2023

in a perfect world (prod. thislandis)

shoutout @juzo for the cover art :) give him a follow pls

lyrics:

AUTUMN

(rest my arms)
(where they cannot ever be harmed)
(cold to the touch)

there's certain days where i haven't been better!
but when the sun goes down
i know tomorrow will be bitter
i've lost my head; when the clock struck ten
the blade came crashing down & now i'm back where i had started
could give a fuck if i'm dramatic,
the reward could be prestine
if i take the pills they offer me
my dreams could be serene
but i never wanted that; figmentated lies
to put on a public act, for their brainwashed minds

EPITOME

every day i wake up just to do the same shit over and over again
it gets hard to even stand up when i don’t know who i am
i thought you were a friend
but where were you in the end
i see it’s all just pretend
now my wounds they won’t even mend
th-th-th-they won’t mend
nothing feels real 
am i fucking ghost
cant take time to heal
so i’ll put the knife up to my throat
just to see if i’m alive
and if i’m not than what am i?

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my wounds won’t mend w/ autumndropsdead (itamii)

n0sleep#NahNahFr w/ woee33

во мне другая кровь 
и я чувствую тепло 
нужна твоя любовь 
увидеть тебя еще
я таю на глазах
я вижу всю твою боль
терзает пустота 
оставив ожоги вновь

это все вроде бы сон
хотя знаешь я не спал
еще одно колесо
на вечер оставив зан
и ты больше не звонишь 
и я для тебя пропал
на моем футболке кровью
разрезы сердечных ран

демоны давно в башке 
я уже давно не тот 
мне нужно о всем забыть
мне нужно нажать на стоп 
мне нужно просто уйти
оставив тебя одну
мне нужно себя убить
мне нужно уйти ко дну

prod - smooky + FLOWRENCY + synthetic
mix me

other blood

Prod. Sixthells

Stepped into the shadows no dollars to my name
Even if you try to do the same yeah no one cares
Had to sacrifice every night and they get mad
I was all alone still the same damn thing
Ain't nothing change I"m still grinding 'til I lay
Had to cut some ties acting fake and fucking lame
All they do is hate hate hate hate hate
Then they  get a mic and they fucking do the same

In the shadows of the dead
We all fall apart we all lose our head
In the water I feel empty 
I can dream when no ones there
In the shadows of the dead
We all fall apart we all lose our head
In the water I feel empty 
I can dream when no ones there

Living in the cold weather shit will leave you hollow
Thinking about the days used to wanna be a scholar
I don't wanna change still the same damn pain
Standing in the rain as I swing my blade
Out of  my head
Out of my mind
I never cared and don't ask me why
Somedays I'm scared
Somedays I try
I'll never kneel yeah they won't take my pride

standing in the rain

LYRICS:

I'm too fucked up to be in public
Anxious at the function, got this feeling in my stomach
I see people dancing drunk, in a few hours they'll be fucking
But I'll go home alone and fall asleep; remember nothing
Baby, waking up is such a chore
I'm always high or else I'm bored
I gotta pick myself up off the floor
One day I'll see the world (and I'll see)

One day, I'll wake up and I won't have a headache
Chest pains, blame it on the drugs or on the heartbreak
Today, I woke up and I don't feel right
I guess I'll try again in the next life
One day, I'll wake up and I won't have a headache
Chest pains, blame it on the drugs or on the heartbreak
Today, I woke up and I don't feel right
I guess I'll try again in the next life

I don't wanna talk, I wanna end it, no discussion
Give me everything I wanted, I'll return it like it's nothing
Make it back tomorrow night and go to heaven in the morning
The devil's in the book, but I'm too good at telling stories
So I wake up, say a little prayer for all the dead ones
Take one, and stay the fuck away from all the fake love
Guess I'll make it through somehow
Tell me, darling, how soon is now?

I don't know what the fuck to call it
I'm always in withdrawal, I'm like a fucking alcoholic
But with you it's something special, I can tell that's why I lost it
I don't wanna talk, honestly, wish I went to college
Cuz I'm sick of all the run-around
You hate my guts, I hate this town
I hate the things I write about
Cuz soon we'll all be dead (but fuck it maybe)

One day, I'll wake up and I won't have a headache
Chest pains, blame it on the drugs or on the heartbreak
Today, I woke up and I don't feel right
I guess I'll try again in the next life
One day, I'll wake up and I won't have a headache
Chest pains, blame it on the drugs or on the heartbreak
Today, I woke up and I don't feel right
I guess I'll try again in the next life

ONE DAY

BREATHE(PROD.JACKPOTT)

She like my backseat
All black s14
I can’t feel a thing
My cup filled with lean

That bitch on her knees
All black s14
I cant feel a thing
This cup make me mean, yeah

Dresses in Tommy h
I’ve been feeling cold
I can’t feel my face
No one hit my phone
Till I bought a plane
Did this on my own
Mercedes all gray

I might call you later
I might roll a paper
I won’t see you later
I’m a space invader

Blondies off a perc
They know I’m a jerk
They still got my name up on their Valentino skirts
I put in that work
Not home never hurt
How yall wear designer and still look like fucking dirt

She like my backseat
All black s14
I cant feel a thing
My cup filled with lean

That bitch on her knees
All black s14
I can’t feel a thing
This cup make me mean, yeah

space invader

not home. - space invader (frozy X quintuple)

i dont think u understand
what i meant when i said that theres parts i want to fix
i was talking bout myself cuz i saw me turning out different than this
kiss ur lips
fight for the hell of it
be content for a little bit
shes an angel
she fell from the sky
n ur arms feel like heaven where i lie
its a beautiful place to die

all these sand traps slowing down my grind
she concerned for my health n my life
i feel the fel energy inside
im either high on my shame or my pride

i dont think u understand 
give in to ur every demand 
i dont think u understand 
give it all the energy i have 
i feel it inside
cast it aside
our feet in the grass
think i turned to a ghost
i would stay by you when it hurt most
a swing n a miss
man was i ever close?
been on my mind i dont know if it shows
i dont think u understand
give in to ur every demand
i dont think u understand

all these sand traps slowing down my grind
she concerned for my health n my life
i feel the fel energy inside
im either high on my shame or my pride

fel w/ evergarden (nathan p)

produced melon

i'm always so boring
can't keep up, i'm sorry
when i tell her my story
she's not listening
oh she won't give a shit
about it

it should be okay
but i can't seem to cope yet
makes me ache, feeling hopeless
without you it's lonely

oh it goes lower
why am i shaking every hour?
why am i still not fucking over you
lonely
told me to let go you wont
hold me
everything i want is you
dont go
it shouldn't bother me (but it bothers me)
my smile fades rapidly
oh i dont want to end it here

i know about my flaws
i'm far from enough
maybe worse than you thought
but my heart is all yours
you could smash it on the floor
but it would still belong to you
its you who i really adore (who i adore)
now my heart gets cold just like the north (like- like in)
without you it's lonely

oh it goes lower
why am i shaking every hour?
why am i still not fucking over you
lonely
told me to let go you wont
hold me
everything i want is you
dont go
it shouldn't bother me (but it bothers me)
my smile fades rapidly
oh i dont want to end it here

fast

"Access to Life" is a ciphered indictment of the healthcare-industrial complex, where the right to life has been rebranded as the right to access — and access is sold at a premium. The lyric exposes how insurance companies, Big Pharma, and state-backed policy architects profit from human suffering, turning breath into a billable commodity and pain into a monetized asset.
Carved from lived frustration and systemic critique, Access to Life responds to a world where healthcare is hostage-taking and survival is priced. It maps how policy is shaped by donor-class interests, how coverage is denied through bureaucratic delay, and how the poor are priced out of dignity.
It’s a tribute to those navigating this system daily — the uninsured, the underpaid, the overbilled. The suite blends ciphered realism with emotional sharpness, turning testimony into sonic resistance.
The suite moves through four strategic verses:
Premiums on Breath: clinics as cash registers, life as subscription
The Donor Class Doctrine: lawmakers legislating for their sponsors
Hospitals as Hedge Funds: care delayed, profit accrued
The Fine Print of Survival: choice without means, contracts over creeds
The hook lands like gospel testimony:
Access to life, but not to care. Coverage denied while profits flare.

Access to Life   #Hip-hop R&B Cipher Rap

A descent into divine chaos — Throne of a Thousand Bloodlines fuses gothic rock, dark trap, and cinematic spoken word into an apocalyptic symphony of power and transcendence.
Each track bleeds with ancestral fury and poetic prophecy, where empires, souls, and gods collide in the same breath.

Steven Lanier-Egu channels the voice of the broken king — half mortal, half myth — merging the sacred and the profane through thunderous rhythm, haunting choirs, and verses carved in blood and fire. This is not just an album; it’s an invocation.

Every word is a crown.
Every sound, a resurrection.
Welcome to the empire reborn — where every throne converges, and the blood remembers.

Throne of a Thousand Bloodlines

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LYRICS:
Don’t ball 
But I sleep at night 
Demons in it for the wrong and they’re lying 
I don’t want a jewel or a Diamond 
Give me something more 
I need rocks if we’re mining 
Don’t ball 
But I sleep at night 
Something wakes me up in the morning 
Ou I need the sweet sweet smell of marijuana leaves 
Miss me with the money bags not the trees 

Sorry to my mom sorry to my dad 
Wish I could come home with the money bags 
I know I’m the only one here not at work 
I don’t get paid every week but I work 
Sorry to my mom sorry to my dad 
Wish I could come home with the money bags 
EDOG in the building, imma break the ceilings 
I don’t think you feel me, am I too overwhelming? 

Don’t ball But I sleep at night 
Demons in it for the wrong and they’re lying 
I don’t want a watch or a Diamond 
Give me something more 
if we’re dying 
Don’t ball 
But I sleep at night 
Something wakes me up in the morning 
Something bout the sweet sweet smell of marijuana leaves 
Miss me with the money bags not the trees 

Maserati, no speed race 
No thotties up this way 
That bitch, she fake 
That bitch, erase 
No bull, this my fourth flow 
I want a Minaj on my torso 
I don’t want no broads in my court hoe 
You need something more than your asshole 
You ain’t nothing more than back door whore 
You ain’t nothing more than your pills on the floor 

Dont ball But I sleep at night 
Demons in it for the wrong and they’re lying 
I don’t want a jewel or a Diamond 
Give me something more 
if we’re dying 
Don’t ball But I sleep at night 
Something wakes me up in the morning 
Something bout the sweet sweet smell of marijuana leaves 
Miss me with the money bags not the treesx3 

(Don’t Ball But I Sleep At Night)

Eryn Martin - Ball
Produced by: David Morse
Directed by: MidVessel

© 2019 Cinematic Music Group

MUSIC VIDEO

Ball

thats why prod darkboy x arso

Трек в VK: https://vk.com/cxld_smxke?w=wall-186631719_476

Текст: https://genius.com/Cxld-smxke-hurricane-lyrics

my wounds won’t mend w/ autumndropsdead (itamii)

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