one of the hardest saddest emo songs bruh

ur just too underrated and im ur biggest fan now

recorded & mixed by me
produced by back2thapast

So I'm like yeah yeah yeah oh oh oh
This the start of something new
Every time I'm in a room with you I get a bad mood
Oh pardon me sorry dude I don't really wanna talk no
I don't really wanna talk
I don't really wanna talk no
I don't really wanna talk

So can you tell me what you mean
Nothing here is meant for me I'm nothing like I'm supposed to be
I hope that its all a dream
But its always a nightmare lately I been so scared I don't know
So I pick up right back where I started
Lately I don't want no friends and to my friends I'm so cold hearted
I cant wait till all this ends
Tell my momma that I'm sorry
I ain't as strong as I thought I was but I'm still working hard for us
Yeah and I been fighting for so long
I just wish this shit was simple what the fuck am I doing wrong
For my whole life I thought it was destiny
Now I don't think its meant for me
I'm tearing by the seams and honestly I wanna rest in peace
I cry each time I'm on a beat
Toss and turning in my sleep
Wake up sweating on my sheets cause I keep running from the truth
I just wanna be with you but you don't wanna be with me
Ill say ill agree with you if you say you agree with me
Oh yeah
Yeah
Ill say ill agree with you if you say you agree with me
Oh yeah
Ill say ill agree with you if you say you agree with me

growing pains

spotify

growing pains [p. back2thapast]

u lack 2 text back
u don't even call
don't even say you care
u don't at all

out now on Spotify 💕

apparition (prod. drma x nihil2free)

support king theta <3 https://soundcloud.com/kingtheta

I’m sick and tired of the game plan
To turn my life around 
I’m not good at reaching out no
So I’ll forfeit everything  just take it all from me just go 

And I use everything I own until it’s 
Beyond repair and I still 
Try to make it work I don’t know why I don’t know why 
It’s like I 
Just can’t accept it struggle 
With every process need some 
Help here and there it’s all I ask it’s all I ask

Cause I’ve exhausted all of my synapses 
No longer knowing how I can combat this

Said that I didn’t make it on time 
I’ve pushed the luck met every deadline 
I’ll push the tree I’ll chop the roots 
There’s nothing left for me to do 
We’ll make it work we always have 
I’ve got your heart and you’ve got my knack  
No stepping stones more like thumb tacks 
It’s not that deep but still fights back it still fights back 

Cause I use everything I own until it’s beyond repair
And I still try to make it work you  call it unfair 
To every new machine I never put it out of misery 
If I let go I fear them missin me these spirits listening 
And I trusted you and I gave it all away 
but I 
I kept one thing
And it’s on me always yeah 
I’ll keep that ring you gave me 
Spin it round on my finger daily 
And you keep that same old smile 
Hope I get to see it for a long while now
I’m not good at reaching out 
Not enough hands in sight not to pull me out 
I’ve exhausted all I’ve exhausted everything 

Said that I didn’t make it on time 
I’ve pushed the luck met every deadline 
I’ll push the tree I’ll chop the roots 
There’s nothing left for me to do 
We’ll make it work we always have 
I’ve got your heart and you’ve got my knack  
No stepping stones more like thumb tacks 
It’s not that deep but still fights back it still fights back

thumb tacks (king theta)

new single produced by @irby314 & @pekarot_161

lyrics:

Be careful what you wish for
Oh you'll always just want more
It's hard to fill the satisfaction
Moving target, always lacking
It's like you took everything that I ever wanted
Hidden on the surface
Planted urges
Now you're saying I should
Walk away
Walk away

When I came back I told you
None of this can stay
So you took something you knew I wanted
Wrapped it up in shame
Old standards mold the frustration
Presenting this duel fate
I'm still standing to find the answers
Are they written on your
Are they written on your face

Oh can I
Just forget about last night
Try to focus on what's mine and what's right
What's mine and what's right

Watching you walk away
Forced against one place
Still begging to escape
Oh does it even matter
Oh does it even matter

Be careful what you wish for
Oh you'll always just want more
Like it's not what you asked for
So don't say
Walk Away

moving target [prod. irby & pekarot]

Woke up at 10
Took a 10 
Cause I ain’t myself 
My only friends
Inside my head 
He says get some help
But you can’t listen to what he says 
cause he talks to himself
What’s he really know 
When he’s got nobody else 
I feel lost 
Stuck standing where the streets cross 

She says I look out of it 
Like im tired and I haven’t slept
Damn yet I ain’t really mad at it 
whatever brings a little bit of  happiness 
I can sleep when I die, so im working all night  

I gotta be delirious thinking I can change my life     
Staying up through the night with these bloodshot eyes 
Got a little routine watching the sun rise 
But Im learning how to not hate myself 
Im still watching after everybody else 
Im still figuring out all of these fine lines 
Between alternate timelines
The last time I checked in I was in good health 
What’s the point in having it if I’m gonna ruin it 
Its almost like the pent up the fear in losing it 
Stops me from ever enjoying any of it    
Im just filling the emptiness…  
With a little more emptiness 

She says I look out of it 
Like I’m tired and I haven’t slept
Damn yet I ain’t really mad at it 
whatever brings a little bit of  happiness 
I can sleep when I die, so I’m working all night
She says I look out of it 
Like I’m tired and I haven’t slept
Damn yet I ain’t really mad at it 
whatever brings a little bit of  happiness 
I can sleep when I die, so I’m working all night    

Focus on the target that’s ahead of you 
Life is like a contest 
And everyones ahead of you 
There’s nothing you could ever do 
It was never up to you 
It was never meant for you

out of it *methboiswag*

swear that im only productive in the night
its got me feeling low im seeing people switching like a light
baby yk ill fuck ur ex up if he looking for a fight
said i might x3
now im smoking out the window
oh you dont like me well ig ill let ur bitch know
i can see right through your lies just like i got a crystal
how am i meant to live like this the love is superficial

i swear im not meant to feel like this
baby they arent really real like this
would've gave you everything you wanted now my heads a mess
break me down just like ur rolling up the cannabis
x2
i swear you cant even rock like this or follow this
i swear give me couple years n they will all be tryna talk like this
even if you try just know that you could never copy this
did it by myself i swear theres nobody thats topping this

did it by myself i swear theres nobody thats topping this x4

swear that im only productive in the night
its got me feeling low im seeing people switching like a light
baby yk ill fuck ur ex up if he looking for a fight
said i might x3

now i switch it up
flow be coming vigorous
he rlly think im scared bc i know he keep a flicky tucked?
he aint gon fuck with us
if i say it then i do it
he a snake i shouldve knew it
(yeah, woah)
had ur chance n then u blew it

had ur chance n then u blew it x4

swear that im only productive in the night
its got me feeling low im seeing people switching like a light
baby yk ill fuck ur ex up if he looking for a fight
said i might x3

i swear (jolst, irby) (ALL PLATS)

prod irby 
@irby314

please dont give up on me i swear i will try my hardest
I understand your worries i get why your cautious
ill hold your baby whilst you rest right beside me
and when i look into your eyes thats when im happy

when did it go wrong?
it seems only yesterday
that we were living our lives with no care in the world
i feel so fucking sick

how did it end up like this?
how did it all fall to bits?
summer gave into autumn
and it blew away my love with my kiss

forests come with mist
i walk through the leaves as they crunch and twist underneath me
my eyes can't resist
the tear falls down on to my cheek as i'm sat under the Oaktree

we use to dance and dance
until we cried laughed
that was our first year anniversary

and now i ponder if
i could take it back
i feel like i've changed
i've got some proof for that
i know we needed to
doesnt mean we wanted to
just guess it's better for
the both of us too move
i hope you think of me
because i think of you

just rest, rest beside me. (irby)

lyrics 

tell me why ya u be moving selfish 
I'm just staring at myself at my mirror 
cause i can't i can't i can't

waking up every time i feel ugly 
cause i don't see myself lasting more than 2 years 
i can't i can't I'm tired

taking medicine for my lungs
fucking up my life when i smoke
i'ma disappear like a ghost 
i'ma kill myself you won't care

I been walking through the rain 
I been blocking out the pain 
I been leavin a trail to follow steppin in the mud 
follow further along you notice all the drops of blood 
And I’ve been wishing you would call me, think about you every day 
every hour every minute 
think it’s time for me to change 
Need to get this off my chest before I start to skip a beat 
need to get a little rest
falling to my knees
Need to wait a while longer before you start to feel the grief

tell me why ya u be moving selfish 
I'm just staring at myself at my mirror 
cause i can't i can't i can't

waking up every time i feel ugly 
cause i don't see myself lasting more than 2 years 
i can't i can't I'm tired

ypu can tell me how to not be afraid 
the way she looks in my eyes i get scared

tell me why ya u be moving selfish 
I'm just staring at myself at my mirror 
cause i can't i can't i can't

selfish w/ lil booj (jolst)

unprepared (michael harris)

I really need you right now 
I’m sorry if I ever let you down 
Feel the words pursing from my mouth 
Can’t get the words coming out 

I really need you right now 
I’m sorry if I ever let you down 
Feel the words pursing from my mouth 
Can’t get the words coming out 

Yeah it’s true that I miss you 
I write it down in my notepad 
yet you know this and you know that
Because I’m prying for you to notice 
I sit alone like yet again 
Staring at your instagram 
I hate this ‘ fucked shit 
Because I can’t face it 

Black suit 
Red wounds 
Black heart 
I’m bad news 
You know that 
Don’t hold back 
Just diss me in your notes app

I really need you right now 
I’m sorry if I ever let you down 
Feel the words pursing from my mouth 
Can’t get the words coming out 

I really need you right now 
I’m sorry if I ever let you down 
Feel the words pursing from my mouth 
Can’t get the words coming out

Notes App (Prod.Aureola)

lyrics:

he wanna be just like me and i know 
get to the money and pour up a four 
don’t like to fight, i ride round with my pole
i’m in a G-7-0, she tryna be my hero 
yea, 20 racks, i just threw a bag on a stripper 
draped up in designer, baby, i been getting richer 
i been getting fly, now she wish that i was with her 
i just made the cat pop fire, huh 
foot up on the gas, tryna fly up, huh 
arm out the window, blowing smoke cuz they ain’t us 
yea dat pussy fell off, i know dat he blame us 
amg whip off, yea, that shit just cost a life 
tell me why u pissed off, u don’t even gotta lie 
i know it’s the money that i get to all the fucking time 
i just blew a bag in dior to make him fucking cry 

i seen a friend go and turn enemy
if u doing that shit, better stay on your leave 
i don’t care if you go head and get on yo knees 
i ain’t making no peace, don’t come begging to me 
big 45 throwing bullets like brees 
chain rocked up like my last name lee 
don’t talk to the hoe with no ID 
i been blowing money, i just threw up off E 
got a fat ass drac, name da hoe aubrey 
i just took his fucking bae, walked up in the party 
now she on my body tryna pop roxy 
yea, i got a few plugs round town, what u want 
okay, she say that she outta oxy 
okay, just wait, baby, u can watch me 
get that shit in minutes, bitch, im sober hardly 
kill that shit in minutes just ride me like harley 

okay, just wait 
okay, just wait 
okay, wait 
okay, say 
okay, say, ay

he wanna be just like me and i know 
get to the money and pour up a four 
don’t like to fight, i ride round with my pole
i’m in a G-7-0, she tryna be my hero 
yea, 20 racks, i just threw a bag on a stripper 
draped up in designer, baby, i been getting richer 
i been getting fly, now she wish that i was with her 
i just made the cat pop fire, huh 
foot up on the gas, tryna fly up, huh 
arm out the window, blowing smoke cuz they ain’t us 
yea dat pussy fell off, i know dat he blame us 
amg whip off, yea, that shit just cost a life 
tell me why u pissed off, u don’t even gotta lie 
i know it’s the money that i get to all the fucking time 
i just blew a bag in dior to make him fucking cry

i swear (jolst, irby) (ALL PLATS)

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