produced by speedlmt

lyrics:
before i found u
i was going through hell
oh do you miss me
im still going through hell
i still cant even tell
what its like to be me
she doesent miss me
she doesent miss me


i vanish i go into hibernation
crucify me its isolation
no one will find me 
lost in the pine trees
walk right by me hallucinations
i vanish i go into hibernation
crucify me its isolation
no one will find me 
lost in the pine trees
walk right by me hallucinations

she my bandage
walking through the forest empty handed
blood on my screen
with dirt on my shoes
where have you been
i sorta miss you
well no defiently do 
im shaking in my room
i really hate this house
im shaking in my room
i need a way out
im shaking in my room
im shaking in my room
shaking in my room

i vanish i go into hibernation
crucify me its isolation
no one will find me 
lost in the pine trees
walk right by me hallucinations
i vanish i go into hibernation
crucify me its isolation
no one will find me 
lost in the pine trees
walk right by me hallucinations

isolation

the boy who cried wolf (p. noah thomas)

lyrics

i wouldnt mind it if you stayed another night
it tends to get lonely around this time
and i wouldnt be surprised if my body just gave up one of these days
think i got it coming anyway
so why dont you just light those incense
theres something in this room i dont talk about
and its driving me out of my fucking head
but i just cant get the words out
its not halloween but this mask that i have on is starting to scare me
ill die in my dreams if you move on so im just hoping that you spare me

days filled with green smoke slowly move along
hear you whisper in my ear, nick please keep holding on
i know that youd cry if i cry so i never cry around you
if tonight i die ill die happy knowing that i found you

underdog movie intro scene (miercoles)

im sorry for not posting in awhile, i've been making some stuff im proud of but havent finished them so ive been strugglin to get somethin out that i love. if u still stickin around ily. i have stuff for u this year :)

i dont wanna talk like that
nothing rly said and it's goin right back, right back
pressure weighin on my head, scars on my skin till the lights turn black, turn black
look like a cracked phone screen, nobody rly knows me 
can't talk to anybody
sometimes it gets deep, but it's hardly there
hardly here
im hardly..
i wonder what u thought when u saw me
if u need a friend u can call me
im right here man im sorry im sorry

it was not supposed to be like this
3 o clock and i feel like shit
and im feelin it oh the sky is weighin in
got so much potential, potential that im not weighin in
gotta retry, retry don't watch time go by
everyday that i wait it feel like a lie
everyday feels the same im just fightin time
got so many songs to finish jus gotta fkn try

i dont wanna talk like that
nothing rly said and it's goin right back, right back
pressure weighin on my head, scars on my skin till the lights turn black, turn black
look like a cracked phone screen, nobody rly knows me 
can't talk to anybody
sometimes it gets deep, but it's hardly there
hardly here
im hardly..

hardly (prod. neverforever)

body going missing

prod: https://soundcloud.com/block-tane https://soundcloud.com/nate2timezz
 
i can hear my own heartbeat
pound in this quiet
hands bound back
with this rope
he'll tie me up
(i can hear my own heartbeat pounding
i can hear my own heartbeat pounding)
i can feel the cold concrete
laying down, crying
itching through scabs
to be whole is all i want
(i can hear my own heartbeat pounding
i can hear my own heartbeat pounding)
open me up
god willing i'll make it
your shirt soaking with blood
oh, my body keep shaking
place my flesh upon a sigil
brand with my initials
this night will make me whole again
the embers start to whistle
nothing left, no one to hold me
bloody ceremony
i will lose control again,
the heavens will disown me

please, please
it's all that i have
(like magician, body going)

like magician,
body going missing
bloodied up my palms
baby i feel like a christian
just how i envisioned
prep for the incision
pierce right through my heart
until my fingers finish twitching
oh yeah,
i think i like it, i don't wanna pretend
i'm fucking begging for it
cut me again
and again, and again, and again
and again

(let us pray, let us wish
to partake in communion,
let us partake in communion,
and feast upon the old blood)

where i'm going
i won't make it back
hope he's waiting for me
vision going black
nothing i have left will make it past
open me up
god willing i'll make it
your shirt soaking with blood
oh my body keeps shaking
keeps shaking


paleblood

Wake Up w/ Brecken

"one day we gon be okay baby just stay"
i can hear just how you told me like its yesterday
ill be sure to send my love from the cosmos
i guess lately its just been harder hitting high notes
i guess lately its just been easier to let my mind go
i guess lately im feeling bad bout dragging you along

cuz i dont want to see you at the bottom
and baby you can tell me if its too much
i know i can be a lot so you just say som
and i dont like myself if we need something to agree on
im up making songs fell asleep with my jeans on
i can tell you love me from the way you take my jeans off
id love if youd stick with me ill look better when i wean off
the same songs just in different styles
you wonder when i been this happy girl its been a while

but i cant make you smile
havent seen those pearly whites girl whats got you down
we can live another life if we leave this town
one day i can make it right one day youll be proud
in the passenger seat found my reason in the stars
i got holes in my jeans you got anger in your heart
its not as easy as it seems so i try to play my part
control alt then you deleted me im back here at the start
i got bad lungs one more cigarette
another sad song posted on the internet
i guess its not fun tell myself im not upset
when the days done find a place to lay my head
from the day we met swore to be my best
we both know the fire started when you call my friends
now im only feeling sorry for the shit i said
one day imma be a star im just not shining yet

and baby you can tell me if its too much
i know i can be a lot so you just say som
and i dont like myself if we need something to agree on
im up making songs fell asleep with my jeans on
i can tell you love me from the way you take my jeans off
id love if youd stick with me ill look better when i wean off
the same songs just in different styles
you wonder when i been this happy girl its been a while

denim w/ halfhearted (p. under the maple tree)

lyrics ⬇️

i talk a lot about you i dont think you think of me
i hate the ridicule i feel like this is hide and seek
switch perspectives for a second maybe you would see
its not really all that perfect in this deep blue sea
i checked my vitals and my heart is beating beautifully 
nevermind the thoughts i had of what it coudlnt be
cuz i dont think too much or at all when i fall asleep
and im so sorry when you call i know you gon hear the beep
and its my fault that i did everything i did to you

but if you didnt jump conclusions i think wed be cool
split my body armor when you uncovered the truth
i drank that that poison every night
didn’t have nun to lose
not much else to do
like now that i can’t fall asleep
ur the only thing in my thoughts I miss all the dreams
it was nice that I escaped my sick reality
but now i gotta go right back to find my inner peace 

i talk a lot about you i dont think you think of me

i checked my vitals and my heart is beating beautifully 

and im so sorry when you call i know you gon hear the beep
and its my fault that i did everything i did to you

but if you didnt jump conclusions i think wed be cool
split my body armor when you uncovered the truth
i drank that that poison every night
didn’t have nun to lose
not much else to do
like now that i can’t fall asleep

now that I can’t fall asleep (secre)

at least he wanted something 

prod: @vito2300
 
you know i like it when you speak to me soft 
most nights i spend with you alone
feels like we don’t even talk 
know you don’t need me at all 
i’m just taking up this space 
know i’m just here by default

don’t want another 
staying here is gon make me suffer 
n my body shudder 
another night i spent playing lover 
so over summer 
sunlight poking right thru the shutter 
laid under covers
every time i just let him under 

n it’s not hard to see 
but i still don’t get it 
and i bet crying here 
would make me pathetic 
i just type it up 
but don’t send the message 
and god it’s killing me 
but i think i’ll let it 

facing the repercussions 
it’s just what happens 
i can’t help that i'm no good at loving 
i’m just so unbecoming 
he only want me in passing 
at least he wanted something 

yeah is it too much 
promise i’ll be good enough 
be what you want 
even if i can’t feel your touch 
i'm leaking blood 
just waiting till i'm getting crushed 
and when we’re tongue to tongue 
i almost feel like there’s an us 

i’m just a body 
take it off 
and come put it on me 
no need for talking 
when it’s done 
you don’t need to call me 
this shit gon haunt me 
coming round it gets so disheartening 
i guess he caught me
every touch it just leave me starving 

but i’m still there 
right under you
every time 
you call my name 
in the way that i like 
don’t make me feel like 
i am more than a night 
god i tried 
god i tried 

n it’s not hard to see 
but i still don’t get it 
and i bet crying here 
would make me pathetic 
i just type it up 
but don’t send the message 
and god it’s killing me 
but i think i’ll let it 

i know i do this to myself 
i know what’s going on here 
i know i could avoid it, well
i know you’ve put it so clear
and it’s so stupid that i’m wiping my tears 
yeah it’s so stupid that i hold you this dear

unbecoming

LWFH

JMonmarz-bloody cheek

rock bottom

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