@user-50370194 how am i ever gonna come back from this 😔😔

@knitplush you even try to be happy this morning bro?

emo rap classic yall nailed this, so well done

Used to listen to this all summer in 2023.

My 2023 Playback

w/ @sleepywater <3
prod @afterlife66 🖤

~~lyrics~~

easy to target
swear i’ve been honest
i’m still tryna rejuvenate
from the memories last august
ink drip from the ceiling
familiar feelings
to take time is to realize
what it really means to be healing

knees go numb when i reach for the shelf
there’s an old song that speaks of myself
but i’ve lost it; my subconscious 
won’t take away this blockage
it’s irritating; the way i hate it
all you are is full of nonsense

how you gonna say ur not into me
everytime you’re my enemy
i feel out of body
everytime im getting the…
drugs from my doctor
off a sedative, i forgot her
i feel like i deserve my happy ever after
i don't like it here, i like raptures
enrapture me for a disaster
i got wounds on me so where’s my plaster
in a room with me, i feel like casper
she don't touch me; i shatter
she dont trust me, i’m in tatters
i’m forever climbing up this
unforgiving ladder

i’m unfair & i know it
frustration; i bestow it
i’m shaking baby, yeah i’m aching,
maybe this is punishment for the broken
the sight that i see through my eye 
isn’t blind
a sigh of relief comforted by a lie
i can’t really take it, 
the pace that i’m making is 
turning me into the me i despise

fuck, i'll turn my back on ur ass & won't
 give it a thought or the time of the day
it doesn't matter, the wounds & the plaster are begging me
“autumn, you just gotta change”
if i go any faster, my body will splatter
 yet i'll be alive, put me outta the pain 
i pick up the fragments of me that just happen
to still be in tact, even after the rain

everything i spew out
i tell the same story
bout how you don't want me
never ever want me
how comes ur all up on me
i pull u, you don’t pull me
im stressed out, can't relax
another pill, i might relapse

i just don’t get it how this life
taught revenge and left me behind
no time to cry…
cause in the end you’ll be fine

how you gonna say ur not into me
everytime you’re my enemy
i feel out of body
everytime im getting the…
drugs from my doctor
off a sedative, i forgot her
i feel like i deserve my happy ever after
i don't like it here, i like raptures
enrapture me for a disaster
i got wounds on me so where’s my plaster
in a room with me, i feel like casper
she don't touch me; i shatter
she dont trust me, i’m in tatters
i’m forever climbing up this
unforgiving ladder

wounds & plaster w/ sleepwater [prod. afterlife]

old song , never dropped it because i lost the file .

this song dates back to 2020 i believe , i could be wrong

ribs

prod fats'e
w/
@heylog  &
@lilskeleskrrt

lyrics:

heylog:
ur across the states, i wish it wasn't the truth
it's either them or me, now ur gone.. you had to choose
so i gave you a piece of art i took time and drew
u can keep it forever, i hope it stays with u
you've got so much ahead of u and goals to accomplish
while i make a song saying "log u need to top this"
but god i'm tired and the struggle is real
i died and came back to life, now i can't feel

fats'e:
life goes on
can't say i didn't try
just not hard enough
found a new timeline
just tossed to the side
died and came back to life

we both come undone
feeling stuck in a loop
that i can't seem to outrun
feeling stuck in a loop can't escape

skele:
n god i’d love to talk 
but look just not right now 
got some shit to say 
i jus don’t know how 
i spent like every night alone jus fucking dreaming of you 
n love i know your hurting 
it kills me too 

n tell me why 
it always gets so hard 
getting out of bed 
feels like i’m heading to war 
n if i saw the reaper know he’d take me for sure
breaking down alone 
i put my head to the door 

i don’t get it 
i thought i was better 
u said it 
so why can’t i remember 
i’m sick of living like this 
i hate the medicine 
im sick of crying like this 
it never fucking ends 

n at this point think i’ve died twice 
really good at fucking up my life 
n i don’t care if you love me
i just need you to lie 
life goes on, i just don’t wanna try 
i got used to all the pain inside

died and came back to life (w/ heylog & skele)

MALICE  (feat. ❤)

mix master n all that by me
cover art sketch drawn by @punimonnn 
tysm 4 listening, hope u enjoy 
this song means a lot to me
show some love to the goat  @012207 who popped tf off on the prod <3

(2x)
i said i gotchu, don't you worry
shit ain't ever gonna happen
till my heart; it filled with fury
now i'm losing all attraction
don't wanna live inside the past-tense (past tense)
but i'm way too weak for taking action

everyone wanna party
while i can barely stand; fucking hardly
pack up my shit and just move on
treating myself like a nuisance
counting the days i've been awake
even in my dreams, i can't catch a break
"how many followers does it?!"
never enough, you fuckers are fake

i'm on ice, catchin' colds
in the night, crackin' codes
hold me tight; never leave
but it's nice being lone
laying low every week
in a hope that i peak
how your soul stayin' content
when the feelings never leave?

ion go outside
i'll just get another migraine
head and heart collide;
i guess that i'm a lightweight
blame it on bad timing
chakras ain't aligning
every step; i love me less
how long have i been crying?

four years; still despise me
took a lot to come out of hiding
took a lot right outta my psyche
but i'm putting all that shit behind me
this story's mine for the taking
i woke up, hands shaking
doing my best to face this
why can't i just erase it?

i said i gotchu, don't you worry
shit ain't ever gonna happen
till my heart; it filled with fury
now i'm losing all attraction
don't wanna live inside the past-tense (past tense)
but i'm way too weak for taking action

evil dances on my spine
twists of fate prove i'll be fine
i miss my sanctuary
find my sky like aviaries

(2x)
i'll re-find just another sunken hole in the ground
maybe then i'd rewrite
the pages that are scattered all around me

i said i gotchu, don't you worry
shit ain't ever gonna happen
till my heart; it filled with fury
now i'm losing all attraction
don't wanna live inside the past-tense (past tense)
but i'm way too weak for taking action

i-i-i
miss my- miss
w-weary
my sky like aviaries

attraction [prod. baz]

treading water got too difficult
i don't click with residuals
from straight out of their cubicles
there's something strangely beautiful
bout living here in this filth
after all the imitators are done and dusted
he still maybe might live
treading water got too difficult
i don't click with residuals
from straight out of their cubicles
there's something strangely beautiful
bout living here in this filth
after all the imitators are done and dusted
he still maybe might live

every song
that u get
is a piece
of my health
puppet strings control me
so for them make something else
she could kill me yet again
and this corpse would only sputter
this hope turns to
waiting for the waves to pull me under

treading water got too difficult
i don't click with residuals
from straight out of their cubicles
there's something strangely beautiful
bout living here in this filth
after all the imitators are done and dusted
he still maybe might live
treading water got too difficult
i don't click with residuals
from straight out of their cubicles
there's something strangely beautiful
bout living here in this filth
after all the imitators are done and dusted
he still maybe might live

i simply need someone's affection
but we could have phone sex
she says without idling
we store
idealized versions of eachother
in our heads
in our heads

i simply need someone's affection
but we could have phone sex
she says without idling
we store
idealized versions of eachother
in our heads
in our heads

treading water got too difficult
i don't click with residuals
from straight out of their cubicles
there's something strangely beautiful
bout living here in this filth
after all the imitators are done and dusted
he still maybe might live
treading water got too difficult
i don't click with residuals
from straight out of their cubicles
there's something strangely beautiful
bout living here in this filth
after all the imitators are done and dusted
he still maybe might live

residuals (afterlife x jolst)

video for disappear https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3UVq5v6jLk4

produced by @sinxi
lyrics

i am still her eyes lay heavy
ill keep you till you say I'm not ready
I was always ready, i was always ready
how is this real, your aim so steady
still buried where you left me
in frame is where ill never be
she claimed that she missed me
i don't really think that she missed me
she claims i sing you should hear me
i don't really think that you miss me

disappear

follow heylog

@heylog

support heylog - spotify - https://open.spotify.com/artist/5Jf6pl4SGgueZHZ4pC313c?si=4gRVQC47SBql7WYQ8JUpeA

lyrics - 

give the kinda love that i need right back
kinda on the fence but i'll take my chance
tired of the mistakes making me sad
can't get the thought of you outta my head

where do i go?
who can i trust to leave me alone
put on a show then go home
dying to know
i hate and i loathe
written in stone the words saying
'love you'

i'm missing all the memories
i can feel your soul slowly making less of me
safe to say it hurt to watch you leave
now there's no one left to help me here

you're feeling alone on a friday evening
try to hold on love i'm trying to see you
i know you're hurting, you stumble bleeding
i'll keep you whole
you're scared 
you can hold my hand
we'll walk alone, no light to guide
but i know where your heart is
and i know how you're feeling now

let go don't cry just

you're sick to death of me
you hoped i feel the same but it's
just too much to leave here
i'm dealing with the shame of it
thinking that you loved me
i cry and medicate
it's just too much to intake
i'll try my fucking best i
didn't wanna calm down
i'm tryna come to terms with it
molded my emotion
to feel like you're controlling it
so what's it gonna take right now?
gotta keep my feet on the ground

now that love has washed away
contemplating life and i’m sure you can relate
and i’ve seen better days
recently been bitter what’s the point if i ain’t gonna make it in life
i’m always stuck by your side
and can you do me the same
and stay close to mine

don’t leave now i still haven’t kissed you
when you walk out my house i already miss you
let’s snuggle here in the back of my car
our eyes meet the galaxy, we’re counting the stars
my dad says i need to be home before eleven
but she does not want me leave, “logan stay a second” 
a couple hours isn’t very long to spend that time with you
and i finally got the gut to lean in and kiss you

mistake w/heylog

introduction
prod/ft my good friend @greenwood2000
<3

lyrics:
something was stolen
something i borrowed
must’ve been open
must’ve been hollow
& open progression
is nothing but awful
i trample my thoughts
till they’re tougher to swallow

its passion that kills you,
the nerve’s gonna drive you insane
i can’t stand to look back
when the only thing there is your name
i took this as a loss
when i should’ve been counting the days
its a wish on a star
you’re the one thing that’s keeping me sane
i’m losing this game
when you’re learning to lose
well, the world isn’t spinning the same

greenwood:
I put some distance out into the worlds
And I never trip about the way that it hurts
And I think they buried me deep in the dirt
But trust me, and trust me it still could get worse

Seventeen years in a hospital bed 
And they treat me different I know what it is
And it'd take a year to explain what it did
When I got a phantom inside of my limbs

Closed down, held over
And I found the worst way to tell you
And I couldn't leave but I'd let you
And tell me you think I'll be dead soon

Held down, I'm closer
And I found the best way to end it
And I didn't sleep just pretended
And fucked up my life like your friends said

its passion that kills you,
the nerve’s gonna drive you insane
(cant take back what i said, 
im the one you can blame)
i can’t stand to look back
when the only thing there is your name
(not the man in your heart,
he had went with the pain)
i took this as a loss
when i should’ve been counting the days
(its a pattern i keep,
wish i’d throw it away)
its a wish on a star
you’re the one thing that’s keeping me sane
(i know its too late)
i’m losing this game
when you’re learning to lose
well, the world isn’t spinning the same

learning to lose

learning to lose w/ greenwood

spotify & apple music!

𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓮 𝓲𝓼 𝓼𝓸 𝓶𝓾𝓬𝓱 𝓫𝓮𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝔀𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝓲'𝓶 𝓷𝓾𝓶𝓫

@caspywaspy this turned out fckin incredible ilysm bro

- lyrics -
tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb

i got so much to say
but there's no point to mention it
i love to just decay
a void marks where my presence is
am i even around?
am i making a sound?
i smoke
and then i choke
and then i fold
im going deep into the ground

tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb

tape my fucking mouth and blow it shut
mixing different drinks with teeth and blood
nothing can erase the shit ive done

isolating myself in a wooden hut
listening to birds singing when im up
forget about the things that got me fucked

i can't keep people close
cuz of the wounds i hold
some new and some old
but none of them close
why do i keep drowning feelings
and not search healing in all of the people i know

tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb
tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb

all plats

somber w/ casperrr [prod. santana]

(prod. Chill Sebs)

now you see I have a problem
but my mind tells me lies its so hard now, hate me
used to bake in the night, don't forget me
its so sad, but i cry and it breaks me

why is everything so blacked out
I cant even feel my heart, when you're gone now
soul partner, in the night, how did I allow
you to leave me all alone in my sorrows
I'm blinded baby

cant you see
that I love you
now its hard
to get by
without trusting you
(baby)
babe you're so special
now its hard to deny
I don't need you, with me

aches in my bones
cold in the night
heart all alone
you're not by my side

you're precious
sweet as diamonds and candy
I cant imagine you leaving

I'm drowning in our memories
echoes of your touch
sleeping here at night
while you're out having fun
connected like the stars and moon in the night
you're the only one who I love, that's right

baby you're my soul partner, everything
I see when I dream
phone calls, and videos, sent from you to me
every little text I get from you makes me think 
of the little things, you do and how much they mean to me

cant you see
that I love you
now its hard
to get by
without trusting you
(baby)
babe you're so special
now its hard to deny
I don't need you, with me

aches in my bones
cold in the night
heart all alone
you're not by my side

you're precious
sweet as diamonds and candy
I cant imagine you leaving

soul partner

Insane To Love

Be Together

Original by title fight (head in the ceiling fan)
I do not own the instrumental in any way
Off the unfinished forestlovesong ep
Nobody can save me.

Bear(Interlude)

Eclipse (Interlude)(Prod. FIFTY GRAND)

It hurts...

RIP NORUE 💔
archive account i dont make music

somber w/ casperrr [prod. santana]

dylan lotus

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