This was my first time producing a beat for myself, it’s not the best and it nothing crazy but I still enjoy how it came out!!
Enjoy!

Purgatory

produced by branwen

co-written by jerbearbruh

say goodbye

prod by stezzyxl
enjoy

lyrics:

my stomach keeps on turning 
i cannot stop this burning
sensation in my body
its concerning, it’s concerning 
the rain just keeps on pouring
and thunder keeps on roaring
it getting cold this is my final warning
final warning

what else u want from me?
oh god just tell me please
i keep on wondering
why
why
why
why
this always happens to me
my heart is falling asleep
i never get closure i need so just tell me
why 
why
i don’t want nothing to do with you
gather my berrings and my loose screws 
i want a life for me that i can choose 
i don’t want nothing to do with you
gather my berrings and my loose screws 
i want a life for me that i can choose 

loosing my mind in the dead of the night
wishing ur face would get out of my sight
can’t even cry, so i put up a fight
broken again, but i say im alright 
run from the truth just to sit in the lie
couldn’t face facts so i let myself hide
played all the games and i still don’t know why
chasing a ghost that won’t hear my cries
love was a cage and i wanted to fly
clipped my own wings just to stay in ur life
gave u my soul and u left it to die
said that u cared while u twisted the knife
stuck in the dark with no tears to cry
light dosent shine where there’s no will to try 
it getting cold this is my final warning
final warning

what else u want from me?
oh god just tell me please
i keep on wondering
why
why
why
why
this always happens to me
my heart is falling asleep
i never get closure i need so just tell me
why 
why
i don’t want nothing to do with you
gather my berrings and my loose screws 
i want a life for me that i can choose 
i don’t want nothing to do with you
gather my berrings and my loose screws 
i want a life for me that i can choose

prod by stezzyxl
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lyrics:

i met a girl i loved
and everything was fun
i felt the stars align 
our nights were so alive
a rose from you can rot
but love from you can not
our souls are intertwined
this love is hard to find

i can’t loose you
and you can’t loose me
our life’s are so free 
when things are meant to be
who would’ve knew
i fallen for you
i guess i agree
there’s is room for three

when you start
to look at me with those eyes
our worlds start to collide
the night dosent end tonight
only when you decide

she makes some music too
she sings while i produce
hvci, we’re a tiny little crew
she bends and ties her shoes
while we listen to her tunes
i mix and i master from our tiny little room

i never felt this way before
before
i can’t feel anyone unless it’s 
her

bring me peace
and love for me
i counted the days that i was alone
but now im free
with something meant for me
i had so much hatred inside of me

she took it out
she took it out
the hatred inside
she brought it out 
she brought it out
the love inside
and you can see
and you can see
the new look in my eye
and now i say
and now i say
i’m really fine :)

i’m a new person 
i’m a new guy
and you don’t have to mention
all of the sleepless nights
i’m a new person 
im a new guy

bring me peace
and love for me
i counted the days that i was alone
but now im free
with something meant for me
i had so much hatred inside of me

you and me

lyrics:
do you know how much i love you
i was down bad still put nothing else above you
i told you all my secrets know it cut through
told you all my moves even shit i could run through

i was in the dirt
picked me out the mud, its like no matter how it hurt
you was by side before i ended in a hearse
swear that you a angel cause you finally lift the curse

i was trippin just to live, you seen the hunger in my soul
you aint even need no diamonds just to say you played your role
loyal to the grave, swear that bond dont ever fold
now its foreign whips and flights, you the only one i hold

you was there when i had nothing
now we counting up in silence
had to hustle through the pain
but you the reason i aint wildin

gave my heart when it was broke
you aint flinch you just stood beside it
want to keep you to myself
but i swear my heart cannot hide it

gave my trust, you never folded, swear you never once denied it
i was lost, you showed the way, like heaven came and just provided
all the pain that we been through, swear we never got divided
you the one i prayed for, i swear this feeling been invited

how much

calm luh 2023 open thingy prod @xxkingad

quiet down
smoking on this loud
i can't hear a sound
she like what u doin now
let's get outta town
bby i need u now

oj
mix w/ moscato
straight from the bottle
cell buzzin hits for a follow
so many ppl ion even know steady hitting up my phone 
imma get 2 it tomorrow
why is it tomorrow
blue and red when i want like tecca
heads up, i already kill w/ no effort 
yes sir
girly give me top, no header
letter/let her
louis, gucci, prada, fendi
baby ill get u a bentley
split up a check like my family
rest of u niggas too friendly
AD turn me up
if i pop a p3rky 30 ts good enough

if i pop a perc30 ts good enough
wait 1sec right there i’ll take my dose rn and double up
im throwin’ up
it don’t matter how im moving’
what i’m doin’
you’d still shoot me down 
even on the ground, ik you’d still be shootin’
ur stoppin me
i’m not sure what’s wrong with me
im not who im meant to be
and that fucks with me mentally
heavily
sippin moscato, shizu he poured it out str8 from the bottle
i walk outside and get top from a model
i don’t feel shit cuz i’m numb and im hollow
numb and im hollow

i said by the way
u too fine to be sippin on some chardonnet
how about u come slide my way for cabernet
you know im geeked up when you wear that lingerie
i got time today
and i know you got time to waste
i said u too fine to touch
im giving you this trust
i can give but it aint much

muted w/ residential. & epitomeoffailure (adturnup)

F4CEIT

lyrics ⬇️


figurative language



im lonely as often as you’re in my head
thoughts been depleting my every last breath
and i know
last year was cold 
reminds of every time i never told you so

said that i couldnt love you like the other ones in my past
you also told me if you dropped me you would never want me back
did that for a month
now its been minute
used me as crutch
til you left cuz you were livid

cut ties with ur enemies cuz ur trippin i could not
then ill be with my homies til im dead and ima rot
maybe everything you said to me was way wrose than you thought 
way too heavy like an anvil please oh lord just wish me gone

wish me gone
ima leave the same second you push me off
you made dive me off that cliff and i hit the bottom i hit the rocks

wheres the applause
 i thought you wanted me out of the universe up me in the stars
somehow it always feel dark
wish i could tell you that i could restart
but i can’t 
every night you talk to me i feel like you want me to feel like i’m an ant
step over me like the part in the pavement 
i feel like you want me rant


i ran out on everything you tried to fix cuz i couldnt pick up ur hand
watch me go down the list as everything i want just wont go to plan
i roll in the rubble and sticks i know that they can’t understand 
if you gave me one more wish then i would wish that i was them

i cant play pretend
cant go through all this again i know ill get revenge
eventually ill explain to everyone what i did
what i did

you scraped away that memory on skin with 
broken glad
tempted to exempt myself from everything i had

dont remind me of that addiction 
everytime i was there in an instant

now atleast where im at im reminded I exist 
sorry that its killing me i wish that we could live

pushing me and honestly i hate when you persist
but i been here ever forever so i cant even resist
i wish that every night you went out when u been drinking outta line wit all ur friends

switch up the top i don’t wanna slip
im off the bottle i wish i had bliss
i was out fully far in the abyss
if we departed id turn to a man and realize that everything you did was

switch the topic (everest)

(prod. mackk)
mix, master, lyrics by me
(lyrics)
and i know where we're going
yet feeling so lost
until i open my eyes

and so i'll open my eyes
sat on the road all alone
but i would never go back to what i had in the past
cause now im mourning so bad
i only self sabotage
its only killing me further
and pulling me down

and its just pulling me down
and howd this word go around
when you were last in my head
for how im feeling so dead
i been going through songs
like no one else would have known
and now im hoping theres something
that you had to give me

and so id open my eyes
knowing that we wouldnt last
and how i feel here so down
when u were here in the past
i been looking for something to get me through this
but all the pills and the liquor would never have fixed

and you had opened my eyes
you had to show me the worse
you think im doing the best
i think ill be in a hearse
before the year here would end
guess im now out of luck
what was the luck
as i was doomed in this world

and so i'll open my eyes
sat on the road all alone
but i would never go back to what i had in the past
cause now im mourning so bad
i only self sabotage
its only killing me further
and pulling me down

Open My Eyes

Mixed by﹒⪩⪨﹒ stezzyxl﹒⪩⪨﹒
Produced by stezzyxl :333

lyrics:
i met a boy i loved
and everything lit up
i felt the stars align
our nights were so alive
a rose from you could fade
but love from you remains
our souls are intertwined
this kind of loves hard to find

i cant lose you
and you cant lose me
our lives feel so free
when things are meant to be
who would have known
id fall for you
now i can see
theres only room for three

when you start
to look at me with those eyes
our worlds begin to collide
the night wont end tonight
only if you decide

you make your music too
i stay and listen while you do
you laugh in our tiny little room
i try to mix and i master just to feel close to you

i never felt this way before
before
i cant feel anyone unless its you

i met a boy i loved

🦋
(MisFiiT)

coldheart i got that 
big sauce i got that 
trapped in my mind sometimes and it’s so ass
i don’t really socialize
not that kinda butterfly
drip drip drip i cry when the mood ain’t right

i been bumpin all my homies in my earbuds 
you got no buzz
ima songaholic this shit like drugs
percocet molly 
i ain’t runnin i been walkin 
try to shoot i didn’t cock it
i can’t keep my cool im on a rampage 

keep my cool impossible
self improve improbable 
i’m so stagnant 
i can’t ever take flight 
i been bunkered in my room 
till it’s noon and the suns out
girly hit my phone 
she my sadness culprit

music keeps me whole in this dark place 
keep it to myself i ain’t fuckin with the rat race 
suicidal thoughts i am always tryna erase
sleepin in my bed tryna dream more like escape 

ion got a warm heart that shit like a cold one
i been working myself sick like a cold or sum 
feel like icarus my life right now is tough 
thought after thought this shit is way too much 

overbearing i been fighting like a dark soul tryna parry it never works 
i’m speechless at your words but they don’t hurt
i just wanna fly fly fly away like a butterfly maybe like a bird too 

i been blue like a smurf 
so i write another verse
purge out insecurities till im out of words 
this shit is like a diary 
the good and bad sides of me 
my best talent probably 

(wraith)

Baby you’re a butterfly
Darling I’m a moth to the flame
Think I’m sick in the brain
From the med’s that I’ve taken
Losing my sleep
No dreams, getting made here
Night’s get long
All alone, it’s not safe here


Baby I’m already dead to me
For so long, I’ve been trying these melodies
I flop fast, too bad for publicity

And instantly
It fills my head and
I can’t even trust me
My own fucking words seem
Like they never happen

Maybe I’ll be dead next
Maybe I’ll get better
I don’t even know yet
Baby please don’t bother
I won’t mend

(IcarusLurks)

Look at the time I know it’s not changin
Look at my mind I know it’s been racin
I’m burnt out yeah I feel it in my lungs when the light goes down
It’s like I’m losing sight when I look back now
Think I’m falling down 
I watch the wings burn I ain’t coming around and I know 
this fall is gon hurt
I’ve been getting closer and closer to earth

So Fuck it reset 
I done changed to many times to know me best
Still know myself better then most before the regress 
So don’t tell me what you think I fucking need next
I don’t really need much I just wanna regret 
All the fucking time spent tryin fix shit that’s already been offset 
Its all burnt down
I watch the city burn while I fall back down
I wonder what’s mine now
It’s all burnt down

butterfly w/ wraith & IcarusLurks (Slayerr x Triazo)

22 | vox / songwriter & engineer 
i make what i want my music isnt for everyone
@rod / @web fan account

email - m@scars.online

say goodbye

marsmal

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