when my dreamscape and my reality starts blurring what is really real anymore?

consider this ghoul in tokyo pt 2

i put a lot of work into this project and i hope you enjoy
also shoutout the amazing producer sorrow bringer
extra sound design and effects by me

this is my art and what i wanna make

- mars

ps this was heavily influenced by sewer

hellscape

Prod- Kado


I’m not doing well I’m not feeling like myself 
Haven’t slept for several days feel it wearing on my health
Living in a haze with my shelf life expired 
Made a few attempts but it seems I’m a survivor 
Had my feet to the fire for my entire existence listen life Is a prison unless you live with no limits 
God as my witness I know I’m going to hell
Till the day I die you’ll find that I’m the flyest in the commonwealth 
The fyest that I ever felt,
Got my lyrics tatted 
Give a fuck about a Gucci belt 
This shits automatic 
Been a while since I hurt myself I’m proud to say I turned around a life that was quickly going south 
Now I just sit around and watch the world around me degrade 
As I prepare to be impaired for all the rest of my days 
Sick of running scared with my fears im face to face 
Cause I want to get better but I’m set in my ways


Lately I don’t care if you hate me 
I’m just thinking that maybe you’ll miss me around
I cant wait to be alright 
I just want to live my life
I don’t really need another chance to let you down 

Now I been going through a phase
On the search for better days
Patterns flip into a labyrinth this life is such a maze 
It’s amazing that i got nearly as far as I did
That I avoided Jackson state or getting stuck with a kid 
It’s my flock i ain’t about to let no wolves in my pen 
Man I been there and done that, quick to forget 
Where I’m at and where I been and what I’ve done in the booth 
Now I feel like Paul Peirce I’m the motherfucking truth 
Ain’t no jealousy inside of  me I’m proud of my friends 
Ima live the life I want until the day that it ends 
It tends to be that people leave and maybe that’s for the best 
If you not coming on the ride then we’re not sharing success 
I’m not sharing my press, in my prime this the pinnacle 
Time flyin by still cynical, It’s cyclical 
The way that I’ve been feeling so don’t ask  Where my head is 
I been saying for a minute I been blessed with a death wish

Degrade

When I Needed It

fine.

Vendetta

Breakdown

i can't find the prod :( if anybody knows his name plz lmk

shoutout @melmige

when i step out the rental house i’m feeling fifa w/ my kicks
adolescent, my fits
heard you got a new man, why you staying on my dick
stand on this shit
on sum “u could do much better if u wasn’t such a bish”
..that’s why shizu doesn’t miss

see our contrast stark like it’s ironman
ur heated up like Bluestar; i’m the fucking fireman
it’s funeral season all black on my attire
hit the track in one evening spent a minute in retirement
mr rock how flows Will slap a nosey nigga
chrome could blow a nigga top clean
he dug/doug deep and then, now his dome is dimmer/dimma
fairly odd problem solver make u wish a turner w/ you
but bigger picture jus me, yet six figured
when ur money counter’s black screen w/ no balance
this no challenge
hurl spit, his word salad
it’s songwriting line-of-fire and ice ballads

(be sincere for once i promise it won’t hurt you
post-ironic posturing i promise it’s a clear view
i got on your intention it’s embarrassing you consider yourself sinister
a minute in the mirror got u cracking under pressure)

spent some time in a rut
spent a couple hundred keeping hunger barred out enough
spent a couple dozen months pulling myself out the mud
spent a ton of fucking energy keeping air in my lungs
suffocating off the apathy i’d kill for your complaints
the suffered casualties have left me battled scarred in disarray
hard and weathered by reality my dreams been going gray
desaturated by mentalities developed in the fray
but i’m aware of where i’m fine
me and shizu hit piano licks like elton 89
the sacrifices will be worth it
artificer with my words
twist phonetics to the rhythm i could spit until it burns i can’t stop
what’s the alternative if i do
i’ve exhausted any option beyond entry level food and service
fuck if that’s my future fuck if i don’t make a move
and flip the script and kick off i’m mister tech deck im off
grimey spitting vitriol on non-profit beat rips
sliding with philosophy, horosha does the drum kicks
match the tempo that my heart is beating cuz i live for this
and if you don't, don't fuck with me i promise we are not friends

fire//ice (ft. melmige)

hellscape (intro)

produced by sorrow bringer

lyrics;
its cold, i cant feel my hands
killing another man
that wasnt apart of the plan
but fuck here i am
washing the blood of my hands
i took the last thing that made me human
now im fading back into being a demon
babygirl gimmie a reason to stay
if not ima jus drift away
ion even wanna be awake

oh my god 
smoking all night long
i wont ever stop
its the only thing im good at
the only thing i want

atleast fight back x 5

fffightback (interlude)

produced by sorrow bringer

lyrics;
its been 45 days since i got fucked up
its been 59 days since i got drunk
doing this for my health and i hate it
jus like jelly said sobriety sucks
i like the feeling of being fucked up
it helps with know ill never be enough

i wake up and wish i could jus go back to sleep
even when i record 50 songs a week
i still feel like im just a sheep
everyone says its not that deep

beingsoberfkingsucks

produced by sorrow bringer

lyrics;
4am on this porch i sit here and smoke
until everything i love turn to ash
off this ket but it doesnt nothing but numb my past pain
take my soul and heart and toss it out into the rain
watch me bleed, babe im on my knees
sending you messsage after message knowing you wont read
listen to my pleads, listen to me

i cant look anyone in the face
im ashamed of who i am
i'm not the man i wanna be
and i dont wanna force you to love me
but without you in my life it feels empty
and every single thing feels tempting
i jus wanna be existing

the truth is hard to swallow
been awhile since i was down this low
ive never felt this hollow
i'm trying to get fucked up so i'm trying to hit it from my bong
i used to have potential but everyone tells me im lost
i don't know what todo or where i belong
fear the worst because you know im cursed
and fuck this shit ill say it again it fucking hurts
cancel all my plans
drop everything just so i could get fucked up and play games
everything i do to numb the pain
it wont help me escape
it makes everything fade away
take everything take my soul
just let me waste away
these new meds are supposed to work
but fuck

i cant look anyone in the face
im ashamed of who i am
i'm not the man i wanna be
and i dont wanna force you to love me
but without you in my life it feels empty
and every single thing feels tempting
i jus wanna be existing

hollow

lyrics

i feel like im the number2 
tossing me aside oh i rly was a toy to u
straight off of the jump i had a read on u
u knw it aint nun new
i had high hopes and i trusted u
look at what that trust will do
oh ive tried to bluff , u been bluffing to
i know it aint nun new

im turning my brain into dust
i cant complain itll toughen me up
i cant complain cuz im ending up numb
i cannot live when ur telling me off
im boutta freak out 
she say she want me now
what abt when i was down
what about when i was out 

i feel like im the number2 
tossing me aside oh i rly was a toy to u
straight off of the jump i had a read on u
u knw it aint nun new
i had high hopes and i trusted u
look at what that trust will do
oh ive tried to bluff , u been bluffing to
i know it aint nun new

numbr2 (flesh + taurs)

single #1 off hellscape releasing 7/10

sewer used this beat and I never ended up making a song but found it on my pc so i made this today enjoy

produced by sorrowbringer 

album w/ hollowprpl on the 25th

& 

album w/ sorrow next month

lyrics;
ion wanna talk to this bitch im trying to roll this blunt
im not tryna talk wit this powerup in my cup
u say u hate me when im fucked up
but bitch this is who i am
im a different person everyone hates when im not on the drugs
if i fall asleep dont wake me up
plug hit my phone trying to dose me up
but im already fucked up

if i roll this blunt i dont think i can get anymore high
but i do it because if i dont ill lose my fucking mind
missed a text from my grandma i lost track of time
rather not talk about how i feel, im fine

u blocked me n u know damn well that i dont care
keep telling me im not being fair
than why the fuck are u still here
i'm not going outside im way to  fucked up  
im not going anywhere i dont give a fuck 
bitch are you dumb
its so cold out
my hands are going numb
ur so so selfish
bitch u never meant this
i was all up in her mouth like a denist

my hearts broken 
so i crush another pill
and do another line even tho you know it kills
keep going just to feel alive
keep your feelings inside
your not gonna die

roll this blunt

lyrics:

i dont give a fuck i just stay going hard
spit a tuff verse on a sad ass guitar
everyone know me they fuck with webstar
i dont got room for your bitch in my car

im godlike
young webstar under spotlight
keep going up no stop signs yuh
aint no way that anyone could stop us bruh

flexed up boss i dont give a fuck
deadwood gods come and fuck with us
internet surf through traffic
deleted sc disappeared like magic
had to come back cuz my life went tragic aye
self sabotage its a damn bad habit

web god internet surf

Hoodie on top of my shirt alone is 7 bands
Blood on top my 32’s and 12 mens
She might be a demon but somehow she heaven sent
Soon as I stop my breathing she reach out and bite my neck

Soon as I finish work ill be there 10 ill make it happen
I cant help but stay up thru this night im off a gram of magic
Every time we fight I gotta tell myself u never mean it
I cant help but sleep as soon I mix my cup and see it bleeding
I cant help but sleep as soon as I do my cup and see it bleed
Its too hot in here im tryna recoup but I count breath
I fucked up the dose and now the drugs alone controlling me
I need u to lift me up and try to put back the soul in me
I got 20 bucks in the pocket of my diesel jeans
Im just tryna do whatever I could to be wanted
I could buy a deeg and relax while u holding me
Never in my life did I think id be a zombie
Marks on my hands I think doomsday upon me
Burns on my back scratch marks on my face
I got bruises on my waist but im still so cocky
Could u Help me with my heart cause I cant tell the bad apart from the good
Anymore
And even if I could would I wanna know which one I am

Hoodie on top of my shirt alone is 7 bands
Blood on top my 32’s and 12 mens
She might be a demon but somehow she heaven sent
Soon as I stop my breathing she reach out and bite my neck

Its racks on my head she wrapped round my head oh no
U got me in a headlock baby
If u couldnt wait how the fuck I stand a chance on my own
Its hard when half the people here hate me
Its good having shoulders around u until its elbows
U tryna take it left I know u tryna take it where I dont wanna go
U keep tryna take it personal and that game plan is starting get old
Im in the basement and im starting grow mold
I been here forever what’s a couple nights more
Ill keep waiting here and until im part of this floor
She reach over to feed and I just watch the blood pour

Hoodie on top of my shirt alone is 7 bands
Blood on top my 32’s and 12 mens
She might be a demon but somehow she heaven sent
Soon as I stop my breathing she reach out and bite my neck

luvbitez (jabarionthebeat x prodcrater x vogomusic)

Prod. Kado go show him love

Lyrics:

I can’t believe I got as far as I have without the help you said you’d give me 
Different life and I might be thanking you for sticking with me but i guess
That it’s all for the best 
Mom was correct 
I’ve Cursed since seventeen but since my birth I’ve been blessed  
Now I have to go and get all these feelings off of my chest
hasn’t made the feeling better but it’s bringing In checks
Every day is still a struggle every night is a test 
I know one day ima blow up it just ain’t happen yet 
Had to stay in my home when all the homies already left they 
Chasing dreams or chasing knowledge just acquiring debt 
And then they only come around when they see you at your best
I’m sorry that I yelled I’m just so fucking upset 

I’m so Tired of feeling like I’m just wasting my breath 
Like I’m screaming at a being that I ain’t ever met 
Like god above abandoned me he knows I’m a threat 
Maybe when I’m judged I’ll find some solace in death 

I know you don’t need me 
Could you please just let me down Easy 
When  you leave what do you do? 
It’s obvious I mean nothing to you 
Couldn’t care less I see right through you 
When I’m alone I think of you 

You know I’m just a person
We get what we deserve and 
I’ll shoulder all this burden 
Now that I’ve been deserted 
Didn’t say I’m perfect 
Didn’t even say I’m worth it
I just thought that maybe you’d give a fuck that I’m clearly hurting 
Working on a different version of who I was
I gave everything I have it seems it’s never enough, in the bluff 
With the homies going out of our minds 
keep it up and someone’s gonna gun me down in my prime 
I can’t believe I got as far as I have without you there you never cared and I knew it I blew it it’s so fucking rare 
To find a genuine love when you in it  
You know that it’s real 
But I’m better off alone I’m gonna die on that hill
Confined in my head
that’s all I want that’s all I need but in the end I always seem to get the better of me 
I can tell that you got somewhere better to be 
In the end I know there’s always someone 
better than me 
cool

Fade

22 | vox/songwriter & engineer 

i make what i want my music isnt for everyone

email - m@scars.online

beingsoberfkingsucks

marsmal

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