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keep on dying (pekarot x jolst)

Miami’s washed me up 
I had lived there 27 years 
I thought I built this up 
but I always lived my life with fear 
I’m always so worked up 
I have a feeling that the end is near 
I’m not okay, my dear 
put the car In gear and 

Drive 
so that I can feel alive 
I’m bleeding through my paper skin 
I’m shattered and I’m wearing thin 

we hit each other up from time to time 
tell each other I love you, yeah, it’s fine 
you’re with him now
so fuck me up, give me drugs and give me medicine to sleep tonight 

this pressure’s building up all of this tension 
got my heart bleeding, needing intervention 
in my mentions only looking for attention 
break my chains, set me free, let me ride and put my car in gear and 

We hit each other up from time to time 
fuck I think I need to go for another drive 
I was hoping that this was the last time 
but you’re still keeping me in mind 

Ocala called again
so I moved up thinking that I would change
I left you far behind always regret that now I drown in shame 
you gave up on me 
I’m begging on on my knees 
please i just need some peace
I’m trying to believe 
that you would come back to me 
baby just tell me that you’ll never leave 
take a couple pills to relax just so I can breathe 
I’m never finding answers in these drugs so I write these songs that I sing 

you left me now 
god I feel so left out 
I just hope you stick around 
so that I can go and find out 
If he gives you everything 
I couldn’t imma stress out
cause I failed at loving you 

and now I’m just a burnout 

yeah I’m just a burnout 
a motherfuckin let down 
I’m trynna shut down 
baby shut my lights out 
Bring the knife out 
yea I’m gone now 
when I think of suicide I always put the car in gear and

Drive (Prod. Jolst X Irby)

prod by me and vee (legend also mixed everything from a rough demo I made)

lyrics

i only see u in my nightmares
and then i wake and then ur not there
i wasted time and that is not fair
cause i still see u in my nightmares
i only see u in my nightmares
i lay awake and that is not fair
i think about u and ur long hair
cause i still see u in my nightmares

every night i have the same dream
u walk up and say u miss me
and now im crying in the back seat
the world around me starts dissolving
these are just dreams ik
what do u think they mean?
im cold
keeping all the memories inside ill hold
no matter what the card in my hand ima fold
thats all im good for
2am talks when we drunk on the floor
i cannot give more
hanging my head as i walk to the door

momento mori (betweentheveinsandi x viera)

svnam - now what do i do? (irby/saint tomorrow)

just the beginning...
@jolst // @pekarot_161 // art by @ejcarrmusic

lyrics:

i can tell u wanna hang it up
with the way u never say u love me
and i never even needed ya
maybe it was just the way u bugged me

i’ve been bothered by the time i’ve wasted lately
fallen through, my saving grace
it was the one thing that kept me in place
rather forget than forgive

cuz i’ve been kind
i’ve given patience u dont deserve
i’ve followed trails to the core of this earth
i’m reading books cuz i never fucking learn
you’ve run a fine line too long this time
i gotta move on im sure im right
cuz it was nice with u here
i’ll be fine with u gone
i don’t like all this fear
you should just move along

i can tell u wanna hang it up
with the way u never say u love me
and i never even needed ya
maybe it was just the way u bugged me

time, wasting time 
but you don’t realize 
what you don’t realize 
these are the days of our lives
you got caught up in your lies 
emotions trapped inside your minds 
hidden behind a disguise
now its too late for goodbyes

i can tell u wanna hang it up
with the way u never say u love me
and i never even needed ya
maybe it was just the way u bugged me

i’ve been bothered by the time i’ve wasted lately
fallen through, my saving grace
it was the one thing that kept me in place
rather forget than forgive..

hangitup [jolst x pekarot]

spotify & apple music!

im scared.. </3
...
theres some things that i cant learn
and loving me is one of them
i aint afraid
i cant change at all
but do i even want to? 
thats the question
im still tryna learn my lesson
oh..
i back up when i really shouldnt
when the going gets hard
i get scared
im scared
they learned how to love me
so i loved em back
i didnt think i would
but i learned from that
but im hot
im cold
and i dont know who i am
im just tryna learn to love who i am
im a pretty girl trapped in someones body
i was tryna be someone and im sorry
this cold weather always overwhelms my body
its really hard to get a meal in my body

the storm (2001 x sor)

produced by wisssery & jolst
i feel a little like my face is melting
and my truth is shaping 
into something that i dont want it to be
i dont want it to be
and i cant even change it
even if i fucking wanted to
but i dont :p
but i dont.
no i dont
no i dont
oh i dont
oh i dont
no i dont
no i dont
its easy to not care when youre fucked up
feeling despair has never been so familiar 
the grass is green and the sun is bright, but
you wont get me out my room tonight
out my room, room
out my room, room
out my room, room
room, room, room.
out my-
yeah
fuck writing
i just needa find a beat and throw my thoughts inside it
woah
woah
woah
woah
yeah
fuck biking
to your house in the freezing cold
frost bite on my god damn nose
where'd you go?
who fucking knows.
where'd you go?
who fucking knows.

frostbite (wisssery & jolst)

Mixed/Mastered By Me & https://soundcloud.com/auby4rc
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Prod By https://soundcloud.com/stezzyxl
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(Lyrics)
-
[Chorus]
i always think about oh I'm just an obstacle 
no need to worry girl i know that you are comfortable 
that's how i feel and you were so dramatic girl 
don't know what's real i need to find the cause of it 

[Auby]
i came to plead again
please end my suffering 
looks like my hands are tied
in the palm of your hand
let me take solace that youll be here with me
im done with all this constant wondering
cant look you into your eyeshouldnt be very surprised
sorry that im a mess
i promise i tried my best
living in a web of lies
without you i wouldnt survive
no type of medicine could fix what is happening

[Chorus]
i always think about oh I'm just an obstacle 
no need to worry girl i know that you are comfortable 
that's how i feel and you were so dramatic girl 
don't know what's real i need to find the cause of it x2

[Verse]
seeing all the messages saying that you hated me
i can barely sleep at night i find it hard to fucking breathe 
and i just wanted you closer 
these lonely thoughts are getting colder 

[Outro]
and i just wanted some closure holding each other till we're warmer 
seeing all the messages saying that you hated me
 i can barely sleep at night i find it hard to fucking breathe

frostbite (wisssery & jolst)

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