deep october

I honestly can’t remember who produced this only reason I’m posting here and not main. 2019.

fox fur blanket

Should say sooner 
If it’s too much 
For that room that u been living
I hear rumors 
That you’re clueless 
I stay cool with ur oblivion 
The sooner I give in to it
The urge to hit ignore 
I see nights inside your kitchen I think Percocet endorsed 
Standin shirtless at you’re door 
Way more nervous than before 
Like for certain, think your purpose match perfect with your decor 
Like how smoke still stain your curtains
But her purse says Michael Kors
Way too much for me to work with, 
Might get worse with my support 
And I 
Urge you to think 
Bout them words before speak them
A current in sea
I submerge 
With the deep end 
Earth at my feet 
Make me hurtfully seasick 
I know when you’re distant
In existence that is speak in

time (x1000000000)

There were signs
I tried so hard not to waste your time
It gets so hard not to chase a high 
How’d you feel if I said you should stay behind
Here you stand while I sit face to face with god
And my life’s
Been a ride 
For some time
You’re so damaged how’d you manage to survive?
On this planet 
Disadvantages arise

face to face with god (prod. nitrous)

white freckles (prod. senshei) 2019

we can rest our eyes (prod. taurs)

We don’t mind the weather 
Do you feel inclined to be mine forever?
Let’s just pick a time to apply the pressure 
Everybody dies, so let’s die together 
You and I forever 
Your precious design synchronized with pleasure 
I hate when you cry, when you’re high, it’s better 
As long as you’re mine, I’ll be fine, whatever 
I still try
I still think about everything that you said to me 
December nights
Who’d of thought those words were pressing down so heavily 

On my mind 

Where my head is 
I’m in debted 
To you, I am 
Shouldn’t of said it 
But it’s better than the silence
Rest your head and
Give some credit to your eyelids 
I’m in debted 
It’s pathetic that I like it 
I 
Know where you hide
I 
Go there sometimes 
With
Gold hair 
Lil dime piece
Nowhere to find me 
Cold air 
And pine trees
Snow,
flares Of lightning
Gusts.. of wind

On my mind

everybody dies (prod. eadith)

for once (prod. jouska)

raw vocal lil cypher session I did with Eadith peak pandemic durning quarantine

even then (prod. eadith)

your skin in the rain
sunlight in your eyes
forgot how to panic
I'll go wherever you go
on different doses of Xanax 
still don't know how far I drove
Memories are vague
How did I survive?
I find the advantage 
of a damaged frontal lobe
I struggle to understand it
Understand that's how it goes
Stars talk to the planets 
as they're dancing into motion
I promoted damaged now I'm managing emotions
Been stuck in a fantasy 
Ain't plan to see psychosis 
I never claimed sanity when my hands where your throat is
open
your eyes before I close them
How can I break barriers down if you never show them
shit just gets way scarier when they're out in the open
I like when you barrier the so deep they can't get broken

Cigarettes, new daydreams
of things I hate to dream
they're fucking make believe
and still I can't forget
All the things 
in which you said to me 
a new one every week
and still there's
Cigarettes, new daydreams
of things I hate to dream
they're fucking make believe
and still I can't forget
All the things 
in which you said to me 
a new one every week

can you tell me why
is it hard to think 
there's a part of me 
that I held inside
is it difficult
just to listen to
a compelling lie
and it makes more sense
just to hate that bitch from a healthy side
lied to myself
because I knew it'd help
If I felt she died
Well it must be nice
Can you say the same?
spent a month or five
on the cusp of change
I've been stuck inside
for a hundred days
with the butterflies 
from the stomach pains
and the doves that fly
in front of my face...
Doves that fly in front of my face

Your Skin

Your Skin (prod. neverforever)

I Rode A Wave (prod. foisey)

Guttermen (prod. falls)

Helter Skelter (prod. yedgar)

Sorry, No Drugs (prod. falls) Outro ✯✮☆ Riz ☆✮✯

Thank you guys so much for all the love and support I've been getting. Messages and all, means a lot to me. here's one more before Moonfire Funeral. enjoy!

Disappoint Them interlude (prod. meta angel)

I Drift Current Situations (prod. j^p^n)

DONT OWN IT. ORIGINAL:  https://soundcloud.com/gregar/w-i-z-l-v

thought it was shit but some people liked it so here ya go

Razo (prod. GRXGVR)

Post Depression, Baltimore (prod. falls)

usher me away (prod. GRXGVR)

Never Enemies (Prod. Combination Lock & Paradoxx)

beat composed by @prodbeef
 
mix/master @darkskyparadox

DONT KNOW WHAT THEY KNOW
DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY
BEG ME TO COME HOME 
PRETEND I'M NOT FAR AWAY
I STILL FEEL YOUR GLOW
LIKE THE SUNLIGHT ON MY FACE
I'M NOT SCARED OF GHOST
CAUSE I KNOW WE FEEL THE SAME

DONT KNOW WHAT THEY KNOW
DONT KNOW WHAT THEY SAY
SHELTER ME FROM GROWTH 
PRETEND I'M NOT FAR AWAY
I STILL FEEL YOUR GLOW
LIKE THE SUNLIGHT ON MY FACE
I'M NOT SCARED OF GHOST
CAUSE I KNOW WE FEEL THE SAME

RAIN 
FALL ON WINDOW PANE
PLACE
ME IN YOUR EMBRACE

UGH, AGAIN ?!
HOPE THAT I DONT FALL AGAIN..
(FUCK IT THEN),
OK I WAS WRONG AGAIN.

STAY CLOSE
IDK WHAT THEY KNOW
I ASSUME THAT IT ALL DEPENDS ON WHERE THEY WANT TO GO
I CAME HERE LOOKING FOR REVENGE ON ALL THE THINGS THAT THEY STOLE
I'M AFRAID TO FALL AGAIN AND PARTING WITH MY SOUL

STAY CLOSE
STAY CLOSE
STAY CLOSE!

deep october

bupu_san