this was supposed to be punk but i made it acoustic for some reason


i saw ur text said i never was enough
i really hate how u treat me like a dog ooooo
make me feel worthless im really really stuck
might kms casue my life is getting rough
tear me down break me to ashes
i dont even know what happened
theyre all staring theyre all laughing
really soon ill end up passing 
oooo
oooooooooo
hoe
oooooooo
oyaoyaooyaoyayoy
thats it okaia bye

my life is getting rough

they say pain makes you stronger
but i cant take it longer
crashing like helicopter (kobe)
guess ill start acting softer
i cannot fucking breathe
stop making fun of me
whys everyone so mean
myself i might delete
your love is all i need
im begging on my knees
baby please dont fucking leave
so many scars on my sleeve

bloodsekai
put my face into my palms
i think i'm trying too hard
writing tallies on my walls
i'm just waiting for my part

scribble my name out
oh oh
i can feel ur doubt
oh oh oh

nothing ever goes my way
i don't really wanna change
out of luck i hate today
leave me crying in the rain

i just made a mistake
in the mirror there's hate
i just made a mistake 
why does she count on me

why is everyone so mean w bloodsekai

prod @weejk

ohh ohh
i wont ever let u go
cuz baby u are in control
i wont ever say no

i told u i wanted more
so u cut urself
and dropped to the floor
im sorry i wont ask again
i know ur arms are sore

remember that time when
u wrote my name on ur knife
in detail u told me then
how u nearly took ur own life

ohh ohh
i wont ever let u go
cuz baby u are in control
i wont ever say no

hey dear i went out today
ive been rotting in my room
all holiday
ive been cuttin ive been cryin
while i wait for u to say
that u love me and
u wanna hangout today

(rotting in my room
lets hangout today)

(hey dear i went out today
ive been rotting in my room
all holiday
ive been cuttin ive been cryin
while i wait for u to say
that u love me and
u wanna hangout today)

ohh ohh
i wont ever let u go
cuz baby u are in control
i wont ever say no

sore arms

dear president and the rulers of the internet 
when will i have my own girl to give me kisses
tryna figure out how to get out of my room but
im so stressed
im so stressed!!!!
i dont think that im ready for the world
cause im stuck inside and my minds in a curl
maybe if i had someone to stick by
then i wouldnt always be so shy
wish i had emergency contact
wish i had someone to help me stay on track
if only you could see (xo willow reference)
i really wanted you here with meeeeeeeeee

im so stressed!!!

lyrics

why does everyone around me feel okay?
why am i getting even worse everyday?
why does everyone i talk to seem so fake?
and why is it so hard to make somebody stay?

monday again
just another week
cant do this anymore
im to weak
im going inside of the bathroom just so i can eat
cause when they see me all alone they wanna bully me

everything cools down when im in my bed
in a place called home where i can rest my head
but this cycle just repeats itself over again
if nothing ever changes i might end up dead

why does everyone around me feel okay?
why am i getting even worse everyday?
why does everyone i talk to seem so fake?
and why is it so hard to make somebody stay?
x2

its monday again...

lyrics

think about her
text her once more
every time i do i get ignored
dont wanna take
this anymore
its too bad that she got bored
maybe she found
the right guy
maybe its time
to say goodbye
we had such
a good ride
why would you just waste my time
i guess my friends were right
im so fucking dumb and blind
i judge what i see first sight
i dont ever use my mind
she was so pretty and cute
but she found another dude
she left me speechless and mute
i just dont know what to do

ignored

i look at her and then she looks at me
she can see me blush through the computer screen
she jumps into my arms and falls just like a tree
she says in mellow tone can you please be with me like
meow
meoeoeoeoeoeow
meooooeoooow
meoeoeooow
meoeoeoooow

oh i don't think i can
resist the way u talk to me
u help me by existing
u move my heart by twisting till it beats
oh i'm really nothing special
and sometimes im a handful
but u make things eventful
so i can cheer as long as ur here
i dont want u to go so stay with me
don't disappear
i know things can get hard
but i can make it be so clear
so stay with me
stay with me
pls dont leave
pls dont leave

i look at her and then she looks at me
she can see me blush through the computer screen
she jumps into my arms and falls just like a tree
she says in mellow tone can you please be with me like
meow
meoeoeoeoeoeow
meooooeoooow
meoeoeooow
meoeoeoooow

(when u look at me
i cant help but wonder
why u wouldnt leave
u know im a fuckup)

when u look at me
baby i cant help but wonder
why u wouldnt leave
u know that im such a fuckup

baby pls i beg dont go
i need u more than u could ever know
i need ur texts on my phone
i need ur love it gives me hope

baby i want u to hold me
thru this damn computer
eternalized in the screen so i dont lose her

i look at her and then she looks at me
she can see me blush through the computer screen
she jumps into my arms and falls just like a tree
she says in mellow tone can you please be with me like
meow
meoeoeoeoeoeow
meooooeoooow
meoeoeooow
meoeoeoooow

nyaa w bloodsekai & yuki

@weejk

wen u walk thru the door
every1 hits the floor
did u jus want the cash girl?
i wanted to know
wanna be more than friends
rest my head on ur legs
but u dont care about me
u couldnt care less

wujek - you couldnt care less

prod me

i love the way u smell
i love the way u talk
and the colour of ur nails
i love the way u walk
yea that shit could cast a spell
but i hate ur new boyfriend
i hope ur doing well :/

saw u in class
pulled up ur ig
i kno i never asked
cuz im way too shy to be
talkin to u
my request went right thru
saw the noti on ur phone
but u didnt have a clue
who i was

i know i cant
tell u how im really feeling
cuz ur sometimes so demeaning
and that crushes my being

but i got a crush on u baby
pls love me no maybes
yea the way u flip ur hair
it drives me fucking crazy
kill me and degrade me
i swear i can take it
anything to be with u
i kno that we can make it

(i know i cant
tell u how im really feeling
cuz ur sometimes so demeaning
and that crushes my being)

i love the way u smell
i love the way u talk
and the colour of ur nails
i love the way u walk
yea that shit could cast a spell
but i hate ur new boyfriend
i hope ur doing well :/
x2

hope ur doing well

prod me ft @weejk (aka @revivle with new preset)

yeayeaeya pop the molly in theclubb pop the molly in the clubb

fuckin on dis girl n her new best friend
pop another molly yea the party never ends
i kno that u like me yea no need to play pretend
but i get so attached n ill always depend on u
when u dont want me to
spending every night staying up for u
cus thats my nature
get jealous grab my razor then
cut my skin like paper cus
i can not replace her

cryin on the club floor
like what the fuckk
i jus need like one more
n thats enough
x2

pop the molly in the club
gettin too fucked up
pop the molly in the club
bitch im off of these drugs
woah im walkin dead

the party never ends w/ wujek

so just tell me im i perfect for you 
my dumb habits always thinking about you
ima loser all i do think about you 
ima do it kill myself to
ima do it kill myself over you
yes ik ik that you love me
that you need me
can you see me
wondering if you think about me like how i do
ima do it agin ima do agin
ima kill myself 20 agin
yes ik that im such werido 
stalking well you go to sleep
yes ik want to date me
but can you handle me
i have  massage on the wall
started think about you before i got thses withdraws
and im sorry i have thes withdraws
do you think it okay if i shoot myself agin
do you think okay if i wanna die agin
do you think okay if i just kill myself agin
cause you tell my sercts and i think like dis again
you said dont worry i worry alot
i think im schizophrenic i think alot
i wont think
just wanna be happy 
need little happines 
in a hour before i die
do you think about me
tell me if you need me
do you acc love me
cause i love you alot
i dont want to think no more

ima kill myself

do you think about me like how i think about  u demo

@akira3ksucks + @weejk cover prod me

red eyes
i might die
u fill my thoughts with suicide
drugged up everytime
u cut my name into ur thigh
bloodstains on ur dress
u left me here with nothing left
stab ur knife right in my chest
treat me like all of the rest

i cant decide
if u should live or die
rot my brain everytime
ur never satisfied
if i say that i love u
would u say it back
my head is filled with fluoride
turn to a maniac

u decide if i should live or die
i cut my wrist while u look in my eyes
tell me lies until i feel alright
watch me die as u lay by my side

red eyes
i might die
u fill my thoughts with suicide
drugged up everytime
u cut my name into ur thigh
bloodstains on ur dress
u left me here with nothing left
stab ur knife right in my chest
treat me like all of the rest

so there's this girl (cover)

beautiful like butterflies
your eyes they never lie
contemplating suicide 
baby im right by ur side

youre so fucking perfect 
no you dont deserve to die
i know im worthless
but im better then those other guys

fall onto me
this feels just like a dream
blood falling off ur sleeve
me and you were meant to be

im stuck like a tree
if only you could see
im so in love with you
i got ur blood stuck on my teeth




teeth (x8)

marry me i'm meant for u
ur so perfect like mary sue
without u, i don't have a clue
what i'd do, what i'd do
world's so big 
but ur the only one
i only live 
for u call me dumb
i wanna see u be nice
i wanna be in ur life
i wanna hear u at night
saying ily





u dont deserve to die ft bloodsekai

prod me

ooooh
i dont wanna choose
yea my brains so fried
its turned into juice and
iiiiii dont wanna
think abt the past
cus lifes movin too fast

when ur goin? idk
but winters comin with the snow
n i wont have anyone to hold
when i get sad or i get cold
like icicles
ill pierce ur heart with love
until ur high above
my angel from the snow

ooooh
i dont wanna choose
yea my brains so fried
its turned into juice and
iiiiii dont wanna
think abt the past
cus lifes movin too fast
x2

snow angel

prod, mix, master by @bloodsekai

wrap my body in bandages
im rlly falling to pieces
all my guts r leaking
every time im speaking
x2

i dont even wanna die
but i think that tonights the night
i dont wanna fight it
my body wont deny it
do u gotta be so violent?
im bein so compliant
give me one little moment
need time thought i could buy it

i dont think that i could live another day
my body would expire and slowly decay
u never asked if i was ever okay
but its fine i guess ill never have to say

wrap my body in bandages
im rlly falling to pieces
all my guts r leaking
every time im speaking
x3

u never asked if i was ever okay
u never asked if i was ever okay
u never asked if i was ever okay
but its fine i guess ill never have to say

bandages

@bloodsekai

https://open.spotify.com/track/51ZjJcupHpaKxT2Oib82Q5?si=9d15a65a50364a84

so many failures and more to come
my future is so crushed
im turning into crumbs
i swear im just too dumb
affection i want sum
but i'll never get nun
can't even love myself
im trapped in my own hell
im too young to be true
i wanna feel sum new
they tell me then go do
but i dont have any clue
in my room im so glued
wish i could hit undo
always knew i was doomed
need somewhere to run to

im looking all over
to keep my composure
i need dopamine
i need sum exposure
i really want closure
life sucks as a loner
too bad im afraid of
tryna approach her

hit undo Prod bloodsekai

a friend told me to reup this so here ya go



even when u drank my blood
i loved ur every move and touch

cause its not hard to realize
that if im gonna live like this ill die
and im an angel girl living in this world
and ive been corrupted ive sinned in front of you

am i a bad girl?
even in the morning time
but

im not a slut im not a whore
at the year 19 or 24
i havent ate since 8 days ago
i fear that i cant fit my clothes

starving
starving by myself
starving and crying
im okay with it of course
it was never where
to the point when i was around
it was not going well
in fact i even felt it in the eye


im not a slut im not a whore
at the year 19 or 24
i havent ate since 8 days ago
i fear that i cant fit my clothes










angelgirl cover

basically the past month of my life as a song

take my life and rewind
it haunts me every time 
cus everybody knows
that i wanna fucking die
put ur arms around my body
and tell me that u love me
cus u dont want me to die
uve seen the cuts all on my body
.
take medicine to help me with my sickness
but nothin ever works thats why i gotta slit my wrists up
and ill take hallucinogenics
so my days just go by quicker
but i end up needin more cus im jus gettin even sicker

my life demo

prod me
cant find cover ughhhhh

god i rlly hate my life
thinkin bout suicide
fantasize abt it at night
i dont know whats right

god i rlly hate it
im numbed n im sedated 
my mum treats me like a patient
i jus wanna b normal again
im trapped in my head
im better off dead
just want it to end
im so hard on myself

god i rlly hate my life
thinkin bout suicide
fantasize abt it at night
i dont know whats right
x2

fantasize

instrumental: @bloodsekai
featuring: @imsorryhori

denpa girl 2

--- lyrics: ---

I don't want to be away from you
I just want to do the things you do
I don't care if I'm in a shit mood
I wanna be just like you

ohh just like you
just like you <3
ohhhh just like you
just like you <3

wear your clothes
let's share our minds
when you're close
let's intertwine
I can't go another night
without you by my side
your shoulders, I sit on and cry
red devil, there's no angel white
it makes sense why you're never right
I'm not scared to fall in love, even if you always lie
had a bloody nose and I had to clean it up
you're my favorite song, you're in my head and always stuck

if i jumped off right now
nobody would care
when i'm walking in the hallways
everybody stares
i wish i could live my life without a care
why do they do this to me
its so unfair

i wish i could be like you
think of the things i could do
i think a screw is unloose 
i just wanna be with you

you're fucking with my head
baby i need some rest
you left me alone and upset
god i wish that i was dead!

girl you ruined my mind
i think im out of time
im tired of your lies
and im so upset
girl you ruined my mind
i think im out of time
im tired of your lies
and im so upset

I think we're meant to be
cuz without you, I can't even sleep
I think that I'm malfunctioning
"uh-uh-uh" that's me stuttering

I don't want to be away from you
I just want to do the things you do
I don't care if I'm in a shit mood
I wanna be just like you

I don't want to be away from you
I just want to do the things you do
I don't care if I'm in a shit mood
I wanna be just like you

ohh just like you
just like you
ohhhh just like you
just like you

xd

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