genuinely been waiting on this, dynamic duo

What a song! It really fascinates me with its sorrowful drowsiness and self-deception, apparently drug induced. But the mumbled sadness and interwoven voices, the repeating refrains, like the whole thing is made of evolving choruses, build and build, in this captivating collapsing way until, finally, we say goodbye to the song as it becomes a frightened boy all alone somewhere out there. I find it beautifully sad, and mesmerising too. A genuine accomplishment in my opinion. Thank you for creating it.

Frank

featuring @nothomex

i let that shit get the best of me 
now i be rockin on therapy 
i do this shit all so carefully
the weight on my neck is just killin me 
pour down sleeve 
i can't fucking sleep
watch my eyes close
yeah 
this shit like 3d
i like her nose ring 
lil bitch got tagteam
her love like bad dream
i pour my once all alone now
i whip it like green and i lay out
all of my boys trynna hang out 
but i'm just trying to smoke till i black out

It’s weird when I have future in my head 
Because before 21 I see myself dead 
I can’t see any color , how can I not be mad 
I don’t have an expectation for the start of my life only for the end
I can’t see anything I cannot blend 
In between the society , I’m on a deep end 
Will I be able to stand ? 
Find myself in this shitstorm 
Did they already know my end before I was born

Last summer I was more lost than found 
Was left picking up the pieces scattered on the ground
Couldn’t talk couldn’t sleep 
Couldn’t walk couldn’t eat
Lost some pounds I lost some weight 
Now all pants fall from my waiste 
Scars on my wrist tears on my face 
The deepest wounds are the ones you can’t see
I’m the only one who can feel
All the pain they reveal 
I hope I’ll get better this year 
Sometimes I stand still 
I tried i tried i tried i tried 
i cried i cried I cried i cried
I tried i tried i tried i tried 
i cried i cried I cried i cried

dead b4 21 (ft.not home.) prod.nadiak & marlas dreams

the sewerperson sample is used from his unreleased song "that's my brother jay pt2" if fr some reason u want me to remove it dm me

lyrics

she not coming back 
so i’m not outta shit to make 
listening to my emotions keep going back to that mistake
i been lookin at shit different turn that love in to hate
i been feelin summin special
in the blunt in the drank

woah woah
havent got a text but im still scrolling thru my phone
i got love for all my bros inside this smoke filled home
i don wanna let u know u don wanna let u me go
on the porch for 20 mins i bring it up now its too cold?

i know im in the wrong
u know u are too
way too fucking long
to get to the truth

i cant help it why im wasting all this time with u
she said y u blue she said y u blue 
pulling over hoodie coz i dont wanna talk it thru
i just want a view
then wanna hit the stu
cookin up some shit but ive been skipping on the food
hiding in the dark so long losing sight on truth
i dont know how long i can do this im tired of shit sifting thru
know ive got bars forever, living in the …

now u just staring at ur phone
i can feel it in my bones
just one tap ill turn to stone

i guess that i dont need ur help yeh i can do this by my self now
but that not how the world yeh u destined just to fail
should call them all jay coz they got me when i need some help
but this a me thing oh dont u see just let it be if i dont make it just let me melt

they all got my head turned back i cant let em
get inside my head this for their safety i could end em
i dont need to change my ways, its for the better

she just crazy for the words just offend them
i dont wanna hear a whistle walk away when i could end em 
i would rather end my fuckin world b4 i dead em
crossing over paths but they dont see that theirs a dead end

be alright reference

sewerperson sample

bro 2 (jabarionthebeat)

mix and master @ztope

lyrics

butterflys in ur heart
and i will take them to my grave
i am doing my part 
but i cant choose to be saved
we can worship the stars
time just stops where we lay
ive been delt all my cards 
and i am well out of my depth 
and deeper when pressing my scars

i can feel the pressure building
fast
push u out the way, theyre on
attack
in jeaporady when getting to
attatched
feeding on my bones until they 
snap

protect th silk casing like my worthless pulse depends on its
ur beaty will project to outside planes changing course of comets
im not what needs to be beside u in the end in fact far from it
i jus hope u can appreciate our final moments

ink is running out 
most likely my last few pages
everything battered and worn
theres not many too more stages
but i am yet to explore 
the deepest part of my core
but  this aint about me anymore
im happy to pass the torch, in this storm
im still warm, coz i can tell that ur changing ur formv

still one arm on this battle ship i steer
there are one too many waiting for us at the pier
it isnt fair
we’ve come so far 
it stops right here
now this ur part
i hope you’ll know that this is what i wanted dear

butterflies in ur heart (killedmyself)

cover art by my mother 

all the songs in the flesh alb r jus gone be released as singles

sewerperson "lights r on but no ones home" covered in the song

mix & mastr @fleshgolem
lyrics

fillin up th cup 
i feel my body start to ache
evrything telling me to stop
even see th walls starting to cave
and they love it, a body piled function
don’t wanna cause fussing but it’s building up coz every day i see my grave

this aint who i am
but ima act like this is why i am 
my perspective starts to change in where i stand, looking out th window pane
look i dont blame u for thinking im not keen staying 
but i dont hav a plan, anywhere on this dirt feels same

sink to the floor, coz it’s the norm, 
don’t u touch my skin
it’s all been stored, i’m now reborn
coz i can dump my things
yelling fuck it, pressing on my stomach
i can feel it coming but i’m not fucking stopping
 till i’m turned out in 

look at my face, see my state i jus kno ur confused 
i need space, cannot wait let’s take a break on the moon
i’m in pain, still in shock, lost in thought and i’m bruised
u saw me thru th glass and then just left me bleeding out in this hotel room

i saw the lights on but i knew that no one else was home
look at the nikon and check the camera roll, i'm all alone
feel the bottle pop, spew it out, opening in the mouth
i'm a cyclops when it comes to seeing no one else
okay, okay

i feel my ears pop when i take the lift up to the spot
in the function, sipping on this ace and rolling pot
i'ma punch in, even when i'm geeked, i'm on the clock
like a pumpkin, i'm lit up and my body start to rot

i'm an asshole, okay, well, i know, so you can leave
what's the point, though, in coming to the function if you cheesed?
i'm in street clothes but my guys in masks and they don't ski
i don't need throat, i just need a girl who proud of me, okay

know i act tough i just need someone to see i’m not ok
the whole domineer off i’ma just leave it to fate
cut my feelings off coz that mean i’m not suffering the same
sure it isn’t real but when i smile i still feel sane

i still feel sane, but mostly when im on a subs
get apifannys that turns my wants in to musts
i get a lot dreams but w my habits theyre all stuck 
i got these goals but w these habits theyre all fucked

i'm an asshole, okay, well, i know, so you can leave
what's the point, though, in coming to the function if you cheesed?
i'm in street clothes but my guys in masks and they don't ski
i don't need throat, i just need a girl who proud of me, okay

lights r on

lights r on (flesh)

and hey there 
can i sit here  
i noticed that you were all alone 
and reading jane eyre
and i can’t 
stay here 
i’ll die here 
and if it’s raining for the night
i’ll give you my coat at anytime, i 

like wait there
(wait there)
i’m scared 
(i’m scared)
that you think that i’m shady 
it’s not fair 
(it’s not fair) 
we’re an odd pair
i’ll stay here if you want me to i promise
if not we can rain check 

hey there

i think i recognise you; have you been here before? 

(oh, for real?) 

my bad, i guess not but- 
do you wanna go
we can smoke at mine
if you don’t smoke
i got some beers n we can pass time
i don’t give a fuck about what’s going on 
as long you’re here watching always sunny
til bout quarter past 5 

and hey there 
“hey u :)” 
im fucked up
turned blue 
yeah im too slumped
how bout u 
like oh god !!!!
you’re too cool 

dont walk out 
leave me 
im cut up 
bleeding 
so just stay
these sun rays 
they make me 
feel okay 

all of the things 
that i could now say to you
i don’t know whether to laugh or cry
do you even feel at least half of this?
or will you just sit with your friends and all laugh at this- 
FUCK

and hey there 
can i sit here  
i noticed that you were all alone 
and reading jane eyre
and i can’t 
stay here 
i’ll die here 
and if it’s raining for the night
i’ll give you my at coat anytime, i 

like wait there
(wait there)
i’m scared 
(i’m scared)
that you think that i’m shady 
it’s not fair 
(not fair) 
we’re an odd pair
but i’ll stay here
if you want me to i promise
if not we can rain check 

hey there

i think i recognise you; have you been here before?
oh, for real?

pale (pekarot x jolst)

aint gon be here long

not home. - aint gon be here long

lyrics ⬇️

it’s been cold out
and I been here alone
yea
i been here alone
and you don’t check ur phone now

i just hear the tone but I don’t wanna hear it no

you got me by the throat
knowing what I’ve done with you its so hard to go
i know it’ll show when I walk up in the room
implode and choke
cuz you cant stand the view 
I know I know

I’ve often been the rude one in ur life
but I’m offering solutions to make it right

your life is full of gratitude is that a lie
only if they knew a thing or two of what we do at night

it’s not so nice it’s not a crime but I know that I shouldn’t do it y
they say I should go to therapy but I already do it
i know what it’s like to bury everything cuz I been thru it
multiple the opportunities I lose I can’t control it
honestly I think it’s pride that’s over doing my influence 
everyday I’m getting by but how idk i have been clueless

let me close my eyes then I’ll prove it
my whole life a lie 
make me feel stupid




I know theyll be laughing in the background
came close but never really got attached how
i really meant to and i wish that i got it right
maybe this the problem why i cant sleep at night

I know, I know. w/ NAVYXOWER (yunny x cxrter)

yuck! (scottysplash) (SKIP TO 1 MIN)

9tails - sunday (without richywitch)

incredible mix & master by bytes_sounds (on ig)
amazing feature from @notaheroo

lyrics

[maesk]
fall deep
the darkness loves to creep

let go of me
but i dont think that i can be
anyone id ever want id ur not here when ur next to me

all week
u been in my dreams
call me when u need me so i can wake up from my sleep

oh jeez
yeah im falling deep
losing contact with the surface am i that weak?

woah, oh no
u want me to let go
i was thinking forevermore
couldnt even last this december snow

um ok
well im not feeling great
think i just need lie down
for now ill just pretend to keep u safe

[notahero]
pink cloud surface over twilight
during summer skies
we dreamt about our future
now it’s happening before our very eyes

don’t breathe
don’t want to disturb her sleeping
the warm body next to me
the girl i’m never leaving

all week
your smell in my sheets
i’ve been feeling like a creep
every time i lay my head down to sleep

you and me
something they could never be
i’ve been getting high lately
told u there’s nothing to worry about

[maesk] x [notahero]
woah, oh no
u want me to let go
i was thinking forevermore
couldnt even last this december snow

um ok
well im not feeling great
think i just need lie down
for now ill just pretend to keep u safe

[maesk]
yes i see the doves
them flying around is enough
I don't think ill fall in love again
so from here ill make it up

oh my fucking god
i'm falling apart
hold me tight just one more time
just being alone is awfully scary

fall deep

fall deep ft notahero (jacob vallen)

9tails - 7am in some pussy

Lyrics: 

(hero)

she said
"if you gave me time, i could listen"
"i can't read your mind, you've been distant"
i been steady pouring drink in the kitchen
i know we just talk, but i don't really like you kissed him
couldn't find it in the text that you sent me
maybe i could find it wadded in the bedsheets
you said 
"we could work it out"
"you won't let me"
you just worked it out when you decided you could drop me

(ekeon)

I don't wanna tell em what you did then
You think its funny when you splurge my name
You dissin
You call me addict 
Call me fake 
Call me villain
But I know it 
When you all alone
You listen

If you leave me what am I now
I could find my way but really 
I don't know how
I could love you more but really that's a false vow
Is that how you really feel 
I don't know now

It's getting hard to stay focused 
You know that I'm trying you're my antidote its
Something that I can notice
These words to the lost
Are all from a lotus

Hold my arm
I promise 
You'll be strong
Don't take it close to heart 
I will not fall apart

(hero)

(BUT IM LYING)

huh
she said
"if you gave me time, i could listen"
"i can't read your mind, you've been distant"
i been steady pouring drink in the kitchen
i know we just talk, but i don't really like you kissed him
couldn't find it in the text that you sent me
maybe i could find it wadded in the bedsheets
you said 
"we could work it out"
"you won't let me"
you just worked it out when you decided you could drop me

Hold my arm
I promise 
You'll be strong
Don't take it close to heart 
I will not fall apart
but I'm lying

Chicken Gordita

Chicken Gordita w/ Hero (uforia)

<3

i been outside in the forest
clashing with heads like a taurus
just don’t feel like me if i’m honest

like, baby its like this
i put my hand on that right hip
vibe, girl we just vibing 

why you only in love when you’re hearing that night sound
you just keep tripping on shit like just pipe down
i got these questions and i gotta message

‘coz it’s not just peace and all love that is coming for you
and did i mention
i lost perspective on shit, i just live in the truth
and thats a weapon

i know that i’m swimming in this dark oasis
and there’s no replacing 
know when i speak i got your heart racing 
do i gotta keep it cool, i make it blatant

like, they gonna say shit
like you ain’t gonna make it
if you ain’t gone say this to my face then i can erase it

i been outside, i been outside 24/7
i cannot lie, it’s made a difference
you won’t decide, you won’t decide
she won’t decide, she won’t decide
but she’s on the side yeah she wanna ride
she’s locked in for life

and i cannot change my mind on this
i cannot lose sight, can’t lose sight

and i cannot change my mind on this
i cannot 

i make the difference, i drop the boat and go missing
if you wanna come with me you better listen
talking and taking, that shit’s on the wish list 
it’s time to grow up from a lil kid

practice what i preach yeah i know i’m the realest
don’t flex bout no shit i just stay in my feelings
i’ll be the best, but i won’t make a killing
i’ll look out for the rest just to see what they’re wheeling

are you down to ride to the end of time 
girl won’t you look at that night
girl won’t you look at the sky
baby please do not cry
there’s a world outside
of this bubble, i know that i’m right
all of those experiences, i held that shit tight
you don’t need to fight

i’m in my zone
from when i was on my own
i had this shit locked down like a home
i had my world enclosed with chrome
back to the basics, went back to the basics

now on top of my shit i just live in the moment
dropping these hits like a stoner but sober
i don’t fear the alone
i slowed it down, now i sit on my throne

stage 21

stage_021 (ivn)

[Intro]
Ayy, ayy
That's 9TAILS shit

[Chorus]
I feel like a zombie
I look like a junkie
I been tryin' every method to get you to love me
I know I'm not stackin' lettuce right now, trust me
You stick with me honey
You'll be grateful you did someday (Grateful one day)

[Verse 1]
I like the pain (Yeah)
Women that give me a love that I can maim (Ayy)
I like the race (Yeah)
All of the purple appear in my veins (In my veins)
Lavender taste (Yeah)
Purple lipstick and a face full of cake
Hit with the wave (Woah)
Try to keep up while I'm claimin' my place (Claimin' my place)
Reach for the sky (Yeah)
Don't overshoot for an early goodbye (See ya)
You'll see a show when you look in my eyes
Minecraft mobs appear in the night (Zombies)
You know that no one can give me the boot
Since there was no one to give me the go (No one)
You know that no one can show me the way
Since there was only one way I could go (One way)
If all I do is flex just know I deserve it (Flex)
Take the pain from in my chest and learn how to preserve it (Pain)
Write my lyrics not your steps 'cause there's no way to learn this
Come at me with triple thread up, I'll put quadruple work in
Big bars, huh, driving fast cars (Vroom, vroom)
Big dope, huh, put us in the stars (Way too high)
I achieve all I could want and then some more (I keep on moving)
Haven't bathed inside it yet I'm chasin' more (Skrrt, skrrt)
Four seats (Yeah) in the Panamera (Porsche)
She like a snack (Nah), straight out of Panera (That bread place)
15 unreleased tracks, quinceañera (A lot of tracks)
All my music tight, like washed hats from new era (Yeah)

[Bridge]
(Yo, you can't lie to me that shit's tight as fuck after you wash it, even with the hat trade thing)
(Yo, I bought like, a Jays hat and shit and like)
SoundCloud beast
(Can't even wear it now that I washed it and shit.. anyways)
Bruce Banner

[Chorus]
I feel like a zombie
I look like a junkie
I been tryin' every method to get you to love me (Ayy, ayy)
I know I'm not stackin' lettuce right now, trust me
You stick with me honey
You'll be grateful you did someday
(Turn that up. I don't know why I said that I'm recording this [?] this shit, whatever)

[Verse 2]
Living like a zombie (Ayy)
All I eat is junk food
Fuck 'em out just show me what those damn Haribo bears do
You said you been eatin' more like you been eatin' cat food
You eat IAMS, I just eat on pussy like I had to
You eat pussy, you a cannibal
Your daily hookup a cantaloupe
I would say I steal your girl, but she's an anime pillow
Word Smith, I'll bend your will
Will Smith, no Willow
All my bars on the cold side
Cold side, no pillow (Woah)
Big fish like a great white
You a small fish like a minnow (Fish)
She give me brain, I return the favour
Six nine, no GUMMO
Got the blicky, uh
Drum, it holds fifty, uh

[Open Verse]

9TAILS - i got a headache (prod. the boy)

prod. sketchmyname
dialogue snippets I used are from the movie "Adventureland"

n1ght (sketchmyname)

“produced” by me

and i know that i’ll get better, but i won’t hold my breath,
every day that i’m inside another day in my head,
i’ll just sit inside, these tears i cry, they spill on your dress,
think i need to go and sit outside so i’ll call my friends

and lately i’ve been worried that the only thing i love is slippin away from me,
don’t fall for me,
i try; i can’t fall asleep,
and i stress way too much these days i thought i was getting better
but in my heart i’ll be okay because i’ve firmed much stronger weather 
and i don’t feel any release when i write a song, i won’t lie
only time i feel okay, 
is when i’m holding on to a knife
and i wont ever put you down by running my mouth,
i’ll make sure that he regrets every sick word that he spouts 

and i know that i’ll get better, but i won’t hold my breath,
every day that i’m inside another day in my head,
i’ll just sit inside, these tears i cry, they spill on your dress,
think i need to go and sit outside so i’ll call my friends

release

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maesk337@gmail.com
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