finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

ruin. | Produced by hxrxkiller

Produced by metlast x luffy

Lyrics

What you mean to me, I don't mean to you
You don't feel for me, what I feel for you
I would kill for you, girl I would die for you
Wish I wouldn't every single time I cried for you

Wish I didn't every single time I call to you
You don't care at fucking all bitch, I'm a flaw to you
You don't want nothing to do with me at all do you?
Why the fuck did I ever go and fall for you?

Maybe I won't ever know, maybe I won't ever get
Better than what I am right now, baby girl you heaven sent
Told me that you're here for me but I don't see no evidence
Graveyardwraith, I don't open up I'm reticent

I slept better with the false belief that you had loved me
Always tried my best for you, you made it look so easy
Why do I still call knowing you won't ever answer?
Staring from the window that my bloody hands have shattered

What you mean to me, I don't mean to you
You don't feel for me, what I feel for you
I would kill for you, girl I would die for you
Wish I wouldn't every single time I cried for you

Wish I didn't every single time I call to you
You don't care at fucking all bitch, I'm a flaw to you
You don't want nothing to do with me at all do you?
Why the fuck did I ever go and fall for you?

graveyardwraith.

Lyrics

I wanna get lost and never be found
Honestly I'm sick of just being around
One day I'll wake up inside of a bed
But the same day I'll go to sleep in the ground

I got all these feeling I don't talk about
Every time I did lead to someone else just walking out
I'm so fucking scared of what I feel because if I tell the truth
You might see what I see in myself and hate me too

And I don't wanna do that again
I don't ever wanna feel like I did back then
I would rather be numb to it all
That feeling something good just to lose it all

Life ain't what I thought it'd be
Like I thought when I was 16
Felt like I would be so free
That was shallow, now I'm deep

I wanna get lost and never be found
Honestly I'm sick of just being around
One day I'll wake up inside of a bed
But the same day I'll go to sleep in the ground

And on some days I feel like that day could be now
And on some days I feel like I figure it out
But on all days I'm really just keeping it down
So does it even fucking matter if I'm happy?

Cause when I am, I'm not
And everytime I am, I know what I really got going on
Inside my head, some stupid fucking voice telling me I should be dead

shallow. | Produced by greaf

slumber.

Lyrics

Okay? Bitch, I still don't care, fuck did you think that this was?
It may seem that I do but I don't, never did & I swear
At one point I did but that girl was a bitch, I loved her to the core, I won't do that again
Say that I'm done but I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again

I been stuck in a loop, I been stuck in my head, I don't know what to do
Stuck in a maze, I don't know which way is gonna lead me to hell or lead me to be saved
Used to write I ain't know what to say, I said fuck that, now I'ma let my nuts hang
I don't care about a stream, I don't care about a band, I don't care about a bitch, I don't care about a chain

I don't care how you feel about the shit that I say
I can say I don't care till this song damn end
I don't care about no promo, I don't care about no label, I don't care about no co sign, I don't care about no friend
Care where I'm going, I don't care where I been
Care what I'm doing, I don't care what I did
I don't care what you show me, I care what you hid
You can say that you love me in front of my face but behind all the scenes all that hate could be big

I don't care, holding my breath, think it's love in the air
I was alone, it wasn't nobody there
Did this shit on my own so it kind of confuses me when I see you asking for help
Don't get in your feelings, I don't care how you feel
When I was all in my feelings they ain't ask how I felt

Okay? Bitch, I still don't care, fuck did you think that this was?
It may seem that I do but I don't, never did & I swear
At one point I did but that girl was a bitch, I loved her to the core, I won't do that again
Say that I'm done but I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again

I been stuck in a loop, I been stuck in my head, I don't know what to do
Stuck in a maze, I don't know which way is gonna lead me to hell or lead me to be saved
Used to write I ain't know what to say, I said fuck that, now I'ma let my nuts hang
I don't care about a stream, I don't care about a band, I don't care about a bitch, I don't care about a chain

That girl the reason I don't care, I gave her all of my love, in return I got hurt
I know that life isn't fair but what in the fuck did I do to deserve that hurt
Fuck did I do to deserve this shit? Don't try to hide, I'ma find you bitch
Every wall that you build, I'ma burn that shit
Everything that I felt, you gonna feel that shit

you're gonna feel everything that i felt.

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Lyrics

I got a bottle of pills and a mind full of bad shit
Imagining shit, I hope I don't take action
Fuck my past, 'cause I still ain't past it
If I get in my car, I might crash it

Living lies that we were told were true
Used to talk, now I'm ignoring you
Fucking stuck and don't know what to do
Except for make a song and hope it pushes through

Working for a day that I'm not like this
I don't like to talk, that's why I write shit
Talent from the dark, I ain't on no bright shit
I'm on some deadboy, post death type shit

I'm just like you
I just wanna live life just like you
You say "I wanna be just like you" 
But I promise I'm nothing to look up to

I'm lifeless, stupid, broke, and I'm sad
Love like cupid, I never had
Won't get through this, I never have
Chance for some new shit, I think I'll pass

I know I hurt you, I'm sorry for that
You might get stuck if you go in my head
That's why I try to not let no one in
I don't need more pain from losing a friend

Antidepressants all over my bed
Don't know if I wanna take 'em again
I think I wanna feel the pain instead
If I can't feel that, then I'm honestly dead

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cupid. | Produced by HXRXKILLER

@paineko

Lyrics

My soul is burning from fires that I set
You said you loved me, that's not what your eyes said
You think I'm breathing, I promise I'm not yet
You know those people that suck? Yeah I'm that

On planet depression till drugs take me off it
The hope that I had slipped away and I lost it
The only bed that I need is a coffin
I'm stuck in a nightmare, won't end till I stop it

And that can mean two things, growing up and facing life
Or my blood from blew brains
Knife inside my back, it's marked with a few names
All are alterations of mine, I'm what I hate

"Damn, that's some deep shit"
Nah, it's just real
But real is buried underneath
It's locked away and it's sealed
So I guess deep could justify the fuckin' way that I feel
All the pain's in my head but I swear it could kill

Kill a motherfucker quick, pop one shot and I'm dead
I swear that I tried, I want to but I can't
All I say is TIDE! but can't get the stains out
If I don't die soon, I might blow my brains out

Mama I'm sorry, I know soon enough you'll hear this
But sometimes all of the pain's too much to deal with
I don't even wanna get better, just want to quit
I'm sorry if the day that I die, it seems too quick

I'm sorry if I die too soon
I'm sorry but at least you knew why
I'm sorry if I hurt you too
I'm sorry if I die like tonight

I don't really wanna take this
I don't really wanna face shit
I don't really wanna get up
I don't even really wanna sleep

I don't even really wanna...oh my god
I forgot what I wanted to say, I'm so off
I might really like go away, so long
I been dealing with my pain so long

I don't even really wanna...oh my god
I forgot what I wanted to say, I'm so off
I might really like go away, so long
I been dealing with my pain so long

I'm sorry if I die too soon
I'm sorry but at least you knew why
I'm sorry if I hurt you too
I'm sorry if I die like tonight

I don't really wanna take this
I don't really wanna face shit
I don't really wanna get up
I don't even really wanna sleep

I might of took too much
Fuck it, i'll just take one more
I still ain't gone enough
Fuck it, I'll just take two more

How much more will it take?
Till I can't take it no more
Till I can't stop that shake
Till I die on my own floor

collapse. | Produced by paineko

Lyrics

Shawty don't you break my heart
I don't think you know how to sew up
Baby girl you sick, I caught
I already know I'ma throw up

I don't know how much I'm off
But I know my heart rate rose up
If I don't stand up I can't fall
So don't ever ask me why I do nothing

I'ma fuck up because I can
Do another drug, that's my plan
Wanna fall in love but I can't
I just need a hug, hold my hand

If you won't love me, don't date
That's worse than a heartbreak
On the clock so don't waste my time
I know that you won't stay
You're a game I won't play
Why you wanna fuck with my mind?

There's only so much I can hold up
Don't breath fire if you don't want me to blow up
Don't you make a mess you can't clean up
I can take a step you can't dream of

Now you wanna make me calm down
All that you can do is run now
Oh you see where I'm from now
Why you wanna play so dumb now?

Shawty don't you break my heart
I don't think you know how to sew up
Baby girl you sick, I caught
I already know I'ma throw up

I don't know how much I'm off
But I know my heart rate rose up
If I don't stand up I can't fall
So don't ever ask me why I do nothing

detmer. | Produced by metlast

Produced by Imotape

Lyrics

Sorry if I hurt you I didn't mean to I was just hurt too
It don't even matter you're gone cause I pushed you away
Now whenever we call you're in another state
I wish I was there but right now I'm just stuck here
Mistakes I made got me shit out of luck here
It's all my fault, I'm fallin' apart
I'm scared, you're gone
I thought you were the one
I can't take the pain
But I know I'm to blame
You're no longer in my frame
Now all my pictures are a blank
Where do I go now?
Who do I turn to?
All this shit happend but wasn't supposed to

I'm stuck with these feelings I cannot escape
This feeling in my chest making me shake
I know what I feel but it's hard to explain
I know we all go through shit but this ain't yo pain
So don't fucking tell me what I should and not do
I called for help and my savior was not you
You been through shit well I been through a lot too
The path that you took wasn't one that I walked through

So leave me the fuck alone
Just leave me the fuck alone
Please leave me the fuck alone
I wanna be left the fuck alone
Leave me the fuck alone
Leave me the fuck alone
Just leave me the fuck alone
Leave me the fuck alone

I found a genie, I made 3 mistakes though
Can't get out what's in me, you'll care when it's too late though
I'll turn to my demons, the angels call is faint so
I don't know if they care so why would I think that you did too?
No one knows I how feel so only I know how to fix this
Let me fuck up as much as I need too until I learn my lesson
I can't give my heart to you, you'd twist it until it's a weapon
Wrap my love around my neck and hold on until I fall breathless

collapse. | Produced by paineko

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