this went under my radar whut, makes me feel nostalgic for 2019 somehow

track 4 of Self Titled Album
@carlby
prod. metlast x 5head <3

lyrics:

stuck here for a minute tryna figure shit out
looking at the edge and i dont know how
im gonna get thru all this shit
idk how to deal

cuz my mind is hell
yeah im a little bit unwell
stuck inside this cell
all i do is repell
they all say that i need some help
but they cant even figure their own shit out....
woah oh...

(carlby)
they cant even figure their own shit out
there's a hell in my head
like im peele ima get out

got a lot of problems from the trauma
maybe i was born sick
maybe this is karma

like paying for the sins of my father
but i dont wanna die a martyr
with every hit i take
i grow stronger 
with every passing day
i wear out my stay a little while longer

they cant even figure their own shit out
now they wanna tell me how to fix myself
im stuck in my mind and im tryna get out

Spotify

my mind is hell (feat. Carlby)

[+] I don't want you anymore bc you ruined it
*produced by @ *

INSTAGRAM: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TWITTER: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: www.discord.gg/DRfW7Q4Bmu
LYRICS:

[hook/verse: @seejayxo]
I walk in, I'm blacked out
Spent a K on a bag now
Look we just tryna trap out
Baby don't get too attached now (2x)

I'm just with my gang and we coolin'
Baby I know that you want it, you aint foolin this
Pop out with the newest bitch
I don't want you anymore bc you ruined it
I be off all kinds of drugs but I got used to it
Pull up on your block, make your heart drop
I got 30 in the Glock, I don't wanna lay you out
But I feel it off the xanny bar, I'm itching hard
Had to pull up in a foreign car, Im swerving off

[verse 2: @lilskeleskrrt]
blacked out, sedatives make me pass out
drop a couple k on a bag now 
u don’t feel the same, i could die now 
you won’t shed a tear, eat your heart out
black out n i’m hitting the function 
i’m not the one for discussion 
blood on my jeans, hit em once with the beam 
n seejay jus pouring the tussin
i know better than to get attached now 
this could never last now

blacked out

blacked out (feat. skele) *music vid in desc*

Featuring: https://soundcloud.com/svnam x https://soundcloud.com/skrxwd
Produced by: https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic

Lyrics: 

Hazenova:
pour that kerosine on my wounds to make it go away but i make it worse like every single second of every single day
hear the voices in my walls they tell me go away
hear the voices in my walls they tell me go away


im just a loser
its okay if you dont like me
im nothing special but i swear im fucking trying
im fucking bleeding from my hands and my eyelids
cuts on my skin
as im sitting in silence

Svnam:
i wanna feel it burn just a little bit longer
look me in the eyes
split lipped
tell me i can be stronger
than the things inside of my head
i think they're pulling me apart again
cover me in gasoline
light the match, but i'll never scream
'cause the silence defines me
it drives me & binds me to the same bed that we lied in
it's the same bed that i'll die in
wasting almost every day sleeping in 'til 3pm
i'm fucking fine
i'll just play pretend that i just feel nothing

kerosene (feat svnam x skrwd) (prod. Iof)

new midwest emo track w/ @salemavenue :)
produced by @nevrfall
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
[decks]
college has ruined me, my mind is cloudy
wake up each morning im drowsy
feel like nobody’s around me
i just wanted to be happy
living this life is so tiring
nothing in this town inspires me
im not alive just to die,
see through my eyes,
and maybe you’ll find that

i might just fly away for a while
im sober in the candlelight, but sleeping in denial
i’d do anything to see you smile
this dream is a nightmare, im always falling down

this dream is a nightmare, im always falling down

[salem avenue]
i’m always falling down
pick me up and lift me off the ground
i act like it’s all over now
but really i just fill my head with doubt
and where would i go anyways?
when i don’t wanna ever make a sound 
maybe i’ll just fade away
find myself another in this ghost town 

yeah it goes down
pick me up 
i don’t wanna feel alone now
it’s so cold out 
i feel blue now 
pick me up
i don't wanna feel alone now
like they do

[decks]
(living this life is so tiring)
(nothing in this town inspires me)
(im not alive just to die)
(see through my eyes and maybe you'll find that)

i might just fly away for a while
im sober in the candlelight, but sleeping in denial
i’d do anything to see you smile
this dream is a nightmare, im always falling down

this dream is a nightmare, im always falling down

sober in the candlelight (feat. salem avenue) [p. nevrfall]

spotify!

sober in the candlelight (feat. salem avenue) [nevrfall]

live my life with the anxiety 
way too many stupid feelings inside of me
the things you do so normally
are making me feel like i cannot breath

sometimes i just wanna die...
sunlight spills in hurts my eyes
another sleepless night

another sleepless night
i can never close my eyes

and everybody tells me the same old thing
 "we all get sad" yeah, its kind of disgusting
its like they really don't understand me
this isolation gets me feeling really empty
this is why i keep to myself
this is why i deny all your help
im so sick of all this shit

you know that im so sick of this
my stomachs queasy
i just want to end it...

anxiety [+metlast & 5head]

lyrics vvv

(wow! you're turning into a skeleton!)

yeah i feel so small
but my ego real tall
i - i - i
i been down on myself lately
and i dont know who to call
actually i do know
but i dont wanna pressure you
true, i dont wanna pressure you
but i just love you and you know its true
to my other one, im sorry..
tell the baby that im sorry, but im not coming home
woah, oh
cause i got bigger plans
than sitting around contemplating
if you really give a fuck about me, like-
all you ever gave me was mixed signals
oh what did you expect
when i found someone who could
give me more than what you could
babe i love you, but i want outta my my my head....

yeah i feel so small
but my ego real tall
i - i - i
i been down on myself lately
and i dont know who to call
actually i do know
but i dont wanna pressure you
true, i dont wanna pressure you
but i just love you and you know its true
to my other one, im sorry..
tell the baby that im sorry, but im not coming home
woah, oh
cause i got bigger plans
than sitting around contemplating
if you really give a fuck about me, like-
all you ever gave me was mixed signals
oh what did you expect
when i found someone who could
give me more than what you could
all you ever gave me was mixed signals
oh what did you expect
when i found someone who could
give me more than what you could

accepting my feelings, and moving on (skellington)

Release date:
25 July 2021

@sendflowrs
@wisssery
@sorrow_bringer

Lyrics soon: 

Getting into my old self again with music like this, i think this song if fkn sick and got my boy on so its just a masterpiece at this point aint it. wisssery and sorrowbringer smashed it as always! I moved house and dont have wifi until the 27th july so i'll master this/ mix this again if need be :) <3

bad w/ sendflowrs [wisssery/sorrowbringer]

v v v
yeah i know
no one knows my name
but i keep on trucking 
i just hope the work 
pays off or fucking something
but if it dont i wont be suprised
hell or nothing and left to die
stayed up every night for a year straight
studying my mixing and studying my membrane
always thought that i was fucking insane
never had no one to relate to, yeah yeah
never had no friends 
still fucking dont
i always end up alone again
and thats my fault too
i push them away
i push them away
please dont put any worth to my name
i swear to fuckin god i dont deserve that shit 
yeah im just a sad ass girl trapped in her room and shit
never leave my room unless i really fuckin have to
i dont know
i dont know
every night i smoke, man it got me feeling slow mo
throat burns, red eyes, and i feel like shit
feel like i wanna crawl in a hole and dip
say you really dont want me to do that
if you really dont want me to, please try and stop me
(try and stop me)
(try and stop me)
uncomfortable like always
always fuckin sweat
always fuckin stress 
about some dumb fuckin shit
always miss my boyfriend
always miss my dad
just wanna feel decent
how hard is that?
how hard is it to feel like im normal?
how hard is it to feel like im clean?
how hard is it to feel like kai?
how hard is it to feel alright?
aye, aye, 
no one knows my name
but i keep on truckin
i could just repeat that shit 
but i feel like workin
and i feel like nothing
hopefully im something
maybe ill find out one fuckin day but
not soon
yeah i was in marshall and u called me
said ur in asheville, can you meet me soon?
and i hit u back, said "im down, im down, im down"
always really am but you dont understand
look at twitter once then you go and advance
babe i think your heads clouded give me a chance
you look fucking flawless how you are boy dont trip
ay one grand for a trip (one trip)
just to hold my boy in my arms real quick (real quick)
yeah its real fucking tuff long distance relationship shit
yeah but its real love thats the shit you dont get.

hell or nothing (pekarot)

I can't breathe so I suffocate,
numb the pain like Novocain,
hear me out for the last time,
look to the stars its the same between you and I,

I haven't been the best friend, haven't been the best kid-
but I swear I changed.

Kids Forever ft. Ashes

INTRO:
promise you won’t forget me
i’ve been feeling so empty
is this the end of tonight
am i saying goodbye 
for the very last time
i don’t want to rewind
i can’t go on living this lie

CHORUS:
oh where did the time go?
you said you’d be back tomorrow
i took your lead i followed (followed)
straight back to my sorrows (sorrows)
so i’ll ask you again where did the time go (where did it go)

POST CHORUS:
you left me here defenseless
i’ve never 
been so fuckin helpless
whatever
you gotta be so desperate 
to even turn to me for pleasure

SENDFLOWRS VERSE:
for pleasure i can’t lie i’m fucked 
droolin from my mouth like everytime we talk
you always told me i can look but i can’t touch
wait that’s the weed man i think i’m finally done
erase my name from your phone
you better
tell him straight and never come home
i’m gonna
tear his flesh from the bone
and i might 
catch a case you made me so cold (so cold)
you fake bitches
i’m a sinner
i stay sinning 
i dream of you but i’m not the one you’re kissing
like baby come over here lemme show you what you missing

OUTRO:
see my head spin
round and round
i just wanna get out of this town
look at my face and you’ll see a frown
but don’t be surprised 
when you see my wounds are open wide
don’t cry tonight
with your ocean blue eyes

where did the time go ft. sendflowrs (wisssery x jolst)

prod @taurs and @jolst

I need to call her again and get my head straight,
scrape my face on pavement when she drag me cus im dead weight,
I can smoke a pound easy babe they call me sensei 
I dont post on gram, hate my face and thats on everything, everything 
x2

is this true love 
gonna throw up
if u repeat that phrase
those 3 words make me go numb 
need to get up
been laying here all month
and this weight it holds me down
but the weed help me get up 

and thats ur man, is it?
hes kinda handsome,
well compared to me ur a muhfuckin damsel
think I got 2 greedy follow bread like im Hansel 
I fuckin hate this place and ur friends I cant stand
i can’t stand em 
x2

I need to call her again and get my head straight,
scrape my face on pavement when she drag me cus im dead weight,
I can smoke a pound easy lil bitch they call me sensei 
I dont post on gram, hate my face and thats on everything, everything 
x2

bad w/ sendflowrs [wisssery/sorrowbringer]

nevermadeithome

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