Lyrics

This whole year been dumb shit
I lie and say that I'm making it better but I ain't did nothing
Said that I quit drugs but I'm still out here buzzin'
Whenever however so I can feel something

Nicotine in me supress the anxiety
I can't get out that's inside of me
I lie to you so it's cool if you lie to me
Tell me sweet nothings, just for the time atleast

Cause I want what I don't need
Don't want you but don't leave
I might be a dick but I'm worse when I'm lonely
I'll write a quick line bout the time you were still here
I'm so indecisive like bitch why you still here?

I'm sorry that I'm not, it be like that
I won't tell you when I leave, like be right back
I don't open up but when I do I needed that
You think I'm going down the wrong path and I agree with that

How could I love you? I don't even like me
Why do I wake up? Death doesn't want me
I'm stuck in my room, they won't let me leave
One day I'll kill them all, they don't believe me

Cause you won't, cause you're weak
You ain't got the strength to fight us
We don't like the way you push away
You don't invite us

To anything anymore, you treat us like we're not you
We can't go away if you don't let us from inside you
Shit, fuck, I ain't even think about that
Was tryna keep you here, cause you the reason that I wrote raps
Guess I gotta let you go, honestly I want you gone
I guess I can't progress if I keep crying and I don't move on

Don't worry, won't hurt me
Take your time, no hurry
Without pain, no glory
No climax, no story

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climax. | Produced by røse

normal. (snippet)

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

ruin. | Produced by hxrxkiller

Lyrics

Get in my head, you can abuse it
Fill me with all of your beautiful bullshit
Tell me I'm worthless, then tell I'm perfect
Confuse me to the point where I think I deserve it

Hold me don't hurt me, talk to me, don't call me
I'll keep forgiving, if you kiss me softly
I need you as much as I need you to leave
Cause I'm tired of us but without you ain't no me

You're all I had when I was only nothing
I'll take you back so I can feel like something
I know I'm no one, that's why I need someone
A shoulder to lean on, when I don't wanna cling on

Get in my head, you can abuse it
Fill me with all of your beautiful bullshit
Tell me I'm worthless, then tell I'm perfect
Confuse me to the point where I think I deserve it

beautiful bullshit. | Produced by elvien

Lyrics

I wanna get lost and never be found
Honestly I'm sick of just being around
One day I'll wake up inside of a bed
But the same day I'll go to sleep in the ground

I got all these feeling I don't talk about
Every time I did lead to someone else just walking out
I'm so fucking scared of what I feel because if I tell the truth
You might see what I see in myself and hate me too

And I don't wanna do that again
I don't ever wanna feel like I did back then
I would rather be numb to it all
That feeling something good just to lose it all

Life ain't what I thought it'd be
Like I thought when I was 16
Felt like I would be so free
That was shallow, now I'm deep

I wanna get lost and never be found
Honestly I'm sick of just being around
One day I'll wake up inside of a bed
But the same day I'll go to sleep in the ground

And on some days I feel like that day could be now
And on some days I feel like I figure it out
But on all days I'm really just keeping it down
So does it even fucking matter if I'm happy?

Cause when I am, I'm not
And everytime I am, I know what I really got going on
Inside my head, some stupid fucking voice telling me I should be dead

shallow. | Produced by greaf

yerked up p b707 + dax

ÖFFϊCϊÄLLẎ GÖNė

Lyrics

Got stuck in the nightfall
Look in my soul see the lights off
Honestly I would still save you
But you wouldn't catch me if I fall

I'm too into myself
I'll be the reason that I go to hell
Cause sometimes I'm the one ringin' that bell
At least I'm aware enough that I can tell

Fallin' I'm fallin'
Why do my demons keep callin'?
No matter what key I try or I turn
Everytime I try start I keep stallin'

I can't move on
I'm fuckin' stuck in this rerun
I don't like pills but I need one
I lost my heart now I need one

Got stuck in the nightfall
Look in my soul see the lights off
Honestly I would still save you
But you wouldn't catch me if I fall

I'm too into myself
I'll be the reason that I go to hell
Cause sometimes I'm the one ringin' that bell
At least I'm aware enough that I can tell

nightfall. | Produced by tundrabeats

leave the other box with me

Lyrics

Lately I been fucking
Up my life for nothing
I need a smoke or something
Put a pill inside my stomach
I can't do this alone no more
Don't wanna go home so
Mom goodnight and I love you
I hate the stress that I cause you
I could write about my life and no one would ever get me
People put me down but there's no one here to life me
I could save your life, in the end you'd still forget me
No one by my side so I keep lots of drugs within reach
Devil where you at? My soul's up for grabs
Right now I wouldn't mind your Hell for some cash
So write up a contract, let's get it over
I need a blunt wrap, don't wanna be sober

"For the revelation awaits an appointed time; it speaks of the end and will not prove false. Though it linger, wait for it; it will certainly come and will not delay."

hellbent. | Produced by capsctrl

@paineko

Lyrics

My soul is burning from fires that I set
You said you loved me, that's not what your eyes said
You think I'm breathing, I promise I'm not yet
You know those people that suck? Yeah I'm that

On planet depression till drugs take me off it
The hope that I had slipped away and I lost it
The only bed that I need is a coffin
I'm stuck in a nightmare, won't end till I stop it

And that can mean two things, growing up and facing life
Or my blood from blew brains
Knife inside my back, it's marked with a few names
All are alterations of mine, I'm what I hate

"Damn, that's some deep shit"
Nah, it's just real
But real is buried underneath
It's locked away and it's sealed
So I guess deep could justify the fuckin' way that I feel
All the pain's in my head but I swear it could kill

Kill a motherfucker quick, pop one shot and I'm dead
I swear that I tried, I want to but I can't
All I say is TIDE! but can't get the stains out
If I don't die soon, I might blow my brains out

Mama I'm sorry, I know soon enough you'll hear this
But sometimes all of the pain's too much to deal with
I don't even wanna get better, just want to quit
I'm sorry if the day that I die, it seems too quick

I'm sorry if I die too soon
I'm sorry but at least you knew why
I'm sorry if I hurt you too
I'm sorry if I die like tonight

I don't really wanna take this
I don't really wanna face shit
I don't really wanna get up
I don't even really wanna sleep

I don't even really wanna...oh my god
I forgot what I wanted to say, I'm so off
I might really like go away, so long
I been dealing with my pain so long

I don't even really wanna...oh my god
I forgot what I wanted to say, I'm so off
I might really like go away, so long
I been dealing with my pain so long

I'm sorry if I die too soon
I'm sorry but at least you knew why
I'm sorry if I hurt you too
I'm sorry if I die like tonight

I don't really wanna take this
I don't really wanna face shit
I don't really wanna get up
I don't even really wanna sleep

I might of took too much
Fuck it, i'll just take one more
I still ain't gone enough
Fuck it, I'll just take two more

How much more will it take?
Till I can't take it no more
Till I can't stop that shake
Till I die on my own floor

collapse. | Produced by paineko

Produced by ryini

Lyrics

Don't call me if I'm just your scapegoat
To ignore the pain that you hate most
I know that you're lonely cause so am I
But don't come around me with that damn disguise

Acting like you really might want me
I'm not a toy, don't try me, don't taunt me
Cause I've got impulses that haunt me
Do you really wanna end up as a trunk piece?

That's Detmer talking to Qayin
I'm Ken, I really don't like them
Don't hurt me, that's what excites them
Then it gets really hard for me to try and hide them

They been tryna get out, make something happen
Holes they wanna dig out, fill 'em with some tragic
They don't like to talk, they just really be on action
Once ounce of pain, all it take for them to tap in

Bitch stay away cause I promise you don't want this
You might let 'em in if you even choose to bump this
Burning embers, you can't even stomp it
My light getting thinner, turning into something

Ken stfu, we don't wanna hear you
They making yo blood rush, we gone make 'em feel you
If they wanna touch us, we gone make 'em fear you
Let 'em know they fucked up, then show them the real you

Tryna pull some fuck shit, we gone fuck 'em up now
Throw that body in a ditch, we ain't had enough now
Tellin' us they last wish but they out of luck now
Who left on that damn list? Let's see if they tough now

collapse. | Produced by paineko

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