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can you tell me where im going baby
pretty sure that i been going crazy
i been living life like its a fucking daydream
yeah
its a fucking daydream
i feel so numb
you abuse me with your love
that shit got me so fucked up
i only feel okay on drugs

you dont wanna love me trust me 
im hooked on codependency 
baby you gotta stay away from me 
im crazy 
nobody is saving me im waiting 
for an exit to the next bitch 
text quick 
got me feeling fucking restless
im a dead bitch 
got me screaming fuck it 
ending the discussion 
used to feel in love 
but now you got me feeling nothing

what the fuck
i hate you
this aint love
cant change you
i cant but
ima be fine uh ima be good
im poppin my xans and smoking backwoods
i should
be fine
i dont need you in my life
you dont make me feel alive
i just wanna feel alright
 but i think i might fucking die

daydrream w/ ifeelsosmall [prod lil buscuit]

you don’t know a thing about about me
i don’t either though
i’m off way  too many xannies i been talkin slow
i feel dead
wont you please just let me rest
i’m stressed
fuck
i can be whatever you want
on whatever i just popped
call me baby
call me crazy
we’ll just wait and see

wont you set me free
i’m lost
i hate that i cannot stop
give me pills bitch i’m gun pop
on god
i got problems baby
wont you come and save me
i’m so sick of fucking waiting
for you 
i just can’t wait all night boo
ill give you my number
for you to come through
for you to come over
find shit to do
yeah
i think i died im sorry

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idiedsrry w/ ifeelsosmall [prod. saint mike]

ima hit your line up ina minute
you told me you loved me
but we both know that you didn’t
love it when you fuck me
it feels like i’m dreaming baby
i hope that you can save me

pulled up to the party fucked up
and shawty ain’t like it
i feel like i’m losing my soul
and girl i can’t fight this
i just need more pills in my skull 
before i get violent
yeah ay
before i get violent
you said that you needed me
but you ain’t really need a thing
no baby
you can’t fucking save me
i can’t trust a soul
already know your gunna play me

pulled up to the party fucked up
and shawty ain’t like it
i just need more pills in my skull 
before i get violent
oh
i can’t live my life if i’m not off a benzo
lil shawty grinding on me
she ain’t wanna take it slow
oh oh oh
shawty all up on me she ain’t wanna take it slow
life feels like a dream when i be off a benzo
i’m off too much i lost my soul

i ain’t gotta lot on my mind
except for you girl
i just wanna take up your time
and that’s the truth girl
i wanna make it to the bag
shawty on my lap
she be all up on me while i countin up my stacks
on god
if you gotta problem with me think that can be solved
lil bitch jus pull up
what the fuck
i been really living dangerous but this shit is fucking fun

snorting oxy straight to my lungs
i’m know i’m goin crazy
just wanna be xanned out for fun
so i’ll be chillin baby
i need another fuckin bar
already on three but i ain’t feel that shit at all

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pulledup2thapartyfuckedup

convolk: https://soundcloud.com/convolk
mixed in part by Qawi Kamri (https://soundcloud.com/qawikamri)
______________________
teardrop shawty sing the feelings away
i feel ugly when i see myself no matter the day
imma do this shit, the music shit, no matter the pay
if you in my path i hit yo ass right outta my way
i wish it wasn't like this

my heart's so broken
i wish there was a potion
to help with my depression
that's drowning me like an ocean
forget the notion
'cause i retract that
now my sadness weighs me down
like it's a backpack

i feel alone in my home
there's no way out
i feel alone, so alone
there's no hope now
and i don't know where to go
i hate this town
and if i can't get away
then i might drown

you don't need me
hide my feelings
please don't leave me
i'll stop breathing

teardrop shawty sing the feelings away
i feel ugly when i see myself no matter the day
imma do this shit, the music shit, no matter the pay
if you in my path i hit yo ass right outta my way
i wish it wasn't like this

benedixhion x convolk - dying alone in my room [prod. MURDFLEX]

too cold for a blanket to save me
so i froze to death while i waited
i feel the ice grow inside of me
on my tongue i can actually taste it

i know that nobody can save me
so don’t try, your time would be wasted
i feel my memories fading
hate my life, and sometimes i wanna take it
don’t know if i’ll make it to twenty
not alive, and i can’t find my placement
take drugs in such large quantities
for this pain, but i still can’t erase it

i think i’ll drown in the memories
i hate my life and i’m fine with it ending
broken inside and there’s no way to mend me
i’m a lost cause. there’s no point in pretending

i fell in love with a sadist
she left me with scars and i fucking hate it
her name is the drugs and she’s just like an angel
but her wings fell off and she ain’t got no halo 

i wake up everyday
and i wish that i didn’t
those visions were vivid
i wish i could stay asleep
cuz you were in my dreams

i do not know what to say
you made me feel different
like actually living 
but now that you’ve gone away
you’re only in my dreams

i know that nobody can save me
so don’t try, your time would be wasted
i feel my memories fading
hate my life, and sometimes i wanna take it
don’t know if i’ll make it to twenty
not alive, and i can’t find my placement
take drugs in such large quantities
for this pain, but i still can’t erase it

glaciers

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@benedixhion - glaciers [prod. misery]

lyrics:

i feel like i'm dying
i'm tired of crying
the pain inside's violent
but my screams are silent
i know that you hate me
why's everyone play me
i'm so used to failing
rejection don't phase me

hit a blunt in the back of the bus
'cause it's freezing as fuck
and i'm in love with drugs
i hate that i'm never enough
so you fell out of love
and that shit really sucks

it's sunny outside of my window
i lie in my sins though
and make sure the blinds closed
i hate that i always feel alone
have no place to call home
i'm better off solo

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my screams are silent (prod. tothegood)

convolk: https://soundcloud.com/convolk

lyrics:
walking through my hometown
everything has changed up
used to be gunshots
now i see teslas
you don't want smoke
i'm a head shot
i don't want jokes
i want answers
walking through my hometown
everything has changed up
i was on the road
you was out doing lame stuff
you don't want smoke
i'm a head shot
you don't want smoke
i'm a head shot

everyday i feel the same
it's like why'm i not okay
why can't i just be happy for once
i'm always stuck in place
i don't think i can be saved
i have always been this way
i am dying in my room
and it's the middle of the day oh
feel my body die slow
i been feeling so low
i should help myself
but i don't even wanna try though
feelings don't sway me
everybody hates me
think i'm going crazy
feel like this on the daily

wasted my youth

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benedixhion x convolk - wasted my youth [prod. curtains]

i'm gonna miss high school and all of the experiences i've had through out it. honestly, i don't feel ready for life, but i guess it doesn't matter because you can't stop time from passing. every second you're alive you're aging.

lyrics:
high school sucks
it really does
i can’t go to school if i’m not on the drugs
high school sucks
it really does
and when it’s done i guess it’s time to grow up

football bleachers where i had my first kiss
with a girl i’m probably never gonna see ever again, shit
i guess that’s life and it’s time to move on
but honestly i wish i could replay it like a song ‘cause
i never told my crush that she was the one
the funny thing is i don’t think she ever was
i wish i could just say that it was lust
but really i don’t think i’m ever meant to be loved

and that’s why
it’s alright
that she’s in his arms at night
‘cause that’s life
and that’s fine
it’s all good. it just makes me wanna die

high school sucks
it really does
i can’t go to school if i’m not on the drugs
high school sucks
it really does
and when it’s done i guess it’s time to grow up

my life sucks
it really does
i can’t go a day without being on drugs
high school sucked
but it was fun
and honestly i’m just afraid of growing up

honestly i’m just afraid of growing up
honestly i’m fucking scared of growing up
i cannot believe my childhood is gone
i cannot believe my childhood is done

no, don’t go you make me feel real
no, don’t go you make me feel real
no, don’t go you make me feel real
no, don’t go ‘cause i need you still

high school sucks [prod. sketchmyname]

never made it back
never made it back
now i hate my life
there’s no saving that
i’ll just slit my wrists
where’s my razor at
i just waste my time
and i’m fine with that

why you stab me in the back
guess your love was just an act
wish i didn’t want you bad
‘cause you treat me like i’m trash

hit a hundred on the dash
and i really hope i crash
i been burning through life fast
now i can’t wait till it’s passed
now i’m living to forget
every night when i’m in bed
i can never fucking rest
‘cause you’re always in my head

you’re in my head lil bitch
fuck what you said lil bitch
i’m fucking dead lil bitch
i’m fucking dead
you just left my life. now it’s a fucking mess

@benedixhion - insomnia [prod. sketchmyname]

feelings go like leaves in the wind
feel the breeze blow against my skin
i can still feel the warmth of your lips
i can still feel the love in your kiss
can’t stop the emotions within
summer night clear sky we were kids
it was just you and i on a park bench
looking up at the stars when i felt it

when i look in your eyes it’s contagious 
see a map of the sky on your iris
hear the beat of your heart in the silence
feel the love inside mine, it’s so vibrant
but it’s all in the past, you’re a memory
now i’ve fallen apart, you’re my center piece
now you’re in love with him, that’s instead of me
so my brain’s given up, like the rest of me

i can still feel the darkness inside of me
feel the pain as it flows through my arteries
all that’s left in mind are my fantasies
but i still can’t erase all the memories

please don’t let me go. you can’t drop me like this
i feel the tears rolling down my eyelids
summer outside but i still feel freezing
the ice in my heart is never leaving
i am alive but i feel so broken
so i hit a fucking blunt. it’s too much smoke so now i’m choking
how’d i always fuck it up. you’re gone and that’s my form of coping
now i’m always taking drugs so i can put it out of focus

when i look in your eyes it’s contagious 
see a map of the sky on your iris
hear the beat of your heart in the silence
feel the love inside mine, it’s so vibrant
but it’s all in the past, you’re a memory
now i’ve fallen apart, you’re my center piece
now you’re in love with him, that’s instead of me
so my brain’s given up, like the rest of me

summer nights, clear skies [prod. vvs melody]

lyrics:

heartbreak and hennessy
you were my everything
now you'd just watch me bleed
please let me rest in peace
heartbreak and hennessy
you were my everything
you made my life complete
heartbreak and hennessy

i thought that maybe you were different but you're not
i'm lost inside of my dark thoughts and that's a lot
you're gone but i can't seem to get my head to stop
thinking about you lately
i thought that you were fucking different but you're not
i'm lost inside of my dark thoughts and that's a lot
you're gone but i can't seem to get my head to stop
and it is driving me crazy

yeah it is driving me crazy
i'm doing drugs on the daily
you made me feel like you hate me
but what'd i do to you

heartbreak but i don't drink
i won't lie
i kinda miss your taste
i won't lie
i kinda miss your face
throw me with all the other waste
she quietly running her fingers through my hair
big brown eyes but it's a different pair
i'm thinking too much
i gotta calm it
what should i do
will i ever stop this

heartbreak and hennessy w/ heylog [prod. blunted beatz]

lyrics:
No
No, I'm not okay
What'd you want me to say
I'm never getting better
I feel sicker everyday
No, I'm not okay
There's nothing left to say
No signs of getting better
I feel sicker by the day
I think I've gone insane
Got nothing in my brain
Except a lot of drugs and memories
That bring me pain

There's nothing left to see
There's nothing left of me
Still trying to find a purpose
What the fuck does it all mean

I stare at the clock
I think I saw
A world in which I'm free
I'm nothing
I'm hiding
Inside my brain
Come find me
Remind me
of something
In which I could believe

No
No, I'm not okay
What'd you want me to say
I'm never getting better
I feel sicker everyday
No, I'm not okay
There's nothing left to say
No signs of getting better
I feel sicker by the day
I think I've gone insane
Got nothing in my brain
Except a lot of drugs and memories
That bring me pain

no, i'm not okay

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no, i'm not okay (prod. sketchmyname)

hydrocodone in my blood stream yah
and it got me feeling lovely yah
she keeps telling me that i’m up nex
she keeps telling me she loves me yah
ay
can you tell me are you down for a joyride
i think i might fall in love witcha tonight
how could this be wrong when it feels right
we could play your favorite song in the moonlight
yeah ay
in the moonlight
we could play your favorite song in the moonlight
took a couple blunts on the road so we can vibe
shawty we might fall in love if the moods right
like right now
always off the drugs in my own hell
but i couldn’t give a fuck i hate myself
so i’m ringing up the plug i might as well
popped another pill it don’t feel real
she keeps telling me that i’m gun end up killed
fuck it i don’t care i need more pills
you could catch me poppin norco till i’m ill

hydrocodone in my blood stream yah
and it got me feeling lovely yah
she keeps telling me that i’m up nex
she keeps telling me she loves me yah
she keeps telling me she’s fuckin wit it
then girl come thru lets make some bad decisions
i jus wanna cuff you boo and that’s my only mission
i’ll jus sip my juice till i’m lookin livid
she told me to tell the truth she’s fuckin wit my vision
fuckin wit the flows inside in my head
i don’t think that i could ever rest
i’ll keep poppin pills until i’m dead
nothin ever works i try my best
i try my

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inthaMoonlite [prod. thatboineco]

feels like love but i know it isn’t
i’m so damn numb who’m i kidding
i hate life i wish that i didn’t
i’m poppin percs just to fix it
but i know that i’ll never fit in
an outlier to the human race
i’m a lost soul and i’m drifting
i wish that i could just be erased
i hate the me that i have become
i’m just a fiend and i need more drugs
off a thirty i’m so fucked up
i’m running out i best hit the plug
i took a journey with no way back ay
i got money i’m chasing so ima make that ay
she jus pass me a swisher so ima face that ay
if you ain’t talkin benjis then just get outta my face
please let me lie here
i wanna die here
i’m so sick of this life
i wanna give into my fears

pain in my head guess i’m broken
i’m already dead they don’t notice

its2much [prod. zach sutton]

let me die
i don’t really know what the point in life is
everybody knows that we won’t survive
i jus wanna go shawty i can’t fight this
always on my page but you never like
it’s fake
you ain’t really love me
that’s great
i been counting up my bankroll 
all day
i been drowning in my problems
let’s escape

i been in my bag
and i ain’t stoppin bitch
i love poppin tags
so i been shopping
i don’t understand
girl what’s your problem now
you make me feel dead
cuz you’re a toxin bitch
i already know your love is counterfeit
pretty sure she hates me but she loves my fits 
strung out on the daily but these drugs are bliss
i don’t wanna live i’m fucking done with this
i don’t know what i should do
i’m lost and missing you
i wish it wasn’t true
what the fuck am i gun do
oh whoa
i’m just dying in my room
oh no
i keep falling for you boo

why’s my mind feel like it’s a prison
i don’t understand
i just wanna life that’s worth living
won’t you hold my hand

toxin [prod. thatboineco]

different
everything’s so different
i feel so removed
i been really feelin distant
they ain’t really wit it
i’m really wit it
money spent while sad
couple thousand on my jewelry bitch
why you mad
well i’m better by lonely bitch
so i’m glad
the really drugs control me it’s
not a fad
i really need em bad
and i really want you back
shawty won’t you hold my hand
yeah

feel the drugs inside my system
yeah
they abuse me i’m a victim
yeah
then again i fuckin picked them
what is there to say
maybe i’m insane
cause i treat life like a game
my bad
this is just a faze
that’s cap
i been switching up my lanes
that’s fax
so you best get out my way
‘fore you end up in a grave
yuh
i been really in my head lately
will you love me when i’m dead baby
i won’t even lie don’t think this life’s for me
cuz i’m trapped inside my head
so won’t you set me free

when i pull up i’m so faded uhuh
i’m jus really glad i made it uhuh
feeling like this is the matrix uhuh
‘cause this shits a simulation
i feel your vibrations
yeah
look
i’m so sick of waiting
let’s jus hit the road shawty
me n you’ll be famous
oh my god
nothing’s in our way bitch
whatchu thought
cuz i’m really finna make it
yuh yuh

victim [prod. urbs]

you got what you wanted all along
you told me you loved me
but you didn’t you were wrong
yah
i been falling on my own
i don’t wanna lie i think i’m better off alone 
yah

hey love
you gun watch this fade away or you gun save us
you gun watch me die today i’m outta patience
cuz i do not wanna play these games i’m tryna make up
cuz we ain’t finished
won’t you hear me out
just for a minute
all these people run they mouths
but they don’t get it
baby i jus need you now
won’t you please just be yourself with me
times running out
are you down to go to hell with me

or nah
i got lots of problems
please just call
are you a really a true day one
or a fraud
she jus want me for my paystub
bitch get lost
when i leave i’ll take a coffin with me
cuz i’m so dead bitch
if you really wanna problem with me
you finna get it
type back type back
don’t want you sad so i always write back
trapped in my head always stuck in the past
yeah yeah always stuck in the past
yeah yeah always stuck in my head
yeah yeah feeling better off dead
honestly i’m upset
honestly i’m obsessed
with you
you’re shining like a diamond
always blue
when you say you love me
is it true
give a fuck about the money
i want you
i just need my boo

go2hell [prod. thatboineco]

yuh
oh whoa
i don’t really know what
to do
i jus wanna go back
to you
i hate that you’re really gone
can’t take being alone

yuh
i know
you aint really wanna hold me close
you just couldn’t wait to let me go
oh
so let me go
i’m turning to the tabs and the shrooms
i can see the energy in this room
i’ll leave from this vicinity to the moon
but the tears keep falling for you

what’s next
i ain’t really wanna another ex
can we just talk you saw my texts
please don’t leave me here on read 
i’m begging
for you to come save me
the simulations breaking
everybody here is faking
nobody gives a damn
i need you
you don’t need me
everything in life is fleeting
you say you’ll always be there
but i know one day you’ll leave me 
popped off
i jus wanna pull up in a
droptop
so i gotta keep on grinding no i
cant stop
everyday is a reminder
that my soul is gone
im so fucking lost

im falling for you
ion even care if you knew 
gotta cut the past off
start new
baby just back off
were through
baby just say u aint have time for me
but u do with your friends i know ur not busy
now u wonder why i always act all pissy
i know ur doing shit and i know u dont miss me
i dont see us
falling in love
you took whats mine
now i am stuck

letmeGO ft. heylog [thatboineco]

life is just a rave
and i’m frowning in it
percy to the face
you can’t save me bitch
i’m drowning in it
everything was fake
it was counterfeited
pills inside my brain
i jus wanna feel
a fucking difference
no i’m not okay
i’m so lost
stuck inside my head
i can’t sober up
feeling better dead
is this even love
all this weight thats in my chest
got me feeling stuck
life is so fucked up

i don’t wanna know what you’ve done
i’ll jus shoot my shot like a gun
everyone dies so let’s jus have fun
i needed you but you didn’t want me
i’m so dead i feel like a zombie
everybody’s fake they’s jus copy
life ain’t fair cuz nobody loves me
oh
then why you still haunt me though

i keep staring out my window
in my room without you
was it really something baby
i weep when i think about you
it is what it is you
left me like i’m nothing baby

i don’t understand
you said you needed me
wasn’t in the plan
cuz you ain’t need a thing

chemicals [thatboineco]

ion really get it
i don’t know
if it’s ending or beginning
you can go
i won’t even feel a difference
lil bitch
i jus want some ice to flood out my wrists
give a fuck about a price ion really give a shit
ion really give a fuck cuz 
i can’t
i feel so alone in
my head 
ion really got no feelings
i’m dead
bitch i jus pulled up
so high
been poppin pillies to survive
off a thirty i’m still hurting
what’s the reason i’m alive

i feel so dead
in the head
watch me fuck it up again
ima disappoint my friends
i can’t help it
i’m selfish
i want it all to end
yuh 
a fatal zen
yuh
already dead
you can blame the percocets
yuh
i got problems on problems
i don’t know how to solve em
i hate the life that i’m living
too many pills i look livid

junkie [prod. Jody]

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