music video/show recap:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_IhrC5Zs0gc

call me 
i hate to feel this worthless 
and i did it all myself but 
i still think this whiskey helped me a bit 
and i'm sick of promises 
they never seem that fervent 
how come i lean on someone else when 
i just need myself 

i hope you reach me 
i am starting to question everything 
did you love me for who i am or 
did you love me just 'cause i was there
i never meant to make you unhappy 
it just happened 
this world is against me 
could you give me a chance 
give me a chance 

call me 
i hate to feel this worthless 
i did it all myself but 
i swear that this whiskey helped me a bit 
and i hate your promises 
they never seem that fervent to me
lean on someone else when 
i just need myself 

yeah i'm back on i'm back on that drink again 
when i am she be all in my head 
i am not hungry for money i'm past it 
she just can't get past it it seems 
she don't like no consequence 
when i die bury me at my wedding 
she would look better if she wore a black dress 
make sure you put sunflowers up on my casket 
they're my momma's favorite 
sorry that i gave up on everything 
could you call me i'm feeling like nothing  
could you call me i'm feeling like nothing again 
i'm my mother's favorite (consequence)
sorry i gave up on everything 
could you call me i'm feeling like nothing 
could you call me i'm feeling like nothing 

call me 
i hate to feel this worthless 
i did it to myself but
i swear this whiskey helped me a bit 
yeah yeah

spotify

i lost my voice at my show w/ acey

prod king theata 
lyrics

me:
last song, so baby keep it playing
my mom been sick of all the playing
iv been playing the part for too long now
i don’t wanna go i just wanna leave my hometown

when i’m falling you don’t pick me up
when i’m calling you don’t pick up the phone

hated when i rolled up back then
and i never listened
i just wanna feel you smoke in my lungs
sorry for what happened
baby we were kids then, and iv always been on the run

like can i get up out the 864?
hate this town i don’t wanna live here no more
had me begging i was down on my knees begging please
don’t you walk right out of that door
when i’m falling you don’t pick me up
when i’m calling you don’t pick up my phone calls
you don’t pick up the phone x2

spooky: 
you called me a lost cause
then you turned your phone off
iv been in a state of paranoia, feel like a brick wall
you used to be someone i loved 
now you’re just someone i pissed off
you just call me the problem
baby who the fuck got you locked up
iv been waiting round for years for you to tell me i’m the only one
that shit was as real as a folk song
this feel like the last call, at the bar up on long hill
i moved to California but you’re probably there still, uh

i hope the last songs one that you can’t hear
i hope you drive safe ima just steer clear
and growing up is just a cut that you can’t heal
and i know we were kids but why did all of it feel real?
might need a coat, you’re just like a storm 
and the years ain’t kept me dry

last song w/ spookybands

lyrics//

ill try my best to be the one
but everytime i just give up
got a finger on the trigger
you’ve been pointing the gun
i just think it’s bout time we quit on this love

cuz i try too hard to make you notice me
it’s not there
can’t force the chemistry 

burn me down 
till i’m just a memory
leave this town
bet nobody remembers me now

but i’m A okay
been on my own since 7th grade
for like 7 days
i been in my mind
and the pain retreats
till it reach my spine

does she love me does she love me not
dropping pedals in apartment parking lots and i 
spilled his blood in a dark garage
and i couodnt stop
cuz my hands wouodnt let me

but i hope she’s forgive me 
i don’t wanna talk bout the blood on my backseat
why they running at the mouth
it can never bring me down
they don’t know a thing abt me

mama i’m sorry for how iv been living
the pain in my brain makes
me feel like a villian, i know
i know that i’m cold
iv seen all ur seasons 
i been down this road before

still walking alone
eyes in my skull
full of plaster and bones
making a path 
it’ll lead me back home
i can’t see ur texts cuz the cracks on my phone
if i don’t reply will you leave me alone

19 years bout time that you grow up
waited all night just for anyone to show up
girl you never even showed up

does she love me does she love me not
dropping pedals in apartment parking lots and i 
spilled his blood in a dark garage
and i couodnt stop
cuz my hands wouodnt let me

but i hope she’s forgive me 
i don’t wanna cuz the blood on my backseat
get those words out your mouth
bringing me Down,
think i’ll head south

does she love me does she love me not?
dropping petals in apartment parking lots and i 
spilled his blood in a dark garage and i couodnt stop cuz my hands wouodnt let me
you’re just mad cuz iv played the part
way from the start
and you’re always decepting

i just try too hard to make you notice me
it’s not there
can’t force the chemistry 
burn me down till i’m just a memory leave this town bet nobody remembers me now

dropping petals in apartment parking lots

lyrics ⬇️ <3

(me)
cold heart
long arms you can reach
restart although I don’t wanna repeat
it’s hard for you to see
you can hardly even believe 
but I been going through it
so you have been deceived 

there’s high waters where I’m coming from
no way out I need someone to come and cover him
don’t bleed out
no high hopes I’m always suffering 
so astound
yea this time I don’t need a single thing from your mouth

but they’re never proud and I been alone
you’re never around to see
i don’t like my town I don’t like my crowd
but I’m not allowed to leave
somebody please help me
I’ll give you my love and peace
I’ll listen to wind hit trees
theres no way that I can sleep

and just like the rain all my tears have been pouring
she used to just make me feel so damn important 
inside
i trusted ur love but u sold me some lies
keep holding my hand while we wait for the time to tick
trying to cross but u burning my bridge
self medicate ima roll up a spliff
so unaware of the shit that you did 
to me
and honestly it’s getting hard
but trying my best is what tore us apart
and each time i talk you dont care what i say
i think it’s my fault im the one with the blame
and im sorryyyyy
i’m sorrryyy i knew where this would go
(me)
put the lights out tell everybody to leave
when the price down I always spend all my money
i try to hide out
but everybody come an find me
like what’s to cry abt
Like baby look at what’s all wrong with me

(greenwood)
'u up?' at 3 but i black out at 2
lately it's more than 'im not in the mood'
know that i wish that i wanted it too

i fill this cup like im probably dead in a year by myself
it's entirely on what i said
but i hate that you lied to me, fuck

solid states turn to disarray
at the edge, do you feel the same?
off the ket i've been up for days
you're the best, baby never change

i saw your face on the way down
cover yourself as it fades out
i'd be ashamed if you stay now
cover yourself, would you stay out?

and i fuck it up like a prodigy
on my own shit, i just wish that you'd talk to me
i feel at home with my place as a prodical
i take these pills, im ok when i'm off of them

never this way, it just fits so improbable 
hear what you said in the dark in the hospital
black in my skin i feel bad when i'm falling in
ask what had changed, i break down
fucking all of it

this town is a burden w/ halfhearted & Greenwood (slashy)

shoutout to @kennyorlando for helping me finish this <3


[safeatlast:]
so cold
waiting for sum1 to hold
me as i try to get warm
get me away from the snow
at least thats how i used to feel

take me back to winters in toronto
take me back to drowning every minute in the bottle
take me to when i could be proud of myself oh
take me back to feeling sumthin other than the sorrow

AND I MIGHT FALL APART BENEATH THE TREES
THAT OVERLOOK THE SPOT WE USED TO MEET
I PROMISE THAT UR EVERYTHING I NEED
SHOULDA NEVER WORE MY HEART UPON MY SLEEVE

[Kenny Orlando:]
i wish it was easier than following my heart
cause its given me nothing but nightmares and problems
one minute im drowning 
the next second im all in
im sinking 
im falling 
right down to
the bottom
take me back to the time 
where we were doing fine 
both of us 
where the love was 
can you take me back to the city
where everything felt so pretty 
AND I HATE THAT EVERYTHING’S BROKEN
WISH I COULD TAKE BACK 
AND MAKE IT ALL PERFECT 
THE DAYS PASS
ITS KILLING ME 
FILLING ME 
WITH THIS COLD AND DARK HOLLOWNESS

[safeatlast:]
AND I MIGHT FALL APART BENEATH THE TREES
THAT OVERLOOK THE SPOT WE USED TO MEET
I PROMISE THAT UR EVERYTHING I NEED
SHOULDA NEVER WORE MY HEART UPON MY SLEEVE

fall apart

fall apart w/ Kenny Orlando (king theta)

lyrics ⬇️ 

it never happened like I thought 
oh no
all alone until I rot
they gon pick apart my bones
I don’t need another slot
jus to fill a stupid spot and then screw up on the plot
ima roll up with with dawgs don’t you tell me I should stop
you don’t know what’s goin on. 
yea it’s not ur job

there’s opportunities everywhere 
i could keep going on
but I cut like silverware 
so now days I don’t want you to stare
i wish that we got along
but we’re not a perfect pair

yea why can’t you see way beyond the pier
i don’t appreciate all of the pressure here

it’s catching up to me
i think they want me dead
do they want me here
or do they want me there instead

I tried to show I want you less
cuz that’s the truth
Then you treat me like a pest
but don’t tell me what I do

what’s new
it’s an issue 
how I’m lost
with out you

i never the kind of cost
shoulda thought this through
cuz you ripped all of my wants and needs in two

what’s the obvious answer?
i don’t need you 
fake it with laughter 
but how can they prove
I can’t wait til after ik what to do
and I hope that she’s flattered when she hears the news

beyond the pier w/ decks (flesh x jolst)

lyrics ⬇️ 

every thing you told me was a lie
you can’t even look me in my eyes no more
once everything I wanted but now I been floor
i been dying from the torch 
i been flying thru the door

miss what we had
everything was perfect 
every night we would laugh
I don’t wanna burn it
cuz I’m honestly attached
god gave me a purpose
and you stabbed me in the back
why’d you do that

brand new mission oh I can't wait to get loaded in
ten more minutes til I'm out there counting dividends
yea
watch me mix it in tell me that there's more to this
before I forfeit, I don't need no more of this
I went to Florida with my family then I told them that
I don't feel much more like family when you give me crap
let me sit up by myself when I'm feeling sad
promise that ill come back i don't mean to make you mad

but never once did you ask me if I’m fine
i been smokin blunts so that I could ease My mind
every night it’s the same
I cant ever go to sleep
all the time try to change
but I never wanna leave

(casperrr)
going dummy at the function  
just so i can fuck shit
nah i can't fuckin function 
with the way u changed so quick
really thought you loved me
but i guess i was mistaken 
they way u kept pushing me back
hiding mthe fact u were taken

used to look up at people
and now most are at my level
all i have left is a house 
that's filled with air and our shadows
you left a hole inside my heart
turned from special to mental
like chaging howl for hollow 
i know it was not accidental

at this point i don't know what family is?
people stop caring about u when u stop being a kid 
i've been alone ever since i was 14 
left to deal with a bunch a shit, i don't know what i did
idk how i made it out
idk what it is
maybe i had more to do
maybe i was born for this
i just hope so cuz otherwise imma quit
life in general cause without music life is boring as shit

forfeit w/ casperrr (tiedforsilver)

lyrics 

[maesk]
hold me and don’t let go
do u not know what you are do u not know what this is
i get it ur drawn, unrealistic expectations, u have what is ideal and try to replicate it here in this cold world where the dark never disappears, the light we see will all wither till it’s final flair

i know a lot of people not a lot of people know me
i tend to prefer distance when so when it comes to being lonely 
i don’t mind guess i’m too aware, i’m not scared, only that i might never show fear
i’ll just stare at the ground

yeah i’m still human despite what u may think 
just plenty problems nothing like a good drink won’t fix
something to help me look at this place a little more wrong
maybe time to write another sad song


hold me and don’t let go
do u not know what you are do u not know what this is

time to write another sad song
a few will listen but no one else know how long
i been thinking and been feeling all these things 
u say u listen but u don’t know how it’s been. well u might soon

[goneafteraugust]

always had to hang my head by myself
get it together puff out my chest by myself
i know how it feels to be alone
leave a key under the mat in case i ever come home

so we can go lie down
where it’s quiet and the world won’t make a sound
u can listen to my heart beat pound
i’m headed to u babe i need it right now

forgotten key

forgotten key ft goneafteraugust (flesh x 1gokami)

~2300~

produced by me

mix + master by Jake Mannix

granite

Thankyou once again to cobalt for the amazing beat <3 
Will maybe have one more song before Xmas if not everyone have a great Christmas and new year we can’t wait for the next love you all AIE🤎
Lyrics:

It’s been along time since I saw you smile in my arms 
Last night was a long ride and you didn’t talk much at all 
And I can see the pain right through your eyes
Baby don’t blame yourself it’ll be alright
Your old boyfriend made you the issue and that’s not right 


I won’t treat you like he did 
I can be just what you want 
We both you’ve been through a lot way too much
And it feels like your world is falling apart
No ones there with open arms 
All the bruises turn to scars
And you feel all the pain in your legs in your arms 
All the pain that excess from your heart
And you don’t recognise who you are 
Falling apart but nobody’s calling at all
But I’m right here right now
I know I don’t give the best advice at the best of times but it’ll be alright
I’m here if you wanna talk at all 
Im here if you want some company 
I’m not asking you to fall in love with me

its okay im sure things will get better (cobalt)

featuring safeatlast -https://soundcloud.com/safeatlast
produced by Ciche&Jarn - https://www.youtube.com/@cichejarn


there's blood on my hands oh christ
can't deal with myself all the time
won't open my eyes

fucked it up now i don't even wanna go home
i got problems with myself 
don't leave me alone
wanna melt my brain 
thoughts lead to overload
i cant see a future without overdose

without overdose
baby I might go comatose
xannies in my coat
put another paycheck in my nose

not addicted but I don't know how I could recover
if I was would you still be there for me not another

teenage suicide another stat another number
for the masses

back in school I almost o-d'd on a fuckin Xanax

I would show up off the wall like vans to all my classes

I can't see the future maybe I just need my glasses

fucked it up now i don't even wanna go home
i got problems with myself 
don't leave me alone
wanna melt my brain 
thoughts lead to overload
i cant see a future without overdose
x2

this town is a burden w/ halfhearted & Greenwood (slashy)

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