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Wait Until I Fall

Xxxfortnite Seasonxxx - Envy X Sinxi X EXRN X Sleepwater (Prod. oc)

prod. 2001

shoutout the homie skrwd <3

woah
in the silence i will drown
tonight 

i wish i knew it all before
how much it would’ve hurt when i hit the floor
but knowing me i would’ve just ignored 
everything the signs were pointing towards
i search around but i’m abandoned
everyone is gone and i don’t understand it 
i wasn’t needed around 
guess i’ll shut myself out
in the silence i’ll drown

in the silence i’ll drown tonight 
no one can save my life (save my life)
all i needed was a friend 
to come and pull me out of the quicksand 

SKRWD:

its been a while and i still feel abandoned
it comes to mind all the time, i cant stand it
every night i lie awake to reminders of the sound
maybe i wont feel a thing on the way down 
i dont get it
you never meant it
so whyd you wanna be the one who said it?
i dont get it
i dont get it
why say it if you never meant it?


i wish i knew it all before
how much it would’ve hurt when i hit the floor
but knowing me i would’ve just ignored 
everything the signs were pointing towards
i search around but i’m abandoned
everyone is gone and i don’t understand it 
i wasn’t needed around 
guess i’ll shut myself out
in the silence i’ll drown

(in the silence i’ll drown tonight no one can save my life)

in the silence i’ll drown w/ skrwd (2001)

respite

prod. @nate2timezz

lyrics:

sometimes things dont amount to much
even when the things that led you there
gave you such a rush..
and baby im sorry that it didnt work out
and theres really no point n screamin n shoutin
but damn you look good  only wearin a towel
oh god give me the strength not to look back now.,.

i cant move on with you
breathin down my neck...
i guess its time that i 
leave you in the past
i need to go on
to whatever happens next
you said you loved me once but
i think this is for the best

i think its for the best...
even after all those long nights with you
layin on my chest
its  all runnin' through my head
nothins ever felt as lonely as this bed
oh...as lonely as this bed...

chorus repeats

this is for the best [+nate2timez]

no one gets inside
produced by @prodlilnightshift




fugitive mindset always on the run 
from everything ive ever done
it isnt fun
living in all your regret
and letting the guilt make you wish you were dead
aint talked to no one in almost a month
shoulda seen this from the jump
down on my luck
sorry just goin through stuff
nothing i do will ever be enough



I just wanna get it right but fuck it up like every time
Operation overdrive
Get in gear
Speed of light 
Live in the lost galaxy
astro mega suicide 
I just wanna get it right but fuck it up like every time


Yeah thats great but it could be better 
The effort will never seem to matter 
Move in the shadows
Live like a phantom 
Gets me through the bullshit faster
Every breath ive ever taken has debt behind it 
I can’t deny it   
What stays inside will eat me alive 
Its what I deserve baby 
its justified 

stop bein all up in my ear dawg
what the fuck you want?
talk shit on the squad like im not there
bitch are you dumb? 
i feel like a spy kid the way i fucked up a sore ass thumb
off the judi juice and im seeing red bitch im not the one 

I just wanna get it right but fuck it up like every time
Operation overdrive
Get in gear
Speed of light 
Live in the lost galaxy
astro mega suicide 
I just wanna get it right but fuck it up like every time

ih8myself (prod. lil nightshift)

prod me

lyrics:

i can't say how long i've searched for you
but know that i'm entombed in you again
fresh blood stains cover up my shoes
i'm left without a clue where to begin

tear me down to pieces darling
it's only flesh
i only want the best for us but never can impress
what is it that i am fighting for?
across the shore, i think they want us dead
guess there's no making amends

i'm scared to die
the blade has been pointed
they're aiming to cut off our heads
there will be no rejoicing
not even a noise no
not even a change in the wind
i'm mortified, the mortars cry
i'm deafened by constant barrage
the only survivor
the rage of the fires
that he wished that he had forgot

a change in the wind

prod. lil divine, no samples <3
@user-642636378
mixed by lil divine, @killbreanna, and @user-642636378

[lil divine:]
stop and just wait for a minute
please listen close cuz i need this
theres blood on my clothes from the leakage
and i dont know who i can trust with the secrets

can you promise me youll keep it
safe from the scouring demons
drain all my blood with the leeches
and leave my body here to drown in the deep end

[halfhearted:]

drown in the deepend 
losing my soul
hate in ur eyes
when you break all my bones
u don’t regret all the lies thag you told
but each time you tell me
we’ll walk down this road again

sick of driving on them potholes
i think i got stockholm
forgot how you would hold me close

so now i’m clinging to a bottle
i bet you hope i rot in peace
so, lay me six feet deep

[lil divine:]

left in the dirt holdin hopes out for somethin
dont take my words and convert them to weapons
wrote you a song out of words that mean nothin
but you wont ever see it on a motherfuckin setlist

so baby tell me do you really wanna go
i cant see you through the 6 feet of snow
left my feelings in a box on the road
need a key to get the lock off my soul

i can feel the weight crushin my bones
bloody teeth embedded in the throne
why tf u keep hittin my phone?

why cant you leave me the fuck alone
when youre here this house dont feel like home
shattered fragments pierce throughout my skull
skull

[halfhearted:]

leave me to drown with the leaches
seeping in lust will i ever defeat this
stole all my love
not enough 
it’s a weakness
i was the one but i told u i’m leaving soon

we keep running round in circles
the bridges yeah we burned those
so i can never hold on hope

and i’ll let you watch me tie my rope
broke down, left my love on the side of the road
hometown, but feel like there’s no where to go
long frown, but i think i’m getting used to the cold

[lil divine:]

stop with the lies
n tell me the truth
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me
or am i a solution to u
for what somebody else did
stop with the lies
n tell me the truth
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me
or am i a replacement to u
tell me who did u lose

leeches

leeches w/ halfhearted

prod. shinju x krave
@safeatlast

[kill breanna:]

ive been distant
FUCK all my bros swear to god they on my hit list
FUCK em! ion care bout no bitch cus im above em!
they was half there, never really cared, i bucked em!

dont go there
dont type that
lets hope this aint a site pack
i heard you hate me, homie, bite that!
if you plan to mess w me, ask her, "she bites back!"
im aiming for my destiny and nothing fuckin less..
I KNOW I CAN NOT BE MYSELF, BUT ILL TRY MY BEST, YEH
I CANT TRUST MYSELF, AND I'VE BEEN THRU HELL SINCE EMPTYCHEST, YEH
need an AMG,
need an 2 seat,
need completion
i live my life behind the scenes,
like icarly bleeding!

[safeatlast:]
live my life behind the scenes im stuck behind the cameras
lil divine be switching up the flow they switch the genre
everytime i check the bank im seein new commas
lil divine gon switch the flow cuz oo that kid a monster

bitch this aint no rental
sesto elemento
fukkin up da beat thats why they say divine is mental

bitch this what im meant 4
ion need no mentor
sorry ion speak no more
bitch im sorry i been distant
 
[kill breanna:]

ive been distant
FUCK all my bros swear to god they on my hit list
FUCK em! ion care bout no bitch cus im above em!
they was half there, never really cared, i bucked em!

dont go there
dont type that
lets hope this aint a site pack
i heard you hate me, homie, bite that!
if you plan to mess w me, ask her, "she bites back!"
im aiming for my destiny and nothing fuckin less..
I KNOW I CAN NOT BE MYSELF, BUT ILL TRY MY BEST, YEH
I CANT TRUST MYSELF, AND I'VE BEEN THRU HELL SINCE EMPTYCHEST, YEH
need an AMG,
need an 2 seat,
need completion
i live my life behind the scenes,
like icarly bleeding!

wm1 w/ safeatlast

prod me :)

lyrics:

well the rain started falling bout an hour ago
i know that clouds are in the sky
but i promise you'll be dry right
here
i swear that every day away lasts a hundred years
but every moment we're together 
seems to buckle under
pressure
and disappear

oooo

and i could tell you it'll be okay
but i would rather u just see for yourself
don't wait any longer
no don't wait for any help
cuz the rain will stop soon
and i'll greet u
with a smile on my face
please don't turn away
please don't turn away

well the rain started falling bout an hour ago
i know that clouds are in the sky
but i promise you'll be dry right
here
i swear that every day away lasts a hundred years
but every moment we're together 
seems to buckle under
pressure
and disappear

RAHHHHHHHH!!

lyrics

a fuckin waster
hiding in broad daylight 
every risk i take feels like a tazer
help me meet my maker
just please give me a taster 
the reflection to ur face 
know that u cannot be replaced

again yeah ive been thinking about my lake life
i just wanna hold u so tight
and stay up these late nights
fate dies every time im with u but i hate lies 
snake eyes stare at me they push and pull to break ties

a beaten stowaway no im not going back
to that cold place but know that im back on track 
to my old ways vision fades to black
its those dark days im not going back

im a wastrrr
im a waste of life 
im a waster
im a waste of life

im a wastrrr
im a waste of life 
im a waste of breathe
im a waste of time

a waster
just me and my ego oh it push and pulls
face it 
u had never been responsible

list of own rules
this drink so toxic ima cave
tonight i dont wanna be saved
jus feel love, 
love the pain

lights r out its dark
mayb its just me
id o my best to carry weight but this shit aint normal

fucking waster im just fucking wasting time
wasting breathe
i been here, been on 10
somehow almost 25
thought by then wouldnt be alive 
so ima just take it night by night
just wanna feel love tonight
baby its jus me and u tonight 
i want u to take my breathe tonight

wastrrr

wastrrr (branwen)

i'm stuck in the past but you don't have to be

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