then i lost it
dont wanna rush into your life without precautions 
without precautions without precautions
Ion wanna rush into your life without precautions

tearsonmygucci ¬

thought i took precautions
everything is rushing and it's got me feeling nauseous
i still got a hole where my heart should be
coz inside of her resides a piece of me

oh i can't forget
i feel her skin when I'm touching you i guess
I'm just hopeless
i can feel it
building up inside of me 
but i still hear it in my dreams
all the things you said to me

dxnny ¬

YOU TOLD ME YOU’D PROTECT MY HEART
THATS ALL I WANTED 
BUT YOU FUCKING LIED TO ME 
THAT TIME BACK IN AUGUST
I DONT WANNA FEEL YOUR LOVE IF ITS GONNA HARM ME 
ILL GO TO BACK TO TAKING THE SUBSTANCES THAT CALM ME
AND I WONT DIE, LEAVE MY BODY BEHIND 
LEAVE ME TO ROT INSECTS EAT MY INSIDES
I DREAD TO THINK BOUT THE SCENE YOU WILL FIND
WHEN YOU COME HOME
oh ohh oh

precautions ft tearsonmygucci (cian x lavendertxwn)

prod. sorrow bringer
artwork done by my gf :)

you broke me down was it worth it?

you broke me down was it worth it?
i’m breaking beneath the surface
waiting for a higher purpose
but i know that’s worthless
i fear not for the end
i know that i’ll be fine
cause i’m the after life 
i know that you’ll still be mine
i’m letting go of the past cause it was flawed by desgin

failed from the fucking beginning 
they were out to get me
but i ended up winning
so i’ll sit back and wait
while you take your place
fucking your lying games
you’re such a fucking waste time for me
now it’s time for you to see

you broke me beneath the surface
you’ll soon realize how worthless 
you were to me
i can finally breathe
i was on my knees 
begging for you to leave
my life for good this time
well it seems i finally got what’s mine

nothing can change my mind
nothing can help you now
watch as the blood drips down
from your eyes
while you cry
no surprise 

you broke me beneath the surface
you’ll soon realize how worthless 

you broke me beneath the surface
you’ll soon realize how worthless 
you were to me
i can finally breathe
i was on my knees 
begging for you to leave
my life for good this time
well it seems i finally got what’s mine

broken beneath the surface (sorrow bringer)

</3

lyrics:

it feels like
everybody fuckin hates me
and they're always so quick to replace me
ion even blame them..
im a fuck up and all i do is cause pain...
pain....
pain...

and i hate my life if im really being honest
im just a monster chillin in a closet
wish i could get myself together
nothin' ever changes but the weather
and i cant take a look at myself cuz i hate em
that reflection staring back man i fuckin hate him...
and i swear to god that im not overreacting 
falling apart all the time is very taxing on my head
i cant ever get ahead
cuz life fuckin hates me...especially lately...

nobody out there could ever save me
i been screaming at the top of my lungs
cant somebody out there make me feel alive?
alive? 

and i hate my life if im really being honest...

cuz life fuckin hates me
especially lately...

life. [+irby & jolst]

LYRICS¬

I been so 
Fucked 
sing my heart out feel the scarring on my lungs
Start a fight with emotions i think i lost
i can express all my feelings so tell me why
when im alone i still struggle to get a cry
out (struggle to get a cry out)
Hate this place, if i had money i think id fly outttt
travelling the -planet- sounds like good shouuut
drop social media then ill head south
tell my mama im sorry im turning-

Ghost now
Ghost now
Tell my mama im sorry im ghost nooow
Ooooooohhh

everything kept the same
but thats just commonplace

I wanna leave so bad
im sick of familiar faces
Ill play your games no longer
Ima discard your number
put the memories to rest in an 
eternal slumber

im in an astral state
blood-running cold through my veins
Stare through my pale face
hate -that you treat me this way
personality fades
but thats expected cos 
Lately baby ive been feeling so-

Fucked 
sing my heart out feel the scarring on my lungs
Start a fight with emotions i think i lost
i can express all my feelings so tell me why
when im alone i still struggle to get a cry
out 
Hate this place, if i had money i think id fly out
travelling the -planet- sounds like good shouuut
drop social media then ill head south
tell my mama im sorry im turning -

maesk

-Ghost now
Been keeping to myself, dont wanna talk
If I could I'd move out of this place at once

I look around im so misplaced 
Id love
Too press a button that would erase me, turn to dust

She shaking with the knife
Blood all on the carpet this not the first time
Nooowww
But my emotions underground 
I cant feel a thing I think my fuckin souls crushed

maesk & dxnny

Fucked 
sing my heart out feel the scarring on my lungs
Start a fight with emotions i think i lost
i can express all my feelings so tell me why
(Tell me why)
when im alone i still struggle to get a cry
out 
Hate this place, if i had money i think id fly out
travelling the -planet- sounds like good shouuut
drop social media then ill head south
tell my mama im sorry (im turning-)

ghost ft mæsk (cian)

LYRICS¬

I don't really wanna explain
got a lot on my chest that im struggling to relay
so i keep it hush for your sake
nobody ever listened in the first place
i could cry my heart out on a track and you’d forget it in like 4 days 
If you listened to my lyrics then you’d never be surprised that im not okay
no you’d never be surprised that im not okay
Woah,
lemme it slow down for a minute
i been fighting, im abouta reach my limit
Need pills with the potent stuff in it
cross out my own name off the hitlist
Uh 
and its non of your business
Who called it
But its obvious…
…oh its obvious

i could fight the demons, exorcise the monsters
but i could never save me from myself
tell me it gets better when I’m older
but you could never feel the pain i felt
I cant tell you how to make it better,
but i can understand you, if it helps
at least you know now, that were here together
trapped for, an eternity in hell

and oftentimes the thought of something’s
way more daunting than the fucking process
Panic causes me to digress and i push shit to the side when i should progress
and its holding me back
And i cant accept the facts
but it
Its fine
I
Ill make it 
this time

(I could never 
I could
I could never save me from myself
My hearts broken, 
i fall apart
all, the words i left
Unspoken)

helpless case
dont give me hope baby i know that you’re not here to stay
I know you’ll leave one day
Like everything ive ever loved you’ll slowly fade away
fade away

i could fight the demons, exorcise the monsters
but i could never save me from myself
tell me it gets better when I’m older
but you could never feel the pain i felt
I cant, tell you, how to, make it better,
but i can,understand you, if it helps
at least you know now, that were here together
trapped for, an eternity in hell

save me from myself (idealism)

my second full length album, dearly departing

fully produced and mastered by @jolst
artwork by @/ashleydhe on instagram

featuring:
@cherryrizla
@betweentheveinsandi
@ejcarrmusic

additional production by:
@irby314
@user-757072975
@taylor
@sainttomorrow
@pekarot_161

thank you all for everything. i hope you enjoy <3

lyrics:
i press pause & rewind
it all feels like a movie
maybe thats how i kill time
i swear its amusing
i make a victim of myself
& im crying to no one
its a cycle of nature,
and i live in darkness,
no moon & no sun 

i hope this reads like a letter
whenever you hear it
nothing would make me feel better
than knowing u feel it too
this island it paints me blue
sincerely, it’s cause of u
the way the leaves they hold me
it almost feels like u got to know me 

[evan]
wave after wave 
and i’ve been drowning in a sea of my own thoughts
a clear image of everything i’m not 
hold on and hope it’s not a lot

i know this too well 
here reading the same old story 
i’m stuck in this cycle 
all i can do is wonder if 

are you coming to save me 
i’m empty 
pull me out of the shit that’s preventing me
is it too late to get out of this 
draw my name in the sand are you coming to save me 

are you coming to save me 
am i coming to save me
i put it all line 
draw my name in the sand 
are you coming to save me

stream everywhere!

VIII. sincerely (ft. evan carr) [jolst x pekarot]

lyrics~

Ring your line knowing damn well you’re not picking up when im calling 
feel myself grow attached to you, tryna stay up but im falling
i just cant fucking wait for the days i see your face in the morning
wrap my arms round your waist, im still in awe you’re
heaven fallen.

Can you believe it all happened so fast?
Few months back still stuck in the past
now im just eager tryn’ find out whats next
vivid dreams of me kissing your neck
uh
I dont wanna fall back
in love with our story
i dont wanna revert to,
What it was before that

Oh If you could see me..

If i told you my secret..

Would that stop you from leaving..

Or would you still go
far away from this place in the snow
Stuck in mud i cant move anymore
Say you fucked up
So am i
Oh noo

I just wanna be the best for you 
Dont know if im up to the task
i was a drug addict, it surely wont be that long till i relapse
Can you handle it ?
Cos if you can, lemme know fast
I just want that guarantee that you’ll be there for me when i crash

Ring your line knowing damn well you’re not picking up when im calling 
feel myself grow attached to you, tryna stay up but im falling
i just cant fucking wait for the days i see your face in the morning
wrap my arms round your waist, im still in awe your heaven fallen.

Can you believe it all happened so fast?
Few months back still stuck in the past
now im just eager tryn’ find out whats next
vivid dreams of me kissing your neck
uh
I dont wanna fall back
in love with our story
i dont wanna revert to,
What it was before that

angel (autrioly)

im losing count what number single but its on the @fleshgolem album nonetheless

lyrics

my life is a ticking time bomb
u play the right song
and all of the wires will spark

life’s short then why it feel long?
i’m tryna right wrongs
while surrounded in dark

love myself
i’ve been tryna get to that place
no words said
i would never come out of that place
i don’t know what to say anymore
a thousand notes on my phone that’s jus stored

i wanna get to sleep on time
i been heavyheaded got a lotta stress on my mind
medicating just sleep at all
plenty ppl fall
but i can’t just lose what i used to die for

i don’t check the safety
just vibin lately
the pressure tryna take me
won’t let it change me 
suffer more suffer less, it’s all the same 
had no choice still a voice yelling change

she said can u lov me for the moment
but it don’t mean as much so y’s it so important 
u see thru my lens shit distorted 
why u want me to against the grain again and again
its jus pain, its jus pain, uh its jus pain its jus pain
￼

against the grain

against the grain (flesh x ertu)

08 [bonus track]

i see the house burn down over nite.
and id relive it all again in another life.. 

lyrics

face me 
the darkness will replace me

/

taste me
im overcooking tryna take heat

/

over done
is this how we are, is it over love

/

im tryna bring light to the things in the dark 
but it seems like it cant get any lower ugh

/

where were u when i called 
7am in the morn.
ran off w/ no notice
i swear i didnt leave those scars..scars

/

wanted its all i wanted x2

/

ik the walls r caving in
we cant b closed we're close to sin
ik the walls r caving in
ik the walls r caving 

/

pouring the gasoline all over the driveway
despite the fact we said we'd b living the right way
pouring whats left of the dark make me sideways 
its burning every edge of my soul in the right way

/

not a thing u could do could unblur in this high state
a fine face 
but no room, yeah no space 
its not much to me if i live well but dont die great

/

im changing, im changing, im changing form
and im changing
im taking off and im spacious
i love it here but i hate it 

/

in this lake i bleed my final form
ur words dont anything to me no more

/

wanted all i wanted was for u to save me
im not sorry, in this one life u cant redo shit

/

i been hella places
but nothing compares to the basics
the simple things in life we take for granted
its so hard to fake it

/

dangerous, but its so dangerous 
in this fucking storm
im taken by the wind
they'll take u in this form

/

theres not much
not much you can do about it 

/
let them take you how u are.
the world will be the same when you're gone.

save me from myself (idealism)

dxnny

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