It's gone thru a cycle need medication
Is music worth all my dedication
I said that she should, but need a vacation
Improve my condition, then I will make it

I've been thinking bout the last few days
Cause I been stuck in this mindset that I been tryna erase
And I know I been MIA
I'm sorry I been gone away
Lately I don't know what to say

(I want to improve and you know that it's true)

I can't keep living in this condition
My heart's not built for these constant let downs
I gotta find a way out
I gotta find a way to make it feel like life's worth while

So stay with me, let me see that smile
You're all I've wanted for a long time now
And to be quite honest oh I don't know what to say now
Cause you're so beautiful
I'm really at a loss for words now

(It all repeats and I can't even speak now)

I can't keep living in this condition
My heart's not built for these constant let downs
I gotta find a way out
I gotta find a way to make it feel like life's worth while

My condition's always leaving me with just a few scuffs
When it comes to texting back I think that I have had enough
I've been feeling way too careless and I'm always one to shrug
I'm forgetting way too much I need a friend to cause a nudge
And when she wants me to remember she thinks I'm the one to judge
I'm kinda done

I can't keep living in this condition
My heart's not built for these constant let downs
I gotta find a way out
I gotta find a way to make it feel like life's worth while
(I gotta find a way to make it feel like life's worth while)

condition ft. JoshIGuess

--wrote this in the beginning of october--

im staying up all night, i cant stop to cry
dont tell me i will get better cus i'll be gone 'fore december
she loves these fucked up eyes
in another life i might be living forever i want someone to remember
the way i felt these days when they called me crazy
give me 16 days and that bitch will hate me
its okay
yea its okay
i'll be okay, she'll be okay :)

december (hateful)

prod. boyfifty

lyrics:

baby i dont wanna talk
im way too busy making bangers
yeah they bumpin every fuckin day
the words that i conjure from my brain
i guess that they relate
i hope they all okay 
and i hope that i don't disappoint
im just makin what i feel

and i know we all just try to live
one day at a time
and i know we give more than we get
throughout our lives
try our fuckin best 
but nothin ever works
no matter what you do
you still end up in that hearse

and im tired of tryin
im tried of lyin
ill never feelin alright

im tired of smilin' 
im tired of cryin
yeah i hate livin life

and these feelins are subliminal
they got me feelin like a criminal
on the hideout
from these feelings that only wanna keep me down...

they only wanna keep me down...

da da da da da....

give [+boyfifty]

respite

prod. pekarot and jolst 



i gotta go it alone
i need the space to heal 
from the pain thats been caused
and  thoughts that i conceal
just give me a second to breathe 
wish i could fall asleep
two rips from the pipe, ill feel alright
why do i feel the need to apologize?
pretty fucked up, im not gonna lie
it happens every time
i go back to the moment
i dont regret it, i own it
the weight of the world has me feeling like im dope sick 
house set up in flames
so i forced a window to open 
i need to find out just why im so fucked in the head
i bet it’d make more sense if you found me dead
cause thats what you want anyway
my minds got something to say about it all the time
why
why the fuck do i even try? 
it seems that no remedy can suffice
my guilt is starving, watch it eat me alive
so i guess just let me know ill never get it right

i tell u, i do not know! (prod. pekarot x jolst)

Featuring @sideviewdriveca, @neondion & @decksmusic
Produced by @pekarot_161
Mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli
Art by BunillaBunz

LYRICS
(Carlby)
Ain't got a dollar to my name but I'm so wealthy
And when I feel out of place my friends tell me
That I'm right where I'm supposed to be
But I'm afraid to open up
Don't get too close to me

No doubt
Wouldn't be here without you
Shout out to the homies
It's about you
I'm slowly finding my way
I'm hoping you do the same
Because we've got a lot to celebrate

Listen on Spotify!

Wealthy Pt. 2 w/ Sideview Drive, Neon Dion & decks (Prod. Pekarot)

scrap from learning to lose
+ alternate art i did not end up using
prod. @wisssery
much love, enjoy <3

i wrote the lyrics in a notebook so i will not be putting them here my bad guys hope u can understand

middle ground [wisssery]

safety (secre x heyrick)

the ghost in my bed ft. cutdeep (secre x heyrick)

prod. kawaiibeatz

i walk around the issue..
i really kinda miss u
im tryna be who im not, nd it hurts..
that never worked tho,
i was a jerk bro ;/
ill take back what i said!
i dont mean it at all!
and fill my head up with lead!
i hope u know that i-
mean 
this.. ;(
my mind is incompleted 
and my thoughts go one on one-
i cant see me any how else!

(popularreject)

You said you would call back
…
In a minute
… 
Girl I gave you all that 
Now we’re finished 
I’m in a Maybach now I’m sippin 
This is goodbye and good riddance 
… 
I sip Henny 
I get ready
And say good bye my vision 

Good dope all I roll up 
Bitch I’m dope I feel like Yola 
Smoke this dope and bend her over 
Got the force I feel like Yoda 
I got purple in my soda 

Duhh

I got purple in my soda 
In the range and I’m not sober
If it’s foreign rev the motor

Yuhh 
… hahahaa

condition ft. JoshIGuess

getbetter