Glass Heart

guitar by @pekarot_161
this is for the OG listeners, I love you all from the bottom of my heart. 

lyrics:

i don’t know where i came from
only where i’ve been 
i could scratch out my eyes
when i’m feeling like this 
i can’t breathe since you left
i got cuts on my fist 
and they hurt (they hurt)
they hurt (they hurt) 

and i know that i’m sad but still smile when we kiss
i got scars on my arm from those nights i gave in 
and then you said forever but now you’re with him
and it burns (it burns)
it burns (it burns) 

but those scars on my arm 
they tell you a story
since 14 years old
they’ve been coming for me
i’m not what you want
so just throw me aside
and i’m old enough now
so i’ll wipe my eyes

and i’m praying to god
that i’ll just get better
i’ll hide in my car 
and sleep on the leather
i love you to death 
from now to december
this ones for the grayfox fans 
love you forever 

and now i’ve learned 
i’ll never be first 
but at least i’ve turned
my life around,
look at me now 
x2

look at me now
look at me now
look at me now
not 100% but i’m still here 
so look at me now 
x4

lookatmenow (pekarot)

Fall

Fall (Ft. Yokai Dreams)

prod. me x @hiraethsry

And I will love you 'til I'm broken by the weight
Of everything I've ever wanted and how it all has your name
I am trying, I am shaking, I am crying, I am breaking
Every second, every minute, I'm so tired, why's it raining
Baby, kiss me just to kiss me, not to take me home tomorrow
I am drunk and I am bleeding in your apartment, in the shadow
Of what we were when we were young
And you don't remember my name
And I'm so sorry, and I'm so sorry

And when I'm leaving, I'll pretend like I don't give a damn
But it's been four years, I just wanna hold your hand
It's been four years, don't know who I fucking am
Oh, oh
And when you're begging me to stay, I'll never listen
I guess it takes four years to know the difference
You knew me better than anyone and you hated me
So how the fuck am I supposed to love myself

And I will love you 'til I'm broken by the weight
Of everything I've ever wanted and how it all has your name
I am trying, I am shaking, I am crying, I am breaking
Every second, every minute, I'm so tired, why's it raining

I am drunk and I am bleeding in your apartment, in the shadow
Of what we were when we were young
And you don't remember my name
And I'm so sorry, and I'm so sorry

YOUDONTREMEMBERMYNAME

with @vaeo-music ofc

https://songwhip.com/rouri404/zombie2022
guitar by @simonpopdiva

spotify link <3

zombie (goodbyex2002 x 31sentinel x simon m)

lyrics:

These cold kawaartha lakes can rip ur soul apart
A breach of contract in her heart of hearts
May have pushed my head into the deepest part
And This time I dont think I get a breathing part

Now her crocodile tears soak in her guitar
This mahogany is flooded past its salvage point
Carried back into her residence inside the trees
How do I taste ill bet on it its like a bitter sweet
Something woke me last night
And in its words
Taught me I just need myself to get by
I dont wanna pretend it didn’t hurt
But In her words
The sting should fade in due time

 Brush ur eyes
U could see it right
I see fallen angels
In this bleeding sky
At our time to go
I dont wanna die
But I dont decide
Damn I hate goodbyes
These cold kawaartha lakes can rip ur soul apart
A breach of contract in her heart of hearts
May have pushed my head into the deepest part
And This time I dont think I get a breathing part

Cracks in my armor invite in her poisons
It was never 50/50 I was just appointed
Im Sorry I can do it all I bet ur disappointed
But what’s the point in love if u can not enjoy it

Now her crocodile tears soak in her guitar
This mahogany is flooded past its salvage point
Carried back into her residence inside the trees
How do I taste ill bet on it its like a bitter sweet

Isn’t it funny how u aint gon message unless I am messaging first ok
She try to burn me a hole in my pocket but somehow I still kept em heavy weight ok
She pull up on me at night time
Then pull away like its rip tide
She say she cant stay a long time
But sumn bout that doesn’t sit right with me
Honestly I know u know that it wouldn’t be the first lie u told
She said im sorry I hope u can trust me I say damn I dont know
Ask me in the morning
Cause Tonight is way too cold
And u just turned it colder

Now her crocodile tears soak in her guitar
This mahogany is flooded past its salvage point
Carried back into her residence inside the trees
How do I taste ill bet on it its like a bitter sweet
Something woke me last night
And in its words
Taught me I just need myself to get by
I dont wanna pretend it didn’t hurt
But In her words
The sting should fade in due time

The treehouse (splashgvng x 5head)

i hope you feel this as much as i do
prod ford. or drowsy not sure which one to put

Lyrics:

hold on
could you help me home
let me know
give me hope
how long
you couldn't help me i'm too gone
how long
how long

i need a change right now
could someone fuckin notice
in jus a couple days
went thru a couple pounds of potent
its generic as fuck but i'm really on my own
SHIT
that's jus the show biz is what they say
is what they say
is what they say

is what they say
is what they say
is what they say

i hate the deity above me
if there is one
fuck how hard i have 2 fight
till i'm someone
oh i hear connections nice
at least they tell me
she stomp on my neck n somehow
she can tell me

HOLD ON
COULD YOU HELP ME HOME
LET ME KNOW
GIVE ME HOPE
HOW LONG
YOU COULDN'T HELP ME I'M TOO GONE
HOW LONG
HOW LONG
HOLD ON
COULD YOU HELP ME HOME
LET ME KNOW
GIVE ME HOPE
HOW LONG
YOU COULDN'T HELP ME I'M TOO GONE
HOW LONG
HOW LONG

torture

[hero]

i hop in the shower with my clothes on
sing to myself till i burst a lung
i hop in the shower with my clothes on
yeah this warm water washes it away

[@navyxower]

yeah it washes it away, when im not doin so great
yeah you takin all ur drugs, just to wipe away ur pain
sit and cry about my feelings in the shower, so i stay
i think im loosin grip and yet, deaths scaring me away
its, visual all our lives just fade away
and all my tears, will wipe away
its all i want for you to stay, oh oh
yeah i hop right in the shower with my clothes on
thinkin every night what do i try, for
i wish i had you everynight to hold me on to giving grace
i wonder in three years, can u just look me in the face

[hero x @navyxower]

i hop in the shower with my clothes on
singing to myself am i best alone
i hop in the shower with my clothes on
yeah this warm water washes it away

[hero]

i hop in the shower with my clothes on
sing to myself till i burst a lung
i hop in the shower with my clothes on
yeah this warm water washes it away

shower thoughts (ft. navyxower) (boyfifty)

Lyrics:
when i lay awake inside the hole in own bed
all these thoughts come back and they come flooding through my head
i wonder what they'd do if they woke up and found me dead
i wish i could reverse all the events and where they lead

i know that i seem crazy i just probably need some help
dont listen to my lyrics cause youll know that im in hell
i promise im just kidding and im really doing well, i wear this mask like every day its halloween you couldn't tell

i would really not be shit at all without my favorite person, i just feel so bad that every night she gets a different version, of me i just spend my days distracted with a big diversion, its the only way i function when im lost in the immersion

i know i say im tired im annoying all the time
i really hate complaining about all thats on my mind, ill either keep myself real busy just to show that i can grind
or sink into the void and smoke until my brain is fried

keep to myself cause i know that im fucked
i know that i hurt everything that i touch
try to be nice but i know its not much
working all day just to bring in the bucks

dont wanna feel so i just wanna sleep
smoke on a bowl then i fall in the deep
baby i love you youre all that i need
i promise im trying to get on my feet

know youre my life so just please never leave
life is so fucked but i wanna believe
maybe the good things we just never see
im just a bitch while i cry on the beat

say i dont care what no one think of me
thoughts will not stop but thats just how it be
sailing away so that i can be free, but im dead on the shore and i float out to sea

in my lane, on my own
hit the blade its the only way to go
im not sane, but now you know
i wont complain when i know thats how it goes

Fried

Fried (prod. Lil Nightshift)

https://fanlink.to/lfadb
guitar by @kill_vein

i’m just trying to find
a reason to care
i once believed in a god till i cried out to him
and nobody was there

a burden on my brain
that isnt going away
and now i’m looking for reasons
that i shouldn’t need this
but i can’t turn away

i know i said the last time
that i wouldn’t relapse
but now i’m standing
on my deathbed
and i don’t want to stay
when i've always been this way

i know i said the last time
that i wouldn’t go back
but now it’s been 3 nights
at the hotel we met at
and you’re not here with me
but the memory remains

and as i took my last line
i was approaching the light
you laid your head next to mine
what a beautiful sight

i made up my mind
i’m friending i’m fried
i don’t need these drugs
i just need your love

ive got no reason to hide
tell momma i’m fine
it’ll be ok down the line
but i’m tired of trying

i know i said the last time
that i wouldn’t relapse
but now i’m standing
on my deathbed
and i don’t want to stay
when i've always been this way

i know i said the last time
that i wouldn’t go back
but now it’s been 3 nights
at the hotel we met at
and you’re not here with me
but the  memory remains

letterfromadeathbed (prod. heffy & killvein)

prod. @remghost x @irby314

lyrics
--------
we drink
we sink
we fall behind
it's all okay
it's all alright
the things you say
don't leave my mind
it's all okay
it's all just fine
i'm reminded of days
when the time wasn't raced
had my eyes to the sky
with my hands on your waist
i'm alive under rays
with the light in my face
but a ghost in the rain
with no name tag or plates on my car

i can see the shadows
dancing in the backyard
reaching for the stars
light up my reflection
chase me with your flashlight
you'll be running far
this was never worth it
we were never perfect
pretending we are
so drink until you're silent
laugh until you're smiling
hide another scar

she woke
he smoked
they talked it out
is that what love is all about
the things that come
out of your mouth
are vile when
you scream and shout
it's the fear of the unknown
that leads to eschew
all the rational choices
revolving round you
and the silence is scary
when matched with the truth
can we come out alive
or is death coming soon

as you weigh out your options
you then realize
all the pain you've endured
with no tears in your eyes
i'm amazed by the power
i hold deep inside
for some reason i'm here
for some reason alive

i can see the shadows
dancing in the backyard
reaching for the stars
light up my reflection
chase me with your flashlight
you'll be running far
this was never worth it
we were never perfect
pretending we are
so drink until you're silent
laugh until you're smiling
hide another scar

perfect (prod. remghost x irby)

love u 
@prodjpjp @pichu500

// lyrics 
i pray they don’t feel like me
don’t feel like me 
it’s awful 
i overthink and criticize myself till 
i’m full of hate can’t recognize 
my own face 
get me out of this place

baby, dont look at me 
i look at you so often 
pretty as the stars that fall when i’m sad 
i make a wish that we could save what we have
make a wish that we’d be saved

said that i’d be better off as bones 
i knew it 
as i laid there in my blood 
hope you’re not the one to find me in my room 
as blue as the sky you love 
and i got sick of picking up the pieces seemed like i’d never be enough 
i’m so sorry to the ones i disappointed but i’m done, i’m giving up 

oh 
i’m not okay 
i need a break, woah 
saving face 
i’m a disgrace, oh 
fighting for my life but now i’m home
knowing i'd be better off alone 
i’m not okay 
i’ll leave this place, woah 
waking up 
just to decay, no 
paper bag over my face, oh
don’t look at me i’m such a waste

i pray they don’t feel like me
don’t feel like me 
it’s awful 
i overthink and criticize myself till 
i’m full of hate can’t recognize 
my own face 
get me out of this place

baby, dont look at me 
i look at you so often 
pretty as the stars that fall when i’m sad 
i make a wish that we could save what we have
make a wish that we’d be saved

make a wish that we'll be saved 
i'll make a wish that we'll be saved

spotify

paper bag [pichu500 x jpjp]

hope you enjoy, or something <3 :")
prod. @user-230494921 <3

𝘪 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘸, 
𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘪𝘳𝘤𝘶𝘮𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘰𝘯𝘦'𝘴 𝘣𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘩 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘳𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘷𝘢𝘯𝘵.
𝘪𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘪𝘧𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦, 
𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘦𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦.

(2x)
down on all fours, like a dog speakin' prayers
if i miss a call, it was on purpose, i swear
yellow-tainted teeth biting down into my hair
if i'm meaning what i preach
would my god even care?

she said i'm "hella right"
everything i say past three is hella right
and the night time 
welcomes me with open arms to tight bind
bright lights; everybody trusts it
i don't trust it at all
i'm terrified right now
wish i could give you a call :(

i overthink and scrap everything
i'm trapped behind these bars
that you could never see
a majority of the time
i'm disgusted by the industry
but if it's okay with you
then it's okay with me aswell

as the essence surrounds me 
and corrupts my soul
what a blinding gaze
i wish i could break it's hold
as i'm marching through a land
that is unknownst to me
i've only seen it inside of my dreams

(2x)
down on all fours, like a dog speakin' prayers
if i miss a call, it was on purpose, i swear
yellow-tainted teeth biting down into my hair
if i'm meaning what i preach
would my god even care?

purple fingers
makes these feelings linger
been staring into empty space
for way too long
caught up on what is "right"
and what is "wrong"

i thought about her
again, last night
again (3x)
last night

these thoughts give me dopa- 
dopamine
as long as i believe they're real

it always comes back to this...

would my god even care [prod. 4lexf]

lyrics:
time kills inside me its more than you know
im just too tired to pick up my phone
the light from my screen feels like all that i know
so when we're apart i could never feel whole

keep to myself just like every one else
stay in my room when im not feeling well
i never leave its like volunteered hell
stuck in my mind im just too gone to tell

lay on the floor, drown in a drink
its bottoms up till im too gone to think
retching and coughing up blood in the sink
someone please save me i live on the brink

youll never know, how this shit goes
youre always lost cause you dont have your home
give me a break, just throw me a bone
im just a dog, so please guide me home

please guide me home
wont you please guide me home

time kills inside me its more than you know
im just too tired to pick up my phone
the light from my screen feels like all that i know
so when we're apart i could never feel whole

keep to myself just like every one else
stay in my room when im not feeling well
i never leave its like volunteered hell
stuck in my mind im just too gone to tell

baby like fuck why you so far away
deep in my mind its like every day
i see your shadow in All The Bright Places
keep you with me i cover all the bases

turn on my phone just so i see your face
next to my heart is where i keep my ace
pounding and beating im doing the race
they wont keep me from you till im dead in the grave

please guide me home

Home

home.

@prodjpjp

sorry 

// lyrics 
pretty eyes
but we’re holding on to what love?
you know that i tried
but it never was enough oh
tell me all your lies
how am i supposed to trust now
i’ll sing another song
how i always watched it die

oh oh oh
i don’t want to fight
i just want to go home
i’m so scared i’ll die
in my bedroom all alone
looking for my heart
but i’m finding only bones
is it lost for good?

oh oh oh
i don’t want to cry
but my tears flooding the floor
drove 100 miles
but i think it’s time i go
and when we said goodbye
i could feel it in my bones
this time it’s for good 

oh oh oh 
i feel it in my bones 
goodbye

goodbye [jpjp]

guitar by @imcaves
rest is me
something told me i should put this out now, so here you go
hope you enjoy .
retention 8/26

totally unprepared
faces shapeshifting around me
i tell myself, don't be scared
only what i think can hurt me
but every night's harder than the last
(the last)
(the last)
(the last)
i let my spirit shatter just like glass
(like glass)
(like glass)
i stood up again last night
i couldn't close my eyes
no matter how much i cried
i tried
i tried...
night.

spirit trash

@gothprinc3 @tnvr555

i’ll stay far away i won’t make a sound
cause i don’t want to speak now
everybody makes fun of the words that come out
so you can stop staring
you don’t even know me
what i’m about

and i’ve had it with all of these strangers planting their lies deep under my skin
so take your pretty blade
and show them how i’m so paper thin
oh

toss and turn with the pain now
come on love blow my brains out
i don’t want to fight this
had enough, i’m lifeless
lost inside of my own crowd
paper thin with the blade out
never meant to be like this
can’t swallow all i’ll miss
oh oh

and i keep seeing all of these faces i wish i could forget
baby you know you’ll haunt me in my dreams till i am dead
and i try to fixate on the blood so i won’t feel the regret
oh love, i hope you know that it’s hell keeping you out my head

breathe

i
toss and turn with the pain now
come on love blow my brains out
i don’t want to fight this
had enough, i’m lifeless
lost inside of own crowd
paper thin with the blade out
never meant to be like this
can’t swallow all i’ll miss
oh oh

paper thin [princ3 x tnvr]

sing me lullabies (feat. ghosthands)

sampled @marlasdreams for guitar :)

Lyrics:

take a minute start asking yourself
what are your worths if u don't have ur wealth
who are your friends i would call it to question
what are the kinds of stories they tell
i didn't know that we needed permission
i guess i've been used to plain fighting it out
i have met plenty of people in life
and enough had a hiss so i keep to myself

in due time you'll have seen it all
what happens then
personally i would hate every breath
if i spent my whole life locked inside of a shell

-

i refuse to ever fear you
through that trial i found my values
if i were more honest i'd be see through
spout more lie till you believe you
i refuse to ever fear you
through that trial i found my values
if i were more honest i'd be see through
spout more lie till you believe you

I REFUSE TO EVER FEAR YOU
THROUGH THAT TRIAL I FOUND MY VALUES
IF I WERE MORE HONEST I'D BE SEE THROUGH
SPOUT MORE LIE TILL YOU BELIEVE YOU

i refuse to ever fear you
through that trial i found my values
if i were more honest i'd be see through
spout more lie till you believe you
i refuse to ever fear you
through that trial i found my values
if i were more honest i'd be see through
spout more lie till you believe you

take a minute
take a minute
take a minute
take a minute
take a minute
take a minute
take a minute
take a minute

depersonalization

@tnvr555

i cant stand the pain
but its alright
missing how your eyes
would just light mine
i don’t want to cry
but its alright
every time we tried
watched it all die

now you’re gone for good
and i’m not fine
wishing i could save
but there's no time
only took a month
now you're not mine
only took a month
i guess time flies...

and i'm so replaceable
why am i here at all???
pains unbearable
oh say i’m terrible
and i love you i hope you know :/
so if you’re happy guess i’ll go

guess i'll go home
guess i'll go, i'll go

I CANT STAND THE PAIN
BUT ITS ALRIGHT
MISSING HOW YOUR EYES
WOULD JUST LIGHT MINE
I DONT WANT TO CRY
BUT ITS ALRIGHT
EVERYTIME WE TRIED
WATCHED IT ALL DIE.

NOW YOU'RE GONE FOR GOOD
AND I'M NOT FINE
WISHING I COULD SAVE
BUT THERE'S NO TIME
ONLY TOOK A MONTH
NOW YOU'RE NOT MINE
ONLY TOOK A MONTH
I GUESS TIME FLIES
yeah...

imysm [tnvr]

i’ve been meaning to call you 
to tell you everything i said 
but i’m feeling so blind 
and you’re out of your mind 
so it’s best that i leave it 

didn’t mean to fall for you 
you let me go when i was on the edge 
and this waters so cold
i won’t pick up my phone 
when you call, i wont see it 

and i hate this weather 
i just wish it was spring again 
when things were okay
i was off of my meds
and the world had gone crazy 

we just stayed in all day 
and i let you tattoo my hands 
now i can’t look at them 
a pair of black gloves 
heal my wounds, and i hate me 

and i’ll be 
right here 
anything you want you got it 
i’ll be right there 
youre toxic 
it’s not fair 
and the trees outside my house 
are now stripped bare 

i miss spring 
you’re not here
everything’s so temporary 
and its not fair 

your smiles sweet 
i love your hair 
and the smell of your clothes in my room 
it still lives here

Glass Heart

Yeria Conashi