i, i cant make it right
and I'm sorry i made you cry
and I'm sorry but it's goodbye
I could never look you in the eye

run and hide
I cant decide
I don't wanna try
I cant make it right
god, get out my mind
I keep running blind
we're so intertwined
god, just leave me ur unkind

I cant run and hide
I cant decide
I don't wanna try
I cant make it right
god, get out my mind
I keep running blind
we're so intertwined
god, just leave me ur unkind

intertwined (luvnote)

Cover of "plsloveme" by @lilkiteshawty
Prod. @lilac + @maknae

!!---Thank you for making this song kite if u ever do see this cover plsloveme has been one of my favorite songs for at least two years now and it made my sophomore year of high school (when I first found it) so much better---!!

learn to love yourself more than you do now
you were there
im so blind
i change my ways im fine
am i the one i tried
every single memory will just die
wanna change it all the time
i don’t wanna cry
i wanna lie you don’t understand
you don’t love me

i try so so hard i
wanna throw everything
you stuck in my mind mixed with all these migraines
vivienne around my neck
im so scared im stuck inside this mess
im so pretty i still dress like that
number nine jeans Prada store felt that
i would do anything for my friends
hope this feeling will never ever ever end
no fear always pretend
one day i feel like a reject
cameras flashing at me
i hope this change will never interact me
these pills hope they never at me
learn to love yourself

YOU SHOULD GO LISTEN TO THE OG SONG TOO
https://soundcloud.com/lilkiteshawty/plsloveme444-prod-lilac-maknae?si=738f44c0630d4007bd079f1da9510438&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

plsloveme (cover) [lilac + maknae]

@recyclexbin @star607
@torixislost
(xternalz)
can u save me
can u set me free
take it back do the same thing
i cant stop making the same mistake
its changing me
I don't know a thing
and I got nothing to bring
its all a cycle 

cycle cycle yeah its all a cycle x4
(take me back) x4

please don't leave me now
I need u here right now
cant u hear me calling out
can u come near me now
please just come and heal me now
this feeling I'm in hell
I cant get up I fell
please don't leave me here

please don't leave me x3
I cant get up x4
I cant see

can u save me
can u set me free
take it back do the same thing
i cant stop making the same mistake
its changing me
I don't know a thing
and I got nothing to bring
its all a cycle

(torix)
stuck in a cycle
been here for a while 
think im boutta spiral
stuck in denial
now im just wishin for a life
where i dont have to try
feeling like i always gotta cry
use me up then leave me out to die

cycle w/ inari (star607 + recyclebin)

With @akayaiog
Prod. @lewisgoing and @recyclexbin

(xternalz)
everybody's staring now
i cant get away
let me tear it down
let me have my say
i cant deal with this
i cant stay
everyone acts the same
yeah put the blame on me
no matter what i do its shame on me
yeah i cant make it right
yeah its aim on me
gotta run out of sight
nothing's left for me

for me, nothing's left for me
for me, nothing's left for me

(akayai)
everyone puts the blame on me
shes just ashamed of me
niggas just be lame i see
you take this as a game i see
my own gang disclaims me
i'd pull the trigger without ease
you'll remember my name you'll see
next your nose will bleed
i'd make you drown in your blood
i'm with xternalz you don't want none
i think i'ma take some time to myself :(
make sure to close the door behind me <3 

(xternalz)
yeah put the blame on me
no matter what i do its shame on me
yeah i cant make it right
yeah its aim on me
gotta run out of sight
nothing's left for me

everybody's staring now
i cant get away
let me tear it down
let me have my say
i cant deal with this
i cant stay
everyone acts the same
yeah put the blame on me
no matter what i do its shame on me
yeah i cant make it right
yeah its aim on me
gotta run out of sight
nothing's left for me

blame w/ akayai (recyclebin + lewisgoing)

thx for listening :D
prod. @shatter3d and @jichuuu 

//

Memories tucked in a locket
I just wish I could stop these
All these false promises
Can you give me a second
I cant deal with this stress and
I just really need a rest man
I’m feeling less
It’s effecting me

Got this pressure in my head
I’m walking around like I’m half dead
I’m leading myself closer to my death
And I’m pleading with myself but I can’t get through my head
It’s no one’s fault but mine
This chill runs down my spine
I’m walking such a fine line
I just want to leave it all behind
Leave it all behind :/

false promises

false promises (shatter3d + jichu)

different than my usual stuff but yeah I had a lot of fun making this :D
@offsen1 @singleway
thx for listening <3
//
you can lie to my face
asking why I need space
don't deny what you state
in your eyes I see hate
cant you see I'm so done
leave me be
want to run
let me speak
just for once
let me go

(I don't care what happens anymore)
I'm so sick
what is all this for
I don't know
but I got to let it go
I cant do this anymore
can you show me
what was the point of it all
I try so hard just to fall
problems stack up to a wall
good times I just cant recall
problems stacking way too tall
slowing down to a crawl
I just want to leave it all

you can lie to my face
asking why I need space
don't deny what you state
in your eyes I see hate
cant you see I'm so done
leave me be
want to run
let me speak
just for once
let me go
x2

don't come running back to me
I'll just cut you off again that's a guarantee
all the time I lost ago was all a fantasy
look my way again and tell me what you see
I think I found myself
I found my health
its the first time I felt since then
yeah and now i can see the end
now my mind can mend

you can lie to my face
asking why I need space
don't deny what you state
in your eyes I see hate
cant you see I'm so done
leave me be
want to run
let me speak
just for once
let me go
x2

lie to my face

lie to my face (offsen1 + singleway!)

@prodkirian @makemeapromise i love this beat so much <3
- this a new era for me I cant wait to show what I got in store :D
// TYSM FOR LISTENING \\

when we talk i just want to leave
what you say I can't believe
and I cant live on like this
its not how all this should be
I'm done now you wont sway me
I'm finished I'm not waiting
all you do is just degrade me
now there's nothing remaining

if you want to try me you'll see
I guess ill show the real me
Im gonna let it all free
i guess we couldn't agree
ill leave this all behind
i see it chasing after me
i just hope it doesnt find
i hope it doesn't find me

I hope it doesn't find me
I'm so done with all this fighting
ill leave it behind me
I think I'm done trying

thinking too hard and I might just lose it
feelings so scarred and I cant improve it
I cant put down my guard cause I know you'll abuse it
lost all regard for you, ill lose it

I've been walking so blind
and I don't know why
I cant look in your eyes
and I think we might die
you can cut me in two
now I'm looking see-through
I wish I never knew
what I'd be put through

sitting here I cant no
longer here I don't owe
nothing now let me go
was it worth it now I don't know
too much in my head it'll overflow
you want me dead I already know
can we look ahead it was long ago

it was long ago

if you want to try me you'll see
I guess ill show the real me
Im gonna let it all free
i guess we couldn't agree
ill leave this all behind
i see it chasing after me
i just hope it doesnt find
i hope it doesn't find me

I hope it doesn't find me
I'm so done with all this fighting
ill leave it behind me
I think I'm done trying

i'm done trying

i'm done trying (kirian + surgeon)

tysm for listening :D
@makemeapromise @pw4prez

\\ lyrics //
I just woke up I don’t want to do this not again
I think I’ll choke up don’t know when this will end
Just leave me alone
Cause I know how this ends
I just want to go
I know that you’re not my friend

I don’t like it when you’re near me
You were never kind
This is all getting clear to me
Every time I’m near you make me weary
Yeah you never treated me sincerely

I don’t want to lose myself
My mind is numb and I can’t feel a thing
Don’t ask me to come
You know I’m not dumb
I won’t succumb
I won’t let you see me

I just want to throw it all away
Throw it all away
I won’t fall today
When you look my way
When you look my way

You never look at me kindly
I don’t want to see you beside me
And if you see me don’t mind me
I know that you never really liked me

pls don't come near me

pls don't come near me (surgeon + sochi)

prod @shatter3d @jichuuu
+ with @xokragz :D
TYSM FOR LISTENING

lyrics:
(me)
I cant pretend that it’s fine
I’ll lose it I cant live my life
It terrifies me feeling confined
I keep fighting cant escape my mind

I watch it all turn to dust
All I have is broken trust
None of this is feeling just
I fade away as I am crushed

(44everlast)
i gave a chance to you now
don't want to talk tryna find a way out
can't you see all the pain you been putting me through
all the promises made that i was never enough

fly away don't want to talk just
go away don't want to try
i fade away
theres something in the air right now
you played with me
now you pray for me

(me)
I cant pretend that it’s fine
I’ll lose it I cant live my life
It terrifies me feeling confined
I keep fighting cant escape my mind

I watch it all turn to dust
All I have is broken trust
None of this is feeling just
I fade away as I am crushed

I swear I swear I’m trying
I cant stop what is already dying
Turn me off I’m not surviving
Hear me cough you know I’m not lying

I watch it all turn to dust
All I have is broken trust
None of this is feeling just
I fade away as I am crushed

As I am crushed

i watched it turn to dust

i watched it turn to dust w/ kragz (shatter3d + jichu)

With ++seraphim homie @o2solus
Prod. @makemeapromise and @mnmnmnmnmnmnmnmn
TYSM FOR LISTENING :D

(me)
On my own again what is all this for
Now I’m locking myself behind another door
Get myself away throw me to the shore
I don’t got nothing else to say yeah not anymore

Now I’m wondering why
I left myself to die
And I won’t lie
I don’t know what to do with my life
What’s next is it strife
What now is it right
Don’t know how lost my sight

Please can you just save me
I’ve been lost and I’ll never be found
If I saw myself I couldn’t face me
Guess I’ll leave now won’t make a sound

I’m so silent fading from all eyes
Stay for a while then cut off all ties
I’m not taking your advice
I’ll say it’s all lies
I’ll put on my disguise and run from it all

(o2solus)
I just wanna run away
Please just tell me
What i gotta do
Please just help me
I did it all for you
Found a quick path then i swerved and
It dont help that im nervous
I prolly deserve this
I know nothings perfect
I been waiting for the sunlight then ill be on my way

(me)
Please can you just save me
I’ve been lost and I’ll never be found
If I saw myself I couldn’t face me
Guess I’ll leave now won’t make a sound

I’m so silent fading from all eyes
Stay for a while then cut off all ties
I’m not taking your advice
I’ll say it’s all lies
I’ll put on my disguise and run from it all

save me

save me w/ o2solus (surgeon + maiden)

TYSM FOR LISTENING
//
lyrics:
every time i look around
i think i hate it
same thing again im a replacement
i dont want to be, be the same thing
now im praying that you wont

throw me to the side
just like the others
i dont want to cry
if we were never lovers
if im right guess i wont see you again
you're just another one that i left back then

throw me to the side
just like the others
i dont want to cry
if we were never lovers
if im right guess i wont see you again
you're just another one that i left back then

was it worth the time
guess i wont know
cause you left my life
ive been feeling so cold, now
i dont want to be the same thing
cut me off, dont give me time now to think
guess im the same, throw me out
hear me calling your name
as i fall on down
"why dont you want me to stay"
you can hear me shout
"why cant you just look my way"
as my time ran out

"why dont you want me to stay"
"why dont you want me to stay"
"why cant you just look my way"
"just look my way"

every time i look around
i think i hate it
same thing again im a replacement
i dont want to be, be the same thing
now im praying that you wont

throw me to the side
just like the others
i dont want to cry
if we were never lovers
if im right guess i wont see you again
you're just another one that i left back then

throw me to the side
just like the others
i dont want to cry
if we were never lovers
if im right guess i wont see you again
you're just another one that i left back then

was it worth the time
guess i wont know
cause you left my life
ive been feeling so cold, now
i dont want to be the same thing
cut me off, dont give me time now to think
guess im the same, throw me out
hear me calling your name
as i fall on down
"why dont you want me to stay"
you can hear me shout
"why cant you just look my way"
as my time ran out

discarded again

discarded again (surgeon + kirian + dxvi)

i love u all
prod @prodarisu
TYSM FOR LISTENING
//
lyrics:
ive been feeling like im falling
i know that ur watching
dont know what to do right now
got me stalling
running out of time right now
its been knocking
i could lose my mind right now
yeah its dropping
you can hear me coughing now
hear it knocking now
finding pieces of myself when i look around
lost it all by now
in my eyes right now
you can see me lose it in my life right now

(you can see me lose it in my life right now)

everything falls apart straight through my hands
i cant go far watch my mind disband
just another thing that i cant withstand
cut me, cut me in two
dont know, what else to do
i dont know, what else to lose
i dont know, cant ever choose

guess i cant change it either way
all the pieces never could stay
falling into an ashtray
i cant see myself now
drowning in this haze
cant make it through this maze
i cant just change my ways

falling
i know that ur watching
dont know what to do right now
got me stalling
running out of time right now
its been knocking
i could lose my mind right now
yeah its dropping
you can hear me coughing now
hear it knocking now
finding pieces of myself when i look around
lost it all by now
in my eyes right now
you can see me lose it in my life by now

falling to pieces

falling to pieces (arisu)

thx for all the plays recently im rlly humbled by the support :>
prod @prod_dxvi
TYSM FOR LISTENING
//
lyrics:

every time i look in your eyes i just want to die
too much in my mind every time, think i'll lose it now
feel it building up, i cant talk, i cant do this now
gotta give it up, i cant walk, i cant leave and go
i just feel the same, feeling lost, dont know whats up next
i dont want to run but im done, cant put up with this
tell me where to go i dont know what im doing now
pick me up and choose, i cant fix myself, never could

i think ill lose myself
and i know i cant fix my health
all these pills that i take
they cant ever make me feel the same way
not as i did back then

i cant make this end
wish i could but i cant pretend
ill lose my mind when you look at me again
(look at me again, look at me again)

every time i look in your eyes i just want to die
too much in my mind every time, think i'll lose it now
feel it building up, i cant talk, i cant do this now
gotta give it up, i cant walk, i cant leave and go
i just feel the same, feeling lost, dont know whats up next
i dont want to run but im done, cant put up with this
tell me where to go i dont know what im doing now
pick me up and choose, i cant fix myself, never could

lost

lost (dxvi)

song abt a rlly bad time in my life
prod @hrtshpdbd and @resolve1k
TYSM FOR LISTENING i spent a long time on this one
//
lyrics:

i can feel, i can feel you falling into me
i see your eyes pierce straight through me
what do i do now?
i can feel this wound as we hit the ground
i dont want to lose you
its getting hard now
cant live this way
every day feels the same
we're running out of time
i dont think we can climb out of it, we cant

and i, i dont know
if we'll even make it out
i dont want to lose you in this doubt

i dont know
what to do with myself
feels like
we're tied in our health
when i fall apart i dont want to take you with me
crush my heart i dont want to make you hate me
tied by fate
i cant take this weight now
made you wait
should have known you wouldnt take that
you only saw it one way
you just wanted to throw me away

i can feel, i can feel you falling into me
i see your eyes pierce straight through me
what do i do now?
i can feel this wound as we hit the ground
i dont want to lose you
its getting hard now
cant live this way
every day feels the same
we're running out of time
i dont think we can climb out of it, we cant

i dont know whats going on anymore
we were doing okay when you closed the door
talk to me, just talk to me
when we're falling apart
i want you here with me

please stay with me
please just stay with me
i cant even breathe when you're not by my side
cant do this no matter how hard ive tried

stay

stay (heartshapedbed + inno)

prod @prodarisu tysm for listening <33

lyrics:

sit right next to me
i dont want to breathe
when ur not next to me
holding on to a memory
hold me tight i dont want to lose it all
i dont want to fall please dont let me down
i cant breathe now please dont let me drown
i cant see now i cant look around

i just need you, need you right now

i cant hear a thing
deaf to it all but you
i left it all for you
can you see what ive been through?

if i fall apart, pick me back up
take my heart and patch it up
back to the start before i messed up
pick up my parts before i give up

before i give up
before i give up
so steer me now
before i give up

lets slow down and talk
ive been overthinking too much
i just keep on thinking of your touch

thinking of your touch
thinking of your touch

take a second to blink
can you see me now?
i dont want anything
other than you now
i wouldnt have it another way
sit right next to me and stay
i guess this sounds a bit cliche
but i want you here right now to stay

heartache

heartache (arisu)

hi guys im in college now thx for the support on the recent songs :>
//
lyrics:

looking in your eyes all i see is the same thing
i dont want to try, i got nothing to bring
i see you looking now, i wish i could
i never understood whats behind your eyes
i look around, all i feel is doubt
dont know where to go, i dont even know
every day i feel the same
i know theres something wrong but i dont know what to blame

i ran away
ur in my head
i dont know when
i cut the thread
left you on read
was so confused
i felt so used
i just needed some time

you took all i said as a lie
you wouldnt ever just tell me why
you wouldnt talk so i did the same
everything before we did was in vain

i cant look behind
theres nothing left to find
its not helping me
everything i see
you were scaring me
it was wearing me
it was wearing me down

looking in your eyes all i see is the same thing
i dont want to try, i got nothing to bring
i see you looking now, i wish i could
i never understood whats behind your eyes
i look around, all i feel is doubt
dont know where to go, i dont even know
every day i feel the same
i know theres something wrong but i dont know what to blame

your eyes

your eyes (shatter3d)

with @counterxo prod @makemeapromise + @neohnq
TYSM FOR LISTENING
//
lyrics:

(me)
i dont want to talk to you
you threw me to the side
no matter what i did it was no use
now im breaking down because of all the abuse
im just glad that you're not around

i know you don't see it the same way
after all the trust was broken
"please dont leave" please dont repeat in my head
"let me be what you need" is all that i said
i wont make the same mistake again
and i wont let you know where ive been
i wont let you talk to me not like back then
what we used to be i cant comprehend

i dont want to think anymore
what i used to see in my head no end
now my body's laying on the floor
what we used to be i cant comprehend

(counter)
I made mistakes 
I know time heals but it’s too late
I did everything to make you stay
But you did everything to hurt my case 
Why can’t you say it to my face?
I don’t think my head’s in the right place
One step at a time with a slow pace
I can’t fall off the edge with your embrace
Awake all night can’t get no rest
It’s not enough when i try my best
I tried to be everything I’m a mess
I realized that right before you left
We could’ve been so much more I know 
We aren’t where we should be so let’s go
You let the pedals decay on the rose
Too overwhelmed so I just froze

(me)
i know you don't see it the same way
after all the trust was broken
"please dont leave" please dont repeat in my head
"let me be what you need" is all that i said
i wont make the same mistake again
and i wont let you know where ive been
i wont let you talk to me not like back then
what we used to be i cant comprehend

past mistakes

past mistakes w/ counter (surgeon + neohn)

something a little different
prod @hrtshpdbd and @liamtakeover

lyrics:

i cant let me heart bend
i cant let it feel again
i dont want to fall apart at the end
i just wanted someone to depend on

but theres no one I can trust
everything's just filled with lust
i feel like I cant adjust
nothing's ever seeming just

i just want to break the pattern
get treated like I matter
then get patched up just to shatter apart

can you take me
can you take me back to the start
ive been gone now way too far
can we find a way to restart

ive been sitting on the side watching now
i just want to stop sobbing now
i see them all mocking now
so i run nevermore

i can see my past catching up to me
ive been running too long when i couldnt see
im begging you im begging me
i just want to feel something

lately ive been hanging by a string
wonder if i got any more to bring
dont rely on me, dont rely on me
and now im running out of time

help me, help me
i cant see
can you, can you
just save me
will you, will you
set me free
please dont, dont
rely on me

dont rely on me (x3)

dont rely on me

dont rely on me (heartshapedbed + liamtakeover)

with @muieternal and prod @prod_dxvi and @pw4prez
TYSM FOR LISTENING :D
//
lyrics:

(me)
please just talk to me
i just want to know
i want you next to me
just take a sec to breathe
i just want you now
wish you'd feel the same
when i look around
all i see is your name

just one more
just one more time
please dont close the door
please dont leave my mind
yeah these feelings cant hang on
ive been sitting on the floor
cant stop thinking about you
no not anymore

(mui)
girl, why can't you see?
i don't wanna heal
break my heart in two
smashed to smithereens

cut my wrist i bleed
writing songs to feel
nothing's meant to be
always never real 💔

i could be by ur side
white stars, inside ur eyes
i dont wanna feel like this
you been up tellin' me all these liesss

and why oh whyy??
breaking my heart then u say we're cutting ties
white tears, i cry
hittin my phone
shawty wanna take my time

(me)
please just talk to me
i just want to know
i want you next to me
just take a sec to breathe
i just want you now
wish you'd feel the same
when i look around
all i see is your name

just one more
just one more time
please dont close the door
please dont leave my mind
yeah these feelings cant hang on
ive been sitting on the floor
cant stop thinking about you
no not anymore

just talk to me

just talk to me w/ mui (dxvi + sochi)

Prod @m2monroe and @jichuuu 
TYSM FOR LISTENING :D
//
Lyrics:

I cant ever look, back, not now
After all you took
yeah you ran right out
I don’t want to talk
You leave me in doubt 
Yeah you left me in shock
Couldn’t figure you out
Couldn’t figure you out

Nothing’s left in my head
I cant find a way to look ahead
I cant keep living on this way
Chasing the past when it runs way

Stop looking back there’s nothing left
No taking back the heart in my chest
Just want to move on and fix this mess
What we’ve been through we can’t forget

This just doesn’t seem right
And I cant just move on
Everything feels so wrong
Now you left and you’re gone
I’m stuck here chasing the past
I didn’t know it wouldn’t last

Don’t run, don’t run away from me
So done, so done I can’t even breathe
Never could feel the same
No chance at looking behind
Guess it’s a side twist of fate
We were intertwined

I cant look back now
After all you took
yeah you ran right out
I don’t want to talk
You leave me in doubt 
Yeah you left me in shock
Couldn’t figure you out
Couldn’t figure you out

Nothing’s left in my head
I cant find a way to look ahead
I cant keep living on this way
Chasing the past when it runs way

Stop looking back there’s nothing left
No taking back the heart in my chest
Just want to move on and fix this mess
What we’ve been through we can’t forget

Nothing’s left in my head
I cant find a way to look ahead
I cant keep living on this way
Chasing the past when it runs away

chasing the past

chasing the past (jichu + monroe)

love my homies from @seraphimcollective and @souls0ciety i would never be where I am now without everyone <3

first self-prod drop i hope u guys like it TYSM FOR LISTENING
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lyrics:

cant erase what’s left behind
but i try to run and hide
and I’m trying hard not to cry
i just want to make this right

it’s getting harder 
cant do this
broken martyr
break me to bits
just save me out of this hell
i don’t got anybody else

stay until i die
all i pray is a lie
now i wonder how
can i do this now 
can you just show me the way

i hope this time that you’ll stay
please don’t leave and run away
it’s so painful
fallen angel
i just pray I’ll make it through the night

fallen angel

fallen angel (me)

got the soul society gang :> @muieternal @mis4ortune also prod goats @makemeapromise @prod_dxvi TYSM FOR LISTENING

lyrics:

(me)
tell me what you said
leave me in the dust
now the love’s dead
just like our trust
just want to move on but i can’t
i just cant believe it’s the end

throw my head against a wall i cant take this
everything i did i just want to change it
i cant deal, deal with it all
i cant feel, now that you’re gone

trapped in the past
i cant move on
love wouldnt last
now it’s all gone
cant stop looking back
do you do the same?
gotta keep intact
make it through the pain :/

(mui)
i needa ask, did u care about our love?
it felt so fake
u got me tearing up my life
im contemplating, is this suicide?
im twisted and im hurtin
my heart breakin intertwined
yaaa ahhh

makin it worse
lemme just feel
something heavierrr

can i just kill?
all of my feels?
breakin the barrierrr

and i dont care about it 
my own life wearin so thinnn
im overworked and hurtinggg
there's nothing that left i can givee

(mis4ortune)
lyrics otw

(me)
tell me what you said
leave me in the dust
now the love’s dead
just like our trust
just want to move on but i can’t
i just cant believe it’s the end

throw my head against a wall i cant take this
everything i did i just want to change it
i cant deal, deal with it all
i cant feel, now that you’re gone

trapped in the past
i cant move on
love wouldnt last
now it’s all gone
cant stop looking back
do you do the same?
gotta keep intact
make it through the pain :/

cant move on

cant move on w/ mui + mis4ortune (dxvi + surgeon)

prod @m2monroe and @m2iden
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back home for winter break :) i wrote the lyrics for this months ago but finally I am able to do the vocals now that im home
as always thank you so much for listening 

lyrics:

i know i made mistakes
i know i deserve your hate
i let go and you had your way
now i cant stop thinking every day

im still staring, never changing
ive been waiting, barely sustaining
but still im too selfish to lose you
ur the other half of my two

every promise
broken to small bits
we were never honest
we were never honest

after everything that we've been through
i just dont know what to do
i dont know you anymore
all of this is just too, much
i know that ive had, enough

i dont know now
will we break down
i dont know how
will we make it out
what we built is gone
now we wilt withdrawn
shattered will we're done

now we wont last for long
we were too weak we cant string ourselves along

im still staring, never changing
ive been waiting, barely sustaining
but still im too selfish to lose you
ur the other half of my two

every promise
broken to small bits
we were never honest
we were never honest

(all of this is just too, much)
(i know that ive had, enough)

we were never honest

we were never honest (monroe + maiden)

something different with @counterxo :) prod @prodarisu 
tysm as always for listening it means a lot fr

(me)
fall, im so cold
you dont care at all
left me on my own
oh its so hard
its killing my heart

why dont you just please stop using me like a pawn
you know im not your prop
every time i try to drop everything and move on
something always comes up

i need something comforting
a break from this
the suffering
you take, i give
im left hurting
mistake, forgive
forget, relive again

the cycle repeats it wont end
one day we're foe and one we're friend
you pretend it feels so real
we move on but i dont heal

(counter)
got some things to say to get it out the way
feelings in the diary to keep them out my brain
stuck inside my room i might start to go insane
i lost everything i knew except your name
and i don’t wanna turn back around
don’t wanna save a heart when you’d rather let me drown
i used to feel secure, i’m not feeling that way now
i tried to lift us up, but you dug back down
i’ve thought that the answer was inside myself
i know it’s hard but girl i wish you well
wish i thought of this before i fell

(me)
i need something comforting
a break from this
the suffering
you take, i give
im left hurting
mistake, forgive
forget, relive again

the cycle repeats it wont end
one day we're foe and one we're friend
you pretend it feels so real
we move on but i dont heal

something comforting

something comforting w/ counter (arisu)

with my friend @akasukii and prod my bro @struck0 
thanks for listening :)
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lyrics:

(me)
im losing my mind
(and i cant make it back)
cause you left me behind
(i just cant catch up now)
now everything is going wrong
(and i cant fix it)
and i cant live like this for long
(yeah i just cant now)

tell me whats the point all this time its been wasted
its been wasted and i cant face it
sorry to disappoint didnt want to be hated
but i still was, yeah i still was

make me wake up
i must be dreaming
this doesnt make sense
cant find the meaning
you broke my defense
theres no redeeming
all these regrets
all these feelings

(aly)
all these feelings
i dont get it 
tired of dealing 
i'm done with it

i am tired of sleeping at night 
insomniac fighting alive
scared of the dark 
its tearing me apart 
i cant deal with it 
eyes heavy 
i'm tired
of dealing
can't sleep 
i'm going crazy
all these feelings
i dont get it 
i'm tired of dealing

(me)
im losing my mind
(and i cant make it back)
cause you left me behind
(i just cant catch up now)
now everything is going wrong
(and i cant fix it)
and i cant live like this for long
(yeah i just cant now)

tell me whats the point all this time its been wasted
its been wasted and i cant face it
sorry to disappoint didnt want to be hated
but i still was, yeah i still was

make me wake up
i must be dreaming
this doesnt make sense
cant find the meaning
you broke my defense
theres no redeeming
all these regrets
all these feelings

wasted

wasted + akasuki (struck)

prod @counterxo
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lyrics:

you, you wouldnt give me the time of day
lost it all when we went separate ways
i just wanted you to be mine
for us to be okay
now we both just ran away
and these words just cant convey
everything you meant to me
i just hope ill see you another day

memories from the past slowly reverberate
when you asked back then what would be our fate
i dont want to lose what we built up now
and i dont know how, how we got this way

two, lost misplaced
struggle to replace
what we felt when we embraced
was this all a waste?

i dont even know anymore
and my heart just feels so sore
now things wont be like before
its too late now to restore

i dont know
what to do
when we go
will we choose
to grow
or lose
what we know

i just cant forget
everything we've been through
i just feel regret then
even though i knew

you, you wouldnt give me the time of day
lost it all when we went separate ways
i just wanted you to be mine
for us to be okay
now we both just ran away
and these words just cant convey
everything you meant to me
i just hope ill see you another day

i just wanted you to be mine (counter)

hi
prod @makemeapromise and @kyoakyo
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lyrics:

its the same thing
i cant stop why wont this end
no matter how hard i try to pretend
im so sick i cant do this again
now my scars show where i have been
looks like i cant do this anymore
im shaking down further to my core
it feels like i cant ever look ahead
now everything starts to get to my head

its all in my head
i cant ever look ahead
and its starting to catch up with me
i just hope that ill make it

think ill fall
yeah im losing it
lose it all
i dont care what happens now
i watch as the sky blackens out
my vision blurs and i start to pass out

theres been too much weight on me
and i cant find the key
ill fall like debris
ive been feeling so trapped and i cant ever flee
can you just let me be
you cant ever save me

its the same thing
i cant stop why wont this end
no matter how hard i try to pretend
im so sick i cant do this again
now my scars show where i have been
looks like i cant do this anymore
im shaking down further to my core
it feels like i cant ever look ahead
now everything starts to get to my head

look at my scars
look at my scars
look at my scars

scars

scars (kyoa + surgeon)

tysm for still listening to my music university has made it really hard to make anything even though I want to make more
w/ @o2solus
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lyrics:

(me)
Reminiscing in my head
Of things you used to say
Yeah everything you said
I just dont know why you would tell me so many lies
It makes it so hard to look in your eyes
Instead i try to look ahead
Im trying not to cry
When you say you want me dead
I dont got anything left
Anything left

And i dont know why you went behind my back once again
I just feel like i dont know what else you want me to do
I just dont know what i even mean to you
I tried too hard to make it right, i cant no more
Its just too much for me and i cant move on
Ive been thinking too much, i cant get through it all

(o2solus)
What u say, it means nothing,
I don't want to let u go yet, but I know I have to now, cuz I don't know, what I mean to u,
I've lost control,
So I won't see the end, of it all
Of it all
so I won't see the end, of it all
Of it all
Of it all
I don't want to leave

(me)
Reminiscing in my head
Of things you used to say
Yeah everything you said
I just dont know why you would tell me so many lies
It makes it so hard to look in your eyes
Instead i try to look ahead
Im trying not to cry
When you say you want me dead
I dont got anything left
Anything left

And i dont know why you went behind my back once again
I just feel like i dont know what else you want me to do
I just dont know what i even mean to you
I tried too hard to make it right, i cant no more
Its just too much for me and i cant move on
Ive been thinking too much, i cant get through it all

overwhelmed

overwhelmed + o2solus (me)

feels so good to be back i missed this
prod me and @makemeapromise featuring @remiliaxd

me :

oh, i know im not like before
words can’t reach me anymore
and I’m tired of feeling like a corpse
like a corpse

i just need space
and i cant relate
is this all for them or me?
i cant tell anymore

i cant do it
lets just drop this
i cant stop this
everything is calling
calling me now
and I don’t know how
i can stop my path
from going south

@remiliaxd :

i can't hear you calling
why can't i stop myself from falling down
idk what's left tonight
beware my love, don't hold me tight

let it go
so alone
lost control
but i don't know where to go
oh, but i don't know where to go
gotta find another light, gotta find you love

me :

oh, i know im not like before
words can’t reach me anymore
and I’m tired of feeling like a corpse
like a corpse

i just need space
and i cant relate
is this all for them or me?
i cant tell anymore

i cant do it
lets just drop this
i cant stop this
everything is calling
calling me now
and I don’t know how
i can stop my path
from going south

spiraling + remilia (me + surgeon)

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