since ur last message - one take (used x iof)

Big thanks to @carlby for being on this one. Mixing this was hard, because no matter what I did, everything I did to my mix made it sound worse. It got to a point where I basically just said "screw it, it's never gonna be good enough, I'm gonna drop it just how it is" so I hope you guys enjoy my suffering xD

Like A Forest Fire(Feat. Carlby) | Prod. HeyRick

LYRICS¬

I don't really wanna explain
got a lot on my chest that im struggling to relay
so i keep it hush for your sake
nobody ever listened in the first place
i could cry my heart out on a track and you’d forget it in like 4 days 
If you listened to my lyrics then you’d never be surprised that im not okay
no you’d never be surprised that im not okay
Woah,
lemme it slow down for a minute
i been fighting, im abouta reach my limit
Need pills with the potent stuff in it
cross out my own name off the hitlist
Uh 
and its non of your business
Who called it
But its obvious…
…oh its obvious

i could fight the demons, exorcise the monsters
but i could never save me from myself
tell me it gets better when I’m older
but you could never feel the pain i felt
I cant tell you how to make it better,
but i can understand you, if it helps
at least you know now, that were here together
trapped for, an eternity in hell

and oftentimes the thought of something’s
way more daunting than the fucking process
Panic causes me to digress and i push shit to the side when i should progress
and its holding me back
And i cant accept the facts
but it
Its fine
I
Ill make it 
this time

(I could never 
I could
I could never save me from myself
My hearts broken, 
i fall apart
all, the words i left
Unspoken)

helpless case
dont give me hope baby i know that you’re not here to stay
I know you’ll leave one day
Like everything ive ever loved you’ll slowly fade away
fade away

i could fight the demons, exorcise the monsters
but i could never save me from myself
tell me it gets better when I’m older
but you could never feel the pain i felt
I cant, tell you, how to, make it better,
but i can,understand you, if it helps
at least you know now, that were here together
trapped for, an eternity in hell

save me from myself (idealism)

22@
nothing more than u.^^^^^^
,goodnight
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;lyrics
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dreaming, a nightmare, comes over my head!
i forgot, where I am
i drove out, too far, and somehow don't understand
every single thing in this world, hates all my plans!

in the middle, of nowhere, i been calling your name!
as the time, keeps on passing, i hope that youll stay!
everybody in this world, is too busy to stay!
ill drive, these kilometers, are too much to even say!

I JUST WANNA BE WITH YOU
I JUST WANNA DREAM WITH YOU!
im sorry that im broke my dear, 
there isn't much i can do

sell the car, and stop buying food
cancel trips, and seeing all my dudes
the ciggs, the drugs, the alcohol too\
the fun is over, death, number 2

see me in the streets tonight!
i just wanna feel, alive
i just wanna be someone, before i finally die

in the middle, of nowhere, i been calling your name!
as the time, keeps on passing, i hope that you'll stay!
everybody in this world, is too busy to stay!
ill drive, these kilometers, are too much to even say!

death number 2

ballad of nothin'

lyrics:

another night of drinkin on my own
my battery died so i cant check my phone
doesnt really matter cuz noone ever calls
sittin by myself while these tears just fuckin fall...
and its always been this way, i can never get away
from these problems that i face
its gettin hard to breathe
ion wanna be me
i would give anything just to feel free...

and im never really feelin okay
everybody always goes a different way
ion really know myself
i been searchin but i never fuckin found nothin'
everybody thought i was gonna be somethin'
but it turns out im just nothin'
and im growin so tired ion wanna keep running
steppin on these snakes, yeah these motherfuckers cunning

i was stuck here for a fuckin' minute
ion wnna hear u talk but ima let u finish
cuz i dont like ppl anymore
tryna keep em happy is such a chore
and i know that i dont fit in
i never really have
but i kinda like it this way
all they ever do is rip my heart in half
life like a race and i always finish last...

*chorus*

i cant take it anymore
im so tired of being everybodies fool...
and im tired of bleeding my blood into this pool
and i have no room left for anyone...

*chorus*

everybody thought i was gonna be somethin'
but i turned out to be nothin'
turned out to be nothing...

turned out to be nothing...

nothin. [+irby]

All of the time that i just wasted
Spending all of my days intoxicated
So isolated i need sedation 
Tryna get her out of my head is so brainless

Tear drops on her face 
And She Tellin me she made a mistake
I don’t really know what I’m gonna say 
I guess It was going so good till it just fuckin didn’t 

I’m lyin when I say im ok 
Cuz You keep Poppin up inside of my brain
And All the shit you said don’t hold any weight
Yeah She tell me that she me love me till she just fuckin didn’t 

With the eyes like diamonds 
Mesemerizin
Youre the one I think of when I close my eyelids
Can I kill the silence I’ve been feelin lifeless
Messin with my head and my heart she a white bitch
All you do is type but the words not vibrant 
She keep pullin me in she hot like a siren
Belive me when I tell you that you help me ease my mind its 
Kinda fuckin crazy that i had you by my side bitch

But now it’s all over 
And I can’t stay sober 
I’m poppin the pain away
And thinkin of better days 

This that drive me to the grave
And our love was just a phase
You treat me like shit most days 
It’s just gonna break me

But now you’re gone 
Every thought feels wrong 
Idk what’s going on 
lately I been so jaded 

She look me in the eyes she could tell that I’m faded
Spreadin nothin but lies you petty and faceless 
I guess Her laugh was a disguise she was plotting my demise 
I can’t tell what’s wrong could you please get me right 
Good sex forgot all the shit that went wrong
I could never speak my thoughts so I put em in a song 

Next thing that I know everyone singin along
And I swear I try my best but I can’t keep holding on 
She knows she was the first that i brought up to my mom 
Try to tell you how I’m feeling but the words are all wrong 

And i miss you even more with the time spent apart 
Said that you need healing coz your thoughts been dark
But she really scared of feeling so she told me let’s part
I hope that you get better cuz youll always have my heart 

Gotta stop scrollin on the feed
Just so I can write on a beat 
But you know he gonna spit some heat
I made 4 racks just last week what you call for
Always on my phone in case it beeps
And your face so pretty in my head repeatin 
I wish i didn’t love her for all the wrong reasons 
She say she gotta go our love was just a season 

Tear drops on her face 
And She Tellin me she made a mistake
I don’t really know what I’m gonna say 
I guess It was going so good till it just fuckin didn’t 

verse again)

this was a love story (prod. gage oakes)

Produced by @horoshavibes & @kingtheta
Featuring @kanashisadface
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli

LYRICS
I just wanna be alone together
Darling it’d be a shame
If we were ever severed
Torn to pieces
If I can’t wake up next to you
Then give me one good reason

I should even wake up at all
If it’s not you on my phone
I’m ignoring all my calls
So this is how it feels to
Suffer from withdrawal
There’s a part of me that wants you back
I wish I could turn it off

I think I’m gonna be alone forever
No one could ever fill your shoes
Nobody gets me like you
I’ve done some growing up since
Dealt with the repercussions
What else is there left to do
I’m still not over you

I’m still in love with you

(Kanashī)
I’m still not over you
I mean here I am writing songs about you
In my dark and lonely room
Everything feels so f*cked since you left
And I’m pretty sure that I’m gonna be lonely until my last breath

Listen on Spotify!

Alone Together w/ Kanashī (Prod. Horosha & King Theta)

beat made by https://soundcloud.com/yungrospo

yung rospo's yt: https://www.youtube.com/@yungrospo


/lyrics/

look at me girl you can see my bones
i wanna talk to you but i don't know how
open up my jaws and let out smoke
one day i might just fucking go ghost, I'm

steadily dying I'm on decline
tar in my sheets i don't sleep through the night
eyes in my windows i cling to the light
i beg you please don't let me out your sight
it's killing me slowly this shit on my mind
and if i let you in I'm scared that I'll drag you down

i need you to thaw me out make my heartbeat
I'm sorry if i had made you doubt that i love you
i swear i don't mean to i just tend to drift away
from this realm i still cling to
trying to stay sane

i can be okay if i try to
i can't tell what happened
im scared everytime i come to
this is what it's come to
let me leave
i don't wanna be the one to end you

jag har ingen annan än dig
dig
jag har ingen annan än dig
än dig

look at me girl you can see my bones
i wanna talk to you but i don't know how
open up my jaws and let out smoke
one day i might just fucking go ghost, I'm

skeleton (yung rospo)

Featuring @sideviewdriveca, @neondion & @decksmusic
Produced by @pekarot_161
Mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli
Art by BunillaBunz

LYRICS
(Carlby)
Ain't got a dollar to my name but I'm so wealthy
And when I feel out of place my friends tell me
That I'm right where I'm supposed to be
But I'm afraid to open up
Don't get too close to me

No doubt
Wouldn't be here without you
Shout out to the homies
It's about you
I'm slowly finding my way
I'm hoping you do the same
Because we've got a lot to celebrate

Wealthy Pt. 2 w/ Sideview Drive, Neon Dion & decks (Prod. Pekarot)

TELL THEM AGAIN (The Devil's Waltz)

Recorder she saw a bright light and walked toward the falling star came upon her as she captured it upon her eyes she seen the melody her and the moment in just an instance she heard the violins playing in the distance in the cello kicked in and everything was just in sympathy with the moment of the star just aligning with her perfectly he saw it in a distance and saw her glow he went to it she was drawn to her glory and her  She saw a bright light and walked toward the falling star. As she captured it with her eyes, she witnessed a melody in the moment. In an instant, she heard violins playing in the distance, and then the cello joined in. Everything was in perfect harmony with the moment of the star aligning with her. He saw it from a distance and noticed her glow. He was drawn to her glory.



She saw a bright light and walked toward the falling star. As she captured it with her eyes, she witnessed a melody in the moment. In an instant, she heard violins playing in the distance, and then the cello joined in. Everything was in perfect harmony with the moment of the star aligning with her. He saw it from a distance and noticed her glow. He was drawn to her glory.

Falling star sympathy

Carlby is an alternative pop artist from the Midwest. Working alongside producer, @horoshavibes, his music is a blend of pop, emo rock and hip-hop.

Contact - carlbymusic.com/contact

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