the art of arranging flowers ^_^

https://soundcloud.com/scrufff https://soundcloud.com/mental https://soundcloud.com/reefuh

yay

scruff + mental + reef - ikebana 🌺(sai)

@1spoder
prod roku
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/spoder/bruise

lyrics -
open up the fuckin door hun
is this everything you wanted?
tell me did you really wanna
tell me did you really wanna
pop another bottle up
tell me is it lust is it really love
pop another bottle up
is it really lust is it really love
can you see what I see
through your stupid lies
it gets harder to breathe
every time

walk it down
throw it up love
love to be the one that you want
I keep falling down, keep falling out
did everything you told me to
talk every way you want me to
fuck it up
it's a dud
I don't love you
I tried it, no use
stuck in silence I bruise (I feel overwhelmed)
stuck in silence I bruise (I tried)
stuck in silence I bruise

are you amused?
go tie up that noose (it's all my fault)
acting like you nuanced and shit
alright love then burn off that bridge
tell me love how I'm supposed to live
kick yo feet up
wanna be us
she want more not enough
is it all you dream of
all you need love
fall in now I'm stuck
will you pull through?
I don't like you no more

can you see what I see
through your stupid lies
it gets harder to breathe
every time

walk it down
throw it up love
love to be the one that you want
I keep falling down, keep falling out
did everything you told me to
talk every way you want me to
fuck it up
it's a dud
I don't love you
I tried it, no use
stuck in silence I bruise (I feel overwhelmed)
stuck in silence I bruise (I tried)
stuck in silence I bruise

spoder - bruise

big help from @scrufff on this one, go show love to his art!

i love you thank you.


When it was cold outside 
The one thing that I told her
You better love me like 
You don’t know when its over
And you better hold me tight
Its the last time I come over
And you better treat me like 
Its the first time you don’t know
He told her it would be the same 
He told her
he told her
I try to stop you from the pain girl
Im not anybody to trust
You cant be one of my mistakes
My fault girl 
Im not aanybody to call
Im just not that person you saw
And you don’t think im working at all
You don’t think im working at all
You dont think im working
Did we fall in love the same way
Im just flipping through the script.
Like wheres the main page 
And you cant look me in the face without the language
Its like you want it brought up every conversation
Im so deflated 
Wanted better but you couldn’t say it
Im so
Frustrated
Wanna look at you and say I made it 
Im so 
So jaded 
Took a second I had to explain it
Im so 
Berated 
Youre the reason that im up the latest
He told her it would be the same 
He told her
I tried to stop you from the pain girl
Im not anybody to trust
I told her it would be the same
My fault
You cant be one of my mistakes
I knew you wouldn’t feel the same


https://open.spotify.com/album/3ihoHB6qFPgqGT0HDH3Sp6?si=I7MA8ZEXRSi8nhuhn4Jb7w

cold (prod. cmb)

three words w riensu prod sai (wip)

all songs written, mixed, mastered, & performed by me
produced by micheal harrison
additional production by me, nerc

There's no need to cry
There's no need to worry
I'm right here my love
Tell me you can hear me
When I call your name out
There's something that fears me

There's something that fears you
What are you afraid of?
So what if I get near you?
So what if I know your in and outs?
So what if I know you deep down?
So what if I know your true self?      
Bae I'm never here to hurt you

My pretty girl

I wrote your name on the paper until I fell asleep
I pray to god that you're healing and find some inner peace
I tried to end it couldn't tell you what's got into me
Reach both my hands out and saw something that I'd never seen
We were so damn young
So damn young
So damn-
And it's not your fault
It's not your fault

My pretty girl
You’re such an angel my love
I miss you I miss you so so damn much
I miss you oh I-

my pretty girl

all songs written, mixed, mastered, & performed by me
produced by plantcham

Had the world in the palm of my hands
Oh pretty girl, why'd you do me like that?
The teller asked me if I've died yet
Told him give me couple minutes let me digest
Do you feel the high yet?
I like bleeding cause I don't think bout the time spent

Tell me, do you feel the high yet?
I like bleeding cause I don't think bout the time spent
I was clean for like a month but guess I digress
Tell me baby, do you feel the high yet?
Don't let go
I just need to get my mind right
Do as I'm told
I'll stay clear, outta your sight

Don't hurt me
I'm sorry
I hate my body
Do you smile at the thought of me?
Severed nerves and my bones grown weak

Oh 
Oh 
Have you thought about me lately?
Oh 
Oh 
Tell me, have I gone crazy?

Had the world in the palm of my hands
Oh pretty girl, why'd you do me like that?
The teller asked me if I've died yet
Tap her shoulder ask her do you feel the high yet

do you feel the high yet?

all songs written, mixed, mastered, & performed by me
produced by plantcham

They tell me that I’m dumb
Shit, I agree with them
Yea, I was out tryna find solace
Picked up the j and couldn’t put it down
Couldn’t tell you who I am now
Left home to make my dad proud but I done lost my whole mind wow
I still, I still love you dearly
I don’t, I don’t want no one near me
And don’t dare offer me a cig yea that shit fucking disgusting

I’ll be gone
So so damn far
I was wrong
To lend you my heart
Are you better than?
You are heaven sent
5150
Now I’m hell bent
And I did it once
I’ll do it again
Get me out the city
Need a soul cleanse

Told the teller I’ve been so exhausted
He laughed and told me “go and shut your noggin”
I give more than I take like way too often
I built and lay down in my own coffin
Miss the days where I would watch the train go by
Don’t care if it’s fake, want to be yours tonight
Tell me what you want or where your heart resides
Tell me what you-
Tell me what it feels like
Tell me what it-

We’re young baby have pride in it
Spent the last five months thinking I’d die before I turn nineteen baby
Turn around, put your fists up
Wish I didn’t fucking miss ya
Turn around, put your fists up
I’ll be there cause I need ya
Tell another lie
Maybe in another life
Don’t think twice
I’ll show you I’m able this time

Told the teller I’ve been so exhausted
He laughed and told me “go and shut your noggin”
I give more than I take like way too often
I built and lay down in my own coffin
Miss the days where I would watch the train go by
Don’t care if it’s fake, want to be yours tonight
Tell me what you want or where your heart resides
Tell me what you-
Tell me what it feels like
Tell me what it-

5150

all songs written, mixed, mastered, & performed by me
produced by neverforever
additional production by me

They say, “give it time”
Suppose it’s only right
I wore a smile until the days had turn to night
I watched my knees give out as soon as I saw the text
I laid my conscience down to rest
I watched my options fade to grey
Till there was nothing left
I don’t wanna feel this way
I don’t wanna deal with it no more
The things I love about you
Are things I wish I could change

Are things I wish I could change
Are things I wish I could change
Wish I could change
You tore a hole in my brain
Pick up a piece of my remains
And leave the rest up to fate (are things I wish I could change)
Cause babe I feel like a slave
And I can’t deal with the pain
Don’t tell me it was all in vein
Oh these are things I wish I could change

change

had to start this year off with something different than usual, im hoping to drop every month :] i love you thank you for pressing play

crazy

acrobat.wav

i love you

lyrics 

The way my heart beats when I'm thinking of you
I'm kinda lovesick, my fever's out of control
From a distance, could pick you out of the view
Don't say nothing, let's sit in silence a few
I feel you hands tighten around me
I let it happen, I'm surrounded
Intoxicated by you, I'm drunk off just a taste
Oh, I fade into you, I feel your influence (Ooh)

Something, something
Is in the air, I'm choking up, oh
In my lungs, lungs
My chest tightens, is it love, oh?
One look at you, I'm choking up
Need oxygen, give me some air, I think I'm running out

Babe, babe, babe
How was the evening?
Was it a date, date, date?
Intentions clearing
Oh, fuck, I made her pay
My pockets were empty
And you stayed after to say
I like you, boy, fly out to me (Oh, god)
We looked for loose change to buy just one little pack
Don't let the love fade, guess fighting's just part of that
And life's what we make, so let's be stupid in fact
Let's drink the day away, I wanna love you like that

Something, something
Is in the air, I'm choking up, oh
In my lungs, lungs
My chest tightens, is it love, oh?
One look at you, I'm choking up
Need oxygen, give me some air, I think I'm running out

I need some oxygen
I'm in the stratosphere, a long way down (Oh)
I picked out your face out of the crowd
If love is in the air, need oxygen, oh-oh-oh

Oh, oh-oh
I'm getting high off of you (Oh)
One cigarette shared with two
Getting high off of fumes, oh
Baby, it is too quick to call you that?
Okay, you made me call you by name, was it that bad?
Oh, lately you're in my head, have I gone mad?
Lay awake for hours on end, insomniac

Something, something
Is in the air, I'm choking up, oh
In my lungs, lungs
My chest tightens, is it love, oh?
One look at you, I'm choking up
Need oxygen, give me some air, I think I'm running out

I need some oxygen
I'm in the stratosphere, a long way down (Oh)
I picked out your face out of the crowd
If love is in the air, need oxygen, oh-oh-oh

If love is in the air, need oxygen

shoutout sonny