lyrics:
[verse 1]
contain your excitement 
don't fall into silence 
two hearts beat compliant 
thoughts gone into my breath
violet color of your dress 
but now that you're here
I fear I'm makin a mess 

[pre-chorus]
but I'm glad I didn't delete it 
the way I feel you better believe it 
baby right now you're the reason
I need to see this 

[chorus]
momentarily wasted 
scared by the fact that I'm facin'
everything that I've been chasin'
it's in my hands but will I waste this
take your time
it'll be just fine
if you're by my side
it's just our perfect night 

[verse 2] (Carlby)
I'm terribly jaded 
but maybe you're the one to finally change this 
heart of mine 
that's been broken down a thousand times before 
I met you, love was just a dream but now its come true (it's come true)
and I can't bare to leave but is it too soon
is it soon?
to open up to you 
to let my guard down 
to lay my cards out

perfect night (feat. Carlby) [prod. King Theta]

(verse)
ive been here before 
is this just some deja vu 
I might die on the floor surrounded by pictures of you 
I can't breathe stay with me 
don't believe underneath 
you're my thief 
stole my key
one more thing 
to make you see 

(hook)
in the middle of the night 
one more chance to make this right 
all these clues in black and white 
need some magic to excite
hard look at what's gone wrong 
one bad move and I'm on my own 
take all that's left of me
cuz I just can't do this anymore 

(verse 2)
got gas in the tank 
lets just go for a ride 
give me a minute to think 
before you cast me aside 
your words not feeling clearer (its unfamiliar)
you're such a killer 
is it all for the taking?
cuz it's you that I'm chasing 
if no one is faking 
then why is it me who's breaking

(hook)
in the middle of the night 
one more chance to make this right 
all these clues in black and white 
need some magic to excite
hard look at what's gone wrong 
one bad move and I'm on my own 
take all that's left of me
cuz I just can't do this anymore 
I got blood shot eyes 
and I'm barely living 
you build and break down my existence
it's at the point where I'm bout to give in 
just one more try cuz I'm still wishing for this 

(bridge)
fall into place, my saving grace
at the point where I'm bout to give in 
just one more try cuz I'm still wishing for this 
(fall into place, my saving grace) 

(hook)
in the middle of the night 
one more chance to make this right 
all these clues in black and white 
need some magic to excite
hard look at what's gone wrong 
one bad move and I'm on my own 
take all that's left of me
cuz I just can't do this anymore 
I got blood shot eyes 
and I'm barely living 
you build and break down my existence
it's at the point where I'm bout to give in 
just one more try cuz I'm still wishing for this 

hard look at what's gone wrong 
one bad move and I'm on my own 
take all that's left of me
cuz I just can't do this anymore

one bad move [prod. living puff]

guessing for sure [prod. IOF x imnotokay]

feel you now (acoustic)[prod. IOF]

you did this [prod. pekarot]

first single off new EP coming November 5th!
produced by living puff

lyrics:
i’ve been missing the simple moments 
far away i’m just working towards this 
it always echos in my mind 
you always echo in my mind 
easy levels and blank expressions 
familiar faces and first impressions 
always echos in my mind 
it’s hard to leave that all behind 

where does the time go 
i’m starting to slip 
only miss you when the rents low 
i’m losing my grip 
cuz it’s all downhill from here 
i think all downhill from here 


(catch my fall, catch my fall)
will you
catch my fall
i think that i’ve had enough 
all these breaks in my life 
i think it’s shakin me up
so i’m asking you is there something left 
or is all of this just a memory i can’t have 
all these stories that haven’t been written 
is it what’s to come 
or is it all just fiction 
i hear your constant echo in my mind 
if it’s really from the past then 
where does the time

downhill [prod. living puff]

single #2! new EP out November 5th!

featuring @bruiseronline

produced by @kingtheta

lyrics:
(verse 1) 
funny how they always call it a “good”bye 
when all i ever really felt was a big lie 
i’ll never play it off like this was nice try
i’m settling for nothing, lay me down on a land mine 
am i numb? 
is this anything i want? 
past the point, where i’m done
should i still be holding on?
ill say i’m disappointed 
truth is i’m just annoyed it’s 
not what i really wanted 
one more word i’m wasting my breath (fuck)

(hook)
it’s a cover up 
what i say to myself 
feelings bottled up 
i’m all alone and i’m trapped in this hell 
no signs just yet but i’m still trusting 
that you’ll be back it’s so disgusting 
are you gone or are you bluffing 
you’re in my head while i do nothing 

(verse 2 - bruiser)
you never called it out so now you're sitting by yourself
down and out, i'll play my part - did you play your cards right?
so don't get teary-eyed in my demise
is it a point to make or am I missing something?
i'll say i’m disappointed but i’m just annoyed 
it’s not what i wanted don’t waste my breath 

(bridge) 
while i do nothing, it brings you back 
try my best to just leave you in the past
are you gone yet?
are you bluffing?
in my head while i do nothing

while i do nothing (feat. bruiser) [prod. King Theta]

last single off new EP out 11/5!!

featuring the great @decksmusic

produced by @livingpuffy

lyrics:
i’m not stupid 
i can feel it setting in
i’m just paralyzed 
while i’m staring at the edge 
and on one hand i still think it might begin 
but this afterglow is still wearing thin 

and this all ain’t 
how it used to be 
and i’m wondering
what it meant to me 
take my hand and i’ll meet you at the end 
but before you go give me one more glance

(decks)
i just wanna see the end of the tunnel
life sucks when u live in a bubble
i just really gotta get it straight
pass time in a somber state
when the walls are closing in
i need to breathe before i swim
pretend that the times are good again
in the same ways
yeah, and when i finally take a stand
hope that they’ll see me as a friend
or maybe someone instead
of nothing

one more glance (feat. decks)[prod. living puff]

produced by @kingtheta and @livingpuffy

featuring the amazing @carlby

lyrics:
(verse)
well i been thinking bout the ol days 
the ones not covered in these flames 
and i’ve thinkin bout it all day
tryin not to call you again, what you might say
i’ve got a sinking feeling 
don’t like this energy 
what happened to the meaning 
are you a memory? 

(hook)
you’re living in my head 
oh can we start this again?
if i reach for the past
is there something to mend? 
im always falling off track 
you’re always part of the trend 

(carlby)
you're always part of the trend 
your songs still stuck in my head 
hate to admit it but you still know me best 
was it something i did?
was it something I said?
these days you're just out of reach
so I reach for the past
I got a sinking feeling 
we're lacking chemistry 
what happened to the meaning 
do you remember me?

(bridge/last hook)
can we start this again?
should we start this again? 
but should we start this again?

oh can we start this again.

reach for the past (feat. Carlby) [prod. living puff x king theta]

produced by @kingtheta

lyrics:
(verse 1) 
stuck in a wasteland of memories 
facing the reverie i’ve made it’s 
not where i wanna be
stuck on a momentary basis 
i’ve never been one for letting go 
but maybe i don’t have to cuz there’s nothing left to hold 
(pre-chorus)
lose the feeling 
chase the meaning 
face the fact that i’m not healing 

(hook)
i think you’re already gone 
i think you’re playing along 
i think you’re already gone 
but you keep finding a way within these songs
i tried to find a way 
to lead us back to better days 
but am i forcing you to stay
i think you’re all that i want 
i think it’s time to move on 
i think you’re already gone 

(verse 2)
speak now or forever hold your peace 
i don’t think you’re coming back to me 
you’re just what i want you’re not what i need 
so guess i’ll move on with the falling leaves 
can you blame me? when it all goes downhill
will you save me? is there enough time to
leave this all behind
no point in trying 
when i still

(bridge)
you can reach for the past 
but it’s already gone 
you’re just stuck in my head 
cuz you’re all that i want (x2)
(chorus vocals):
(reach for the past, already gone) 
save me from these days i don’t love 
maybe things will change if you come home 
but this isn’t our home

already gone [prod. King Theta]

lyrics:
give me a second 
gotta clear my head 
how quick i fail to remember all the things i said 
i thought i had it all figured out 
accept the good and clear the doubt 
but i can’t count on myself 


brace me baby 
it’s been crazy 
facing 
changing places that i’ve been 

lost 
i trace my steps but at a cost 
but i can’t get 
no i can’t get 
past the point 
where i would feel i’m where i’m supposed to be 
but am i lost?

is it too late to fix this?
a long fight with covert resistance 
won’t sit tight i’m over the distance 
cuz in the end i know what i’m missing 
toe to the line
it won’t change my mind 
with your hand in mine 
to see what i find

change me baby 
i’ve been crazy 
chasing hazy places that i’ll be

beginning of the end 
or the end of the beginning 
the place i wanna be is a place i’m always fearing 

where’d i go i need to find myself 
i’m in the dark can never ask for help 
i have these thoughts of all i things i want 
i see them now so i don’t think i’m

lost [prod. 5head x Yeezo]

reset (leave me alone)[prod. living puff]

new acoustic song !!

produced by IOF

lyrics: 

how’s this story go?
are you all alone?
talking about your dosage now 
the light from your window 
defining your skin slow 
we’re living in limbo 
can’t get past the intro 

slip away into your universe 
I can’t break it’s only getting worse 
still awake 
need my hand in yours 

just wait it out, no dead end 
another chance at heaven 
your words have got me spinnin
lets skip the line and begin
in my head I see you as scarlet
turn around and I’m really falling 
faster towards you 
I never know the truth 
I only notice you 
come here and save my youth 

what’s the problem dear?
should we disappear? 
sick of the silence in your room 
there’s only one way that you make it out now 
take my hand and we’ll find a way out of this town 
don’t worry bout a thing we’ll just figure it out
might all end up in flames or we’re takin a vow

save my youth [prod. IOF]

production by elvien

lyrics: 
stuck in cycle, i’m over this 
one month in and i’m already at my pit 
waiting for the moment you pull me in 
but until then i’m just feeling sick 
i got one more try and then that’s it 
i got too many keys that never fit 
can you tell me if I should quit 
i’m not down and out but i’m sinking quick 
and i need you 
but i don’t really need you 
it’s probably see through 
i say i’m there but is it… true 

hook:
It’s coming up again 
and I’m starting to believe 
that I’m nothing without you 
A vacant body to achieve 
Ive got a clear view of you in my mind
A little wish to say that I’m still trying 

verse: 
break me down, keep on moving 
tapping out, keep on bruising 
I don't really know why I try 
its something deep inside me 
pulling me right back to where I wanna leave 
before it takes my energy

clear view [prod. elvien]

featuring @decksmusic

produced by 5head and Yeezo

Lyrics:

sunset, not yet, falling again 
cuz i’ve been upset, force fed things that you said 
is my head, spiraling n dying as i’ve been 
trying is violent 
silent as nothin 
face me, baby 
try me and maybe
you can be safety 
cuz it’s on the daily i’m 
dying 
always trying 
to be fighting 
but the truth is 
i’m just tiring 
(pre-chorus) 
and i’ll just waste the night away 
searching for your remedy 
cuz all my luck just seems to fade 
when you’re not here next to me 

(hook)
can i keep you safe in my head?
far away from what wants me dead 
when you’re not here can’t seem to forget 
that i need you closer 
you’re my four leaf clover

waste time
face my
fears all again
its like i back track
snap back
years in my head
so could you tell me something
that i could pretend to care about?

watch the street light
chase my
tail in the night
i’ve got a death wish
headless
nothing is right
i can’t seem to get back up
when my face is in the ground

so hold me
when theres nothing
consoling
i’ve been searching for solace
nonsense is blurring the lines
i can’t do this
through it all in my mind, so

clover (feat decks) [prod. 5head & Yeezo]

new song featuring the GOAT @cherryrizla

more stuff coming soon...

Lyrics:

making wishes (feat. cherryrizla)[prod. King Theta]

love is war (feat. sideview drive)[prod. 5head x King Theta]

NEW SINGLE w/ the fantastic @absolventmusic

enjoy yet another December 31st song  :)

Lyrics:
feel the cracks beneath your feet 
is the fear that’s in your mind
the one that helps you get to sleep 
i need to be 
on the other side of whatever is underneath 

cuz i think there’s something hidden underneath 
a rip that’s hidden in the seam 

i don’t know if it’s all or nothing 
(can we) skip the line bring me to the ending 
so i can see just what it takes 
if i’ll be waiting until this breaks 

looking through the glass, I see reflections of my past 
all the good times gone, it’s been too long, time runs away too fast 

i’ve been waiting patiently for life to let me live again 
that year long void, a path destroyed, asking will it ever end 

when life gets grim, and the pain seeps in, I like to play pretend, cause in my mind it’ll all be fine, the question is just when 

cause I know, just what’s at stake, so i’ll wait until this breaks

until this breaks (feat. absolvent)[prod. LIVING PUFF]

new single off my new album 'for better or worse' coming March 24th!!

production by the amazing @kingtheta

Lyrics:
(verse)
taking my time 
stuck in decline 
i been told to smell the roses 
but i can’t find them 
and i’m still hopin 
for all of this to get better in time 
if i turn a leaf would it change my mind?
cuz i’m feelin hopeless staring at the progress 

(pre-chorus)
i don’t want this but i still need this 

(hook)
like to think that it’s coming along but 
my feelings change and i’m so damn wrong (hey)
wanna say that i’ll fix my ways 
but if i do what will i be? 
this life is exhausting 
my problems they haunt me 
ill
give it another day 
drowning in all this weight
if you still wanna change 
make sure it’s steadily 

(verse)
shouldn’t this be easy?
but i’ve got a pocket full of reasons not to be free 
and it takes its toll 
trying to take my mind off of all the things 
that i can’t control 

(pre-chorus)
i’ve been faking my progress 
in hopes i can stop it 
i thought it’d be simple 
the truth is it’s not 
(yet i still)

(hook)
like to think that it’s coming along but 
my feelings change and i’m so damn wrong (hey)
wanna say that i’ll fix my ways 
but if i do what will i be? 
this life is exhausting 
my problems they haunt me 
ill
give it another day 
drowning in all this weight
if you still wanna change 
make sure it’s steadily 

make sure its steadily

steadily [prod. King Theta]

new acoustic single featuring the talented sophia milone!  

my new album 'for better or worse' releases THIS MONTH! March 24th!! Can't wait to share :)

Lyrics:
I've been searching through these blank pages 
story written in hidden language
follow the signs, to a different life 
I've been looking for
open up the door
I've been waiting for this to break 
all this hurting to turn into gain
darling tell me am I really falling 
cuz looking at you is like looking at scarlet 

(hook)
savior of my youth 
come here show me why I've been missing you 
searching for truth 
but then you opened up the door 
and I'm just staring through the framing into you

(soph)
deep impressions 
where I've been laying for what feels like months 
got up cold and tired 
routine habits push and shove 
tie up my grievance with a grimace 
and a cup of tea 
it seems romantic in your eyes 
but I wasn't being me 
I was looking but not for you 
a fountain hidden away just out of view 
a voice calls my name
did I hear that right 
follow it anyway
and walk right through the open door

(bridge)
for where this heading 
I thought there was nothing 
I looked at the timing 
that I put my trust in 
am I even ready 
is this even right 
but it all doesn't matter with how I feel tonight 
can we go on? 
if we don't where to start 
take me as I am 
if you can 
and ill keep you as the

open the door (feat. soph)[prod. King Theta]

Final Single!! New album 'for better or worse' releases NEXT WEEK 3/24!!

produced by @gaxillic_beats & @livingpuffy

Lyrics:

(verse)
here it is 
the final look at all your master plans 
is this what you were picturing 
are you wondering 
what took so long 
or why it all feels so wrong 

(hook)
cmon cmon won’t you pull me out 
i’m screaming out but i don’t know
 how to ask for help 
the situation 
dire need of something different 
waiting on a reason to find 
cuz i don’t have a reason to try again 

(verse)
(so) is this what you wanted 
a picture perfect little way to cope 
is haunting your brain now 
and you can’t find a way out 
(or) is this how you solve this 
cuz i’ve been waiting on a reason while you’re waiting the pain out 
this may never end now 

(hook)
cmon cmon won’t you pull me out 
i’m screaming out but i don’t know 
how to ask for help 
the situation 
dire need of something different 
hello hello can you hear me now 
cuz i think i’m spinning out 
cant tell what it’s about 
I just hope I feel you now 
waiting on a reason to find 
cuz i don’t have a reason to try 

(bridge)
can i wait this out 
can i wait this out 
there’s no time to waste 
cuz i don’t think i’ll make it til 
you pull me out 

(ending)
cmon cmon wont you pull me out 
i’m screaming out but i don’t know how to 
ask for help in this situation 
i’m screaming out but i see no difference 
waiting on a reason to find 
that i’m the only one who can try again

pull me out [prod. LIVING PUFF & GAXILLIC]

Final Track on my album 'for better or worse' 

produced by @livingpuffy and elvien

Lyrics:
i’ve meant to say this for a good while 
but i think i’m glad i tried 
said i would focus on the progress 
but i’m afraid i lied 
am i running to the future 
to escape what i left in the past 
yet still i’m anxious 
cuz i’m afraid new good wont last 

looks like i’m doing it again 
flip the same old story 
rewrite and change the narritive 
claim it all felt boring 
so if things get worse 
can i work it out 
or am i just fucked 
for if this comes crashing down 

i remember when it was me 
taking shots in the dark 
just to feel something 
now it’s the other side 
should i apologize 
and lay it rest go and hope for the best 
but i’m terrified everytime i take that call 

down away the rabbit hole 
i faked the things that I never knew 
while this keeps burning 
heads not turning 
no concern yet im still wondering 

do i know anything 
do i know anything 

looks like i’m doing it again 
flip the same old story 
rewrite and change the narritive 
claim it all felt boring 
(do i know anything)
so if things get worse 
can i work it out 
or am i just fucked 
for if this comes crashing down 
(i guess that we’ll find out)

if things get worse [prod. LIVING PUFF & elvien]

Track 9 on my album 'for better or worse'!

produced by @livingpuffy 

Lyrics:
grey skies through bloodshot eyes 
i still can’t feel a thing but at least i’m trying 
take me there to a place i’m not terrified 
can you see in my face all the black and blue i hide 
it takes a toll when you walk in circles 
working miracles just to find a new low 

when you found me 
i had nowhere to hide 
broken felt dead inside 
transparence amplified
took the long way 
to find a reason why
needing to rectify 
strung out from taking my time 
ill call it bad but youll call it luck 
meet in the middle shake off this rut 
that i’ll kick when i find my place 
when you found me 
you caught me in my fall 
had nothing left to give 
so i gave you my all 

start to think that maybe i’m colorblind 
pull the shades feel the light as i try to remind myself through the fear and doubt
what it’s like to be strong when the lights go out
but maybe i’m wrong and maybe you’re right 
that we’re not all gone to win a desperate fight
and i know that 
it’s beginning
if you’re with me
then i’m winning

when you found me [prod. LIVING PUFF]

Track 1 on my album 'for better or worse'

Guitars by BENNYKAAY 
Drums by me

Lyrics:
i’m waiting for something i don’t know exists 
imperfect reflection of a hope for happiness 
can something remind me why i started this 
from the start to end 
feel like i’m lost again 

i’m waiting for something i don’t know is true 
a perfect example of what I’d want this to do 
but i worry what the story has for me and you

give me a second just enough so i can empty my head 
a second chance that I could use to heal
clinging to moments where I thought that it would all stay the same 
my coping method cuz i still feel 

lost (x2)
so if you read between the lines 
you can see why this is dying 
but until then 
i’m spent 
wasting away, never enough

beginning of the end 
or the end of the end of the beginning 
i try to keep my head up 
but there’s always something missing 
darling 
what’s missing darling 
what’s missing?

at the beginning or the end 
i think i’m lost

lost pt. II [prod. BENNYKAAY & evan carr]

new single produced by @irby314 & @pekarot_161

lyrics:

Be careful what you wish for
Oh you'll always just want more
It's hard to fill the satisfaction
Moving target, always lacking
It's like you took everything that I ever wanted
Hidden on the surface
Planted urges
Now you're saying I should
Walk away
Walk away

When I came back I told you
None of this can stay
So you took something you knew I wanted
Wrapped it up in shame
Old standards mold the frustration
Presenting this duel fate
I'm still standing to find the answers
Are they written on your
Are they written on your face

Oh can I
Just forget about last night
Try to focus on what's mine and what's right
What's mine and what's right

Watching you walk away
Forced against one place
Still begging to escape
Oh does it even matter
Oh does it even matter

Be careful what you wish for
Oh you'll always just want more
Like it's not what you asked for
So don't say
Walk Away

moving target [prod. irby & pekarot]

steadily (acoustic)[prod. King Theta]

i'll see you in everything [prod. pekarot]

first day of the rest [prod. pekarot]

"voluntary fits of the truth, hope you read these lines in a clear view"

a part two to an old classic

lyrics:
i wish i could say to get me off this ride 
it’s the same old story
so the same old conflict is eating me alive 
i’m lying saying that i will get to choose 
a roller coaster in the winter just waiting to be used 
but who am i without you 
a wide eyed idiot chasing after something new 
like it’s something to prove 
like it’s something to prove

it’s coming up again 
and it’s forcing me to leave
all these recycled notions 
that stay in my head 
stereotypically kick me
til i’m showing red 
i don’t want it 
but i caused this 
stupid conflict 
we just don’t seem clear anymore 
we just don’t seem clear anymore 

the first one hit right with the moon 
then the guard fell down and it crept through
it’s a new message i’m feeling blue 
but i’m wondering if it paints you too
and i swore it’s what i wanted 
as soon as it was started 
but now it’s being flaunted 
and i keep feeling haunted 
by every mistake etched 
still don’t know what is best 

but who am i without this 
a blind eyed idiot, searching for the magic 
til i’m feelin sick 
so tell me if i should quit 

it’s coming up again 
and it’s forcing me to leave
all these recycled notions 
that stay in my head 
stereotypically kick me
til i’m showing red 
i don’t want it 
but i caused this 
stupid conflict 
we just don’t seem clear anymore 
we just don’t seem clear anymore 

so many times i felt it’s see through 
pull the mask off, show the real you 
voluntarily fits of the truth 
hope you read these lines in a clear view 
i don’t want this 
i don’t want this 

is there something in the silence
is there more to this decay 
can i really make the right choice 
when you’re asking me to stay

clear view pt. II [prod. elvien]

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
where did you go?
I've been searching for you lately
but you're never coming back 
it's this feeling that you left me 
that's getting harder to unpack
blurry thoughts in my mind 
like they're giving me a sign 
exaggerating all the times 
that I got to call you mine 

[pre-chorus]
ever since you left 
I been feeling low 
hurts my heart to think 
you're never coming home 

[hook]
I don't see you anymore 
since you walked right out the door 
I call to you almost every night 
but you don't pick up and I'm not alright (alright)
are you just a ghost I'm seeing in my dreams 
cuz I've been trying to wake up 
still don't know 
all these memories are in vertigo

[verse 2] 
does he treat you right?
love letters keeping you up at night?
feeling in your chest is it heavy?
you're feeling lovely 
fall away from me
is it magical?
cuz I've been struggling to know just where the magic goes 
is it logical to just let you go?
psychological pain, beautiful

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