I was missing someone close to me in my life, so I did this song with @yoimn3ver to vent my feelings.

I Cant Sleep Without U(feat. teddyboi) |  [Prod. LDN Calling]

Big thanks to @devilboyxo for being on this track and doing the cover art <3

lyrics:

(HeyLee Manzeron)
(leave the lies to the broken liars)
(Leave the lies to the broken liars)


Take that
Scratch that
Do it 'till you're mortified
Oh yeah, you lit my soul on fire
Half truths
Have-nots
Do you really wanna try?
Leave the lies to the broken liars
Take that
Scratch that
Do it 'till you're mortified
Oh yeah, you lit my soul on fire
Half truths
Have-nots
Do you really wanna try?
Leave the lies to the broken liars

Fighting my mental, fighting my mental
Now HeyLee's fuckin' back and now she's fighting her mental
Fighting my mental, fighting my mental
Now HeyLee's fuckin' back and-(aaaaa)
fighting my mental

Yeah, yeah, mortified
every fuckin' single night
everything I do or try
nothing seems to satisfy
I get behind all these reasons that I'll never realise 
The projects that I left in my vault will never see the light

Such a pretty mouth
You like to talk about
All the chelsea smiles you leave, just like a calling card
You've gone too far and I need to move on
Move on and keep my distance

Fighting my mental, fighting my mental
Now HeyLee's fuckin' back and now she's fighting her mental
And all the fist fights were not coincidental
Fighting my mental


(SCAR$)
Now she slidin' in my dm's asking 'bout my mental
She your bitch and my rental 

Woke up 2am
Ask me what i'm up to
Now she wanna come through
Now she suck my whole crew

All her friends love SCAR
'Cause im shining like a star
Me and HeyLee goin' far
You gon' know who we are

And yeah you hate that you love me
Yeah you hate that you want me

And she the freaky type
"Gag me when you fuck me" type
Yeah she the freaky type
Black corset and fangs type


(HeyLee Manzeron)
Take that
Scratch that
Do it 'till you're mortified
Oh yeah, you lit my soul on fire
Half truths
Have-nots
Do you really wanna try?
Leave the lies to the broken liars
Take that
Scratch that
Do it 'till you're mortified
Oh yeah, you lit my soul on fire
Half truths
Have-nots
Do you really wanna try?
Leave the lies to the broken liars

(leave the lies to the broken liars)
(Leave the lies to the broken liars)

Spotify Link

Mortified w/SCAR$ (Prod. sheepy_kid & squirl beats)

Big thanks to @robstar100 for his amazing verse <3

Lyrics:

(You can do what you want, but imma do it right back)
(You can do what you want, but imma do it right back)
(You can do what you want, but imma do it right back)
(right back, right back, right back)

Well, time takes it's toll on everyone
Two years have passed, and I forgive you for what you've done
Flying too close to the sun

Schematics of my brain are things that I will never change
And everything about my head will be my downfall, downfall
But I'll take this chance if it means that things will go back to the way they were in 2019
I left that part behind me
You're not here to hear the words I shout
Into this microphone
Inside my home
and everything leaves me alone
cause, I just want you back
I'm so sorry for the shit you went through
everything that we became is so foreign
And I don't like the way life goes
Left me with my heart exposed
I kissed you under mistletoe
with everything I ever knew
that's okay
I felt fine, I felt alive
And that's the last time that I ever will
The last time that I ever will

Well, time takes it's toll on everyone
Two years have passed, and I forgive you for what you've done
Flying too close to the sun

(Robstar)
Feeling like I'm Icarus with my candle wings
I've been too high sipping on that candy drink
Living two lives, one's in love, the other's seeing shrinks
And tonight I'm pouring them pills down the sink
And I ain't giving up when the goings tough
'Cause I've been going for a while I ain't 'boutta lose my everything
Since we're done I'm eternally numb
I was focused on the time you were focused on a wedding ring

(HeyLee)
Well, time takes it's toll on everyone
Two years have passed, and I forgive you for what you've done
Flew too close to the sun
Stay with me now
Stay with me darling
Stay with me, I'm sorry
Stay with me.

(You can do what you want, but imma do it right back)
(You can do what you want, but imma do it right back)
(You can do what you want, but imma do it right back)
(right back, right back, right back)

Icarus (feat. Robstar)| Prod. kisstherajn

To all my fallen homies, you're all pretty phantoms to me.

Lyrics:

I'm in awe of every word you say
Oh yeah, I love that part
I am the insect that is magnified
I am your bug in a jar

You saved me from my nightmares
Just another ghost I don't fear
Everything will be okay
So stay with me, always

Well, you're my pretty, my pretty, my pretty phantom
you're my pretty, my pretty, my pretty phantom
The only person that could've understand him
You're my pretty, my pretty, my pretty phantom
Well, you're my pretty, my pretty, my pretty phantom
you're my pretty, my pretty, my pretty phantom
The only person that could ever understand him
You're my pretty, my pretty, my pretty phantom

Well, I don't know if it's real or not
But, I'll take a shot in the dark
And maybe one day you will see
That things have fallen apart(yeah)

Black widows crawl on my skin
It's a fight that I'll never win
Joining you is the ultimate sin
You fought the fire and it did your head in

Well, you're my pretty, my pretty, my pretty phantom
you're my pretty, my pretty, my pretty phantom
The only person that could've understand him
You're my pretty, my pretty, my pretty phantom
Well, you're my pretty, my pretty, my pretty phantom
you're my pretty, my pretty, my pretty phantom
The only person that could ever understand him
You're my pretty, my pretty, my pretty phantom
(x2)

Pretty Phantom | Prod. Dutch Revz

Artwork by Flux Aspekt

Lyrics:

(I'm taken away out from this place)

I'm making my way out of this place
fighting the things that I couldn't face
I can't see the light anymore
all the things I'm left to endure
Maybe I just need some space
I look in my head and there's nothing but pain
So, please don't tell me what to feel
'cause everything just feels surreal

Turn back "2005"
Everything hurts inside
I thought I saw the light
then I just lost that sight
I thought it was so bad
That you'd leave me like that
And now I see your name
I've shot it into my brain

The hospitals, they try to tell me why I have these seizures
Something in my brain went haywire, I can't find a reason
I see it in my sight
I feel it every night
The car-crescendo
Of my potential

Imaginary friend, you'll be there 'till I stop breathing
Imaginary friend, you're the only thing I could believe in
Imaginary friend, there's things that I don't see the reason
Imaginary friend, you'll make me kill myself to stop the grieving

Time waits for no-one
Time waits for no-one
Time waits for no-one
Time waits for no-one
Not even you, not even you
Time waits for no-one
Won't wait for you
Time waits for no-one
What do we do?
Just explain why you're here

Imaginary friend, you'll be with me 'till I stop breathing
Imaginary friend, you were the only one I could believe in
Imaginary friend, there's some things where I don't see the reason
Imaginary friend, you'll make me kill myself to stop the bleeding

I'm making my way out of this place
fighting the things that I couldn't face
I can't see the light anymore
all the things I'm left to endure
Maybe I just need some space
I look in my head and there's nothing but pain
So, please don't tell me what to feel
'cause everything just feels surreal

(imaginary friend)
(imaginary friend)

Imaginary Friend | Prod. Happytears X Tenoji

Big thanks to @carlby for being on this one. Mixing this was hard, because no matter what I did, everything I did to my mix made it sound worse. It got to a point where I basically just said "screw it, it's never gonna be good enough, I'm gonna drop it just how it is" so I hope you guys enjoy my suffering xD

Like A Forest Fire(Feat. Carlby) | Prod. HeyRick

produced by heylee manzeron

artwork by annalyceart

kill breanna's soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/killbreanna

Lyrics:

(HeyLee Manzeron)

If I knew what I was, would I feel it in myself?
Would I feel it align with the curves inside my spine?
Well, I feel like it’s benign to try and only find the things that align this way.

I don’t think you understand
I don’t feel like I’m part of this
Binary space inside of my mind
I’ve been forced to survive on silence

I know nobody is perfect
Some days it doesn’t feel worth it
I feel like I’m just a burden
And in my heart, it don’t feel right
I think that I don’t deserve it
And, everything has a purpose
Maybe one day I’ll be heard, and
Things will be okay in the end

And I don’t wanna know if you know and I don’t 
Cause I never wanna know the ways that you kept me sane 
And I don’t wanna know if you know and I don’t
Cause I never wanna know the ways that you kept me sane

(kill breanna)

You kept me fine when no one else did
No one cared to check up on me
Said “who you are?”, I dunno
Least I sleep at night, unlike you
You stay up and contemplate everything that i’m made of
In my head i feel like a nuisance
I know nobody’s perfect but you’re far from the least
You’re like black and white, when you’re perceiving me
I think you don’t wanna see my side of it, I know nobody is


(HeyLee Manzeron)

And in my heart, it don’t feel right
I think that I don’t deserve it
And, everything has a purpose
Maybe one day I’ll be heard, and
Things will be okay in the end

And I don’t wanna know if you know and I don’t 
Cause I never wanna know the ways that you kept me sane 
And I don’t wanna know if you know and I don’t
Cause I never wanna know the ways that you kept me sane

Binary Place (ft. kill breanna)

It's been far too long since I got Teddy on one of my tracks.

I haven't been doing well in regards to my mental health lately, so this song paints a small picture of how I've been feeling inside my head these days.

Lyrics:

(HeyLee)
I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Bloody spatter, take my hand
Razor blade is my only friend
Things that never seemed to matter
You got my heart going pitter patter

Explain away the reasons I can’t find my way back to the way I used to be before
You changed me, and I don’t know why
I’ll starve myself to see the ribs poking out of stomach like a sore
And I can only bring myself to cry
I don’t see a reason to be here anymore
But reasons lead to treason that I cannot ignore

I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Bloody spatter, take my hand
Razor blade is my only friend
Things that never seemed to matter
You got my heart going pitter patter

(Teddy)
My health doesn’t matter
I’ve been going too hard
See a blade jump to my skin
It goes “oo la la”
Like “oo la la”
I’m addicted to it
Like “oo na na”
Like “oo na na”
I’m tired of coping the way that I have the last couple of years, um
Starving myself because food disgusts me, I hate the feeling
I hurt myself because you won’t do it, jump from the building
Freefall, heart beats, love is an illness

(HeyLee)
I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Intrusive thoughts will be my end
Rewind the clock so we can start again
Any of this even matter?
It makes my heart go pitter patter

Pitter Patter! (feat. teddyboi)| prod. shinju x gauge

Produced, written and recorded by Lex "HeyLee" Alexander
Artwork by https://twitter.com/annalyceart

Lyrics:

My ex boyfriend was a dick
I hope that when he thinks of me he crashes his car into a bridge
The pandemic made me sick
not just from the virus, but also from social isolation

Last year my parents split, 
and she wants half of everything, and he’s got so much shit to deal with
But I don’t know, I’m just their kid, 
there’s nothing I can really do, except for alcoholic liquids
By the way, I’m 26, 
my mental health has kept me from bringing anything to fruition
Yeah, I don’t know, it’s my last ditch, 
I should get another job and try to hide the scars upon my wrists

Don’t tell me everything will be okay, 
I’ve seen the possibilities, the odds aren’t looking in my favour
Don’t tell me, everything is in my head, 
I cannot act like an adult, I’ll take a nap and then I’ll come back later

I told you I’m fine, as fine I could, 
given the current circumstance 
I'm born be bored, forced to survive,
I’ll never have a song on Idleglance
I’m glued to my phone, reception is fading
All five of my IG followers waiting
For me to slip up, and post my address
They wanna lace my water with devils breath

Don’t tell me everything will be okay,
I’ve seen the possibilities, the odds aren’t looking in my favour
Don’t tell me, everything is in my head, 
I cannot act like an adult, I’ll take a nap and then I’ll come back later

Head underwater, 
nobody’s daughter, 
I close my eyes, 
my head pounds like a mortar 
Head underwater, 
led to the slaughter, 
pick up my guitar and then I'll cry in the corner

Don’t tell me everything will be okay, 
I’ve seen the possibilities, the odds aren’t looking in my favour
Don’t tell me, everything is in my head,
I cannot act like an adult, I’ll take a nap and then I’ll come back later

Act Like An Adult

Big shoutout to @reject333 for hopping on this one!

This song was self produced.

Lyrics:

(HeyLee Manzeron)
Rice Bubbles, Icebox and nicotine
.45's and MACs won't be the death of me
Burn off my eyebrows with kerosene
Do you feel the fire? (uh oh, HeyLee)

Rice Bubbles, Icebox and nicotine
.45's and MACs won't be the death of me
Burn off my eyebrows with kerosene
Do you feel the fire that's inside of me?
She's sickly and pale from the other side
Monsters in my head, the lullabies
You're what is waiting for me in the end
Will you come help me to breathe again?

I thought I was the one to do it different,
But I'm doing the same shit, just without the limits
If I thought I was special, I was wrong
Inside my mental, I'll stay strong
And I swear I'll lie awake for you
I swear I'll tell the truth
But it's not me, it's you

Because it's always you
Like you always do
Turn your back again
Watch me fall instead

(popularreject)
I been cooped up in my room 
Playin Xbox 
I just hit a 360 
Like I got aimbot 
Erase your face with the memories 
Skins bleached and in doused in kerosene 
I’m too young and dumb for what’s ahead of me
What’s ahead of me
Don-
Don-
What’s ahead of me
So I high I don’t think I’ll ever land 
Life’s fucked it’s madness in neverland

(HeyLee Manzeron)
Rice Bubbles, Icebox and nicotine
.45's and MACs won't be the death of me
Burn off my eyebrows with kerosene
Do you feel the fire inside of me?
She's sickly and pale from the other side
Monsters in my head, and lullabies
You're what is waiting for me in the end
Will you come back and help me breathe again?

Burn My Eyebrows With Kerosene (feat. popularreject)

Another self produced song for you all <3

Boy With The Green Sweater

Big thanks to teddy for the guess verse <3

This track is an insight into the greed, selfishness and entitlement, and hopelessness the upper-class citizens of gab3 re:l can endulge in without the hardships of a real-world life.

Not having any real social experience or consequences can turn regular people into heartless, cruel, incell misogynists. this is an example of that.

lyrics:

I fortify my castle walls
anything to do, just crawl
on the floor, every night
i see that look of suicide
that's the shit that's on my mind
every minute, every night
it's like a mental exercise
all my feelings in decline

it's getting harder just to fight you
and all the stupid shit that you do to me
I'm basically just asking you to leave me be
I wish I wasn't lonely, thats the irony

take it back to the start and everybody wishes they could go home
try to find my way in life, but I'm so alone
it's kinda funny, 'cause these bitches always blow up my phone
i run around in circles, saboy, Post Malone
You're the voice in my head, tells me "go for the reigns"
nobody ever wants to think about the words that we say
I'm gone tomorrow, I'm just throwing shit in fires today
staring at my fingers as the voices in my head try to say

What did I tell you boys?
These bitches don't listen
You, get down on your knees and give my ass a kissin'
Ay, they just don't listen
I sold my soul at twelve, and yeah, it's still missing
yeah, these bitches don't listen
Get down on to your knees, and give my ass a kissin'
got the Titanfall drip, bitch, we only play atrition
I could never give you my heart, because my soul is missing.

They Don't Listen (Feat. Teddyboi)

Massive thanks to @killbreana once again for hopping on this track !!

Produced by Loverboy - https://www.instagram.com/1loverboythegoat/

I'm No Longer In Control (Feat. kill breanna) | Prod. Loverboy

This song is about the mental instability and trauma that the unison 227 program brings to the forefront of your brain is your digital imprint is travelling into the ghostlands.

Lyrics:

Entering unknown territory
I never got this far into my story
Everything I say from this point on, is the ghostlands
My anxieties and my self doubt
They come before everything else
Will I ever finish what I start, in this ghostland

This intrepidation lead to these psychic altercations
So you can see why my hesitation still drowns me
I elevated my standards to a point where i couldn’t make it anymore
Why do I hold my craft so unfairly

Make of me what you will
I swallow another pill
I’m getting better, but still
I’m just your cattle to kill
In the headlights again
A whisper from faded friends
Sai is around the bend
His green sweater, I sense
Panic attack is intense
My mental state jumped the fence
I’m fearing no consequence
Here come the ladies and gents
A shot of sleep in my leg
My socks grip to the bed
Wake up to fall back to sleep
Another cycle I keep

This intrepidation lead to these psychic altercations
So you can see why my hesitation still drowns me
I elevated my standards to a point where i couldn’t make it anymore
Why do I hold my craft so unfairly

We’re all a work in progress
Never let go, never regress
We’re all a work in progress

We’re all a work in progress
Never turn back, but never ever forget
We’re all a work in progress

In The Ghostlands

I wrote this during the New Zealand floods back in 2022-2023

hundred year flood

Cover art - Annalyceart
Mastering, Mixing and Production - Me

I had a lot of fun with this one, I hope you all enjoy it <33

manta

This is my first song since my cancer diagnosis back in December of last year, my hiatus is OVER.

Producer: HeyLee Manzeron
Mastering: HeyLee Manzeron
Cover Artwork: Annalyceart

Lyrics: 
Well, I think I finally found myself this time
And I don’t know, it’s just a surprise
How I deal with life has changed the way I see the world

‘Cause you don’t see the way I see things
I don’t want you to
I don’t feel like you’re part of my mind
Escaping from my fingertips

Change the way I see the sun
I know it’s good for everyone
Escaping from my patient lips
You’re out of time
And out of sight
And out of mind
The nuisance of identity
Is this the life that’s meant for me?
Will I ever come to accept the way I feel inside?

I think I knew what it was
I didn’t feel it in myself
If I take all my fears,
Put em in a box and on the shelf
I don’t want to be yours
But I don’t want to have no help
I don’t wanna feel alone

‘Cause you don’t see the way I see things
I don’t want you to
I don’t feel like you’re part of my mind
Escaping from my patient lips

Change the way I see the sun
I know it’s good for everyone
Escaping from my patient lips
You’re out of time
And out of sight
And out of mind
The nuisance of identity
Is this the life that’s meant for me?
Will I ever come to accept the way I feel inside?

Binary Place Pt. 2

This was originally by Xploshi.

I ended up reproducing the original beat myself because I couldn't find a good quality version of the instrumental.

I'll be back to making serious music once I recover from my illness, I hope to be back sooner than later <3

I Am Going To Kill Your Family (Violent Vincent Cover)

All instruments recorded by HeyLee Manzeron

Lyrics:

Lookin at me with a pompous grin
You're sucking clams out of vanilla wafers
No water taking ritalin
Prozac will be the perfect chaser

We touch skin on skin
Doing the same things over again
Cause I'm less of a man
Just more of a faded concept

Vice junky since the 2010s
Fast track to meet my goddamn maker
Eating risperdol like m&ms
Future HeyLee's like Hannah Baker

We touch skin on skin
Doing the same, but never again
Cause I'm less of a man
Just more of a sad attraction 

My miracles work in reverse
Everything I touch, i promise you it'll come out worse
I'll hide away inside my head, in the end its really all that i have
Does that make me less of a man?

With all the pills and all the drinks
Haven't felt like myself since god knows when
I'm struggling to feel complete
Does that make me less of a man

We touch skin on skin
Doing the same shit over again
I was less of man
The perfect scapegoat just to point your finger
Cause I’m not less of a man
You better hope to god the pain don’t linger

Less Of A Man

I guess this is it for a while.

To be continued...

Artwork by annalyceart

Produced, mixed and mastered by HeyLee Manzeron

Lyrics:

I met up with the mystery girl
I told her I’d take her place
Her use has run out in this world
She told me straight to my face
These metaphors are cliche
Like a lingering foul taste
Or a cavity on your tooth
Falling onto your pillowcase

I could tell you everything that’s ever been on my mind
But I don’t wanna bore you to death
I’m holding on to the secrets I kept
And I could tell you every sight that’s ever passed through these eyes
But I don’t wanna waste my breath
I’m holding on to the secrets I kept

Following my path is something you will regret
I’d like to say I’m saving face while I’m cutting my skin with a rusty gillette
It’s only for you, only you will ever get to slice this deep in me
It’s only for you baby, and I’m sorry.

I could 	show you every leaf that’s been strangled by this vine
But I would never choke you to death
To tell the truth you’re all I have left
And maybe I should open up, but I’m comfortable inside
But I don’t wanna scare you away
I’m not prepared to lose you today

Following my path is something you will regret
I’d like to say I’m saving face, but a passing glance is all you will get
It’s only for you, only you will ever get to slice this deep in me
It’s only for you baby, and I’m sorry.

Maybe you’re the falling star that I’ve been searching for my entire life
Possibly the deepest scar, I know you’ll cut my throat like an umbilical knife
Yes, you’re my fallen star, we could just let go and vanish into the night
Possibly the deepest scar, but I will let you in, you make everything right
Maybe you’re the falling star that I’ve been searching for my entire life
Possibly the deepest scar, I know you’ll cut my throat like an umbilical knife
Yes, you’re my fallen star, we could just let go and vanish into the night
Possibly the deepest scar, but I will let you in, you make everything right

Listen On Spotify

It's Only For You

Produced, written, recorded by me

I wrote this song the day after I was diagnosed with blood cancer on the 6th of December 2023. It chronicles my experience with being hospitalized for an extended period of time, and the mental and physical strain the experience put on me.

Lyrics:

It’s fine, I’ll be fine
Don’t you worry about me
I can’t try
To even hide how I’m deteriorating
If I choke in my sleep
I know heaven is waiting
I can’t try to even hide how I’m deteriorating

I fell asleep in my chair
First I drunk too much whisky, I can’t feel my face again
There’s a chill in the air
I’m remembering ward 67 and the fear again

Broke down in the surgery room
Unconsolable, theres nothing i can do
I can’t breathe
Please let me leave
I don’t wanna die in a hospital gown

It’s fine, I’ll be fine
Don’t you worry about me
I can’t try
To even hide how I’m deteriorating
If I choke in my sleep
I know heaven is waiting
I can’t try to even hide how I’m deteriorating

Broke down in the surgery room
I don’t wanna die in a hospital gown

It's Fine, I'll Be Fine

Tada, new songo

Produced, written, mixed and recorded by me.

Lyrics:

Such a long time, I remember shit from my past 
that in my head feels like it was yesterday
Any longer, distant memories seem to last
When the things that really matter just fade away

I remember feeling like my moment had past
Now I’m discarded, tossing me away like I’m trash
Holding on to childhood friends
But every time I get close, we lead to tragic ends

Turning back the clock
Please just make it stop for a day
Pendulum ignites
It’s got me in its sights, always
So tell me if you feel
ike eternities hallways
Are dragging you down
They’re dragging me down
I cannot escape

I feel it burning
Chemicals goes straight to my veins
I’m prisoner in my body and I’m stuck in this fate
I’m watching happy people going about with their day
You don’t know what you’ve got until that shit is taken away

So don’t tell me what to do
And don’t tell me how to feel
There’s poison in my blood, and it still doesn’t feel real
And all the friends I knew, well, they just disappear
I know it’s not their fault, their just too scared..

Turning back the clock
Please just make it stop for a day
Pendulum ignites
It’s got me in its sights, always
So tell me if you feel
ike eternities hallways
Are dragging you down
They’re dragging me down
I cannot escape

Eternity's Hallways

naughty langwadge wawning uwu

recorded all da instruments myself heeheehoohoo(also did most of it in like 25 mins so i could send it in for mel's stream heehoohoo). I also used no pitch correction or "digital-esc" mixing methods so it could be more true to the original version, this included limiting the recording to 8 tracks, and rendering that out into one channel(to replicate the 8-track recording method) This is also the final track on my upcoming "Phantoms" EP.

Ps. it was super fucking painful to play drums and guitar with my nerve damage, but i did it anyway bc fuck pain

originally by misfits(1978)

lyrics:

President's bullet-ridden body in the street
Ride, Johnny ride
Kennedy's shattered head hits concrete
Ride, Johnny ride
Johnny's wife is floundering
Johnny's wife is scared
Run, Jackie run
Texas is an outrage when your husband is dead
Texas is an outrage when they pick up his head
Texas is the reason that the president's dead
You gotta suck, suck, Jackie suck

President's bullet-ridden body in the street
Ride, Johnny ride
Kennedy's shattered head hits concrete
Ride, Johnny ride
Texas is an outrage when your husband is dead
Texas is an outrage when they pick up his head
Texas is the reason that the president's dead
You gotta suck, suck, Jackie suck

Arise Jackie O, Jonathan F. Kennedy
Well, arise and be shot down
The dirt's gonna be your dessert
My cum be your life source
And the only way to get it
Is to suck or fuck
Or be poor and devoid
And masturbate me
Masturbate me
Then slurp it from your palm
Like a dry desert soaking up rain
Soaking up the sun
Like a dry desert soaking up rain
Like a dry desert soaking up rain
I'm soaking up the fucking sun!!!!!!!!! >:))))))

Bullet (Misfits Cover)

made this is a tribute to my friend aaron in december of last year

as per usual, i did everything myself(the mixing, producing, mastering etc etc)

Lyrics:

When you lose someone that you can’t replace
Do you know that?
Have you felt that before?
When you lose all hope in the wider space
‘Cause you can’t reach
No, you can’t reach for them
You would do anything just to bring them back
Try to restore the peace, before you fall off the tracks
He was a being you could not replace
And I can’t grieve
No, I can’t grieve properly

Flashbacks in my brain
Your headstone in the rain
I keep thinking it over
And over again
The clouds scattered at once
As you brought down the sun
I keep thinking it over

I’ve never missed you more than how I’m missing you today
You may have lost your war, but you don’t have to fight it again
You can rest now
I know you’re watching through the beams
Death is just an obstacle, cause I still feel you next to me

When you claw your way through the dark abyss
But the sunshine
Yeah, the sun burns your skin
You can’t let go, no, you can’t erase
Like a bad dream, you’ll forget this some day

If I do this over again
I’d still have you as a friend
All the time that we spent
There’s not a single regret
I’m left floating here in the outer space
No you can’t reach, no you can’t reach for me

Death Is Just An Obstacle (Still Feel You Next To Me)

I've been sitting on a buttload of unreleased Nickisgonenow songs for years at this point, due to him sending me WIPs a lot back in the old days, and the one song I was so pissed never got released was a track called "Passed Out Lonely". I managed to convince him to drop it, but he said he thought the song sucked so he privated it. Even when he was alive, I wanted to cover it, but I was an idiot and forgot to ask who the producer was before his passing. In the end I ended up reproducing the instrumental myself, so I'm sorry to the producer who made the original instrumental, but I just couldn't find you.

Nick was the first person to believe in me, take me under his wing, and show me the wider alternative soundcloud community. In the end, we were both fucked up on substances, which lead to us fighting a lot and eventually falling out, but I'm grateful I even got the chance to know him for the brief period he was in my life.

Rest easy, old friend.

Passed Out Lonely - (Nickisgonenow cover) | RIP Nickisgonenow

Here's my EP "manta". I recorded this in 2023, been meaning to drop it for ages.

Manta

peckles in the sun : )

help me im falling : (

i really had nothing better to do today, huh?

real scrimblo hours on the heylee soundcloud(my next song will be a serious release, I promise)

Croc Freestyle

I started writing this a few years back, I finally finished it last night.

Ghxst Collective represent <3

The artwork was done by Annalyce Openshaw

aluxia(i'm still alive)(prod. manzeron)

Cenobite(Prod. Reedkun)

artist, producer
ghxst collective

Currently trying to kick cancers ass, I think I'm winning rn.

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