I miss my beautiful babies 🤍🪽🫶🏻

locked in

produced by heylog

lyrics:
still oblivious to what u like
took my head cut away for life
hoping you'll see, maybe notice the time
ur wasting, face it, i wanna make u mine
still oblivious to what u like
took my head cut away for life
hoping you'll see, maybe notice the time
ur wasting, face it, i wanna make u mine

fiending for love, don't know if i'll get it
my heart is growing numb, i can never feel it
and if u are the one, doubt i would know it
cause i'm too dumb to know what ur feelin
REMEMBER WHEN YOU SAID YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE ME
WERE YOU JUST SAYING THAT CAUSE I TOOK IT HONESTLY
NO POINT IN FEELING BAD I'M JUST HAPPY YOU COULD SEE
HOW HARD I'M BOUTTA CRASH AND YOU SAY YOU'RE HERE FOR ME

still healing to be whole
don't know what's inside
guess i could explore
the sun sets west as i pedal on my bike
the rain falls best in a vertical line
still fallin inna hole
let's see what i find
cus i need somethin more
the sun sets west if the horizons behind
the rain falls best in a vertical line

fiending for love
don't know if i'll get
my heart is growing numb
i can never feel it
n if you are the one
doubt i would know it
cause i'm too dumb
to know what ur feelin
remember when u said u would like to see me
were u just saying that cause i took it honestly
no point in feeling bad im just happy u could see
how hard i'm boutta crash

THE THUNDER IS APPROACHING FROM MY HOME TO YOU
CAUSE EVERYTIME I DROVE BACK THE SKY WAS NEVER BLUE
AND THAT HAD TO MEAN SOMETHING BABE
CAUSE IT HAPPENED EVERYTIME I LEFT YOUR PLACE
NOW EVERYTIME IT RAINS I ALWAYS THINK OF YOU
CAUSE WE COULD BE KISSING, DANCING UNDER THE MOON
NOW I WONDER IF YOU THINK THE SAME THINGS
I DOUBT IT, PROBABLY JUST ME
SO KILL ME NOW CAUSE I KNOW I'M LOSING YOU
IT'S SO HARD TO BREATH IF WE'LL NEVER UNDO
I STILL LOVE YOU WITH EVERYTHING
IT'S BEEN A WHILE LAYING EYES ON YOUR FACE
I'M WRITING THESE SONGS N BABY THEY'RE ALL FOR YOU
HOPING THAT YOU SEE AND COME IN TO PURSUE
SO BABY TELL ME WE'RE OK
IS THIS LIFE? CAUSE I'M HOPING IT'S A PHASE

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oblivious

produced by xona 

@heylog

-lyrics-
I wanna run but I can’t deny
feelin dread to our trust and I cry
and I would get everything for you
she loves him but I’m just that fool
I wanted us back, you didn’t want that
I’m pleading with this pain I held
and now I fall back
all on my prozac’s
and I just hope that I get your help

and now I’m washed up all alone
the little essence that you left long ago
the flowers wilt down to my floor
push me down like I’m nothing more

and I don’t wish the best for you
you wanted healing but I was see through
you wanted blood, now you got it on view
many voices telling me on what I knew
there’s reflections that portray all of us 
you’re sick of me and the things that I love 
I won’t forget what it meant for us
these 6 letters that stuck like a drug

stab me again i won't feel a thing
hold me down this some sentencing
taking my bliss, more apologies
i don't like this, just don't talk to me
wasting away i'm never calling you back
i'm stuck with memories i won't forget
with all this weight i carry on my back
you did this to me and i will never forgive

you
oh
i hate 
you
with
every little gut in my body

WALKING UP TO HEAVEN I CANNOT BELIEVE I'M HERE
BUT WHY AM I STILL RUNNING FROM THIS NEVER ENDING FEAR
I'M SHIFTING THROUGH LANES WHILE UR STILL STUCK IN 2ND GEAR
SURPRISING EVERYONE LIKE 2 HEADLIGHTS ON A DEER
WASTING AWAY I'M NEVER CALLING YOU BACK
I'M STUCK WITH MEMORIES I WON'T FORGET
(forget)
WITH ALL THIS WEIGHT I CARRY ON MY BACK 
YOU DID THIS TO ME AND I HATE YOU FOR THAT

you
oh
i hate you
with
every little gut in my body

i wont forget

i won't forget w/ heylog

prod kimj
https://www.instagram.com/2hollis
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Always questioned it, always questioned it
I always questioned it, I always questioned it
I always questioned it, questioned it

Racks on the doorway, she keep trying to escape from me
Put a pass on your old ways, You’ll make a mistake some day I promise
I put a scar on the bad past, scar on my right eye, put me in the sky man
Switchin’ up the climate, sit in ancient silence, can’t resort to violence
And when I cry, a thousand tears, and when I lie, a thousand years
And when I say goodbye it’s our last one (and when I say goodbye it’s our last one)

I always questioned, always, uhhhh
I always questioned it, I always questioned it, yeahhh

i always questioned it

produced by xona, ruevi, & oc

big thank you to all individuals who helped make this song possible <3

@ruevi @prod-oc
@heylog
@hiraethsry
@sleepywater
@sinxi
@caspywaspy
@vilsynth
@valerii
@deadfishh

the lyrics were over 4000 characters and that's the limit for soundcloud ♥

-lyrics-
https://genius.com/Xona-avoid-ii-lyrics

xona

avoid II w/ ruevi, heylog, hiraeth, sleepwater, sinxi, casperrr, vil, valerii & deadfish

produced by heylog

lyrics:
her eyes frown upon me looking at the mess
marks are on my shoulder blade and right below my neck
oh she can't stand the look i give her back
please don't be afraid
it was just a little scratch

it was just a little scratch..

u make me nervous
sending chills from head to toe
i could feel ur fingertips 
dig into my bones
i'm not scared at all
you can have me by my throat
her iris weakens thee
the brown just got a hold of me

a hold of me..

you look cold so i'll keep u warm
keep u warm
walking through the snow and i see ur door
see ur door
u look so pretty waiting there for me
there for me
sparks are round ur eyes when u stare at me
stare at me

stare at me
stare at me..

iris

produced by xona

@heylog

-lyrics-
deep within my own skin
i stay low until my breath
runs out and i hold my neck
cause deep down i need to rest
the only thing i need is you
a little late, i ain’t got to lose
anything to get us through
but I’ll stay like back then too

well, it’s awful to think
you’re on my mind and can’t let it deplete
sit in my room then write the lyrics to sing
but I’m discarding this energy to bring back the old me
its a tragic that i let it go
i couldn’t tell if you need me close 
well it’s too late for that now
so i can’t keep you around 
don’t need to make another sound

baby i know you love it when you see me overthink
got me pushing buttons tryna get this thing to play
never thought a girl would challenge me to use my brain
think outside the box using my logic against her game

i know you love it when you see me overthink
baby please
tell me what it means
these other guys try to steal you from me
they're enemies
break em to their knees
cut the rope
let the river flow
one at a time
kill em, let em know
baby go
get inside the boat
it's business for me to kill all them very slow

hazel

hazel w/ heylog

produced by xona
piano by oc

cover by xona and heylog

@heylog
@sleepywater
@prod-oc

-lyrics-
yeah
want me back, want me back?
yeah, yeah

want me ‘back’ back?
i think you got wrong man
yeah
you need a 'hand’ hand?
i threw myself into the past
for you
so what you on with me?
we ain’t close so you can’t bother me
7k to reach so I don’t care if you needed me

~

i just wanted to say
that i hope you're doing okay
her skin is why i'm alive
i hope to feel it someday
getting on top of me
and giving the look, i see
her soul makes me resume life
and build up my legacy
her mind is taking a beating
so far it hasn't been easy
i could just tell from your arm
baby should i be alarmed
should i be scared when i hear about your past
i slowly wear, it's just hard to..
grasp

stop again
ill stop and glare
who am i now i don’t know him there
way i feel when im flowing w her
if i get on w u hold my hair
shut the fuck up ur someone i avoid
it wasnt worth it cos now im destroyed

want me ‘back’ back?
i think you got wrong man
yeah
you need a 'hand’ hand?
i threw myself into the past
for you
so what you on with me?
we ain’t close so you can’t bother me
7k to reach so I don’t care if you needed me

lend

lend w/ heylog & sleepwater

lina - heylog (transparent)

cover of the song "fraulein" by tyler childers
re-produced by logan

lyrics:
far across the deep blue water
lives an old germans daughter
by the banks of the old river rhine
where i loved her and left her
now i can't forget her
i miss my pretty fraulein
fraulein
fraulein look up toward the heaven
each night, as them stars start to shine
by the same stars above you
i swear that i love you
you are my pretty fraulein

when my memories wander
away over yonder
to the sweetheart that i left behind
in a moment of glory 
her faces comes before me
the face of my pretty fraulein
fraulein
fraulein look up toward the heaven
each night as the stars start to shine
by the same stars above you
i swear that i love you
you are my pretty fraulein
you are my pretty fraulein

fraulein cover (tyler childers)

cover of the song "lady may" by tyler childers
re-produced by logan

lyrics:
i'm a stones throw from the mill
and i'm a good walk to the river
when my working day is over 
we'll go swim our cares away
put your toes down in the water
and a smile across your face
and tell me that you love me
lovely lady may
now i ain't the sharpest chisel
that your hands have ever held
well darling i could love you well
til the roll is called on high
i've seen my share of trouble
and i've held my weight in shame
but i'm baptized in your name
lovely lady may

lord the wind can leave you shivering
as it waltzes o'er the leaves
it's been rushin through my timber
til your love brought on the spring
now the mountains all are blushin
and they don't know what to say
except a good long line of praises
for my lovely lady may
now i ain't toughest hickory
that your ax has ever felt
but i'm a hickory just as well
i'm a hickory all the same
i came crashin through the forest
as you cut my roots away
and i felt a good long way
for my lovely lady may

lady may cover (tyler childers)

prod by me :>

you keep lying on my name like u kno how u did
and u could try but i promise u aint gettin us back
you just lost something worth so much more
you could've had everything you stupid whore

you stabbed me it wont happen again
all these bruises and cuts i wont forget 
lonely nights i was calling your name
no one answered i was in pain

i dont want u to leave me even if i say that i do 
every single night all the things that i think about is u
i was beggin on my knees for u please do not leave my life
all my tears are hitting the floor and i only see ur eyes

u aint gettin nothin related to my love
u can keep on wishin or something, get better luck
no 1 can touch this, my grind, i swear to God its up
n when i feel sad bout u my new girl she suck me up x2

you keep lying on my name like u kno how u did
and u could try but i promise u aint gettin us back
you just lost something worth so much more
you could've had everything you stupid whore

[[resentment - adaptation]]

convert

prod by me :>

(skylin)
all the hatred that you're giving me is only poisoning
at least with my enemies i know what it is they seek
I rather judas instead of someone backstabbing me
oh you're pathetic askin me if I would forgive you

I never go out or talk to people like I know I should
it's easier not engaging and hiding inside my hood
sometimes I tend to fail myself and everyone around me
I guess it kinda scared me from socially interacting

on the darkest days I don't know who it is that I will call
but I am hoping you answer because im bout to fall
and I don't know where I am going but ik you know it all
so I am calling out to you please do not let me fall


(heylog)
catch me on the other end
what i said i really meant
what are all the thoughts your brain holds
what's inside that head
i think i finally figured you out
i think it's time to step out your life now
i don't know what i did for you to become untied to me
if you're gonna act like this then break it off entirely
and if i would've known your emotions would all start piling
then i would've kept it hush instead of you crying to me
i was there for you when no one else was
now i'm seeing the truth and exposing your bluffs
i was there for you at your lowest point
don't go and blame it on me, this wasn't my choice

[[anger - disconnect]]

traitor w/heylog

traitor w/ heylog (Now on Spotify)

hey guys hope u enjoy this new track.
shoutout to @prodjpjp for the production
& shoutout to @heylog for hopping on it 

LYRICS:
All my friends have turned to strangers
Am I really all alone?
Tell me truth and don't be jaded
Where have you been all night long?
I'm all alone
Struggling to get off my phone
Yeah, I think we did this all wrong
And I cannot get over it
I shouldn't feel this way, not at this young age

So I run, I swear
It's all I've got left in my shitty bones
And you love to leave
Whenever I need you here with me most
Is it all in my head?
All alone to the end?
I guess I'll never know
But I wish you the best
For whatever comes next
'Cause now I'm leaving home

(I'm leaving home)
Uh, so imma leave all my vices
Leave all the memories
Leave all the trauma
You was just my enemy
You're not a friend of me
I see that now it's clear as day
So, it's time to runaway

So I run, I swear
It's all I've got left in my shitty bones
And you love to leave
Whenever I need you here with me most
Is it all in my head?
All alone to the end?
I guess I’ll never know
But I wish you the best 
For whatever comes next
'Cause now I'm leaving home

What has my life become?
Can't think how I once was
All these years gone by so fast
How come I still look back?
This blonde boy I used to be
Smiled big and was happy
Now everybody's watching
I hate it to be honest
The past few years have felt this way
And oh I've had so much to say
Thinking I'll get over it
There's a lot here to digest
Another person disrespects
I'm keeping guard oh, yet again
Maybe I should unalive
Piss right off and from my life

bones w/ heylog (jpjp)

lakers (prod twovrt) (ft kart3r)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
can u keep a secret don't tell anyone
these butterflies around me resting on my thumb
i think they're a sign that i've made it from numb
dodging my own hatred but i fail to duck
we've tried but its so hard
i'm just another kid reaching for ur arms
like i said can we try again
i swear to u ill make it up
but this is probably the end

into light
hold my hand
for the fight
wars ahead
file line
hold the stance
here, the monsters like to dance
viruses vs pesticides
i'm hoping ill sleep through the night
hold my hand as we go high
do not look down just close your eyes

so if u keep this secret will u go n tell
cause if that's the case i'll keep it to myself
but u can tell me yours i wont tell anyone
this stays between us and no one else
i miss talking with our eyes it hurt like hell
so are u doing fine cause i'm wishing well
i have ur turtle neck but it lost your smell
i think of you too much ur killing my brain cells
when i was a child i had everyone
now i'm older and i don't feel like growing up
i've changed since i've hidden for a couple months
and they still been the same try it for yourself
the war is on its way, can u hear them run
they're raging but they laugh when the job is done
and the boy who's in his gut sobbing cus he lost
cus everything he did had no purpose and not even a cause

into light
hold my hand
for the fight
wars ahead
file line
hold the stance
here the monsters like to dance
viruses vs pesticides
i'm hoping ill sleep through the night
hold my hand as we go high
do not look down just close your eyes

the war
is done
set fire
to them all
silence
peaceful
finally
you've escaped
ur so lucky
you've run from me

avoid II w/ ruevi, heylog, hiraeth, sleepwater, sinxi, casperrr, vil, valerii & deadfish

xona

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