remember when u wrote that line man banger

hard asf i’m so excited for this project

THE THEME OF THIS ALBUM IS GONNA BE NUTS, LOVE THIS DUDE

my second full length album, dearly departing

fully produced and mastered by @jolst
artwork by @/ashleydhe on instagram

featuring:
@cherryrizla
@betweentheveinsandi
@ejcarrmusic

additional production by:
@irby314
@user-757072975
@taylor
@sainttomorrow
@pekarot_161

thank you all for everything. i hope you enjoy <3

stream everywhere!

dearly departing [jolst]

lost cause (ft. sendflowrs) (prod. jolst + remghost)

Produced by CapsCtrl
Fanlink: fanlink.to/lovelessgroup

Lyrics:
@sendflowrs
I see the sun shine down on your face 
A kiss from the clouds
You're a worthy mistake, yeah
Baby slow it down, think we need to hit the brakes
Your love it throws me down
Grit my teeth & I brace, yeah yeah
She said "I think we should take a break"
I know what that means, no such thing as a break
Baby I just sit & cry
Love left marks on my face 

Yeah, the moon so bright
Think it's close to morning
I'm callin'
Please don't hit my phone, you're fucking boring
I need a quick hit
Roll a blunt, then I'm snoring
I got no fuckin reason to be here, I think I'll call it 
Like where you at
Tell me where you been
& I just saw you in a photo, so I'll fuckin ask again
I'm like, who is that
Tell me who is him
& I don't wanna close my eyes, but I'm slippin' off again

@betweentheveinsandi
Don't come to me for attention when he won't give affection
Tonight I felt the tension, but I never thought to mention 
I was well crossed when I picked up that phone
I hide it well, substance deep in my bones
Wired in my head, 'til I'm dead & maybe then some
Could you lay me down in the ground & send my soul home
I might catch the train that go right up the side the mountain
Spent so many nights here that I swear that I could count 'em
Burn me & hurt me
Turn me
Oh, its so deserving 
Snakes across the ground as I walk across this house
With the cold light of the lantern & that's all that's left to guide me

+++++

@lovelessgroup
@lovelessgroup
@lovelessgroup
@lovelessgroup

++++

sendflowrs & betweentheveinsandi: Worthy Mistake (capsctrl)

chapter i

produced by ztope
completely non profit

lyrics

filtered beams of moonlight 
passing thru the ice above
i cannot bear to take my eyes 
off of my drowning love
why she had to follow me
why she had to jump
shes drowning in this lake
man cold water makes u numb

makes u numb
hit my head on rocks below
blood
blood fills the water oh my god
god cannot save us
oh we're fucked
fucked
sleeping on this bed of rocks
shadows of the trees
they dance on ice thats 3, 4 inches thick
is that lantern light
i ask her body what the fuck she thinks
this our savior 
and i hope he drags us up or else we'll sink
please just save her
i do not care if im on the brink

filtered beams of moonlight 
passing thru the ice above
i cannot bear to take my eyes
off of my drowning love
why she had to follow me
why she had to jump
shes drowning in this lake
man cold water makes u numb

it makes u drown

drowning at the bottom of a frozen lake (ztope)

track 3 
n i’ve never felt as low as this
when u told me that u hate me
i died a bit 
now the sun feels so cold on my skin 
and nothing tastes the same, again, you win

 
yea and i cry every night when i go to sleep
i don’t wanna fight anymore please just bury me 
you’re the one i like
despite what u said to me 
i’m high as a kite 
off this mud
keep on tellin me 
that i should get help 
but u never been a friend 
so please don’t sit and cry
fake tears on my bed 
u the one that tried to help me til the end
why the fuck i need a therapist when i got u instead?

*inhale*
*exhale*
it’s as easy as that
*inhale*
*exhale*

just breathe it’s as easy at that 
as easy as that 
so i just breathe when this bitch get me mad
grayfox the king i be here til i’m dead 
had a slow year think my shit about to fall off
but i’m still here with this blood on my hands
shoutout to tropic, as easy as that
shoutout to loveless, as easy as that 
run thru the street when i’m off of my meds
but i’ll still be right here while these boys follow trends
3 playlists 1 week i’m scheming again 
people can hate but ain’t bled what i bled 
i’ve seen the fall when ur stood on the edge cus i’ve seen my own mum in a hospital bed
i’m way too high so go argue with them
got my whole life in the palm of my hands
make a no hook and then go right to bed
and u can sendflowrs when im laid to rest

just breathe, it’s as easy as that (mackk)

produced by soloft
mixed and mastered by me

time is a blessing but cursed all the time
what i would give to rewind 
all of the nights where it felt so right 
they hit like a brick every time 
i still hate going outside 
sometimes I wish I was blind 
still choose to ignore it, but never forget it, and yeah I regret it 

tell me right now
tell me right now
is it nice on the other side of this hell?
i know calling at the worst time’s suicide
let me find out and I’ll tell you what it feels like 



i got a problem with spending my money before it deposits
that is an easy one, i have a thousand, don’t know how to solve them 
please do not tell me you love me if you’re always busy
no ring when im calling 
yeah, not gonna lie, a lot of my dreams involve bridges and falling 
i walk around with my anger a lot 
know it’s not healthy, im learning to stop
i been working OT
chasin a check tryna figure it out 
don’t really feel in control of my life 
and that shit don’t sound right 
only my best in the cover of night
kill every beat and I don’t even try 
on my mind in the middle of the night 
wanna die at the thought, can we go for a drive?
catch a vibe, smoke in the sky
nowhere near great but im feeling alright
all out of time
still gotta try
nothing to lose
so here goes the dive

i'll tell you what it feels like (prod. soloft)

the second single off my upcoming album 'dearly departing' coming out on 9/9
featuring @betweentheveinsandi
produced by @jolst
art by @/ashleydhe on instagram
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
its finite, reactive bullshit
that got us here
and i dont mean to laugh or joke
but i see it clearly how
time takes lives in the cruelest way
and im fucking exhausted
so i wont pray for calmer waves
im better off in a coffin 

or when its half mast
think about what i’ve passed
will i be forgiven?

or when im undone
will i run
or is this a new beginning?

i think i saw your star sign
projected in the night sky
i look out to the ocean
and then im back to your eyes

veins:
I don't give a fuck anymore
I would let her drown me in a low tide
these decisions assault my eyes
I brace for the waves that drag me back into the deep tide

yuh,
it gives a deep high
I guess it feel right
underwater with no sunshine
I heave a deep sigh
I'm filled with sea brine
all of my bones will rest in deep lime

but it's been nice
I hope u feel right
I hope he never leaves ur fucking side
I pray u both live long and happy lives
most of all, importantly, I hope u feel alive

its finite, reactive bullshit
that got us here
and i dont mean to laugh or joke
but i see it clearly how
time takes lives in the cruelest way
and im fucking exhausted
so i wont pray for calmer waves
im better off in a coffin

dearly departing

low tide (ft. betweentheveinsandi) [jolst]

spotify & apple music!

IV. low tide (ft. betweentheveinsandi) [jolst]

prod. @pekarot_161

[casperrr]
nobody will love you as i do did
seeing u with some1 else makes me sick 
i wish u the best, but i feel like shit
hope u succeed in life while i can't even live 

(chorus) [casperrr]
on the ground i'm laying~
oh my heart is aching
all my bones are breaking
i only succeed in failing
all the songs i've been making~
they show what pain is

[casperrr & autumn]
ooh~

[autumn]
and they say i'll never change
just put that on my grave
not tryna resist this, but it's on my name
just calm down
you're aware of the wrongs that you did
so just let them run out
just not right now
just twist what you want, up until you fall down
i'm losing my hair
trying not to be scared
it took so much time to get where i am here
my knees to the ground
as well as my pride
the ones that i've hurt aren't good at goodbyes

so i stay inside
cause this home knows i
accepted what i've done
just not to that extent
oh how i was stunned from 
all of it

(chorus) [casperrr & autumn]
on the ground i'm laying~
oh my heart is aching
all my bones are breaking
i only succeed in failing
all the songs i've been making~
they show what pain is

casperrr x autumndropsdead - succeed in failing (pekarot)

reflection (interlude) [jolst]

my second full length album, dearly departing

fully produced and mastered by @jolst
artwork by @/ashleydhe on instagram

featuring:
@cherryrizla
@betweentheveinsandi
@ejcarrmusic

additional production by:
@irby314
@user-757072975
@taylor
@sainttomorrow
@pekarot_161

thank you all for everything. i hope you enjoy <3

lyrics:
i shouldn’t have woken up
(i lost souls of people i trusted most)
we couldn’t have fucked this up
(the waves told of more than i’ll ever know)

the sail strikes back
and the mast’s in half
now the ships all cracked
never coming back

lower deck, where i slept, shouldve seen it comin
i was blessed with a soul now im left with nothing
cuz i couldn’t find a way out
the floor burst as i was screaming for help

and now i live with my failure
im burdened with loss
was i meant to be saved or
is this just what i’ve earned
cuz god knows i never learn

so teach me
if this is my lesson then come fucking teach me
im suffering out here alone where nobody can reach me

i shouldn’t have woken up
(i lost souls of people i trusted most)
we couldn’t have fucked this up
(the waves told of more than i’ll ever know)

the sail strikes back
and the mast’s in half
now the ships all cracked
never coming back
when the sail strikes back
we relive our past
feel our burdens cast
never coming back

III. the sail strikes back [jolst x taylor morgan]

my second full length album, dearly departing

fully produced and mastered by @jolst
artwork by @/ashleydhe on instagram

featuring:
@cherryrizla
@betweentheveinsandi
@ejcarrmusic

additional production by:
@irby314
@user-757072975
@taylor
@sainttomorrow
@pekarot_161

thank you all for everything. i hope you enjoy <3

lyrics:
it feels like im drowning
i wake up im bruised and battered
i finally stop spinning
and the ocean goes on forever and ever

what we have isn’t perfect, but fuck it we’re trying
i struggle with certainty, and the truth is im lying
my heart is a mess inside
but i know im fine enough

im seasick
took my heart, i didnt know that i needed it
fall apart, the very second we’re leavin and then
i wasn’t smart, couldn’t even bear to see the ship go
underrrr
the very second we had
sundereddd

and thats the last time i fall apart to save myself 
our story passed time, written like a book up on the shelf
and i swear im always
fucking up
nowhere to run

everything is 
uncomfortable
its never fun

and i wonder why
im staying up
to see the sun

maybe i should just go to bed

[cherry]
i’m stuck underwater 
and i just cannot find the space to breathe 
its hotter and hotter 
i sweat through my collar when ur with me 
took it all in i just sat back 
i don’t wanna fall don’t wanna backtrack u saw my heart and u cracked that
i saw ur heart and its matte black 
i saw ur heart 
u know its not perfect 
but fuck it were trying 
so lets get something working

II. seasick (ft. cherryrizla) [jolst x lavendertxwn]

my second full length album, dearly departing

fully produced and mastered by @jolst
artwork by @/ashleydhe on instagram

featuring:
@cherryrizla
@betweentheveinsandi
@ejcarrmusic

additional production by:
@irby314
@user-757072975
@taylor
@sainttomorrow
@pekarot_161

thank you all for everything. i hope you enjoy <3

lyrics:
she had her life in a picture frame
had her future signed away
he had managed to escape a mess
a year with none to blame

take me away from my innocence
i could only dream that we were kids again
once i had fallen i had never left
it was u that once had told me what the sigil meant
now the journey begins
hundreds of souls never to speak again
i could be different but pride is a sin
u couldn’t manage urself let alone a
trip to burden many like yourself
disregard to hundreds and their health
all in search of feelings never felt
you were so selfish u didn’t deserve it

and now the memories come flooding back to me
like a ship at sea we capsized, never recovered the bodies
we went down burning (in a ball of fire)
draw back the curtains (in her funeral attire)

and i can’t wait to find you out
as life goes by i feel my time run out
hey i wouldnt be surprised if you hate me
i been struggling alone on the daily
i know im a lot to handle baby
tell me if you need to breathe, i’ll be waiting

I. eulogy for a funeral [jolst x irby]

Lyrics:

i spent 3 yrs digging in crevices i found inside my mind
and it's looking like another one of countless wasted nights
where i'll write songs and i'll lay beats to put some fun into my life
i'll live and die inside this room
but shit i wouldn't call it life

if i had a fucking option
i would so turn back the time
and attend clubs attend events n get some people in my life
but with the way i chose to live i lost 3 years of fucking time
this is genuine loneliness that no one knows but i

i spent 3 yrs
digging in crevices
i found inside my mind
and it's looking like another one of countless wasted nights
where i'll write songs
and i'll lay beats
to put some fun into my life
i'll live and die inside this room
but shit i wouldn't call it life

i spent 3 yrs
digging in crevices
i found inside my mind
and it's looking like another one of countless wasted nights
where i'll write songs
and i'll lay beats
to put some fun into my life
i'll live and die inside this room
but shit i wouldn't call it life

-

i spent 3 yrs digging in crevices i found inside my mind
and it's looking like another one of countless wasted nights
where i'll write songs and i'll lay beats to put some fun into my life
i'll live and die inside this room
but shit i wouldn't call it life
i spent 3 yrs
digging in crevices
i found inside my mind
and it's looking like another one of countless wasted nights
where i'll write songs
and i'll lay beats
to put some fun into my life
i'll live and die inside this room
but shit i wouldn't call it life

call it life (hateful)

produced by taurs + splashgvng

and it’s cold here
so grab your coat 
don’t say i love you
i know you don’t 
and it’s awkward
cus you’re too nice
and im obsessed 
with those blue eyes 

and i’m besotted 
with your new guy 
it made my heart crack
just like new ice 
how could you do this
i was a fool, i 
just never knew that
you were the cruel type.. 

and my head spins
when we are together 
you never show me love, 
despite that, you’re so special to me 
got ugly eyes, im not the guy you fell for
but i could try my best 
if you give me a chance and don’t leave 

callin, callin callin again
why the fuck are you still stalling?
those texts you left unread 
i can’t avoid the hole, i fall in
fall in to the abyss 
my chest caves in when you call me 
the one that you regret 
i’m so tired of ur shit

and it’s cold here
so bring your coat 
don’t say i love you
i know you don’t 
and it’s awkward
cus you’re too nice
and im obsessed 
with those blue eyes 

and i’m besotted 
with your new guy 
it made my heart crack
just like new ice 
how could you do this
i was a fool, i 
just never knew that
you were the cruel type.. 

you were the cruel type
i know you hate me you didn’t have to say it two times ): 
i can’t stay here anymore
my veins are blue, i
guess i’ll just lay here in the snow and watch the moon rise

ugly eyes (taurs + splashgvng)

produced by nevermadeithome
 ly bro <3

completely non profit

interpolates 'the weekend' by modern baseball

lyrics

i have nothing to offer u
in truth
because i am too perfectly self aware
to care
about much of anything
i'll take too much of anything
oh dear god, im withering
when she said love
i always win

and she was right i see it now
every night i think about
crooked spines n making out
she's alright, she always was

i don't care too much about anything
ill take too much of anything 
oh dear god, im withering 
when she said love
i always win

put my shit in boxes
im moving to the cottage
in the city, don't work office
in the bar im slicing orange
im here for the sad and the hype shit
like im getting back on the grindset 
if passion was lost imma find it
there's lead in my head still a titan 
tight pack bowl and i pull right thru
gonna work this job gonna write these tunes
gonna take my shit, gonna hide from view
gonna make this work just in spite of u

cus i don't
no i don't
no i don't
no i don't 

care too much about anything
i drink too much, if anything
can't do much but promise me
if u need help my phone will ring 


u've got a smile that could light this town
and we might need it
most of my old friends i can only stand for the weekend




city cottage (nevermadeithome)

【﻿ｎｕｍｂ　ｍｙ　ｔａｓｔｅ　ａｎｄ　ｆｅｅｄ　ｍｅ　ｔｒｕｔｈ】

thank you for listening. i really, really appreciate it.

produced by @prod_death 🖤
hope you enjoy.


walking with grace 
behind closed curtains
and i know that pain
finding out they're not the same
it's just not the same.

i feel like i can touch hades
but the thought of you's the only thing that's kept me saving
from all the bloodshed
i take it all in
i let that deep breath
enter my skin
i haven't felt formaldehyde in a while
it's become so difficult to work up a smile
hit me back if i'm worth every mile
i used to believe what i wanted was peace
but when i open my mouth i feel like a mime

fuck that
i'm ripping the tape off of my face
but don't look at the paste please :(
i wake up and i'm already shaking
there's only so much i can take in
loss of dexterity causes corrosion
i missed every note that i needed the most
don't open their heart till' you've opened your own

the truth (i'm boutta fall through)
i guess you never really knew me (knew me)
that's why i never get through (give a fuck abt you)
it's connection we're losing (losing)
i'll reach my hands through the screen
till i see the spark's out
they're starin' at me; said
"you should be star-bound"
take in the scene
and don't you forget it
the ocean'll sink (sink)
just cause i let it
(let it)

is there even a deeper meaning?
i study her every pattern
i ache then break but they don't seem to take it as a heavy matter
and that's hefty ladder that i'm probably gonna climb forever
and if she goes i let her
and if she goes i let-

kay, i've opened the shades
i thought it was grace, i guess that it's hate
fool me once and take my change
no wonder why i feel the same
fool me twice; i'll start anew
my misfortune falls right back to you
the scent of colors fill my room
to numb my taste and feed me truth

(truth)(4x)
i don't know what does it mean to you..
what do i mean to you? (you-you)
what do i mean to you
you-you-you-you

i feel like i can touch hades
but the thought of you's the only thing that's kept me saving
from all the bloodshed
i take it all in
i let that deep breath
enter my skin
i haven't felt formaldehyde in a while
it's become so difficult to work up a smile
hit me back if i'm worth every mile
i used to believe what i wanted was peace
but when i open my mouth i feel like a mime

i feel like a mime (4x)
(i feel like a mime...)
(am i wasting my time?)

feed me truth [prod. death]

with the life i’m given, i’m healing.

@lovelessgroup
@butaneband

IV. low tide (ft. betweentheveinsandi) [jolst]

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