scared

teach me what i did wrong
and this silence, fucking broke it fore it had a start
you can take the things you said and shove them up your arse
found a picture of your face and now its battle-scarred

id do anything for you to just pick up the line
so i can call you a bitch at least another time
you should tell your man to get a fucking life
stop being such a pussy and following mine

turn to my own enemy 
dont care no more dont ask for me
i just wanted sympathy
is that to much to ask for me

havent talked to you in like 5 days
you stare too much at my face
acting like you werent fake
i could do this all day
her teeth grip the back of my necklace
no one cares for the shit that you rented
2k for a feat ur demented 
pussy still stalking my mentions 

uh

liar
should've punched you right on your chin
should've broke your jaw
should've put you where you belonged
i put trust to set aside
but it wasn't useful
now i know it's better
we can't be friends ever

we're all alone in my backseat
i shoulda called in a taxi
her clothes off, got a head start
nails stuck in my chrome hearts
said she love my ambition
my mental state diminished
toxic time, a waste of breath
i feel the blood drip off my chest

battle scarred w/ heylog & pvrk

prod by stezzyxl
enjoy^\^

lyrics:
pieces that i cannot mend
her words are empty, i pretend
pretty face that u disguise
i see right through ur mask and lies
no one really cares at all
i just want it all to stop
shattered glass against the wall
just like my dad with alcohol

oh no
oh no
oh no
oh no

u can keep on talking all u fucking want
i be making music while u out there making fucking flops
i be steady grinding, making progress and it doesn’t stop
begging for a feature, on ur knees, and i just laugh it off

and ur kinda irrelevant 
i’ll fold u cuz ur delicate
i got a A cuz i’m excellent 
and i’m a whole different person when i am in my element 
i’m from a another descendant 
and u can never be me, i’m unique and so different 

and no one gives a flying fuck bitch u still just a kid
and ur ego so high, yet u still throw ur fits
and get the fuck off of my dick, and mind ur own buis
talking down on me, bitch u don’t want this

featuring safeatlast -https://soundcloud.com/safeatlast
produced by Ciche&Jarn - https://www.youtube.com/@cichejarn


there's blood on my hands oh christ
can't deal with myself all the time
won't open my eyes

fucked it up now i don't even wanna go home
i got problems with myself 
don't leave me alone
wanna melt my brain 
thoughts lead to overload
i cant see a future without overdose

without overdose
baby I might go comatose
xannies in my coat
put another paycheck in my nose

not addicted but I don't know how I could recover
if I was would you still be there for me not another

teenage suicide another stat another number
for the masses

back in school I almost o-d'd on a fuckin Xanax

I would show up off the wall like vans to all my classes

I can't see the future maybe I just need my glasses

fucked it up now i don't even wanna go home
i got problems with myself 
don't leave me alone
wanna melt my brain 
thoughts lead to overload
i cant see a future without overdose
x2

overdose (ft. safeatlast) [Ciche&Jarn]

Pass me, I don’t where I’m going
Should of asked me before, now I can’t show it

It’s half three at night
It can’t be morning yet
Go to sleep my dear
It’s not like I could yet
Pull me out of here
I’m in a hole of regret
Don’t highlight my fear
I’m not over it yet

There’s cracks in the pavement, I’ve been walking on 
Hold me up, outside 
I’ve been waiting for so long

Don’t get annoyed when this morning was fine 
Keep your hold on me, leech to me tight
The person that I am is no worse than the one I was
Somewhere in the winter I lay
Hibernate way too long 
A part of me died
I’m hosting funerals
It’s partly in spite 
So you can watch my body decay
Rot infront of your face
And I’m sat checking my list
Just to remember your name
Though it’s partly in spite 
It’s mostly in vain

It’s half three at night
It can’t be morning yet
Go to sleep my dear
It’s not like I could yet
Pull me out of here
I’m in a hole of regret
Don’t highlight my fear
I’m not over it yet

3:30

Produced by ERXN

taken what you want from me 
these feelings stay the same
if you are apart of me I pray u go away 
my head feels so full 
its so foggy these dreams awake 
I cannot do anything im burdened by this place

beneath your thighs I don't try to look back 
I look dead I stare straight I remap 
Im so on edge with you here I collapse 
I cant see I cant hear I relapse

and if we ever tried to change 
could we change?
cuz these thoughts that I have and these feelings of wrath 
they don't break 

If I could travel through my past 
just one more time to hug my dad would I hate?
If I could see my friend again id hold him close and tell him man what a day 

I know we`ll meet again 
but its just so far away 
and I need strength
I know this evening You will be listening 
but your so far away

WRATH

Is this all that I am anymore ?
Can I call this a relapse or
Am I just stupid
I’m just stupid
No one cares when I say it as a joke
I look fine but inside I’m froze
I’m so stupid 
Aren’t I stupid ? 

I’m so deluded it feels like a burden now
Keep throwing money till I say I’m finally out
But I’m not
All that I’ve worked for immediately out my hands
Say I’m fine but it’s nothing that I could grasp
Isn’t that stupid ?

Is this all that I am anymore ?
Can I call this a relapse or
Am I just stupid
I’m just stupid
No one cared when I said it as a joke
I look fine but inside I’m froze
I’m so stupid 
I’m so stupid 

Eyes glued to my screen all night
Fall asleep without my high
You don’t get it and nor do I
I swear I only use it to pass my time
But what time is it now ?
I’m starting to feel better can you slow it down
I’ll stay awake till I go outside
And pretend it’s not ruined my life

Is this all that I am anymore ?
Can I call this a relapse or
Am I just stupid
I’m just stupid
No one cared when I said it as a joke
I look fine but inside I’m froze
I’m so stupid 
I’m so stupid

I’m so deluded it feels like a burden now
Keep throwing money till I say I’m finally out
But I’m not
All that I’ve worked for immediately out my hands
Say I’m fine but it’s nothing that I could grasp
Isn’t that stupid ?

stupid

prod by icantsleeplol

lyrics:
why
am i
close to u
i
havent
seen u
in years

i
dont like to think at night
cause i could cry sometimes
shake it off, im alright
(inhale)
(exhale)
i guess im alive
i cannot stand the light
i feel so dead inside
standing in fear and fright

maybe then ill leave
this town
no trace or sound
no one will find me
around
no calls or texts i wont be 
found
𝘧𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥
𝚏𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚍
fₒᵤₙd
punoɟ
f̵̮̠͚̯̯̌͗o̶̡̳̲̹̹̓̔̌u̷̘̺̘̓͌n̸̨̨̧̳̤̮̼̞͙̣͘d̵̜͎͎͌̃̍́̈́̒̆
f̵̮̠͚̯̯̌͗o̶̡̳̲̹̹̓̔̌u̷̘̺̘̓͌n̸̨̨̧̳̤̮̼̞͙̣͘d̵̜͎͎͌̃̍́̈́̒̆
f̵̮̠͚̯̯̌͗o̶̡̳̲̹̹̓̔̌u̷̘̺̘̓͌n̸̨̨̧̳̤̮̼̞͙̣͘d̵̜͎͎͌̃̍́̈́̒̆
f̵̮̠͚̯̯̌͗o̶̡̳̲̹̹̓̔̌u̷̘̺̘̓͌n̸̨̨̧̳̤̮̼̞͙̣͘d̵̜͎͎͌̃̍́̈́̒̆
d̸̞̰̓̃̈͐̉̒̇̑̚͝

wipe that grin
off ur face
and take me too
the place u hate
oh its in my room
i know it too
i feel the tension
impending doom

dont like to think at night
cause i could cry sometimes
shake it off, im alright
(inhale)
(exhale)
i guess im alive
i cannot stand the light
i feel so dead inside
standing in fear and fright

found

youre so beautiful
ive got nothing to offer, i told you so
if you point out that im not what youre looking for
id change myself to be what you wanted
youre all that i wanted

im so proud of you
are you proud of me too
id do anything to be loved by you
is that not enough
howd i think it was
dont let go of the feelings you have for us

cause im paranoid
dont you fear it too ?
loosing all that we have 
and looking for someone new
i dont think i could do that

youre so beautiful
ive got nothing to offer, i told you so
if you point out that im not what youre looking for
id change myself to be what you wanted
youre all that i wanted

im so proud of you
are you proud of me too
id do anything to be loved by you
is that not enough
howd i think it was
dont let go of the feelings you have for us

are u proud of me too

prod by icantsleepd
enjoy

lyrics:
what i have done
these past months
i keep fucking up
everything that i love
what i have done
these past months
i can’t fucking trust myself
when im in love

now that ur gone
i wish u nothing but the best
now that ur gone
u probably hate me like the rest
now that ur gone
i wish u nothing but the best
now that ur gone
u probably hate me like the rest

i’ve been having thoughts
stomach having knots
im not doing great babe i know
drinking alcohol
to forget it all
im not doing great babe you know
loosing everyone
one by fucking one
karma is catching up to me you know
what should i do now
when ur moving out

i guess theres nothing much that i can do
when u have all the proof
i guess theres nothing much that i can do
i guess theres never room for two
so babe just tell me what to do

stupid

hiraeth