Wish I could have left my mark on this when i listend to it on spotify 5 years ago

i got demons in my orbit that i’m tryna rid

haunting from the inside

lyrics
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don't do it for them
do it for yourself maybe
disguising the truth
convincing myself they hate me
are you really there
or am i just talking to myself
i'll do it again
i'll stay up and watch the sunrise
on top of the shed
i wish i could stay here all night 
i don't understand
why is it always just like this

i miss drinking until 6am
with all of my friends
even ones i just met
hey owen i hope that you're listening man
you helped me get outta my bedroom again
i was on the verge of the end of it all
but nobody knew at all
and i wish that i could get stuck in the past
back before we started moving so fast
standing this still is a choice that won't last
and neither will we so i guess it's a wrap
from here i see this so clearly
at the edge of the world still in fear of my feelings

(at the edge of the world still in fear of my feelings x2)

i had everything mapped to a t
but everything here isn't quite as it seems
there's blood everywhere from the heart on my sleeve
a permanent fix yeah i wanted to leave it
all behind me
cauterizing
the thread on my wings so i'm no longer flying
help
i'm trying to climb out this hell
but it's hard to talk when i lack
all the skills that i need to get outta my shell
i'm not scared to jump so just please don't come near me
when i hit the bottom is when they'll start cheering
and now i'm a ghost i don't know if you're hearing this

and now i'm a ghost i don't know if you hear me
and now i'm a ghost oh hello can you hear me

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geronimo (prod. 93feetofsmoke)

produced by @notmorgn

im a waste of space just like the air between our lips
i dont really have a purpose i just take other sip
man this bottle make me feel so numb
gimme a penny for my thoughts
so i can buy a fuckin gun
imma blow my brains out and leave them on the floor
please drown my memories so they wash up on the shore
and while ur out socializing im behind a locked door
and when the sun goes down i feel way better than before 
just like an owl 
my head is doing 360's
back of the party 
and im flippin on switch blades
these bitches looking at me like im crazy
yeah im so cold my wrist is like 150
and please take a step back
cus we were never that close
i lost a lot of fucking trust
that night by the coast
it was 3 AM 
i had drugs in my coat
i had vodka in that water bottle just so i can float
just so i could float

waste of space

Ｉ　ＤＯＮ＇Ｔ　ＴＨＩＮＫ　Ｉ＇Ｍ　ＲＥＡＬ

//私の軌道の悪魔//

i can't thank you guys enough for the endless amount of love & support you've given me since the start. i never thought in a million years we'd be where we're at right now & it's crazy to me that we still continue to grow. it's always been a release for me to let loose on a track & hear what you guys think of it. it's always been for the people & for myself. i love waking up every morning & reading every single comment, every single message, etc. you guys put the biggest fucking smiles on my face & i hope you all know i'm here for you as much as you're here for me. i've struggled with my anxiety & depression for years & to know a lot of you are going through the same things is somewhat comforting. we're in this together. i couldn't do any of this without you guys. we're gonna strive & do great things, i promise. don't let your demons get the best of you. i hope you enjoy this one. i love you

check out the music video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xtv87HVgnpo&t=1s

art by chunniboy
be sure to give him lots of love
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music video

demons in my orbit

prod @notmorgn

listen on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gd_Xqqx_St8

whats wrong or whats right
im bouta take a flight like should i say goodbye 
fuck that imma hold onto my pride
momma raised a soldier so i can't afford to cry
lookin back i see the knife in my back now
lookin at life wishing i was in the background 
lookin back i see my future in the past now
90 in the whip like should i crash now

im so sick of this im so sick of shit nobody listening 
demons all around diamonds wet just like a christening 
wait why you always high when you call me
why'd u ask what's wrong when you saw me (X2)

chemicals running through my veins i just wanna sleep 
feelings bleeding out my brain but right now i can't feel a thing 
woke up late time to waste away
my favorite days are the rainy days
let it soak in then i throw it all away
i try my best but this feeling always stays
you know i try but you gotta gimme space
and i dont wanna hurt you if you get in my way

(hook)

reach out just to waste my time
its the young waste of space 
with his headphones on
call me when you need me baby
but i know im the last resort
you said that you love me
how the fuck could you just love a ghost
you said that you love me baby
i said we are not that close

(hook)

reach out just to waste my time
its the young waste of space 
with his headphones on
call me when you need me baby
but i know im the last resort
you said that you love me
how the fuck could you just love a ghost
you said that you love me baby
i said we are not that close

im so sick of this

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actually i'm good ft. ℒund (prod. martensite)

Ｉ　ＤＯＮ＇Ｔ　ＷＡＮＮＡ　ＢＥ　ＳＯＢＥＲ

//私の時間は終わった//

lyrics

doormat

Ｉ　ＷＡＳ　ＳＯ　ＬＯＳＴ　ＩＮ　ＹＯＵ
ＴＨＡＴ　Ｉ　ＬＯＳＴ　ＭＹＳＥＬＦ

//私がいなくなったら後悔するよ//

i wanted to release a lil' something for you guys as a thank you for everything you've done for me. a year ago, i was just a kid in my bedroom trying to figure out himself. fucking around with beats all day, smoking weed all night. i was depressed. hell, i'm still depressed & sometimes it feels like i don't know myself anymore, but this music has been the only thing that has made complete sense to me since the start & to know i'm helping you guys all whilst you help me is beyond beautiful. i'm so lucky to be where i'm at today. to be alive with all of you in my life. don't ever tell yourself that you won't amount to anything cause you're worth much more than you'll tell yourself & i promise once you find something you're truly passionate about and you dive deep into it, you'll feel a sense of purpose. there you'll find happiness. don't ever give up on yourself. i won't give up on you.

i love you

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trafalgar (prod. by hateful)

if i die baby (prod. reaper)

prod. by @partysmartie

lyrics
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lie to me 
i think i finally 
struck a chord violently
ripped it right out the seams
hide and seek
they found another body by the creek 
the killers out on a spree
i'm afraid of everything i see

there's a ghost inside my bedroom 
at least i'm not alone but i can just pretend to
be awake with everything that i attend to
or sleep the day away & probably offend you 
i don't wanna waste another minute 
i can see the voices in your head don't wanna listen
the light reflects the glass you turn to dust & start to glisten 
kissin' you inside your bed is something i've been fuckin' missing
 
at night I turn my fears into my art 
crept inside my chest & ripped my beating heart apart 
i'll be wheezing coughing up their blood my demons will depart
imma add em up & drag em to the basement where i start
fix myself with bandages and roaches from last week
i've been searching for a purpose in some sugar coated sweets 
take a swisher & i crack it in the middle of the street
i could spark another thirty i'm not leavin' till i peak

lie to me 
i think i finally 
struck a chord violently
ripped it right out the seams
hide and seek
they found another body by the creek 
the killers out on a spree
i'm afraid of everything i see

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by the creek (prod. by partysmartie)

ＴＵＲＮ　ＡＲＯＵＮＤ　＆　ＷＡＬＫ　ＡＬＯＮＥ

//私は十分に話していない//

lyrics
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when she goes i kiss her on the nose
tell her i love her so
turn around and walk alone
when she goes i smoke till i implode
coughing till i'm a ghost
i'm swimming to the coast 
where am i going
full of disgrace and self loathing
i cannot sleep without you in my sheets
so i stay up all night just hoping
that you come back but there's nothing
i guess i'm wishing for something
lost in a love with a girl whose a dove
and a crow of a boy that's been bluffing

i am just nothing
i am just nothing

when she goes i pick another rose
rip petals till i don't
that's just the way it goes 
when she cries i write another note
put it inside her coat
start clearin' out my throat

i never talk enough baby
trip over words like i'm crazy

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when she goes (prod. by taurusmoon)

ＨＯＷ　ＤＩＤ　ＷＥ　
ＤＥＳＴＲＯＹ　ＥＡＣＨ　ＯＴＨＥＲ？

//私たちは病気です//

tysm to @jvbeats666 for creating this beauty with me
go show him some luv 

lyrics
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whiskey pour another cup
nothing like the feeling of getting so fucked up
off the last lost breath of a lover that you once
had but she ran with a man much better than yourself
i think i need help
i think i can touch the sky & grip orion's belt
taking off my vans full of sand and some shells
heaven ain't the place for me but i can hear the bells

they say that an angel is self defined 
so when i describe
the girl that lost her mind
the sky will probably cry
but the rain won't mind
if you cry too
feel alive when the sky makes the clouds move
raindrops fall but i fall harder 
light reflects off the water in the harbor
i don't care to compare what i'm told
to what i believe cause i'm still all alone


i've been tryna get back home
but i don't know which road
to take before i can awake from this nightmare
i'm cold
all alone
got the wind straight blowin' in my face i can feel it in my bones
if i smoke
will the clouds lift my body from this place cause i don't feel at home

what's a home without a lover
what's a road without another
how did we destroy each other
how did we destroy each other

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all alone (prod. jay vee)

Ｉ　ＴＨＩＮＫ　Ｉ　ＬＯＶＥ　ＹＯＵ　
ＢＵＴ　Ｉ＇Ｍ　ＮＯＴ　ＳＵＲＥ　ＷＨＹ

//私は理由を知らない//

lyrics
--------
you see now
i get it
my heart is in your hands
and if i move too quickly
a broken hearts my plan
a fever don't sweat it
i know love is hard to grasp
sincerely the poison 
that's swirling in your glass

i could probably stand
if i tried to love again
if i tried to live out my life
and i could probably stand 
if i had another chance
if i close the curtains & dim the lights

but i heard it gets easier 
and the leaves fall but they don't hurt
when the winter hits i'll probably die inside
but that's okay that's okay that's alright
that's okay that's okay that's alright
that's okay that's okay that's alright
i don't really mind
cause death is just an obstacle that i'll probably survive

(i know it's all in my head)

i still have your sweatshirt
yeah you left it here last week
and it's gray with the blue text
of the college that you seek
i'll take you wherever
it is you wanna be
and we'll crash in my bedroom
although you're no good for me

i never know why
my love is blind
hand me the scissors
i'll cut out my eyes
this ain't what i 
had in my mind
i think i love you
but i'm not sure why

okay

ＹＯＵ＇ＲＥ　ＴＯＯ　ＦＵＣＫＩＮＧ
ＧＯＯＤ　ＦＯＲ　ＭＥ

//あなたのために欲望//

lyrics
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lust always a problem
you could never solve it
i can never get the fuck away from what i think 
if she tryna come though
i could make her cum so
baby is it him you really want or is it me? 
this ain't ever work nah
this'll never work out
don't you know that you are way too fucking good for me?
if she ever calls back
i hope that she knows that
i could never see all of the good she sees in me (x2)
you're too fuckin' good for me (x3)

let's kiss up on eachother 
biting on your neck while you're thinking about another
love is lost in lust and girl you know we crave eachother
when the time we have is gone the memories will cluster 

lust always a problem
you could never solve it
i can never get the fuck away from what i think 
if she tryna come though
i could make her cum so
baby is it him you really want or is it me? 
this ain't ever work nah
this'll never work out
don't you know that you are way too fucking good for me?
if she ever calls back
i hope that she knows that
i could never see all of the good she sees in me (x2)
you're too fuckin' good for me (x3)

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lust (prod. tothegood)

lyrics
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i bet you like
the way that i
sit inside on a friday night
doing nothing with my life
while you’re out partying with other guys 
but i’m not wise 
& these aren't lies
according to you it’s all in my mind
but i see the things that they post online
and it makes me sick to my fucking spine
i worry a lot about the day you leave 
cause the day you leave is the day i leave 
and i think too much about suicide 
about killing time 
about time i try 
something new 
cause this shit gets old but i love the way that she says i love you
and i tried many times to rewind to the days you were mine
and i tried many times to erase what we made what have i done
cause a part of me died when you left in november that night 
think he’s right beside you telling you what to say to me why
do i think what i think cause i think i’m in love with a lie

inside

Produced by ℒund & Forest
"Halloween But All Year" coming 10/31

lyrics:

ℒund:
Love is like a twister
And girl you got me shook up
I know I shouldn’t miss you 
When your the one that fucked up
But thats just a heartbreak 
Pulling on my heartstrings 
Girl you make my heartache
I'm used to all this pain now
Head full of voices
I'm going insane now
There's nothing you can change now
They gon' find me hanging
You're the one to blame now

Forest:
I’ve seen you before
Outside that door
What you staring for
Girl I know you want more
Wanna see my room
I could give you a tour
And if it gets cold
I could light a fire
That could keep you warm
Feeling so torn
Feelings hit me like storm
Deja vu, oh my lord

Forest & ℒund:
All The Time
You Ruin My Mind
All I Want
Is to be with you
That’s all I Want

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heartache ft. ℒund

needle & thread

make your dreams your reality

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