"tommorrow I'll turn back to ice."🤯🔫

"I think your fires making the ice starting to melt"🫩

Made it to this point last year 
Ruminating what I did to deserve this 
Crossed arms in the blacked out cashmere 
Like this treatment has a purpose 
It’s cold in my chest another rest won’t make it better 
I used to think it had a reason 
It’s rough out west I’ll tough it out like the weather 
We used to always give it meaning 

Take take take from me what you want 
Take take take from me what you need 
And you get it you get it all 
Yeah ascend the filler might 
Dosing again no wonder why 
Going for days alone you might chase it down 
We get it we get it don’t mind 

And these days your heart reflects all the weather
Cause it gets colder in December
And last week when you left thought I’ll get better
But now I wake up with no purpose 
And you’re so damn broken 
Can’t fix your heart it’s frozen 
And I don’t wanna spend another night alone 
You’re all I know

Take take take from me what you want 
Take take take from me what you need 
And you get it you get it all 
Yeah ascend the filler might 
Dosing again no wonder why 
Going for days alone you might chase it down 
We get it we get it don’t mind

you get it all ft. cutdeep (king theta)

lyrics ⬇️

hear me out gimme two more days and ill be clean
double down 2 more days and if not then ill leave
trouble house, i feel like the destroyer of peace
a couple hours then ill be right where i wanna be
a lower power always tellin me that i should give up
but i dont wanna quit it cuz it was just a hiccup
i never wanna miss it i never wanna mess up
i know it could get better but i do not wanna fix it

and im sorry that i really took the long way home last night
roll the window down and feel the breeze

and im sorry that i smoked another bowl last time
cuz i felt like i couldn’t really breathe

somethin in my head
it make me believe 
they just want me dead
get it out my head

hear me out i dont wanna live this life now
turning down opportunities to hide out
ive been missing all these things while i lay down
and im wishin i could change but its harder than it sounds
and il truthfully that id be better off without the drugs
what they do to me oh i cannot explain it to my bruzz
it made me beautifully ruin all my things and all my stuff
and what im contemplating i dont even know if i can budge
find a cemetery lay my stupid corpse into the mud
like in February when i got tricked into someones love
i cant understand, we were sharing everything 
and now your other man makes you look like youre a freak
i might have a disease
might be OCD 
i roll my other sleeve up cuz it dont look right to me
and then my heart skips a beat
i cant feel like im free
lately everything surrounding me looks like it just bleeds

hear me out gimme two more days and ill be clean
double down 2 more days and if not then ill leave
trouble house, i feel like the destroyer of peace
a couple hours then ill be right where i wanna be
a lower power always tellin me that i should give up
but i dont wanna quit it cuz it was just a hiccup
i never wanna miss it i never wanna mess up
i know it could get better but i do not wanna fix it

hear me out (yunnygoldz)

lyrics //

didnt bother writing
i swore its all behind me
i saw it all play out
i saw the silver lining

guess we both figured out 
the reason weve been hiding
sick of all the run around
im sick of how you want him

you can try, break it off 
turn around take the fall
it was just the two of us
left the town where we grew up

holding onto grudges
im holding on nothing but
use me as a substance
pump me right into ur blood

(pump me right into your blood
im my mamas only son 
im my mamas only son)


i can be the one you want
i cant heal a broken heart
found me in a local bar’s street
find it funny when they run
find a feeling in a cup
fighting ppl that i love

my fist been clinched, i dnd my phone
miss the kid i was but now hes grown
if your the queen
then id be at ur throne
a peasant in the midst of common folk

you can try, break it off
turn around take a fall
it was just the two of us, 
left the town where we grew up
holding on to grudges, i’m holding on to nothing but
use me as a substance
pump me right into your blood

substance [neverforever]

do you know how long its supposed to snow for
i cant see anything more than twenty feet in front of me
and if we die in this snow storm
well i dont want to think about it
put your hand on my heart feel my heart beat
i dont know if its still there can you check for me
but i know who you are and youre lovely
i know who you are and youre lovely
ive been lost here for a long time
and the sun here doesnt come up after night
was a painful process when my heart turned into bronzite
and i feel it everyday but i wish that i didnt

go to sleep now she said
itll all be over in the morning
dont fear for the road ahead
for every hero has his journey

but im notahero and i just cant stand for this
im on the battle ground
metal gauntlets on my wrist
i pray before the battle
know im taking fathers from their kids
they bring the archers out
as arrows shower down
my dying thought is of you
i think ill die on this hill
with several arrows in my back
and a big bastard sword covered in blood
what the fuck
im sworn through chivalry but ill die not enough
i feel these trees spread their roots through my guts
i feel my heart turn back on by your love
i dig my sword inside the ground and stand back up
guess she wont have it any other way
so ill live to fight another day

a hero's journey (p. ryan kelly)

single 2

[clip from A Whisker Away]

lyrics

girl won't u wait on me
before I fade
I saw the stars so I reached out
flash gave me light, I must leave now
so I gotta make a decision about this 

I felt the leaves they were crumbling on me 
u touch my skin so softly
u were always the one to desert me 
no I cant say it's not deserving 

sometimes I couldn't tell
which way is which
my heart, does that not ring a bell?

u touched a part of me 
that I will never leave
and it will never leave me 
I carved it in stone years ago

just let me set the scene
nothing here is make believe
nothing here is - 
please don't use my words against me 
or we will spend years alone

we could spend years alone
and my heart was recently sown
so do u want my words against me?
'coz ur really the only one that knows

it's never really one that grows
u just grow apart
and that's just the start
there's always the stars

carved in stone (tiedforsilver)

mixed and mastered by me
beats made by:
acey
ryan kelly

lyrics

if i ask you for another just say no
ill forgive you in the morning
i dont wanna embarrass myself like i did last year on my birthday
its hard finding friends now that im old
everybodys at their real jobs
while im having trouble falling asleep if i dont have anything in my system
and i love you
so much that i hate everything else
and i know ill feel better tomorrow but thats like a million years from now

you said its all about perspective
well im trying to stand at the angle that you want me
wash dirty laundry with your makeup on it
and youre so sensitive so ill try to say it in a way where youll still love me
baby watch me while i attempt to make a love song for you
i got a second pair of headphones so that you can listen to
but you fall asleep on your phone and i end up trashing the whole thing
and im so focused on myself
today lets do what you want to do
ill face everything ive felt
if it means that i could feel you

hope i drink enough tonight that im excited about tomorrow
i drove home less sober than i shouldve been
in hopes that you would follow
i think of everything in life
and why its still so hard to fit in
if we dont have to much time why does it move so fast when im blinking

you said its all about perspective
well im trying to stand at the angle that you want me
wash dirty laundry with your makeup on it
and youre so sensitive so ill try to say it in a way where youll still love me
baby watch me while i attempt to make a love song for you
i got a second pair of headphones so that you can listen to
but you fall asleep on your phone and i end up trashing the whole thing
and im so focused on myself
today lets do what you want to do
ill face everything ive felt
if it means that i could feel you

estate sale (p. acey)

mixed and mastered by me
beats made by:
acey
ryan kelly

lyrics

i could fuck up our whole entire night
and tomorrow ill turn back to ice
just hope by then that youre doing fine
and my visions back from blurry
but theres nothing else to do alone in jersey

wait i cant do this all by myself
in pain i think to much damage was dealt
but i think your fire's making the ice start to melt
and i think your head on top my chest is good for my health
and i think that once i save a life ill love myself
pay no attention to the drugs inside my shelf
im preoccupied with the drugs inside myself
im googling interactions fucking with my health

its all a little late
and im not sure how much time has passed
im sorry to cancel our dinner date
but girl this high's been kicking my ass
trees shaking
and i cant find my car keys
and i dont even want to go outside to smoke this cigarette
and i kiss your chest
with smoky breath
and i dont have much left
but ill give you my eyes
maybe then youll see what i see
and i would die
for somebody to be able to help me

wait i cant do this all by myself
in pain i think to much damage was dealt
but i think your fire's making the ice start to melt
and i think your head on top my chest is good for my health
and i think that once i save a life ill love myself
pay no attention to the drugs inside my shelf
im preoccupied with the drugs inside myself
im googling interactions fucking with my health

alone in jersey (p. ryan kelly)

Under The Veil (Wisssery)

mixed and mastered by me
beats made by:
acey
ryan kelly

lyrics
"whered you go?"
well i dont want to alarm you
but ive been feeling awful baby
and i know the things i said were painful words to you
i just been feeling awful
i think youre all that i have left
i been working so i can give so much to you
now i dont sound so terrible
but i make myself sound better than i really am
its human nature baby girl who are we
were not different from the people living over seas
i dont know you and you dont know me
i cant really sing did you know that
i just fuck up over and over
till eventually i sound like someone youd wanna listen to
i really hope you like it
youre a fighter jet baby im the pilot
youre a treasure chest baby im a pirate
i spent years here now all my armors rusted
i got this fucking devil on my shoulder telling me to trust him
and you cant relate
open my heart baby tell me to stay
crease in my shoes lines in my face
tell me ill be fine baby lie to my face
swear this shit been eating me up i got a lot on my plate
but i wont be leaving anytime soon i got a lot more to say

once shining armor (p. acey)

prod Michael Harrison :)

i promise, i had on the tip of my tongue
these things never really work, thats just my luck
why are all my friendships just falling apart 
cant ignore i know the reason, its just not what i want

im so frustrated 
lost all my patience 
we dont talk alot im sorry 
know that i dont say this enough
just know ur in my thoughts
promise to keep in touch
maybe i
maybe i think too much

in touch

4 songs about my highschool life all self prod <3

junior year

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