respite

prod. @nate2timezz

lyrics:

sometimes things dont amount to much
even when the things that led you there
gave you such a rush..
and baby im sorry that it didnt work out
and theres really no point n screamin n shoutin
but damn you look good  only wearin a towel
oh god give me the strength not to look back now.,.

i cant move on with you
breathin down my neck...
i guess its time that i 
leave you in the past
i need to go on
to whatever happens next
you said you loved me once but
i think this is for the best

i think its for the best...
even after all those long nights with you
layin on my chest
its  all runnin' through my head
nothins ever felt as lonely as this bed
oh...as lonely as this bed...

chorus repeats

this is for the best [+nate2timez]

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Main Artist: lil XipZ
Produced by: Crizzy White
Mixed by: lil XipZ 
Mastered by: lil XipZ
Cover Art by: me being a lazy prick
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LYRICS:

[Chorus]
i promised myself i wouldnt get attached to you
but since we started talking, ive already made 2 songs for you
i doubt that youll listen but its the thought that counts
you give me something i was missing, i love when youre around
i wish i never had left you first time, if i didnt do that then you prolly be alright

[Verse]
im glad that youre back in my life
took me out the dark n put me in the light
you make my cold heart feel warm inside
like the grinch it grew 2 sizes over night

ill try to be there whenever you need
not gonna fuck up again, well we'll see
i just want someone to be there for me
do you think you could do that for me?

Be there whenever i need
i just want someone to be there for me

[Chorus]
i promised myself i wouldnt get attached to you
but since we started talking, ive already made 2 songs for you
i doubt that youll listen but its the thought that counts
you give me something i was missing, i love when youre around
i wish i never had left you first time, if i didnt do that then you prolly be alright

I Promised Myself I Wouldnt Get Attached To U [Prod. Crizzy White]

prod raspo 
mixed/master by me

Lyrics:

generational trauma
personification of drama
must be easy to say 
“i got it all from my momma”
i’m not a perfect person 
i still take more than i oughta
but you’re not perfect either 
you paint more hate than you gotta 

and i’m sorry that i left you
wasn’t there when i needed to protect you 
when i found out shoulda texted you
cause i knew exactly what it meant for you
that if i stick it out and i try hard
then you might see what’s in my heart
but i see now i wasn’t fair to you
babe i swear that all i did was care for you 

i guess i could find someone to hold me down
oh but i don’t think it’s fair if i’m not gonna be around 
cause my time on this earth is a little more limited than you think it is
and if i showed you inside of me
i wonder what your gut reaction to the trash would be
would you ask what happened to me 
would you stare in a state of shock as you backed away from me

oh see i been in this place before
where i never thought i’d need a hate ward
so when i broke down while i answered 
and then you spread through me like cancer
i sat back in my chair and wondered if i really said it with candor 

i know heart patients don’t hurt like this 
so i just wanna be certain 
you can’t see it from my side now
it’s like you’ve drawn all the curtains 
you want home yea you won’t find it here
i’m done wit all this hurtin

_trauma_ (raspo)

Accept The Stress

the ghost in my bed ft. cutdeep (secre x heyrick)

prod. kawaiibeatz

i walk around the issue..
i really kinda miss u
im tryna be who im not, nd it hurts..
that never worked tho,
i was a jerk bro ;/
ill take back what i said!
i dont mean it at all!
and fill my head up with lead!
i hope u know that i-
mean 
this.. ;(
my mind is incompleted 
and my thoughts go one on one-
i cant see me any how else!

(popularreject)

You said you would call back
…
In a minute
… 
Girl I gave you all that 
Now we’re finished 
I’m in a Maybach now I’m sippin 
This is goodbye and good riddance 
… 
I sip Henny 
I get ready
And say good bye my vision 

Good dope all I roll up 
Bitch I’m dope I feel like Yola 
Smoke this dope and bend her over 
Got the force I feel like Yoda 
I got purple in my soda 

Duhh

I got purple in my soda 
In the range and I’m not sober
If it’s foreign rev the motor

Yuhh 
… hahahaa

jerk w/ popularreject

prod tiedforsilver x flesh

wrote down how 2 do it
then i burnt the book

i been goin stupid
i get dirty looks

all my songs exclusive
you cant get a hook

i been livin lucid
ima young ceo suge

im a young ceo like duncan
if thats yo bitch im fuckin
its friday night im funkin
ion shoot i dunk it

if i shoot my shot im accurate
dont talk yo shit aint havin it
it aint my fault that you mad n shit  
ill bounce back quick like lazarus

ill be back on my feet like a kitty kat
break  you in half like a muh fuckin kit kat
3 shots to the chest yeah i did that
blueberry rocketship bitch im on my riff raff

shit

i been hittin licks
aint no treats just tricks
split yo bottom lip

pull up in a brand new whip
gt4rs or a corvette
on my aries shit
who made that oh thats my bitch

everyday i tread this path like walkin on a tightrope
why you always speakin cap when you cant even fight bro
she like when im spittin fax into the fuckin mic tho
everyday i wake up take a puff and count my bank rolls

countin up hunnids thousands
if you wanna try me go ahead n get pounded
even if you screamin and shoutin
aint no way that youll ever get around it

ima come back on my own time
ima come back on my own time
try to hit pause but u rewind
try to hit pause but u rewind

walking on a tightrope

prod tiedforsilver x flesh


tear my flesh apart and leave me rotting in the basement
stomp my fucking skull into the dark grey pavement
i am just a hollow shell a body not to lay with
i just wanna feel the love instead of always fakin

fake shit
i dont wanna take it no more
im vacant 
watch my vessel sink in the floor
self hatreds 
the only thing i feel any more
ill take it
just so you dont walk out the doooor

dont walk out
goin too fast cant stop now
put my heart on lockdown

dont walk out
goin too fast cant stop now
put my heart on lockdown
we gon make it out now

we we we we we gon fuckin make it out
we we we we we gon fuckin make it out
we we we we we gon fuckin make it out
we we we we we gon fuckin make it out

i said we could fucking make it out
grabbed me by the face & kissed me
then we started making out
i was listening to dgd & it was raining out
voices in my head been asking what are you complaining bout

i said what are u complainin bout
baby we could make it outta here without a hint of doubt
i think im infected and theyl never find an antidote
everything is golden in my eyes i think ur freakin out

and its really over nothing
ur overreacting
that was what youd tell me when id get in a rut

ill always let you have me
any day you ask me
even if ur nothing but a snake in the mud

we'll make it out of here, i promise

im sorry i havent healed yet (raspo)

prod. lil divine, no samples <3
@user-642636378
mixed by lil divine, @killbreanna, and @user-642636378

[lil divine:]
stop and just wait for a minute
please listen close cuz i need this
theres blood on my clothes from the leakage
and i dont know who i can trust with the secrets

can you promise me youll keep it
safe from the scouring demons
drain all my blood with the leeches
and leave my body here to drown in the deep end

[halfhearted:]

drown in the deepend 
losing my soul
hate in ur eyes
when you break all my bones
u don’t regret all the lies thag you told
but each time you tell me
we’ll walk down this road again

sick of driving on them potholes
i think i got stockholm
forgot how you would hold me close

so now i’m clinging to a bottle
i bet you hope i rot in peace
so, lay me six feet deep

[lil divine:]

left in the dirt holdin hopes out for somethin
dont take my words and convert them to weapons
wrote you a song out of words that mean nothin
but you wont ever see it on a motherfuckin setlist

so baby tell me do you really wanna go
i cant see you through the 6 feet of snow
left my feelings in a box on the road
need a key to get the lock off my soul

i can feel the weight crushin my bones
bloody teeth embedded in the throne
why tf u keep hittin my phone?

why cant you leave me the fuck alone
when youre here this house dont feel like home
shattered fragments pierce throughout my skull
skull

[halfhearted:]

leave me to drown with the leaches
seeping in lust will i ever defeat this
stole all my love
not enough 
it’s a weakness
i was the one but i told u i’m leaving soon

we keep running round in circles
the bridges yeah we burned those
so i can never hold on hope

and i’ll let you watch me tie my rope
broke down, left my love on the side of the road
hometown, but feel like there’s no where to go
long frown, but i think i’m getting used to the cold

[lil divine:]

stop with the lies
n tell me the truth
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me
or am i a solution to u
for what somebody else did
stop with the lies
n tell me the truth
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me
or am i a replacement to u
tell me who did u lose

_trauma_ (raspo)

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