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Wait Until I Fall

lyrics~

Ring your line knowing damn well you’re not picking up when im calling 
feel myself grow attached to you, tryna stay up but im falling
i just cant fucking wait for the days i see your face in the morning
wrap my arms round your waist, im still in awe you’re
heaven fallen.

Can you believe it all happened so fast?
Few months back still stuck in the past
now im just eager tryn’ find out whats next
vivid dreams of me kissing your neck
uh
I dont wanna fall back
in love with our story
i dont wanna revert to,
What it was before that

Oh If you could see me..

If i told you my secret..

Would that stop you from leaving..

Or would you still go
far away from this place in the snow
Stuck in mud i cant move anymore
Say you fucked up
So am i
Oh noo

I just wanna be the best for you 
Dont know if im up to the task
i was a drug addict, it surely wont be that long till i relapse
Can you handle it ?
Cos if you can, lemme know fast
I just want that guarantee that you’ll be there for me when i crash

Ring your line knowing damn well you’re not picking up when im calling 
feel myself grow attached to you, tryna stay up but im falling
i just cant fucking wait for the days i see your face in the morning
wrap my arms round your waist, im still in awe your heaven fallen.

Can you believe it all happened so fast?
Few months back still stuck in the past
now im just eager tryn’ find out whats next
vivid dreams of me kissing your neck
uh
I dont wanna fall back
in love with our story
i dont wanna revert to,
What it was before that

angel (autrioly)

drawn 2 u (flesh)

Artist:
@autumndropsdead

Lyrics:
not lost in the first place
was i ever found to begin with?
it was you i began with
if clarity's currency, then i've got nothing to spend with..
nothing to spend with.
so i just blunder my brain, and then i stumble away
uttering words you shouldn't hear anyways..
do i make a difference
if the outcome's the same?

tenacious nature; i watch as it wins
he's the thorn in your side
that was once your own kin
all i know, is what i don't
i don't, i don't, i-
core of concrete, gelatin skin
how i'd fall through the floor, just to soar once again
i fought for..
just what did i fight for?

so
sunder did the sky
sacrifice my time
let it bleed; i'm fine
am i?
you'll heal in a moment
just put all your weight on me
'cause we're just living notions
despite the cause, i know that you're in front of me
"it's been so damn long since you left me"
stuck here, tied in knots trying to let me breathe
but i've lost empathy

i took for granted
what was given
learnt my lesson;
till i caved in
ship's abandoned
have i lost heart?
said, it's my decision
the dark has such lonely arms

tenacious nature; i watch as it wins
he's the thorn in your side
that was once your own kin
all i know, is what i don't
i don't, i don't, i-
core of concrete, gelatin skin
how i'd fall through the floor, just to soar once again
i fought for..
what hurt even more.

gelatin skin

autumndropsdead - gelatin skin

no one gets inside
produced by @prodlilnightshift




fugitive mindset always on the run 
from everything ive ever done
it isnt fun
living in all your regret
and letting the guilt make you wish you were dead
aint talked to no one in almost a month
shoulda seen this from the jump
down on my luck
sorry just goin through stuff
nothing i do will ever be enough



I just wanna get it right but fuck it up like every time
Operation overdrive
Get in gear
Speed of light 
Live in the lost galaxy
astro mega suicide 
I just wanna get it right but fuck it up like every time


Yeah thats great but it could be better 
The effort will never seem to matter 
Move in the shadows
Live like a phantom 
Gets me through the bullshit faster
Every breath ive ever taken has debt behind it 
I can’t deny it   
What stays inside will eat me alive 
Its what I deserve baby 
its justified 

stop bein all up in my ear dawg
what the fuck you want?
talk shit on the squad like im not there
bitch are you dumb? 
i feel like a spy kid the way i fucked up a sore ass thumb
off the judi juice and im seeing red bitch im not the one 

I just wanna get it right but fuck it up like every time
Operation overdrive
Get in gear
Speed of light 
Live in the lost galaxy
astro mega suicide 
I just wanna get it right but fuck it up like every time

ih8myself (prod. lil nightshift)

prod me

lyrics:

i can't say how long i've searched for you
but know that i'm entombed in you again
fresh blood stains cover up my shoes
i'm left without a clue where to begin

tear me down to pieces darling
it's only flesh
i only want the best for us but never can impress
what is it that i am fighting for?
across the shore, i think they want us dead
guess there's no making amends

i'm scared to die
the blade has been pointed
they're aiming to cut off our heads
there will be no rejoicing
not even a noise no
not even a change in the wind
i'm mortified, the mortars cry
i'm deafened by constant barrage
the only survivor
the rage of the fires
that he wished that he had forgot

a change in the wind

written during the time of meeting @sewerperson

lyrics

i’m wasted force
spent time in the sewers but i wanted more
coz when i left back to reality i felt lost i just needed merly discourse

tell me ur story 
tell me where’s home
show me the future
ik it’s cold but

if i hit 40
u need 2 know
that this was ur doing to which i owe my soul

been here since day 1
i wish it showed
where was this love at 
where did it go omg

u see we’re bonded
but different holes 
that we climbed out of 
i hope ur proud of me

5 yrs of listening 
th dust has settled yeh things r so different
that shit was splifferent
taught me to write my own book and spot out the fiction
put a purpose in som of these bad chapters 
gave me a mission

the track was rusted now tunnel vision 
things r so clear when im zoned in and listening 
life is worth living 
found from within but without u
its missing
especiilay when i miss home

ik ur lost
this wrld can be cruel but u haven’t yet lost…

i saw the bridges then the fire
id stroll so peaceful in the mire
i’ve been so many destinations but no scenes compare to this. i’m not a cryer

but i can’t help but shed a tear
a lot past brought out tnite
to keep it tight th_heavy beers
to stay surreal i kept it light

i’ve put a body 2 a voice
and i wish that i could stop time
i dont know how i got here 
but im not gonna question why
ima live this fuckin moment when u hand me that old mic
sing our fucking lungs out 
forget our sorrowed lives

sewers

_sewers (secre x javiifontan)

prod. lil divine, no samples <3
@user-642636378
mixed by lil divine, @killbreanna, and @user-642636378

[lil divine:]
stop and just wait for a minute
please listen close cuz i need this
theres blood on my clothes from the leakage
and i dont know who i can trust with the secrets

can you promise me youll keep it
safe from the scouring demons
drain all my blood with the leeches
and leave my body here to drown in the deep end

[halfhearted:]

drown in the deepend 
losing my soul
hate in ur eyes
when you break all my bones
u don’t regret all the lies thag you told
but each time you tell me
we’ll walk down this road again

sick of driving on them potholes
i think i got stockholm
forgot how you would hold me close

so now i’m clinging to a bottle
i bet you hope i rot in peace
so, lay me six feet deep

[lil divine:]

left in the dirt holdin hopes out for somethin
dont take my words and convert them to weapons
wrote you a song out of words that mean nothin
but you wont ever see it on a motherfuckin setlist

so baby tell me do you really wanna go
i cant see you through the 6 feet of snow
left my feelings in a box on the road
need a key to get the lock off my soul

i can feel the weight crushin my bones
bloody teeth embedded in the throne
why tf u keep hittin my phone?

why cant you leave me the fuck alone
when youre here this house dont feel like home
shattered fragments pierce throughout my skull
skull

[halfhearted:]

leave me to drown with the leaches
seeping in lust will i ever defeat this
stole all my love
not enough 
it’s a weakness
i was the one but i told u i’m leaving soon

we keep running round in circles
the bridges yeah we burned those
so i can never hold on hope

and i’ll let you watch me tie my rope
broke down, left my love on the side of the road
hometown, but feel like there’s no where to go
long frown, but i think i’m getting used to the cold

[lil divine:]

stop with the lies
n tell me the truth
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me
or am i a solution to u
for what somebody else did
stop with the lies
n tell me the truth
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me
or am i a replacement to u
tell me who did u lose

leeches

leeches w/ halfhearted

02

just imagine..

lyrics

with a tenderness in my throat

she takes the advantage in a nice tone

she takes off the writings on the wall

she knows my memorys taking its toll

/

in summer of 1917  this choice was proven costly

never forgave but once layed down a poppy, in memry of u 

u were standing with  crying over this severed tomb

a mourning of 51 years, unexpected doom

/

it was u and it was me and it as us x 3

and now its u and now its dust

/

those that fell, all crumbled to nothing 

jus a distant thought and an empty sort of loving 

in this town not many make an impact

held back by the past it just keeps running

/

running and running 

is something funny

take u somewhere fancy where branches die and birds cant fly

to a place thats shaded and never been sunny

i hope that i can make this day just lovely

/

with a tenderness in my throat

she takes the advantage in a nice tone

she takes off the writings on the wall

she knows my memorys taking its toll

/

in the winter of, well many years later 

there was a change of course

a meet ur maker sort of moment for everyone that was there witness it

many lives lost but as many had begun with theirs

/

it was u and it was me and it as us x 3

and now its u and now its dust

/

rubble and bone had been the history for so long

a seemingly ordinary day had made hearts warm

snow falls down, in this grey and white town

but no abyss will the eyes be drawn (to)

/

no pain or suffering 

may b lost but 0 buffering

take u somewhere where the flowers hit potential, somewhere special

where only u and me can create these memories

ik intention wise tho that u were never a friend to me

someplace where things always reach their potential

someplace where things always reach their potential (stillvanishing)

prod me :)

lyrics:

well the rain started falling bout an hour ago
i know that clouds are in the sky
but i promise you'll be dry right
here
i swear that every day away lasts a hundred years
but every moment we're together 
seems to buckle under
pressure
and disappear

oooo

and i could tell you it'll be okay
but i would rather u just see for yourself
don't wait any longer
no don't wait for any help
cuz the rain will stop soon
and i'll greet u
with a smile on my face
please don't turn away
please don't turn away

well the rain started falling bout an hour ago
i know that clouds are in the sky
but i promise you'll be dry right
here
i swear that every day away lasts a hundred years
but every moment we're together 
seems to buckle under
pressure
and disappear

RAHHHHHHHH!!

lyrics

a fuckin waster
hiding in broad daylight 
every risk i take feels like a tazer
help me meet my maker
just please give me a taster 
the reflection to ur face 
know that u cannot be replaced

again yeah ive been thinking about my lake life
i just wanna hold u so tight
and stay up these late nights
fate dies every time im with u but i hate lies 
snake eyes stare at me they push and pull to break ties

a beaten stowaway no im not going back
to that cold place but know that im back on track 
to my old ways vision fades to black
its those dark days im not going back

im a wastrrr
im a waste of life 
im a waster
im a waste of life

im a wastrrr
im a waste of life 
im a waste of breathe
im a waste of time

a waster
just me and my ego oh it push and pulls
face it 
u had never been responsible

list of own rules
this drink so toxic ima cave
tonight i dont wanna be saved
jus feel love, 
love the pain

lights r out its dark
mayb its just me
id o my best to carry weight but this shit aint normal

fucking waster im just fucking wasting time
wasting breathe
i been here, been on 10
somehow almost 25
thought by then wouldnt be alive 
so ima just take it night by night
just wanna feel love tonight
baby its jus me and u tonight 
i want u to take my breathe tonight

wastrrr

wastrrr (branwen)

i'm stuck in the past but you don't have to be

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