had another dream last night
that i was runnin' away from a monster
and that monster was me
it had my cold dead corpse 
hangin' from its teeth
when finally i met the reaper beggin on my knees

take me away rn!
take me away rn!
i dont even wanna try
to make things alright

cuz i dont really give af about myself
in fact im always wishin that i could just be someone else
think id be better off locked up in a cell
i think id rather that
than being trapped in this hell

they used to tell me its a phase
but i still hate my own face...

take me away rn!
take me away rn!
i dont even wanna try
to make things alright

i dont wanna try
ive never been alright
i dont wanna try
ive never been alright!!!

take me away rn! [+gaxillic]

I WENT TO THE MCDONALD'S IN SAN YSIDRO AND ALL I GOT WAS MURDERED Prod CRCL

new acoustic single featuring the talented sophia milone!  

my new album 'for better or worse' releases THIS MONTH! March 24th!! Can't wait to share :)

Lyrics:
I've been searching through these blank pages 
story written in hidden language
follow the signs, to a different life 
I've been looking for
open up the door
I've been waiting for this to break 
all this hurting to turn into gain
darling tell me am I really falling 
cuz looking at you is like looking at scarlet 

(hook)
savior of my youth 
come here show me why I've been missing you 
searching for truth 
but then you opened up the door 
and I'm just staring through the framing into you

(soph)
deep impressions 
where I've been laying for what feels like months 
got up cold and tired 
routine habits push and shove 
tie up my grievance with a grimace 
and a cup of tea 
it seems romantic in your eyes 
but I wasn't being me 
I was looking but not for you 
a fountain hidden away just out of view 
a voice calls my name
did I hear that right 
follow it anyway
and walk right through the open door

(bridge)
for where this heading 
I thought there was nothing 
I looked at the timing 
that I put my trust in 
am I even ready 
is this even right 
but it all doesn't matter with how I feel tonight 
can we go on? 
if we don't where to start 
take me as I am 
if you can 
and ill keep you as the

open the door (feat. soph)[prod. King Theta]

support https://soundcloud.com/pekarot_161

recorded with my beeb inkspores

We’re just two broken bodies
made of coffee cups and bone 
But I’ll need some conversation once we safely make it home 
And invite me in for one last night I don’t know where to go 
But I’m dealt the hand so better learn to play it’s not just for show 
it’s not just for show 
it’s not just for show 


and what’s a little understanding faced against the shame 
and I brought this candle light to show our way around this place 
I gave you both of my hands until it’s known to be replaced 
I’ll never have enough glue to seal away all of the pain all of the 


and my cursive isn’t great I hope someday to accept it 
like the curvature of my spine it’s incomplete it’s just a set back
I’ve gone through enough of those to understand it’s not the end
just take another detour 
best direction yet 
got nothing left not to confess

two broken bodies (pekarot)

Why you had to go?
Leave me so soon
I don't understand
What I'm going through
I need your help
I find no escape
Darkness stills surrounds me
Like everyday

I would get you back, if I just could
Hear your laughing one more time (because I know)

Now that you're gone, forever, leaving tears in my eyes
But the tears they won't fall, I'm breaking inside
I still build my walls, around me to protect
The tree you just planted
I miss you (x4) (forever I'll miss you)

In the silence of the night, I whisper your name
Hoping somehow, somewhere, I'll heal, I'm okay
I'm okay, I'm not okay

(because I know)
Now that you're gone, forever, leaving tears in my eyes
But the tears they won't fall, I'm breaking inside
I still build my walls, around me to protect
The tree you just planted
I miss you (x4) (forever I'll miss you)

I Miss You

prod iof and me
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/kanashi/i-dont-think-itll-ever-be-okay-3
lyrics:
im like, dadadada, like dadadadada

i dont think that ill ever be okay
i just sit inside and overthink
like everyday...
every single day
and its kinda gettin old to me
and the older that i get 
the more that i regret everything
everything that ive ever done
all the times that i had to collect my things and run...away
from ppl that dont mean the things that they say
they say...
they dont mean the thing that they say

and i know that ill never feel
the same as i did
way back when i was 
a stupid naive kid...(so stupid)
cuz oh my god i wish i could go back
with what i know now...
im followed by these black clouds
and life never seems to slow down
thats why i rely on drugs now
thats why i sit at home and make these sounds
i dont think that itll ever be okay again...

i dont think itll ever be okay
and it feels like im runnin out of things to say
and im feelin' worse like every single day
and i dont know why i even try anymore
its like the thoughts inside my brain
and my heart are at war...

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i don't think it'll ever be okay...

prod. shinju x krave
@safeatlast

[kill breanna:]

ive been distant
FUCK all my bros swear to god they on my hit list
FUCK em! ion care bout no bitch cus im above em!
they was half there, never really cared, i bucked em!

dont go there
dont type that
lets hope this aint a site pack
i heard you hate me, homie, bite that!
if you plan to mess w me, ask her, "she bites back!"
im aiming for my destiny and nothing fuckin less..
I KNOW I CAN NOT BE MYSELF, BUT ILL TRY MY BEST, YEH
I CANT TRUST MYSELF, AND I'VE BEEN THRU HELL SINCE EMPTYCHEST, YEH
need an AMG,
need an 2 seat,
need completion
i live my life behind the scenes,
like icarly bleeding!

[safeatlast:]
live my life behind the scenes im stuck behind the cameras
lil divine be switching up the flow they switch the genre
everytime i check the bank im seein new commas
lil divine gon switch the flow cuz oo that kid a monster

bitch this aint no rental
sesto elemento
fukkin up da beat thats why they say divine is mental

bitch this what im meant 4
ion need no mentor
sorry ion speak no more
bitch im sorry i been distant
 
[kill breanna:]

ive been distant
FUCK all my bros swear to god they on my hit list
FUCK em! ion care bout no bitch cus im above em!
they was half there, never really cared, i bucked em!

dont go there
dont type that
lets hope this aint a site pack
i heard you hate me, homie, bite that!
if you plan to mess w me, ask her, "she bites back!"
im aiming for my destiny and nothing fuckin less..
I KNOW I CAN NOT BE MYSELF, BUT ILL TRY MY BEST, YEH
I CANT TRUST MYSELF, AND I'VE BEEN THRU HELL SINCE EMPTYCHEST, YEH
need an AMG,
need an 2 seat,
need completion
i live my life behind the scenes,
like icarly bleeding!

wm1 w/ safeatlast

prod me :)

lyrics:

i can try to breathe just a little bit deeper 
every now and then
but the air seems to cut my throat
so i'll go
in the hopes
that i can find a way to mend it
broken never bend

search for something that i can't find
trip another landmine
blurring the line between
"i love you" and "you make me wanna cry"
such a damn shame
end up down the damn drain
open up the damn gates
hurry it up
before i do the unexpected

goin up
i think ur goin down
turn around
i won't ever turn around
it's only when it seems i'm winnin that they come around
never gave a fuck about me til i started making sound
only dark
not a spark
bitch i'm heartless
rip apart
i might tear off my limbs
i dont want my life to stay the way that it is
i'll fuck the world with every inch.

Every Inch.

www.carlbymusic.com
Production, mixing, mastering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @user-757072975

LYRICS
I so regret the time we spent
But somehow still miss you
You stole all of my innocence
But swore you never intended to
Now I’m left alone
Alone in my room
No choice but to cope with the ghost of you

So maybe one day I’ll escape from my hometown
Or find out the hard way
That there’s no easy way out
There’s only so much that I can tolerate
Before I start to break down
Been told there’s hell to pay in finding my own route

Drive through these back streets
Comb over loose leaves
I’m turning the page to find
What’s hiding underneath
Free from my sense of constant urgency
I’m finally at peace

Listen on Spotify!

Winnebago Street (Prod. Horosha & Lavender_Txwn)

A sharper, deeper, and more immersive take on DEVILDEV’s UNSAID. This remastered version breathes new life into the haunting minimalism of the original, with refined sound textures, richer bass, and crisp, balanced dynamics.
It’s still the song of words left unspoken—only now, it hits harder and lingers longer.

🎧 Remastered for maximum clarity and emotional impact.
💿 Original release: UNSAID by DEVILDEV

Unsaid (Remastered)

the sky's alive 🛸🛸🛸

i'm stuck in the past but you don't have to be

@ninenineteencollective

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Email: yokaidreams30@gmail.com

Every Inch.

Yokai Dreams