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Lyrics

I've got a leak in my soul
I don't think nobody knows
What I think bout when I'm all alone
I never know where to go
But I never let anyone in
How could I let someone in
When I believe that the reason I'm hurt
Is because I started to let anyone in?

Oh why do I feel like this a lot?
God I just want it stop
No lie, I might just make it all stop
And there ain't no one to stop me

I don't think nobody got me
All of these bad thoughts got me
Inside a hole, where do I go?
I'll never know

I'm so cold, I don't think I feel a thing
I just wanna get a pole, put a bullet in my brain
I know you ain't wanna know about the shit that I can say
When I'm in my room alone, letting out all of this pain

But I gotta let it out, yeah I gotta let it fly
I don't wanna see you pout, I don't wanna see you cry
When you see I'm out of time in the moment that I die
Cause when I was still alive you ain't pull me to to the side

I've got a leak in my soul
I don't think nobody knows
What I think bout when I'm all alone
I never know where to go
But I never let anyone in
How could I let someone in
When I believe that the reason I'm hurt
Is because I started to let anyone in?

Oh why do I feel like this a lot?
God I just want it stop
No lie, I might just make it all stop
And there ain't no one to stop me

I don't think nobody got me
All of these bad thoughts got me
Inside a hole, where do I go?
I'll never know

alone. | Produced by sketchmyname

I don’t wanna do this anymore 
leave me dead here on the floor 
I don’t wanna sleep in bed 
Since you left me all alone 
I feel your presence everywhere 
your voice is in the air 
I wish you didn’t think that I just never fucking cared 

I’m falling apart again 
I get no rest at night 
heart beating, I’m alive, I’m never getting high 
cause I’m broken from the feeling that you left inside 
my heart, cause It was hard for me to stop feeding you all those lies 

there’s no excuse for my shitty behavior 
maybe you just fuckin did yourself a favor 
I’m a fuck up and I don’t deserve you 
5 years of every memory I’ll never forget you 

I don’t blame you for leaving me alone 
Cause I know, you’re better off without me 

I’m going days without eating again 
I’m broke and I’m barely getting out of my bed 
I’m getting fucked up every chance that I get 
cause I never want to feel this feeling of regret pounding my chest 
In my head it’s always gonna be my fault 
I’m closed off and I bottle up everything I should talk about 
it’s so hard for me to say it out loud 
But I am not okay and I don’t see a way out

i don't wanna do this anymore... (prod. Afterlife x Pekarot)

lyrics:

I could care less
about what you tell you friends
I could write this song like its just a trend
maybe this time i might let it end
i might let it end

Baby i might let you win
i cant pretend shit again
telling lies to all your friends
i see what you say to him
tell him what i did tonight
i dont wanna pretend that im right
i feel like you tell another lie to him
wear another crown on his head tonight
hold him tight
tell him that hell be just fine
i just wanna know if you lied

feelnum
i know that this is the end and
that you wanna be friends
but i just wish that the outcome
could be different
and all the shit that you talk
with all of your friends
i know you told me to be strong 
but i cant

i lie, you lie baby girl whats new?
you act like i cant be someone you
but im not over you
i know its overdue
but im not over you 
and everything that weve been through

icldcareless +feelnum (jolst)

Pretend again like you love it
Pretend again like you love it
Pretend again like you love it
Lay me down let me rest I deserve it 
Let me guess you just saw me as a person 
Under stress easy next then a burden 
Maybe let's let it scar let worsen 

Go ahead and tell yourself what you need to 
Know the weekend it's the only time I see you 
Wouldn't wanna get in the way or go and say too much 
Know if I let it fade then we'll just lose touch 
I think I'm a pessimist 
Tell me lies tell me lies let me make a list 
Put on you disguise so I never get 
Any solid part of you don't let me in 
            
I don't know how to say this 
I think we're overplayed when
Have you check the temperature baby 
It's 32 where we at lately 
I don't know how to say this 
I think we're overplayed when
Have you check the temperature baby 
It's 32 where we at lately

You say you'll make adjustments one day 
Say you don't want this okay  
Pack all your things and just wait 

Lay me down let me rest I deserve it 
Let me guess you just saw me as a person 
Under stress easy next then a burden 
Maybe let's let it scar let worsen 
Lay me down let me rest I deserve it 
Let me guess you just saw me as a person 
Under stress easy next then a burden 
Maybe let's let it scar let worsen 
Pretend again like you love it 
Late nights fake highs no fun when
Hears split like this cuz nothing
Other than we had it coming
I don't know how to say this 
I think we're overplayed when
Have you check the temperature baby 
It's 32 where we at lately 
I don't know how to say this 
I think we're overplayed when
Have you check the temperature baby 
It's 32 where we at lately

32° (prod. splashgvng & ayoleybeats)

i wish i could tell you i need you (+lilac heart + jolst)

deadboy (prod.thersx)

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lone + ghost

eleven months and its all bad news

shoutout @fantasycamp for the incredible song
& @hellahaunted for one of my favorite beats ever

much love to whoever listens <3

eleven months (cover) [caves]

Mixed and mastered by @southhum
Produced by Lilidentitycrisis 
Artwork by @33life

when you met me

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Lyrics 

I see it when the lights go down yeah 
The flame in my eyes ignites
I’m watching as it all burns down
The time is coming for you to fight
I see it happen all of the time
One chance and let they let it slide
Breakdown at the end of the night
The time is coming for you to fight

Ice cold heart with a poker face to match
i’m the 13th son i’m the best of the batch
Diamond under pressure cut me i don’t scratch
Carrying the weight of this world on my back
Watching as your walls fall down
Shallowest of ego’s but you still gon drown
Respect isn’t given it’s got to be earned
Play with this fire and you gon get burned
I spend my time walking round this town
Fakes is all i see
The only thing i ask if my circle
Is keep it real with me
I see it happen all of the time
1 chance and let they let it slide
Breakdown at the end of the night
The time is coming for you to fight

Ice cold heart with a poker face to match
i’m the 13th son i’m the best of the batch
Diamond under pressure cut me i don’t scratch
Carrying the weight of this world on my back

Hold up hold up better check yourself
The time is coming for you to free the reigns of hell
It’s your choice 
It’s your life 
It’s your heart your soul to sell
Step up to me
Or get out my line
I’m bout to lose my mind 
Respect isn’t given, it’s got to be earned
Play with this fire and you gon get burned


I see it when the lights go down yeah 
The flame in my eyes ignites
I’m watching as it all burns down
The time is coming for you to fight

Pyrotoxin (prod. sorrow bringer)

This song is about the city, Davenport, I was born in. The sample at the beginning is from my 3rd birthday. I hope you enjoy, available on all platforms!

davenport

On all platforms

Walk Away- Jake Hill

maybe i need saving...

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Lyrics:

I could, be the one you hold on to
And not just the spare change, you keep in your coat

I don’t wanna see you
No, you’re not same now
Wonder where you went to
I’ve been falling down
Ever since u left my life I’ve been astray

Thrown away like spare change
Maybe I need saving
And if we ever cross paths
Will u walk on by
Last time I met your eyes they just looked away

All the nights that we would hide away
All the life we built now in the grave
Hoping that it wasn’t all for nothing

I could, be the one you hold on to
And not just the spare change, you keep in your coat

I could, love you like no one else would
At least that’s what I’d say as I watch you go

Don’t know where I’m going
No one there to guide me
Fine with being lost  
I feel like a lost cause
All I say is sorry
Still so far away

Everything I could say
Never had the words to
Wishin I had spoke up
Playing through my head
Wonder where we’d be now
If I called your name

All the times I held you while you cried
All the words words we whispered late at night
Hoping that it all meant something

I could, be the one you hold on to
And not just the spare change, you keep in your coat

I could, love you like no one else would
At least that’s what I’d say as I watch you go

Music video

Spare Change

stop waistin’ my time
its a test of why yeah
she’s stuck in my mind
cause i cant get over you
cant stay sober
my life is over
im shaking down my spine
im calling it quits
dont give a fuck
keep it the way it is
nothing ain’t simple
i’d rather waste the time
nothing aint worth my time
bottle of decay
smokin on thraxx
walk a mile in ma shoes
yeah i dont wanna do this
and i feel so useless
make a mil goin through this
stop waistin’ my time
its a test of why yeah
she’s stuck in my mind
cause i cant get over you
cant stay sober
my life is over
im shaking down my spine
im calling it quits
dont give a fuck
keep it the way it is
bottle of decay
smokin on thraxxx
walk a mile in ma shoes
yeah i dont wanna do this

bottle o' decay (prod. grayskies)

More Than Love

More Than Love (sold)

Just like you (Ft. Spaceman Zack)

Dancing_alone.png [Prod. Yungspolier]

Lyrics:
ion really care what your boyfriend say
runnin thru my mind its like every single day
anything you want cause i just got paid
you dont want it now so ill be on my way

i just had to block you i been done
lock up on my heart cause i been stung
smoke up in the room now its in my lungs
if im gonna die ima make it fun

why you always lookin, to start some trouble cookin
up schemes for words you snook in, you break my heart you took it

why cant you just leave me alone

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